Summary: Okay, I am so sorry that I have waited so long to update but my crappy computer tried to go and die on my and I was without it for a long time while I waited on it to get fixed. I also had a bad case of writer's block but I think that it's gone now because today you are not going to get one chapter and you're not going to get two chapters, no because of the wait you are going to get a total of three chapters of this story so I hope you enjoy it.

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Disclaimer: Don't own it just love it

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Thanks to all that have reviewed so far and I appreciate every single one of them.

psychotic KAT: I can't tell if those are happy whimpers or sad ones but thanks anyway. Keep Reading.

tsuki yamano: Thanks

The Forgotten Alchemist: You're welcome on the dedication because you totally deserved it and you just might receive the honor again if you review as much and good as you do. On to your review Jordan and Elliot aren't really my favorite pair either but I like the idea of them together. On the idea of pulling the plug on Kenny I want him to die too but there is going to be someone who doesn't want him to go just yet. Once again thanks for the review.

wildefire: Thanks, I'm an evil person and as for J.D, it's only going to get worse.

Personal.Vendetta: Yeah Elliot and Jordan will have a love hate relationship like Cox and J.D but they won't be taking over the story. Turk will soon come out of his funk and be friends with J.D again, maybe even becoming friends with Perry; who knows oh yeah that's right I do. Carla was just being Carla and Elliot was being her clumsy self as well. And yeah J.D will become alot more cynical as the story progresses but you will have to read and see just how much.Thanks for reading.

Now on to the story

Chapter Six

Perry watched as J.D's eyes clouded with shock, confusion leaving it entirely and that he knew that J.D had figured it out. Quickly grabbing his arm, he moved them away from the lawyer and into an empty room. He knew both one of two things would happen and he had prepared for both.

"J.D"

"Close the door."

Perry realized that the door was still open and quickly closed it, not wanting the whole hospital to hear the outburst.

"Why didn't you tell me?" J.D screamed as Perry closed the door behind them. He could feel his body continuing to shake as the room suddenly began to spin. Why didn't you tell me about this?"

"I'm sorry" Perry replied as he tried to touch J.D's arm that quickly pushed it away from him. He didn't want J.D to find out this way but the cat was out of the bag and there was nothing he could do about it. "J.D"

"You lied to me. You made me believe that I could trust you and I can't."

"You can trust me-"

"Can I?" J.D practically yelled as he pushed Perry's hands away from him. "How can I trust somebody who wasn't man enough to tell me that I am now responsible for the death of the man who tried to kill me?"

"J.D would you please listen to me?" Perry pleaded as he tried to touch J.D again but got the same response again. It was literally breaking his heart to see J.D breakdown again and he couldn't help but blame himself for it.

"I don't want to listen to you. In fact I don't want anything to do with you right now. I don't want to look at you and I definitely don't want to move in with you so consider me out."

"You can't leave."

"Watch me." J.D hissed as he reached for the door handle but was quickly pulled back by Perry. It felt as though he was suffocating in the room with each passing second he was in there with the older man. He didn't know if it was because he was upset by the recent news or scared of the effects the news would have on him.

"I won't let you leave without talking to me."

"Don't you mean using me? I mean that's all you've been doing is using me for your own sick and twisted pleasure but you know what, I should be used to that by now."

"Don't you dare?" Perry yelled at the younger man, causing him to flinch in his arms. He hadn't meant to yell but he hated not being listened to and J.D was doing just that. "Don't you dare compare me to that monster? What he did to you was wrong and vile on so many levels that I want him to die. It hurts my soul to know that he did those horrible things to you and you know what; I would kill him myself if I had the chance."

"I love you and I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you, you know that. I know that you're mad at me for what I did to you and I'll admit that what I did was wrong. I should have told you because if I did then maybe we wouldn't be in this mess right here but we are. And you know what; I don't care because I was trying to protect you."

"From what?"

"From having to deal with situation on top of everything else you were going. Perry whispered as he pulled J.D closer. He could feel J.D's body's tense up at his pull but it quickly began to relax underneath him. "You were in the hospital, you're brother was in the midst of having surgery that would determine if he ever walked again. I was scared that you would have another panic attack and I didn't want that."

"You still should have told me, I had a right to know"

"I know, I really do and I'm sorry for not telling you. That was wrong of me and I'm sorry for that but there is nothing I can do to take it back; if I could I would but I can't. One thing I can do is wait for you to forgive me and if that takes forever then I guess I'll be waiting for a long time and if you have to move out then I will not stand in your way; but please, don't compare me to him again."

J.D looked at Perry and realized that he was trying to look out for him but it still didn't make the fear any less. He knew that he wasn't angry with Perry for not telling him but he was more afraid of the person he would become if he did take the man off his life-support. How was he supposed to take the man who had broken off the only support that was keeping him alive without having guilt?

"Why didn't you just tell me?" J.D whispered again, this time in a calmer voice.

"I just wanted to protect you-" Perry whispered back as he finally pulled J.D into a loving hug. He felt his own body relax as J.D allowed himself to be cradled into the hug. He didn't know he would have done if J.D left the room without giving him a chance to explain himself but he was glad that he hadn't. "I just wanted to protect you better than I had before."

"What do you mean better than before." J.D asked as he pulled away from him. He had heard pain in Perry's voice and wondered where it came from.

"J.D let's not talk-"

"Please don't tell me you blame yourself for what happened to me"

J.D watched as Perry looked at him and turned his glare towards the floor. The silence was the only thing he needed to determine his answer and a part of him wished he had never asked the question.

"You do, don't you. Perry no-"

"What do you want me to say J.D, I don't because I do" Perry finally spoke as he sat down on the empty bed. He didn't want J.D to know the truth but he couldn't help how he felt. It made him feel pathetic and worthless knowing that he was the reason J.D had been taken that night and he didn't do anything to stop it from happening.

"Why, I mean none of what happened was your fault."

"That's bull and you know it," he hissed as he sat up from the bed and walked back over to J.D again. "I was the stupid one who got held at knife point by someone who was half my size. I was the one who let you go off with him when I could have very well done something to stop him. I was the one who-"

"Stop it" J.D finally snapped as he grabbed Perry's arm, which quickly caused Perry to stop talking. It was crushing his spirit to know that he wasn't the one dealing with the effects of his kidnapping. That he wasn't the only one who was harboring secret pain inside.

"J.D I-"

"You don't get to blame yourself; you don't get to blame yourself because I don't blame you"

"Well maybe you should."

"Never" J.D replied back as he cupped Perry's face with his free hand, causing Perry to look at him. "You did the best you could"

"And it wasn't good enough." Perry hissed back. "I could have done something, anything to save you-"

"And you could have died in the process, in fact you almost did." J.D screamed at Perry, anger flowing through his body. "You almost died and you know where I would be; I would probably be dead because you wouldn't have been around to help find me. Moreover, if I didn't die I would probably want to because the man that I love would have been dead, never to return ever again. Is that what you wanted?"

"You know that I didn't want that, I just wanted to protect you."

"You did protect me, don't you get that."

"How did I protect you when I was the reason you were taken." Perry whispered as J.D suddenly wrapped his arms around him, hugging him tightly. It took him a while but he soon too wrapped his arms around J.D and realized that J.D had started crying.

"You were there for me when I wanted to give up." J.D cried softly, head never leaving Perry's shoulder. "There were times I wanted to give up, when I wanted to die but I held on because I knew that you needed me; so no matter what he did to me or said to me I didn't give in because I couldn't, not when you needed me."

"J.D-"

"I am here because of you and I will get through this with you by my side but not like this," J.D softly said as he moved his hands from Perry's back to place them around his neck. "Don't blame yourself anymore, you don't have too"

"Then why do I feel like I do?"

"Because you love me, that's why but we'll get through this."

"How?"

"Love" J.D whispered back into his ear as he placed his head on Perry's shoulder. "We're going to be okay because our love will pull us through this; I know it"

Perry opened his mouth to say something but couldn't because his mouth was quickly covered by J.D's. All thoughts flew out the window as J.D's soft lips were placed upon his own. He knew that he shouldn't be blaming himself for what happened but he did know that no matter what J.D said there would always be a small amount of guilt on his shoulders whenever he thought about what happened.

"Stopping blaming yourself."

"I don't know if I can."

"Then try; at least for me"

"I would do anything for you, you know that." Perry whispered into J.D's ear as the young man placed his head on his shoulder again.

"You better" J.D smiled back as he looked into Perry's eyes. He moved his head to kiss Perry again but was surprised when the door was suddenly pushed open. He turned his head to tell whomever it was to get out but before he could the voice spoke.

"Aw how sweet to see two supposed to be doctors cuddling in an empty room when they should be doing other important things like I don't know, checking on one's brother."

J.D turned around and saw the figure of an older petite woman with a shoulder length auburn hair. Her face was contorted into a crooked smile and she had her arms folded across her chest. He felt as though his jaw had dropped to the floor and rolled out of the door like one of those old cartoon shows as the woman turned on the light; giving both men a better view.

"Oh my God-"

"What, I don't get a hello? I did teach you manners didn't I or have you just simply forgotten them."

"Clara who is this?"

"Oh you don't know." the woman smiled as she looked over to Perry. "You're with him and you have no clue as to who I am at all." She turned her attention back to J.D who now harbored the same confused face as Perry, which only caused her to smile wider. "Why Johnathan you look almost surprised to see me?"

"Mom" J.D said finally as the she made her way over to him and kissed his cheek. He could feel his heart to his stomach as his mom pulled away from him and he knew that his road to recovery would only get worse before it got better.

Don't worry, the other two chapter will be up momentarily. Oh look, there they are.

"Ricka"