AUTHOR'S NOTE!

Hey Everyone, I know it's been ages. I have just been so so busy this past month having being offered a position on photographing a band at certain venues in my area, needless to say... they played at a lot of venues in the area lol. I seriously haven't had time to even check my Facebook! Haha. But now that all that has blown over, not saying that I wish it finally did because I was having a blast, but it's nice to finally get back on the computer and get back to pleasing my small little fan base. To any of you out there who read "The Cautioner" or "In The Realm Of The Basses" , There will be more chapters in the very near future, I promise! I know a lot of you have sent me messages demanding that I hurry my butt up and to stop leaving you all hanging! Take my word for it, there will soon be more chapters. The only thing else I have left to say is that this Chapter focuses on Maggie, Brooke, and Julian. It ended abruptly and I apologize, I just kind of lost touch of the chapter. So, with that being said, it will be a "To Be Continued..." type of thing.

Anyways, I'm all done rambling now. I hope you guys enjoy! REVIEWS ARE 3!

Thanks,

-ME.

Chapter 6

"Whisper Until I Fall Apart"

Maggie

August 7th, 2020

Present Day

I want to rip my guts out. I feel like my stomach is going to come out of my mouth. The harder I cough, the more I feel like I'm going to lose my balance and fall. It's in the middle of the night and I'm slowly making my way to the bathroom. Mom is sleeping in her room with Bailey. She's usually in here so she can keep watch of things like this. I want to handle this all by myself. But I don't think I can. My head feels like the heaviest part on my body. I feel like if I move at all, the other bones in my body will shatter. I feel like a fragile piece of shit. Seriously, it's the truth. These are times where It's too hard to stay positive. I lean over and the echo of my coughing is so loud in the toilet that I wouldn't be surprised if everyone woke up. The water in the toilet looks like the Red Sea. I'm vomiting blood... once again. I looked at my pale arms hanging limp over the seat of the toilet. They were nothing more than just a layer of skin covering bone. It disgusted me. I always wondered what I would look like If I didn't have cancer. My eyes started becoming heavy, this is where I yell for Mom, because I could close my eyes and never wake up and let's face it, I'd rather do that in the hospital than in my bathroom and have my Mother find me. I would feel horrible.

"Mom.." I weakly shouted.

"Mom!" I tried yelling a bit louder. Then I hear someone walk into the bathroom, but it wasn't my Mom. It was Riley.

"Maggie..." Riley said, frightened of the blood bath in the bathroom.

"Ry, get Mommy. Please..." I said, pathetically.

"K!" Riley said, running out of my room into our Mom's room.

"Mommy! Wake up, Maggie doesn't look so good." Riley shouted as he shook our Mother.

Her eyes were wide at the sound of my name. She immediately got out of the bed.

"Stay here with your sister, honey." My Mom said, referring to Bailey.

She came running into my room, not seeing me, she automatically went to the bathroom. I knew that I needed her here. Just her presence made me feel warm and so much better.

"Oh, baby. Come here, lets get you cleaned up." My Mom said in such a sympathetically sad voice. She was referring to the blood on my face. My nose had started bleeding too. This would be the side affects of chemotherapy and radiation. It's really nothing to get your panties in a bunch about. To tell you the truth, I felt like a weak, pathetic, girl.

My Mother knelt down beside me, grabbed a wet towel and wiped my face off.

"I hate this." I said under my breath.

"I know you do, honey. I know you do, and Mom's so sorry for that." She said, sounding like she was about to cry.

"Mom, It's not your fault, don't be sorry. Please don't cry." I said, weakly looking up to her.

"Do you feel like you're going to be sick again?" My mom asked.

"No." I simply answered.

"Okay. Let's get you to your bed then, you need to rest." She said, helping me up off the ground.

With that, she took me to my bed. She layed with me, and no more than five minutes later, Riley and Baliey came in with pillows and blankets and slept on the floor. I hope tomorrow I feel better.

Brooke

August 14th, 2020

(1 week later)

"Mom, you look fine. Just relax." Maggie said, trying to calm me down.

"I'm just nervous. What if I do something stupid? What if he hates me?" I couldn't help but think like that. I haven't been on a date, let alone spent a nice night out with another man since before I met Lucas.

"Mom, I'm pretty sure if that does happen, he has no room to talk. He asked you out for dinner before you even introduced yourself. It's not gonna happen anyways. I don't think that this guy is going to hate you even if you do something stupid. You're pretty awesome, and you look beautiful, so just enjoy yourself. Have fun. We will be fine with Aunt Haley." She's so right, why am I freaking out?

"Ugh. You're right. I don't know why I'm freaking out. I guess I'm mostly just worried about you." It was so hard leaving her in someone else's care.

"Well, stop. You don't have to worry about me. I've made it this far, I think I'll be okay for a night with out you. I'll be in good hands. We all will be." Ah, Haley was always quite the savior. Wait... Haley... where is she? Oh god, she's late.

"Speaking of... Where is she? She was suppose to be here like 10 minutes ago." I said grabbing for my cell phone. Maggie hopped off of my bed and grabbed the phone out of my hands.

"Mom! I will call Aunt Haley. Finish getting ready, please and we'll see you downstairs." She sounded like me bossing the kids around. It was kind of funny.

"Okay, okay." I watched Maggie walk out of the room and head downstairs.

I'm sitting there looking at myself in the mirror, making sure everything looks okay, make-up looks fine, hair looks good, dress is perfect. We're good. Then my youngest, Bailey came running up the stairs.

"Mommy! Aunt Haley is here with Jamie. JULIAN IS HERE TOO!" Bailey shouted. She said Julian's name as if he were Santa Clause or something. Now my nerves were coming back.

"Oh, goodness. Let's head down." I said, picking Bailey up and walking down the stairs.

"Mama, you look very pretty. And you smell nice." Bailey sweetly said.

"Well, that's very sweet of you, Bear. You're pretty pretty yourself." I said giving her an Eskimo kiss and a big kiss like we always do. She giggled and I put her down and she ran to Haley. Julian was standing by the door, just observing everything around him. I decided I should probably introduce the kids to him.

"Julian, I assume you remember little miss demolition from the grocery store?" I said, putting hand on top of Bailey's head, giving it a rub.

"How could I forget? It's Bailey, right?" Julian said ever so swiftly.

"Uh huh, that's it. But you can call me Bear. Everyone else does. It's cause I'm snugly like a bear." Bailey said smiling, showing her nonexistent two front teeth. I adored her smile. Everyone was laughing at Bailey's introduction.

"And this is my Mr. Handsome, my son, Riley. He's the man of the house." I said, pointing to Riley's direction. He stood, broad shouldered, trying to look like the tough guy in the room.

"Well, I guess I've got some competition, then huh?" Julian said, reaching out to shake Riley's hand, like men do, but he didn't shake back. Well, he didn't until he noticed my evil squinted eyes laser-ed on him. He rolled his eyes and then shook Julian's hand. I laughed in embarrassment.

"Yeah, we're still working on his gentlemen like manners." I said, eying him once more. Julian just made a face of understanding.

"And last but not least, this is Maggie, my oldest." I said, walking over to Maggie. I put my arm around her. Her face lit up and she reached her hand out to shake Julian's.

"It's very nice to meet you, Maggie." Julian said. He seemed so humbling.

"It's very nice to meet you, Julian." Maggie said, the two were both smiling.

"And Julian this is my best friend Haley and her son, Jamie." I said. Then I noticed the time and realized that we should probably get going. Julian greeted Haley and Jamie as they did as well in return.

"Alright guys, it's about time we head out. Haley, thank you so much for watching the kids, I won't be too late." I said.

"You can be as late as you want." Maggie said. I walked over to her, to give her a hug goodbye.

"You sure you're okay with out me?" I said, unsure of Maggie's condition today. It all seemed to be going well, but the night time is when it seems to get worse.

"I will be okay. Aunt Haley is a pro too you know?" Maggie said, laughing. Haley as well. I just smiled, gave her a kiss on the cheek and walked over to my son, Riley.

"Hold down the fort for me, Riley." I said, giving icky Mom cheek kisses.

"Ugh, Mom... lipstick." Riley said, rubbing his face.

"Sorry buddy." I gave him a little pat on the head and smiled.

"Alright, everyone say bye to Mommy and Julian." Haley said, trying to get me out of the house.

"Bye Mama, bye Julian." Bailey said.

"Julian, I expect you to bring my Mother home at a reasonable hour." Riley said. He was such a young man sometimes. It was adorable.

"You got it, kid." Julian said.

"Would you two get out of here!" Maggie shouted. She had a smile on her face.

"Alright, alright, we're out of here. Bye guys, love you." I said, blowing kisses there way, they said their 'I love yous' back and then I shut the door.

"Sorry, I probably should have just met you at your place, I hope that wasn't too much for the first date." I said, kind of embarrassed, but chuckling to hide it.

"No, it's no problem. Don't be sorry. It was cute seeing how you are with your kids." Julian said, showing his magnificent grin.

"Well, thank you. I'm not gonna lie, this is the first time I've been on a date in a really long time." I spoke honestly.

"Well... me too." Julian said, sounding nervous.

"Really? You look like you date a lot." Idiot. You're an idiot. Why did I just say that? That doesn't even make sense. Idiot! I was already making the face of defeat. The face that everyone makes when they realize what they've just said doesn't make any sense.

"I look like I date a lot?" Julian asked confused, laughing.

"I'm sorry. That was stupid. I say stupid things. I'm just a little... nervous." I said, trying to explain myself.

"It's okay, I'm a little nervous too. But, don't worry, I have an awesome place picked out for us to eat dinner, talk about each other, and maybe even some desert." Julian confidently spoke.

"Well... I can't wait to see where you're taking me." I said in my flirtatious voice. Haven't used that tone of voice in awhile. Feels nice.

Writers P.O.V.

Meanwhile back at the house, Haley is playing scrabble with Bailey, Riley and Jamie as Maggie sits on the couch and watches.

"Bailey, I'm pretty sure 'P-Q-L-D' isn't a word, sweetheart." Haley said with a sympathetic frown. Riley and Jamie both laughed.

"Aw man! Don't laugh at me, you mean boys!" Bailey exclaimed.

"That's okay, Bear, you'll get em' next time." Maggie said trying to cheer Bailey up.

"Maggie, are you sure you don't want to play? Scrabble used to be your favorite game." Jamie asked, sounding kind of sad.

"Nah, I'll just watch. I feel like I'm too tired to play an intense game of scrabble with you four." Maggie said with a weak smile.

"Whatever, you're missing out." Jamie said, sticking his tongue out at Maggie and throwing a pillow at her. She quickly caught it.

"Watch yourself. Just because I can play the sad cancer patient card, doesn't mean I can't kick your a--" Haley cut Maggie off, in hopes she wouldn't finish her last word.

"Hey, Incredible hulk? Relax. It's time for your meds, girl." Haley said, looking at Maggie with a smile on her face.

Maggie slowly got up off of the couch and went to the kitchen. She opened the cabinet, grabbed a glass and filled it with cold water from the sink. She then went to the counter, opened up her medicine bottle, and put two pills in her hand. She looked at them for a minute, realizing how much hatred she had for the medicine. She put the two pills in her pocket, took a sip of the water, dumped it in the sink and turned around to walk out of the kitchen. Maggie thought that what she was doing was for her own good. Little did she know, Jamie had saw everything she had just done without her knowing and he wasn't going to let her do this to herself.

To Be Continued...

Alright, that's it for now. Tell me what you guys thought about it. Once again, I apologize for the abrupt ending! I will continue you it soon. Do you guys think what Maggie is doing is right or wrong? And do you think Jamie will keep it a secret? Or will he tell someone about it?

ThanksPeace&Love,

-Me.