So, heres a slightly longer chapter, not by much but its longer. Thank you guys so much for your reviews and meeting the amount of reviews in the first day. It made me really happy. I'm trying to update as fast as i can, but when school starts back up, there going to go a bit slower. Now would you rather have longer chapters but witch longer wait time or shorter chapters updated more often? Tell me in your reviews.

Flashback

I was worried, not just for myself, but Nessie too. The bitch just couldn't do this to us. We hadn't done on thing to be thrown out like we had. To do what she did, to think that I once loved that woman. I took a chance and let my sexual preferences take a turn, and where had that gotten me?Thrown out on the streets with a baby to take care of and look after?

I regretted it, every single thing that involved my so called wife. Well, almost everything. Despite all the wrong and cheating she had produced, one thing she made me I couldn't live without. Nessie.

Se truly and ultimately was my everything,now more then anything. We had no one but ourselves, and nothing but the clothes on our backs and the journal in my hand. In my other hand Nessie's much smaller one was holding on for dear life as she clutched tightly to my neck. Still only a baby and she already knew something was wrong. I must be giving off bad vibes, somehow telling my baby that we were amiss and no longer safe.

Right then Nessie gave off a startled cry, just when a loud crash of thunder shook the earth. "Shh baby, its alright." I said calmly in her hair, as I slowly started rocking her back and forth, "Shh,will be alight"

By this time I wasn't sure who I was reassuring., my daughter or myself. For I had no idea what I was going to do with my little family. With no money, credit cards or even my bank account anymore, I didn't know how I was going to take care of Nessie and I. We had nothing to our names, just each other.

But I had to be a good father, and by everything I got, I was going to do my best to protect my little girl. I myself wasn't aloud to fall in a slum, I had to be the strong one. We were all each other had now.

Carefully I carried my baby down the puddle clad road. The clouds were black and angry and continued to cry rain upon the earth. Everything seemed so much duller on the other side of the tracks. The city around me just seemed so much more ugly and bleak. A single tear slide down my cheek, as I held Nessie up to my face. She was asleep now, her tiny face scrunched up in fear as she slept in my arms.

I started to cry along with the sky. I cried for my daughter, for myself, and for all we had lost in such a short amount of time. I cried for what was to come, the hard coldest that clouded my future. I didn't know how I was going to save us. Everything was gone, and I couldn't get it back.

I had done this to us. I was the one that screwed up my child's life. By my own stupid mistakes, my baby was going to grow up cold and hungry on the streets. Never have I had this much self hatred.

Not knowing where I was going, I allowed my feet to carry us to where ever they were taking me. We walked for hours, the rain soaking us through and causing us to shiver. Worried for Nessie's heath, I removed my light coat from my shoulders and wrapped her up in a bundle. She cried softly in her sleep, her nose running and her heat slightly warm. "Oh, Ness." I cried, hugging her even closer, trying my hardest to keep her from the rain.

Finally we came to a building. Unknown to myself, we had ended up at the orphanage. A cold dark looking building that was in poor shape. My stomach dropped as I stood on top of the large stoop, my sleeping girl still snuggled in my arms and resting quietly.

Wasn't this the best thing to do for her, give her to a family that could take better care of her while I tried to get my life back together? She wouldn't have to grow up on the streets, with little to eat and no bed to steep in. She would be safe and healthy and happy, but could I do it?

Could I really give up all I had? To be unselfish and give my daughter a happy life seemed like the only clear chose to me. I watched the big heavy doors for hours. Just watched them, hoping that they would open and all my problems would be solved and we would be safe.

Several times I placed Nessie, still wrapped in my jacket, on to the door step, and willed myself to walk away. But each time I would chicken out and snatcher her back up to where she belong, in my arms.

In the end I was right. I couldn't do it. I wasn't able to be unselfish for once and give my daughter a better life. I choose the greedy selfish rout and took my daughter to live with me on the cold unforgiving streets. After all, she was all I had now.

End Flashback

Edward's POV

It was nice of Bella to offer us her home, or at least until we got 'back on our feet.' The only problem was, I didn't know how to get my life back on track as she implied.

For so long all I've done is try and keep Nessie as safe and happy as possible. Searching for food, finding the next place we would sleep, that all I knew how to do. I couldn't see myself seated at an office desk, doing the same thing day after day. Besides, I don't know if I could leave my daughters side for that long. Or if she could leave mine, for that matter. We had been side by side for so long now that I just couldn't imagine being without her even if just a few job house each day.

Hugging Nessie closer I snuggled deeper into the couch in Bella's living room. She and Jasper, who I'm relieved to find out aren't a couple, had gone to bed long ago. The apartment was no dark and silent and my little girl was comfortably snuggled beneath my arms, fast asleep.

Her steady healthy breathing was very relaxing and I could slowly feel it drifting myself into dream land.

Yet strangely even with the dry comfy sofa and warm soft blanket, I didn't want to fall asleep. I was terrified that if I woke up it would all of been a dream. That when I woke we would be back out on the street, cold, wet and hungry.

I don't think I could handle this only being a strangely realistic dream.

"Your still up?"

Startled, I spun my head towards the small hallway leading to the bathroom and bedrooms. Jasper walked forwards near to where we were seated on the couch. "Our you comfortable enough? I could get you guys another blanket, pillow?"

"No thank you, really you've done plenty." I said as I watch him take a seat on top of the sofa arm. He smiled a cute grin with dimples as he looked down at Nessie and I.

"So why are you still up?" He asked, still smiling the cute little grin. Slowly he racked a hand through his golden curls, his eyes sleepy and sagging.

"I could ask you the same thing, its late." I stated, sure to point out the obvious.

"Just have a lot on my mind, bad break up." He said, as if it would explain everything, and it did strangely enough. "I'm sure you know how it is, a good looking man like yourself."

I blushed, burying my face once again in Nessie's hair, as she continued to doze on. "Ya, I understand bad breakup." I said a bit coldly,. Thinking of her tends to do that. Jasper nodded slowly, and soon a thick silence fell upon us.

"You want to talk about it?" I asked after awhile, wanting desperately to break the silence. Honestly, I didn't want to know about his ex girlfriend, but with all they had done for me, the least I could do was listen to him vent for awhile.

He smiled again as he looked back up from his lap. "No thanks, I'm sure you don't want to hear about my pity problems," He paused to shake his head, "but what about you? Surely you need to talk."

Sure I most likely needed to talk, but now really wasn't the time. I was freshly showered and in clean clothes, Jasper's I later learned with a lot of blushing, but I was too tired to properly hold a simple conversation, let alone by sad life story. When it was time to talk, I would. Just not now.

"Not yet, besides you should go to bed." I said as firmly as I could still hiding behind my daughter. She wiggled beneath my arms and gave off a small whimper. I frowned down at her, worried.

"Is she all right?" Jasper asked still perched on top of the couch arm. Looking up to him, I nodded.

"Shes just having a bad dream, she had them during thunder storms." I placed my hand on top of her head and softly started to pet her hair. She continued to cry.

"Usually she just rides them out. "I said softly as I petted her lovingly. Jasper moved from his perch to sit beside us. He smiled as he reached out to calm her too. "I sued to get nightmares too during thunder storms. My mom calmed me down with a movie sometimes. We used to watch the Lion King a lot." He said a bit timidly. I smiled.

"Sounds like your mother really loved you." I said as Nessie stirred some more. Jasper nodded, his blue eyes not leaving my green.

"Ya, momma loves me lots." I noticed he spoke with a slight southern draw. I blushed harder. "I don't see her very often though, she and Dad live out our farm in Texas." He talked fondly of his home. But not wanting to teeter into my own family history, or lack there of, I quickly changed the subject.

"So, what do you do for a job?" I asked. I needed to start having an open mind on what I was going to do. Jasper nervously laughed as he racked his hair again.

"Oh um, I'm a bartender."

I laughed also. "Really?" I asked a bit astonished, he didn't seem like the kind to work at a bar, not that I was complaining. "What bar do you work at."

Jasper blushed a deep red as he lowered his eyes back towards his lap. "Its just a small out of the way place, you wouldn't know it."

A bit put out I nodded, "Ya didn't really go drinking much." I said as Nessie started to open her little eyes. "Hi baby girl." She looked confused for a second then, started to sit up.

"We still at the nice people's home?" She asked, rubbing the sleep from her eyes, she still had tears running down her face. Jasper looked concerned.

"Ya Ness, were still at Bella's and Jasper's. Did you have a bad dream?" I stared rubbing at her damp eyes, trying to catch every tear. She nodded, but didn't elaborate, just started crying harder. I sighed, and re positioned her so I could rock her.

"Shh, baby girl, everything is okay." I soothed as Jasper moved forward to the TV, picking up something.

"Would watching a movie help?" He asked as he raised a copy of, The Lion King. I smiled, kissing Nessie temple.

"I'm sure she'd love that, Jasper." Quickly he moved to insert the DVD, "You'll love this little girl. Were going to watch a movie." I said still rocking her. She sniffled and glanced over to the screen.

"Really!" She asked excitedly , never really seen a movie before. I nodded.

The rest of the night was spent watching movie after movie, Nessie laughing and loving every minute of it. Jasper stayed up all night, us sitting side by side as we enjoyed my little girls excitement. Maybe now, we weren't all each other had. We had friends.

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