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(Dolly's POV)

I woke up earlier than usual. It still looked dark outside, I turned to my window seeing the stars were still there. My clock said it was 5:17 AM. So early, but I can't go back to sleep.

I quietly opened my door trying to not wake up Darry or Soda. I went to the kitchen grabbing a glass of water. My head started to hurt so I also grabbed an aspirin. I sighed contently, It's so quiet, so calm.

Still in the dark I sat down on one of the couches looking off into space, drowning in my thoughts. I wasn't really afraid of the dark. Ever since my parents died, since I saw their coffins I wasn't afraid of much stuff. It kind of made me a bit tougher. Actually I yearned for the dark seeing if maybe I could see some light, maybe see the ghosts of my parents or something. I sighed feeling myself get sad. They missed my 17th birthday and will miss more. I had so many dreams of them meeting their grandchildren. I wanted my daddy to give me to my future husband, wanted them to see me graduate. So many things lost in a day. At least I had my brothers, I loved them so much. This is why I worry myself every time they had a rumble. There was one fear I had that made my stomach flip, my blood go cold, my breath get caught in my throat. Loosing another family member or dear friend. I wouldn't be able to handle another death. It would be too much...

I heard someone mumbling in the room, Soda? Darry?

"What the fuck kid, it's way to early?"

I gasped turning around, "Wha-what? Steve?"

I could see Steve rubbing his eyes, it seemed he was sleeping on the second couch. He looked for me since it was still sort of dark. I rolled my eyes, great just who I wanted to see.

He sat up straight yawning, "Geez, why are you so up so early?"

I folded my arms, "Well I couldn't sleep I-" Then I remembered what I was thinking a moment ago. I sighed sadly sitting next to him.

"You ok?" He asked a bit concerned.

"Steve...Why-why do good people die? I mean, If there is a God, why does he do that kind of stuff?" My voice broke at the end of the sentence. I could sense Steve stiffen.

"I really don't know what to say, I mean, people die everyday... Things happen for a reason, but this also made your family stronger ya know. Your more closer than ever, more stronger." He said quietly.

Tears began to fall down my cheeks, "It sucks so much Steve. They missed my 17th birthday...More birthdays they won't be there. Steve, I miss them so much."

He awkwardly put his arm on my shoulders trying to comfort me. I felt this tension between us, it wasn't exactly bad. We looked at each other for a moment, then I leaned in closer and kissed him.

At first I wasn't conscious of what I was doing. Things felt so in slow motion, Steve obviously was shocked by this, I could feel his lips tremble, then I parted from him letting out a small gasp.

What the fuck did I just do?

I shook my head, "Steve I-I'm so sorry."

Then the lights turned on, it was Sodapop. He looked bewildered when he was us.

"What the fuck is going on?" He asked getting walking towards us.

Steve shook his head trying to explain, I wiped away my tears, "Don't get your panties in a bunch."

Soda was at my side, "Were you crying?" he asked softly.

I took this opportunity, "Yeah...I woke up early and found Steve sleeping. He heard me in the kitchen then asked me what was going on."

He looked at Steve a bit suspiciously, "Did you do something to her?"

"No no Soda! Actually he helped by listening to me." I said nervously.

Steve nodded, "Y-yeah, just take it easy Soda."

I got up, "It's still a bit early guys, let's get back to sleep."

Soda grabbed my hand, "See you in a couple hours Steve."

"Sure." He replied.

I didn't dare look back at Steve, my face felt so hot. How embarrassing. How could I have done that?!

(Steve's POV)

Dolly kissed me?! Wh-What the fuck? Is she out of her mind?! I was pacing in my room trying to calm myself down. My best friend's sister...Kissed me! It felt so wrong, my best friend's kid sister. This is so not right. It felt like I was betraying Soda. Luckily that kid knew how to lie, well only a bit but she got her way. Soda will probably ask me what was going on, his look that he gave me before going to bed meant that he didn't buy the whole thing.

I shook my head putting my face into my hands, it was a really big surprise. I did not expect that. She got closer to me, at first I thought she was going to shout at me or something like that but when I felt her lips on mine I didn't exactly know how to react. Yeah yeah her kiss was great...It was soft I guess, maybe I liked it, what the fuck am I thinking?!

This was too much for me, It was already 6 in the morning. One more hour left, might as well go at my place. My pops is way too knocked out by the alcohol to be awake.

I laid on my bed stretching, maybe I could at least sleep half an hour. I don't want to think anymore of the situation. Little Brat...Dolly...

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The next day Dolly was woke up to an empty house. Since she woke up way too early that day and fell asleep again, Soda told Darry to let her sleep. Dolly got up a bit relieved Steve wasn't there, she wouldn't know how to act in front of him after that ... incodent.

After taking a shower, eating breakfast and getting some clothes, she went on doing her chores. Laundry, dishes, sweep and mop. It was only 2 in the afternoon, Johnny appeared. He sat down next to Dolly who was reading a book while listening to some music. Dolly couldn't keep what she did to Steve, Angie wasn't around in Tulsa, she went with some family out of town for a week. She would be back in some days. Johnny was her best friend also but it felt kind of weird.

In the end Dolly decided to tell.

"Hey Johnny? Can I tell you something?" She said nervously putting the book on the coffee table.

He shrugged, "Sure Dolly."

"I uh, last night... I kissed Steve."

His eyes widened, "You what?!"

Dolly told him the incident that happened, Johnny only looked at her shockingly. Johnny obviously found this a bit disturbing since it was her and Steve...

"Um, Dolly...I think it was a bit too farfetched. I mean you and Steve? If you still like him I guess it's ok but a relationship? You know your brothers and the rest will totally be against it. Me well, love is love, the only thing is that there's this guy code." He said.

She blushed, "I-I-you don't understand! I didn't know why I kissed him! I guess I still like him and yes I know it would be wrong to have a relationship with him. Oooh Johnny! I'm too embarrassed to even be in the same room with him!"

Johnny chuckled, "How did he take it?"

"Oh my Gosh Johnny, he didn't say anything! Soda almost caught us!"

He gasped, "You serious? Oh gosh Dolly."

Dolly shook her head, "I don't know how but I managed to get ourselves out of that problem. My lying skills have gotten better. I sure hope Soda doesn't get any ideas or nag Steve about last night."

"Look Dolly, talk to Steve about this. It won't be solved if you just ignore the problem."

She looked at Johnny, He's really smarter than what people think he is.

Sighing she nodded, "You're right. When he gets here I'll try to give him a private talk."

(Dolly's POV)

It was around sevenish at night. Everybody had something to do, Two-Bit was watching TV, Darry was arm wrestling with Dally which was useless since obviously Darry would win, Soda was talking to Johnny about girls thinking it was time to give him some tips while Steve was cracking up with every guy tip Soda was babbling about.

I was in my room pacing around trying to think of what I would say to Steve, how I could have the balls to even look him in the eyes or even get a word to him without getting all nervous or jittery. I threw myself on the bed frustrated at how hard this was getting to be. Why the fuck did I have to kiss that jerk?! I stayed quiet to keep myself calm, the clock ticked, laughs and grunts were heard from the living room. If I keep this up, Steve would leave soon and I'd have to go through this again the other day. I stood up confident, gasped for a breathe of air and walked out my room.

I saw Two-Bit and Soda wrestling on the floor, Johnny looked up to me, I gave him a glance communicating what I was about to do. He apparently knew so he kept his head down without giving Steve a quick look who was next to him. Darry was on the other couch reading the newspaper, he looked at me raising an eyebrow.

"Geez kid you sure can disappear can't you?" He said jokingly.

I smiled, "It's a gift I have. I can disappear completely If I want to."

I saw Steve in the corner of my eye who seemed nervous at my presence. I sighed, the only excuse I could have is to grab a smoke outside.

"Hey uh Dar, can I have a smoke tonight? I really need it." I pleaded.

Two-Bit still on the floor sitting on top of Soda said, "Smoking is bad didn't you know that little lady?"

I rolled my eyes, "I don't usually smoke dumb-bit, I just really want one today." I pushed him enough to make him fall back to help Soda regain power over him. He gave me a wink which meant thanks!

Darry rubbed his chin, "Just this one ok Dolly? You know you can't really smoke, remember what the social worker-"

I cut him off, "I know Darry, I don't smoke much. Give it a break."

I went outside in the cool fresh air, I breathed in feeling so peaceful. I glanced back at Johnny telling him to ask Steve to meet with me. Johnny nodded whispering something to him so nobody else could notice. My breathe quivered, gosh I was so nervous. Not looking behind me I heard the door open.

"What do you want?" He asked a bit irritated.

"I-I just wanted to talk about what happened yesterday, look it was a mistake. I really don't know what happened. I think I was just...Crazy or something. I apologize for that um, inconvenience. Let's just...forget it. I must say though, you are one good kisser." Damn it did I just say that?!

I didn't hear Steve's response, I couldn't look at him, it was sooo embarrassing. My hands got sweaty, my smoke was already gone, this was getting uncomfortable. The silence we had was making it worse. I thought he was going to say something back but I guess Steves really pissed off.

"Well then I'm going back inside."

Before I entered he grabbed my arm, "You're right, let's just forget it kid."

Still I did not look at him but nodded at what at his response, "Yeah."

I walked inside first, "Hey Soda, did you make chocolate cake?"

He grinned, "I sure did Doll face." He grabbed me into a tight hug to which I returned. His arms were so comforting, it felt as if nothing could go wrong.

Then came in Steve, "Gotta go guys, I'm feeling really beat."

Both Johnny and I looked at each other, he raised an eyebrow while I bit the inside of my cheek.

Dally then stood up from where he was sitting, "I'll go out with you, I need to get going too. See ya around guys."

I sat on the kitchen table putting my face on my hands, stupid stupid stupid kiss! I felt a hand on my shoulder, it was Johnny.

"You ok there?" He asked sitting down.

I nodded, "Kind of, I'll tell you tomorrow. I'm just not in the mood."

Soda then showed up giving us a piece of cake, "You ok Doll face?" He asked with concerned.

"I'm just tired. Love you Soda thanks." I said already digging in my slice.

He nodded, "If you need anything just tell me ok?"

Again I nodded, he left me with Johnny eating quietly. Stupid...

(sorry for some grammar mistakes)