Updating, again.
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I am watching her again. This time though, I am powerless to help as the fox stalks up to her. I cannot call out to warn her, or try to distract the fox. She doesn't see it until it's too late. She screeches as it claws her, and I attempt to go to her, but an invisible weight pins me down. I close my eyes, but that doesn't keep me from hearing her whimpers as she bleeds to death.
I open my eyes as a paw prods me in the side.
"Are you ok Brambleclaw? You were twitching in your sleep." Brackenfur mewes, curiousity lighting his gaze.
"I'm fine, just a bad dream." I say. It's the half truth. I'm not fine, but it was a bad dream.
The memory of Squirrelflight's screech follows me as I patrol, as I hunt, even while I'm eating. I cannot think of anything else.
It's not because I love her, it's because I wouldn't want any of my Clanmates to be torn apart by a fox. No matter what has happened between us, she will always be my Clanmate. I don't love her though. I will never love her.
Then why does still take up all of your thoughts? The nagging voice in the back of my head says. I shake my head to clear it. She does not take up all of my thoughts!
Then I sigh. Okay, fine. She does. So what? It doesn't matter. But I'm lying to myself again. I know it matters. I know that if I wanted to be mates with her again, she would agree. She's made that clear. But I can't forgive her. She doesn't derserve it.
But she does deserve to be heard out, so I will hear her out.
These chapters just get shorter and shorter, don't they? I apologize for my past writing length. :P
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