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chapter 6- change

I-I don't want to go to school. I don't want to go, I truly don't! And that's awful because I always loved school. I guess its just another thing to be added to the list of what He's taken away from me.

First He takes away my perfect night! Then he takes away Draco with that dreaded mission! With that darned mission He took Dumbledore! He took all the trust Professor Snape had gained! He took my trust in Draco with that one, measly, impossible and not to mention completely cruel request! And now he's taken the only thing I can confidently say I loved! How could anyone appoint that man as headmaster, how can I hate him when he saved Draco? If it wasn't for his betrayal Draco would have had to kill Dumbledore, he'd be a murderer. Perhaps he wasn't a traitor at all. I mean what if his greater loyalties lied with Draco? He's only been Lucius Malfoy's friend since the dawn of time, and a part of Draco's forever. How long has he known Dumbledore? Oh what kind of an excuse is that! Dumbledore gave him more then any and all of the Malfoy's and there fortune. Dumbledore saved him from a lifetime in Azkaban, gave him a steady job, gave him a second chance, gave him trust. And trust isn't an easy thing to just give to somebody. Even more, there was a time Professor, no Snape, just Snape he no longer deserves the respect in the title, oh Astoria that's foolish, he deserves to be called Professor, if not for his character for his knowledge, but still there was a time in which Professor Snape trusted Dumbledore as well, and for a Slytherin to trust anyone, even themselves…it's monumental. I mean, Daphne trusts me more then she trust herself, and nobody would ever guess that because she knows how to sound so sure about everything to everyone, she says that if she can't convince everyone else she's confident how is she supposed to convince herself?

She and Draco are actually quite alike, prickly personalities, but there really not all to bad, I mean everything pricky is only that way on the outside. Like those pokey weed leaves.

So it doesn't make any sense that if Professor Snape trusted Dumbledore how he could just do him in like that? Unless there's more to it then that. Which I'm sure there is, because there always is. Besides, Dumbledore's a man with a plan, and Professor Snape has always followed those plans.

I really need to settle down, this is starting to sound like a conspiracy, besides were at the station now.

"Astoria, are you alright? You look anxious." Daphne notices! She hardly notices anything, I mean if I haven't already told her it's usually because its irrelevant. She's my older sister, and trustworthy or not I tell her everything.

"Oh, well, I'm just a little worried about the up in coming school year. I mean with the Dark Lord rising and all, things are going to be different. Really different. I'm…I'm scared." That's the hardly of it all, but its what it all boils down to.

"Well don't be, this is what we want right? No more Mudbloods! No more living in hiding being ashamed in who and what we are! Our people have been forced underground, figuratively and most literally, and your afraid of change! We need change!" We need to kill people?

"But, is this really how we should be going about it?"

"Your such a child sometimes, this is how things are done. Even if we didn't start like this it would most certainly end in this." That-that's completly and utterly true, but shouldn't we at least attempt to make peaceful resoloutions, I mean, have Wizarding society ever, in ALL of history ever attepmted it? No, of course not, so yeah, maybe attempting peace with muggles would blow up in our faces but at least were not going in for blood shed, because when you go in for that you lose sight of the goal. Things can't continue to work like that.

"You were right then Daphne, things really do need to change then."

Well, things are most certainly different, but, not exactly the needed change I had had in mind. The Slytherin's are still gossiping, but there aren't any intervals of snickering, or those notorious smirks, just faces etched with worry exchanging rumors of there parents affairs. The other house seem less interested in each other as they are in the Slytherin's. The division between the two groups has never been so notable, a once casual side step apart has swelled so large that if I were to stretch my grasp from one crowd to the other I wouldn't even be able to brush the other with my finger tips, even after I've stopped chewing my nails! Pax and Orla aren't even talking! Nor Stewart or Graham. They never used to care about house. What's worse, the way the rest of the school is glaring at the Slytherin's you'd think they were the Death Eaters, not the victims of circumstance they quite honestly are. I mean if you had to choose between your friends and family to your morals what would you choose? I mean, family come's first, always, besides, people often forget that not everybody can be brave.

Where's Draco? I mean, he must be here. Everybody HAS to be here it's the law! He-Who-Doesn't-like-his-birth-name-very-much-obviously, said so. Made the law himself through whoever the Minister happens to be, even if I did follow politics I would be lost at this point, we've had so many. So if Draco isn't here he's…but Dumbledore's dead. He didn't fail but…he didn't do it now did he. He didn't, he didn't which means that he failed, he failed! IT WAS ALL FOR NOTHING! Dumbledore died for absolutely nothing! I mean, if he understood the situation he would most likely want to help Draco, he was only a sixteen year old after all, and Dumbledore's all for helping those who need it, but it doesn't even matter, because Dumbledore's death saved no body.

Wait…nobody was saved.

…

No, just because I haven't seen him doesn't necessarily mean he isn't he, or won't be arriving. There's plenty of people to be between us. He's here, I'm sure of it.

Why am I even bothering with Hogwarts, there isn't much a point. Aha, what a day it has to be for Astoria to see no point in receiving an education.

I wonder what has the other students in my compartment so scared? Oh, that's Erica isn't it. Her brother had a huge crush on Daphne last year, which means she knows all about me and Daphne, and the sort of family we come from. Well I don't want to be mean and scare them, wow what a day it is, not only do I have no want to go to school but now apparently rather then walk all over me, people are actually intimidated by my presence. I'm not so sure I'm having such a terrific day.

This must be some form of cruel, sick, joke. I'm curious to know how Orla and Pax managed to pull it off, wait there not exactly on speaking terms considering the fact that Orla's mother is a muggleborn and Pax is a Slytherin, even though she might not even be a pure blood the Slytherin tag has become more of a stereo type these days, this awful day. So it must be true then, the Carrow's are most certainly teaching classes this year. Muggle studies has become mandatory, I don't quite understand why somebody who hates muggles so much would include it in the curriculum but, I don't plan on blowing a circuit, trying to figure it out. Don't blow a circuit, Draco used to say that whenever I was in deep concentration, apparently I have a vein in my temple that pops slightly.

I still haven't seen him.

Maybe I won't ever see him…

AN*i no, depressing, but well, that's how hogwarts became, so no worries, things are going to start happening next chapter, this was more to set the mood for this school year. REVIEW