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And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am- Goo Goo Dolls- Iris
EPOV:
August 12, 2010
I shocked the hell out of Alice. She always prided herself on her knack for reading people, especially when it came to relationships. Edward 1 Alice 0! Bella is mine!
She was completely and utterly dumb-founded at her inability to catch my intentions toward Bella today. Well, considering that I'm supposed to be 28, but I'm somehow trapped in my 18 year-old body, ten years in the past, and already have gone through the pain of watching Bella's life get more and more fucked up ending in her tragic death…not going to make that mistake again!!
Bella and I were sitting together on the couch, holding hands and snuggling close, as if our bodies did not want to be apart anymore. My thumb was tracing lazy circles on the back of her hand, and the same shocking sensation I remembered from before had yet to subside.
Alice was still staring at us with a look of confusion upon her face, when Emmett, Rose and Jasper came in from the door to the garage. Emmett saw Alice sitting in the chair, but I think he missed Bella and I sitting in the love seat, "I figured we'd order some movies and some pizzas and…."
He had apparently been walking toward the den when he stopped suddenly, a look of shock registering across his face as he finally noticed Bella and me. "Well, well, well, it looks like we missed quite a bit! I mean holy shit, you and Bella? I thought you weren't interested in anyone!"
Jasper and Rose grinned, and Rose blurted out, "Alice! How come you didn't tell me Edward was into Bella? You're supposed to keep us in the loop about shit like this! I know Bella's been crushing on him since day one, but I thought Edward was just fucking blind, or to damned arrogant to notice!"
"Thanks, Rose. And to think, people think you don't care," Bella replied blushing furiously.
Rose chuckled to herself, "You know, I think Tanya and her skanks are going to shit a brick over this one! She's been trying to get her slutty hands on Edward since the third grade, and Edward has always brushed her off like nothing. Then, Bella Swan, who is in her opinion, the geekiest girl in school, comes along and becomes his best friend! Now, Bella snatched him right out from under her nose! Oh, this shit is going to be too good!"
Fucking Rose! Bella better not freak or I might end up hitting a woman, and fighting my brother…"Dammit Rose! We just got together an hour ago, and you're already trying to make her nervous! You know how much I fucking can't stand Tanya and her fake-ass attitude! I have always loved Bella! She's the most kind, generous and selfless girl I've ever known! She's so much better than bitches like Tanya Denali could ever be, because unlike Tanya, Bella has inner beauty! It's just an added bonus that she happens to be the most beautiful creature that God ever graced the earth!"
I swear you could have heard a pin drop. Bella blushed even deeper crimson, a tear rolling down her cheek, as she spoke in a trembling voice, "Edward…did you just say you're in love with me?" OH FUCK! I just fucked up royally! I shouldn't have let Rose get to me about Tanya…
"Well…Bella, it's…I mean…you" Yeah! Real fucking genius!
Bella squeezed my hand and gently kissed me, "Edward, it's okay. I'm in love with you, too. I mean, I really don't understand how I can be this lucky, because you are so…well, you could have any girl you wanted. You're not only look like you fell right out of a cover shoot, but you are the best person I've ever known. You care about the people around you and you try to help them. You have money, you're popular, but you never try to act better than anyone else. What girl wouldn't be proud to have you love them?"
Jasper, who had sat down on the floor in front of Alice's feet, while she wistfully played with his hair, "Bella, Edward, I think it's great that you two have finally decided to be together. I've been quietly watching the way you act around each other, ever since you met. You guys act like magnets or stars. If one is in the room, the other shifts closer. If Bella is reading and Edward is watching TV, and Bella slides to the right, Edward unconsciously shifts his position to match. The reverse also applies. You two center on each other." What the fuck? How have I missed that?"
The doorbell rang and Emmett went to the door. He came back carry a stack of pizza boxes, and laid them on the coffee table. There were five larges, two for Emmett, one for the girls, and one for each, Jasper and myself. We sat around eating talking and watching movies.
My mind began to wander…
August 18, 2008
I was at practice running my distance run for warm-ups when I ran past her. She was thin and pale, her brown wavy hair tied back in a pony tail. She had just stepped out of a police cruiser, confirming her identity as Isabella Swan, daughter of Chief Swan, our town's top cop. As he pulled away and exited the lot next to the football fields, she tripped and I rushed forward to catch her.
As my hands caught her, I looked down into the deepest and most beautiful pair of brown eyes, almost the color of chocolate. My breath was taken away. She had soft pink lips, and her eyes were wide framed by delicate long lashes. I was taken aback by just how much she looked like some kind of angel who had fallen straight from the heavens and into my arms.
"Whoa! Easy there, pretty lady." I was rewarded by her cheeks blushing a soft delicate pink. She looked at me, still never breaking eye contact. I guessed she might have been in shock, so I asked, "Miss, are you okay?"
She looked almost dizzy, but soon responded, "You saved me?"
"Yes, I'm Edward Cullen, and you are…"
"B-Bella. My name is Bella."
"Bella. Bella. That's a nice name. Are you aware that it means…"
She responded almost mockingly, "Beauty in Italian. I know."
I couldn't believe her voice sounded so musical almost like a bell. She was perfect in every way. Girls had always been throwing themselves at me since I could remember, but they always seemed so superficial. I kept them at arms' length, never really trying to let myself be interested in them. My music, my sports, my education- all of these things seemed to be enough for me, yet this girl seemed different.
"Thanks for catching me, Edward," she continued as she pulled herself upright.
I kept a hand lightly touching the small of her back, since she still seemed a bit dizzy. Her cheeks were still slightly flushed, so I responded reassuringly, "Anytime, Bella. I'm glad to see you are okay." I was nervous, and I wanted to try to find out more about this girl, so my thoughts rushed out in a jumble.
"You're new here? I mean I haven't seen you around before. I'm just going into my junior year. What about you?" I asked hoping for an answer. I didn't want her to know that I knew her name and history from the common buzz about town.
"I just moved back here from Phoenix. I'll be a freshman. I'll be fifteen next month, though!" So she was a bit younger than I was…oh well. I really didn't care about our age difference. She seemed to feel embarrassed by it, though, as she flushed a deeper shade of red.
I responded, "Oh. I'm sixteen, but I have a sister your age. Her name is Alice. She's a real nice girl, kind of hyper, but sweet. She's much smaller than you, and she's a true fashionista. Shopping, clothes, parties- she loves it all. She's in Port Angeles today picking out some stuff for school."
She seemed pleased at my offer to introduce her to Alice, my pixie-like, slightly crazy sister. She replied, "Oh, that's cool! You'll have to introduce me tomorrow, if I see you…" she paused for a moment, as if she remembered something sad, "I mean, I don't know anyone yet, but you will probably be busy with your friends or your girlfriend…"
I had to nip that one in the bud, so I quickly shot her a reassuring grin and replied, "Nope. I don't date. Not that I haven't had the opportunity, mind you; it's just that I hadn't met a girl who I feel…the spark with. They seem to see a handsome face and a star student athlete, and it makes me feel like some kind of trophy."
I realized I was sounding a bit pathetic, so I waited for her to say something, as I felt embarrassment wash over me. My eyes lowered to my feet, as I silently cursed myself for being so gushy and weak in front of this angel.
When she didn't respond, I tried to salvage the moment by adding, "I'm sorry. I usually don't bare my soul like that to strangers, but I can't help but feel like I've known you…forever. You seem like a nice girl, and I think we could be friends. If you'd like to be, that is?"
Hoping I didn't sound too cheesy, I again paused to allow her a response. She looked excited, so I quickly recovered. She almost sounded giddy, as she responded, "S-sure! You want to be my friend? I think that would be great!"
She sounded like she didn't usually have many people offering to be her friend, which surprised me. I was about to ask her a few more questions when Coach Clapp yelled, "CULLEN! Get back to work, son! We need you to score ON the field. You can practice the OFF-the field later!"
I was slightly embarrassed, and slightly irritated that Coach Clapp would be so crass toward Bella, but I guess I had lost track of time, talking with my angel.
I ran my fingers through my hair in a nervous habit I had always demonstrated, "Sorry Bella. I've got to run!" I almost left realizing that I couldn't let her leave without getting her phone number.
"Oh yeah! Let me give you my number so you can call me later. I'd love to talk to you and maybe Alice will get home and you can meet her, too." She dug into her wallet and produced a pen, which she offered me.
Having nothing on me to write my number down, I simply wrote it on her hand, and she in turn did the same.
I called her later that evening, and true to my word I introduced her to my sister, who immediately put Bella in her BFF category. They talked for almost an hour, while I patiently waited for Alice to give the phone back to me. That was how Bella and I met….
As the sun began to set, we heard the garage door open and my mother walked into the kitchen, "Hey guys! What's new?" Then she saw Bella and me sitting in the love seat. Esme stopped as she looked at me and then gushed, "Oh, Edward! It's about time! I was so worried that you would let this one get away! I always thought you two would be so great together!"
It was my turn to blush, "So, how many of you knew Bella liked me? How long were you going to just allow me to live my life in such an ignorant state? Do you have any idea how empty my life would be without her?" I'm such a fucking drama queen! Suck it up, Cullen!
My mother was speechless for a moment, but recovered shortly, "Edward. You truly love Bella, don't you?"
"Mom, I've never felt this way about a girl before! She makes me feel so…alive! I can't describe to you the depths of my feelings toward her!"
"I'll take that as a yes. So what are you two going to do about the military?" Shit! I'm not ready for that one!
"Well… if you must know…
I filled her in on my plans. She was so happy that she cried. She never wanted me to go, so she was thrilled with my new decision. She called my dad at work to tell him the "good news."
After dinner, Bella called her dad to get permission to stay the night with "Alice." Charlie immediately agreed, mentioning some case in Port Angeles, which was a slightly larger city than our Forks.
He said the case would keep him at the station later than he thought, and he felt better having Bella not home alone all night. I wonder what case he was investigating. Volturi, maybe? I'll have to find a way to inform him of the details that I and the organized crime team had uncovered in my time.
I walked Bella to Alice's door, and I leaned in for a kiss. I meant to keep it somewhat chaste, but Bella suddenly attacked me.
Her hands locked in my hair, and her body melted and molded itself to mine. Our tongues danced as she traced my lips with her tongue. Mine explored her mouth, and our hearts were racing. Fuck! This shit is hot!
My hands roamed up and down her spine as my eyes rolled into my head and a soft grunt followed my tongue into her mouth. She began to undulate slightly, and her hips ground her crotch against my thigh.
I don't know how far it would have gone if Alice hadn't cleared her throat, loudly, "AHEM! You two better calm that shit down, or at least have the decency to take it to your own room!"
Bella blushed and she whispered, "Goodnight, Edward." She placed a final peck on my lips, and then added quietly, "I hope you know she's going to be like this until I apologize for not telling he about us." Let the games begin!
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