Chapter 5

1 Year Later

It has been over a year since Lily has been hiding her guilt of giving away Selena and keeping Harry. It was a Halloween night in 1981. Little Harry was only a year and 3 months old. Lily was so attached to Selena, she couldn't bear to handle taking care of Harry anymore. She never told anyone but herself that everything was her fault. It was her fault Selena existed. It will be her fault once Selena will think differently of Lily. Lily was busy watching Harry and James as they two were playing with Harry's little toy broomstick.

"He's going to be my little seeker Lils," James chuckled to himself. Lily only turned away as a blank expression filled her face. James knew she was back to thinking about her daughter again.

"I know what you're thinking Lily. I know it hurts, but we can still be happy for Harry. We're not going to do the same thing that you did with your daughter. I promise," James said rubbing Lily's shoulder.

"I know. What if she'll truly become a monster. We've had Harry for over a year and now I believe he's going to have a family he deserves," Lily replied nervously.

"Everything's going to be fine for her. She'll find you someday and I'm sure she'll understand why you gave her away," James assured Lily as she grinned back knowing he has a point.

…..

Lily never imagined being so scared out of her life for the second time. She knew something like this was going to happen again. She clutched Harry tightly as soon as the two saw a dark figure approach their home.

"HE'S HERE! I'VE CALLED EVERYONE FOR HELP! TAKE OUR SON AND RUN!" James shouted as he prepared his wand.

"James! It's happening again! I knew something like this was going to happen! Now Harry's going to live with the same fate as my daughter!" Lily cried.

"We have no time to discuss this! Run!" James cried as Lily ran upstairs with baby Harry in her arms.

"How did he find us? How did he find us?!" Lily repeated incredulously to herself.

A sudden boom sounded the home as Lily shrieked in horror. A flash of green light flashed in the home as Lily clutched baby Harry tightly in her arms. How could Voldemort find them here? St. Mungo's was already vulnerable but a hidden place here in Godric's Hollow? Lily prayed to herself that she'd make it out alive. Lily flinched as she heard a scream sound her home. She heard footsteps approach near her as she rushed into the nursery.

"James! Please! No!" Lily pleaded to herself as she slammed Harry's bedroom door shut. Lily assumed James must've been defeated already. She ran over to Harry's crib as she shook in fear. This was probably the end. The end of her life. At least Lily could hide her guilt from her daughter if she goes looking for her parents.

The bedroom door to the nursery boomed open as Lily screamed in horror. Lily immediately placed Harry in his crib as she knelt down and tried her best to assure him everything was going to be alright.

"Harry. You are so loved. So loved. Harry Muma loves. Dada loves you. Be safe. Be strong," Lily said in a calm voice pointing her wand at her son. A protection charm should do the trick.

"Stand aside and I shall spare your life," Voldemort said in a cold tone.

"Don't kill my son! Kill me instead!" Lily pleaded as tears slid down her face.

"AVADA KEDAVRA!" Voldemort bellowed aiming the spell towards Harry. Lily darted right in front of it as a jolt of pain surged through her body. Lily lay motionless on the ground as Voldemort proceeded over to Harry.

Harry looked up at the cloaked figure with wide eyes since he had an instinct this wasn't a good man. Voldemort pointed his wand towards Harry as Harry sat in his crib still.

"AVADA KEDAVRA!" Voldemort bellowed once more as a bright green flash of light was cast on Harry.

Harry peeped open his eyes as he felt pain jolt his forehead. The bad man was gone. But how? He saw his mother lying on the floor as his eyes grew with tears. He knew something was wrong. His mother wasn't moving and the house was quiet as the night. He was alone. No one was there anymore as he give small whines and cries. He paused as soon as he heard multiple voices coming from outside his room. He felt a surge of relief as he saw friendlier looking figures enter his room.

"James check on your son!" Remus exclaimed as Harry saw his father rush towards him.

"Oh Harry. Thank Merlin," James sighed in relief as Harry hiccupped slightly at the sight of his father.

James glanced nervously around the wreck that Voldemort has caused their home. He then found his lifeless wide lying on the floor as he crouched down on his knees nervously shaking her. Remus stared along in horror followed by Sirius and Severus as they gazed at a dead Lily Potter.

"I broke the oath! She's gone! I don't know what to do!" James exclaimed to himself as Lily moved no muscle.

"She can't be dead. You just survived the curse. And looks like your son did too. Lily has to be alive," Sirius replied.

"You're the potions master Sev! There's gotta be something you can do!" James exclaimed glancing at Severus. Severus only stared back in grief as he crouched down next to Lily. His hand ran through her hair as she felt cold to him.

"There's nothing I can do now. I lost a daughter, now her," Severus quivered in disbelief. Everything he's ever cared about was gone.

…..

Lily was in another one of her visions again. She looked around knowing she was probably dead. The universe she was in was a starry universe as she glanced around curiously.

"Keeping your son aren't you? He's still alive down there!" scoffed a familiar voice as Lily flinched and turned backwards. She could see her daughter again as her emerald eyes gave a devilish look.

"Selena! Please don't do this! I've always loved you! And I always will," Lily pleaded as Selena growled and gave a disapproving look.

"Don't you see? He survived because you put a love protection spell on him! He's still alive along with you and James Potter! I know you're going to raise him as a loving mother. I know what's going to happen to me now!" Selena snarled as Lily stared in disbelief.

"Selena! Don't think that I'll choose Harry over you! I couldn't bear to give you away that night!" Lily said.

"But you did anyways! You kept Harry over me!" Selena protested.

"I will find you Selena. You will be loved no matter what! And I love you no matter what!" Lily exclaimed as Selena smirked.

Selena rolled up her sleeve attached to her leather jacket revealing a devilish tattoo like mark on her right arm. Her eyes went from emerald to a crimson red.

"Don't you see? I've been chosen to join him now," Selena smirked maliciously pointing her wand towards Lily. A flash of green light was casted once more and Lily flinched up from that same nightmaring vision once again.

…..

"Lily!" everyone in the room exclaimed.

"Where's Harry?! Is he all right?" Lily asked anxiously staring towards Harry who grinned at his mother relieved she was alright too.

"You had us there Lils. We were afraid You-Know-Who must've took you all," Remus breathed.

"But how did he find us here? It was Lily's daughter he intended to go looking for," James replied in disbelief.

"Things might've taken a turn. We have a traitor. Pettigrew," Sirius growled under his breath.

"Peter Pettigrew? Why would he do such a thing?! He nearly got us killed!" Lily exclaimed picking Harry up.

Sirius looked over to Remus as James, Lily, and even Severus looked for an explanation.

"He is loyal to the Dark Lord. He even told You-Know-You about your daughter Lily. He's another reason she's gone."

Lily's eyes widened as she handed Harry over to James. She crouched down on the floor as she buried her face in her hands. She wept on the floor as her visions came back to her again.

"I'm sorry Selena! I couldn't protect you! I'm the reason you're without us! I'm the reason you'll become….a monster," Lily cried in her head. Severus crouched down beside her pulling her to his chest feeling the same thing she was feeling.

"This was all his fault…." Sirius growled. "He's the reason her daughter's gone! He's the reason we got into this mess!"

"We have a rat to find," Remus added on as anger boiled everyone in the room.

"He was our friend. He betrayed us…" James said as Lily looked up with tears streaming her face.

"He'll be the reason my daughter's going to be a monster!" Lily exclaimed.

James stared as Severus stared in confusion.

"A what?"

"I had a vision. Our saw our beautiful daughter around fourteen or so. She looked innocent at first until she started torturing me with the Cruciatus Curse," Lily started. James nodded since she already discussed this with him.

"What's worse was that she was blaming me for giving her away and keeping Harry. She showed me the Death Eater's mark on her arm and said that she's joined You-Know-You."

"But Lily. It's Pettigrew to blame. Hopefully we can lock him up in Azkaban for this," James growled.

"I know. She looked like she was going to kill me every time I have a vision of her," Lily sighed.

Severus stared wide eyed in disbelief as Lily calmed herself down.

"She was a monster. Because of us, she'll turn out to be someone else," Lily said.

"No. She can't be. Lily, it was just a nightmare. None of it could be real," Severus assured Lily hoping that wasn't true.

"But what if she is? I witnessed her trying to kill me," Lily shivered.

"Lily that's not true. We can't just assume she'll turn out evil because of us," Severus said.

"I agree. We have You-Know-Who and Pettigrew to blame," James added.

"But what will she be like when I see her again? I haven't given up on her ever since I gave her away! We've kept Harry for long enough now that the Dark Lord's gone," Lily exclaimed.

James noticed something rather odd on Harry's forehead. A lightning scar mark. Voldemort must've given it to him before he disappeared.

"He must've given him that scar. He's gone now. We all just survived the Killing Curse," James said in shock.

"I know. It's hard to hide from the guilt. She'll know that we'll be able to raise Harry. He nearly lost us James," Lily started as James nodded. She had a point.

"Lily, we need to concentrate on hunting Pettigrew down. We have to let go of the past and move on. This is the only you'll be happy. And if our daughter doesn't even think about us, then we'll be fine once she meets us," Severus explained.

"I know Sev, but I still need her. You know how badly we wanted her!" Lily replied.

"Lily, I promise. We will find her, or she'll find us," Severus said placing both of his hands on Lily's shoulders. "You have faith in her that she'll find us. And if we have hope that she'll find us, then she will feel the same. I promise you, she won't become a monster. You just have to fight her in those visions and maybe her fate will change."

Lily stared at her lover for a moment knowing he has a point. She can't just assume she'll become a monster. It was after all, only a vision. A vision that might only teach her a life lesson. Lily turned in the other direction to here a bunch of voices outside. Looks like she'll be answering a lot of questions.