Holy shit I died again. lmao well guys I apologize deeply for that. I love my stories but I've been a bit boyfriend obsessed. He is a bit WoW obsessed like an effing nerd so I decided to start writing when he ignores me for video games. It's okay, I'll find a punishment for him lol. But yeah I also have a job so it's been a bit tough. I haven't really been writing much of anything. Nor drawing. You know what inspires me though? Fan art. :) Thats how My Hiro was finished. Send me in fan art to any story and garenteed I'll write another chapter happily!
Well I'm much too tired to do dedications for this chapter, sorry. I just have to quickly write the last page of Katenshimi so I can go to bed. lol Well I love you all and goodnight!
This is one of my favorite chapters btw
Jin just sat there as I cried. I didn't even know I could cry this much. The door was shut, thankfully. We were on his bed and he was stroking my hair. He didn't say anything. Neither did I. I just clung to him, my face buried in his chest, heaving I was crying so hard. He just basically cradled me and stroked my hair.
Soon though my cries simmered down and I slowly fell asleep. I must say, Jin smells amazing. That's weird but he just has this unique smell to him.
I felt him lay me down slowly as I was growing deeper into my sleep. His arms wrapped around me and he kissed the top of my head and held me close.
"I'll be here for ya Hiei. Count on it." He whispered and that's the last thing I remember.
.:~{*+*}~:.
I woke up to light breathing on the top of my head. What happened? Why am I here?
I tried to see who I was tangled limbs with and saw that it was a Jin that was sound asleep. He looked so at peace. I never noticed before...
I decided I could sleep a bit longer before actually having to admit to him that I was up. But of course he is an extremely light sleeper.
"Yer up Hiei?" He whispered in a drowsy voice and yawned. I slowly nodded slowly.
"Yes..." I grumbled and he smiled.
"Mornin' sleepyhead." I pushed myself away from him and quickly made it to my bed which was cold and not as welcoming as Jin's. "Wus wrong?"
"I don't know what came over me yesterday but surly it won't happen again. You can count on it." I faced the opposite way of Jin and looked at the wall.
"Don't be embarrassed Hiei. I told ya I'd be there for ya. I won't tell no one about it. Jus let me be there for ya..." He said quietly and I huffed.
"Don't worry that's the last time you're going to see that stupid pathetic side of me. It was a mistake. I don't know what came over me. Just leave me alone Jin..." I was getting annoyed, fast.
"Hiei..." He sat up and went through one of his drawers and pulled something out. He walked over to my bed and stood there until I looked at him. He handed me the paper he pulled out. It was a drawing of flowers. A vase full of them. At the top it said Happy Birthday Hiei! "I know you don't like your birthday but I'm thankful for it."
I looked at the flowers, one was a red rose and I glared at it. I tossed it behind me, which was where Jin was.
"I don't want it." I growled and he slowly picked up the paper and averted his gaze.
"But Hiei-"
"Listen Jin," I sat up so I was looking at him glaring up a storm. "you aren't Kurama and you never will be so just leave me alone." I turned back around and laid there looking back at the wall.
"...I'm not Kurama... I'm Jin... Why can't I just be Jin and be special? Why do I have to be Kurama..?" Jin asked innocently. "I'm not jealous that I'm not Kurama... I'm jealous of the fact that he's the one that's special..." He laid down on his bed and I sighed.
Why was I being such a dick to Jin? He didn't do anything. I guess I was embarrassed...
"Jin." I looked over at him and he peeked through his arms, he was laying on his pillow with both arms around his head.
"Yes Hiei?" He asked and I didn't know how to apologize. I didn't even want to. So I just stared at him, hoping that without me saying anything he would know what I was saying so I wouldn't have to say those words out loud. ". . . I forgive you Hiei."
.:~{*+*}~:.
I was still in my bed. Jin sat next to me in his. We didn't speak but I knew Jin wanted to. I don't know what made me so special to Jin. I wasn't nice. I didn't do anything worth crap. I'm a horrible person and I knew it so why didn't he? Why didn't Jin push me away like everyone else? Like my dad, or any friend I've ever had, or even Kurama. I don't understand what made Jin so loyal. He stayed at my side. Sure he was annoying as fuck but something told me that no matter what, I could trust him, so I did. I trust Jin. It took me just now to realize how much. He's right after all. He isn't Kurama. He shouldn't have to be. I should accept Jin as Jin and not try to make him Kurama's replacement.
I stood up for a minute and Jin looked at me confused but didn't say anything. I walked over to him and stood by his bed, for some reason I wasn't blushing. I was just looking at him. As if he knew exactly why I saw standing by him, he scooted over on his bed and I sat down. His arms wrapped around my waist and he held me close as I laid down. I've never been held like this. It was strange, unusual even for me but it didn't mean I didn't like it. In fact, I think I could get used to being so comfortable in his arms. After all, he told me that he wouldn't tell anyone. It's like a secret between the two of us.
"You don't have to be Kurama to be special." I mumbled. "I was wrong."
Jin seemed to like that, I could feel him grin as his chin was resting on my shoulder.
"No matter what Hiei, yer always gonna be special to me. No one else ever had a spot for ya to fill. There was one set for ya." Jin whispered and I fell asleep.
I don't know what about Jin is it that I liked so much but I did. Truth is, I don't want to get better. I don't want to leave Jin but I'm going to have to and I'm not going to like it. I felt like I wanted to stay there forever, with Jin. What's wrong with me?
I could feel the breeze on my cheeks as I wondered around in the dark. I was in the forest and I was completely lost. I couldn't figure out which way to turn.
"HIIIIEEEIIII!" I heard someone yell and my ears twitched and I turned to my left. "HIIIIEEEEIIII!" It was Kurama! I felt myself smile as I started to chase the sound of my name.
"HIEI! HIEI!" I paused and turned to the opposite direction. "HIEI! HIEI! PLEASE WHERE ARE YA HIEI!" It was Jin. He was looking for me too..?
They were at opposite ends, how would I make it to both of them...? I wouldn't. I need to pick.
'"HIIIEEEEIII!"
"HIEI! HIEI!"
What one do I go to...?
I woke up surprisingly slowly. I was startled at the feeling of warmth and remembered Jin was sleeping next to me.
"Hiei. Yar so precious." He whispered and kissed the top of my head. I tensed. Starting at my feet I felt like I was on fire and it slowly rose up o my face were I turned bright red. I fucking hate Jin. Why does he make me blush so fucking much I don't understand.
"Oh, yar up." Jin said and giggled.
I sat up and looked at him and he sat up with me and fixed my hair. He looked so into doing it too. So concentrated. His fingers brushed the outline of my face and he smiled softly.
"So handsome." My heart stopped then restarted then had a seizure. I lost my breath and I stared at Jin in awe. I've... Never... Heard that before.
"W-what?" I finally choked out and Jin moved his face closer to mine and stroked my cheek.
"Yar so handsome Hiei." I could feel his breath on my face. I stared at his eyes, the brightest blue I'd ever seen. But more importantly, his lips. They weren't that big, rather thin but their color was surely something to be jealous over. They looked stunningly perfect.
I leaned in without realizing it. Our lips were so close to touching. I wanted to kiss him, I really did. But then I heard the door being unlocked so jumped to my bed and saw Boton a few seconds later.
"Hiei. You have a visitor." She smiled happily.
"Who is it?" I asked airily.
"Kurama!" My heart clenched. I turned to Jin who smiled softly at me.
"Go get em' Hiei." He said and I knew he wasn't as happy as he looked but still I got up and followed Boton.
"I thought they could ONLY visit on Wednesdays." I commented and Boton turned to me with a nice smile and shook her head.
"Well Hiei, since it was your birthday and it didn't go exactly as planned, Kurama wanted to come make it up to you so we let him come anyway." She told me and I smiled a bit. I wasn't going to thank her. No fuck that but still, it felt nice to know that people here weren't a bunch of morons... Wait they still are. "No you have to stay in this room until I get back, I need to have a word with Jin." She then ushered me into the room and locked the door. I saw Kurama sitting at a table. I wouldn't let him know how happy I was to see him.
I walked over, with a pout and glare and he looked up apologetically.
"Hiei, I'm so sorry that I couldn't come yesterday." He said and stood up and hugged me. I stood stiff.
"Why didn't you come?" I asked icily and he hugged me tighter.
"It's a long drive to your mother's grave Hiei." He answered after a few seconds of being silent. It was my turn to not say anything. I was SHOCKED to be completely honest. Kurama decided my not talking required some more insight on what had happened yesterday. "I had all intentions on visiting you but I figured that since you were in here it was my duty as your best friend to do something that you feel the absolute need to do."
"Thank you..." I was still in awe as I looked up at him. He seemed to be delighted and hugged me again.
"You're very welcome." He stopped hugging me and turned to the table and there was something wrapped and a rose on top of it.
"Happy birthday Hiei." I looked at the items on the table and he made me sit and pushed them to me. "You're allowed to keep it with you. I figured you'd really appreciate it."
I seemed confused and he simply smiled and nudged the present. The rose had no thorns. Like always. I smiled and placed it by my side and turned the gift over to where the tape was and slowly peeled off the wrapping. It was a picture frame. That's odd.
I turned it over and my eyes widened and I covered my mouth. I couldn't believe I was already crying and I stood up and hugged Kurama tighter than I've ever hugged anyone before.
"Oh my god Kurama thank you so much." I was still in shock.
It was a current picture of Yukina.
.:~{*+*}~:.
I walked into my room and Jin wasn't there. I shook my head and placed the frame on my nightstand and stared at the picture as I put the rose on the platform.
She was so beautiful. Her hair was so long and the same blue color that I remember. I admit, I hate blue hair so much because it reminds me of her. Her eyes though, they were my own. Bright red. She looked so innocent, she was gorgeous and I couldn't get over it.
The door opened and Jin slid in and he looked at me and grinned.
"Hallo Hiei!" He said cheerfully and walked over and looked at the picture.
"Who's that? She looks like ya." He said and I couldn't help the smile that came to my face as I said,
"My darling sister Yukina."
.:~{*+*}~:.
"Welcome to group Hiei." Kurama said dryly when I walked in a few minutes late... Okay it was a half an hour but whatever.
"Hn." I glared his way but found my way to a seat right next to Jin and Chu like I always did.
"Hey lil' guy wus been goin' on wit chu? You're kinda late." Chu said and I turned to him and sighed and shook my head.
"Nothing. Bad dreams is all." I scratched my head and played with my hair. I wonder when I'd be considered well enough to get hair products so I could do up my hair. It's looking rather lame down.
"What are they dreams of?" Koenma looked relevantly interested in the bad dreams I was having and I sighed. I didn't want to tell him. I didn't want to tell anyone. I figured I'd be as vague as possible and that way they couldn't figure out what the dream really meant.
"Nothing." I said quickly and quietly and Koenma crossed his legs and leaned forward more on his chair. I have to admit, having him sit directly across from me was rather annoying. "Absolutely nothing."
"Hiei, come on you've made no progress in a while." He nudged the white board I noticed Jin was still on 0 so I clamped my jaw shut. I didn't want to leave Jin, no, not yet.
"Come on now Hiei tell us wus been goin' on in yer head thar." Jin said and gave me a grin, I turned my head so my blush wouldn't burn red.
"I'm lost... In a forest and I don't know where I am... One person is calling me from one side and the other person is calling me from the other side... I don't know what direction to go." I said quietly and Koenma beamed at me. He seemed to be excited that I shared my story to the group. No, I was sharing my story to Jin and I hoped he knew he was one of them.
"Hiei what a complex dream you seem to be having..." I zoned him out and stared at the floor. I wasn't here anymore. I was somewhere safe.
"Hiei..."
"Hiei!"
I couldn't tell which one I'd prefer. Kurama's smooth voice or Jin's happy yell. I came quite fond of them both. And before I knew it I was listening to Koenma again.
"...so you just have to go to the voice that sounds like they need you the most." I looked up at him and looked back down. This group was a waste I want to go home...
.:~{*+*}~:.
"HIIIIIEEEEEIIII!" Kurama called, his voice grew tired and wary. "HIIIEEEIIII!"
"HIEI! HIEI!" Jin screamed. "HIEI WHERE ARE YA! PLEAS' COME OUT HIEI!"
Jin needs me... That's who needed me... Jin, all along it was Jin...
I turned to his direction and dashed, I could care less about all of the trees smacking me in the face. I just needed to get to Jin, and fast.
I woke up panting and I turned to Jin who slept soundly in the bed next to me. I smiled softly.
"So handsome." Well right back at you Jin...
I sat on my bed and stood up and walked by Jin's bed and reached out my hand.
"Hiei... Hiei..." His voice was soft but I could tell he was calling for me. I couldn't help but smile.
"I'm here Jin." I touched his arm and his eyes flickered open. He looked up at me and smiled. He scooted over on his bed and patted down on it. I climbed into the bed next to him and cuddled up to his chest. He was so warm.
Maybe... Just maybe...
Jin was all I needed.
D'awwwwwwwwwwwwwww *heart heart*... don't worry it won't be a Paige story if I don't fuck this up somehow. Maybe next chapter I will? *evil chuckle*
Review please :D That's what inspires me to write!... That and fanart lol