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From Woman and Man Who Love Them
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Chapter 6 – Last Rain
Rainy day for a week, sign of Winter's Arrival
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Jae Ha asked her "then, what should we do now? I can't tell Yona Dear about that".
It make Lily rise from her seat and banged the table "WHAT?! Why? you should tell Yona so Yona can stop him if you really care for them".
Jae Ha sighed in annoyance "because without he tell me out loud, i had known that he ask me to not tell Yona Dear about it and keep that on myself until the time's come, because of that he can tell me that thing. What can i do right now just doing what he want while he keep protecting her in silence by her side like this entire time till the time's come and...".
"and when the time's come, you will regret because you let Hak die for her own good and make her heart shattered into pieces again".
Jae Ha clenched his fist and turned his face away to his side, refused to acknowledge Lily got the point. Lily sighed, looks like her word was too much and became sword that had stab his inner heart. She should aware from his conversation with Hak just now, that he not only loved Yona, he loved Hak too.
So here, Lily take her seat once again "i'm sorry... i don't mean to say something cruel but it's about possibility. Whatever can happen at battlefield and what must we doing if it's too late? I don't want see her suffering that grief again, lost her important person... lost someone precious for her moreover her beloved one once again? It's far too cruel...".
"think of my position too, i have no choice but of course i'd rather to do something. Maybe i should replacing Hak's position at that time?".
"don't be silly!? If you die, what would Yona and Hak feeling?".
"or should i stop him before the time come? With...", Jae Ha stop at that and silence after saw Lily's expression; eyebrow raised and eye widen while looked him with awe yet... irritated maybe? It made him wave his hand "ah, forget the crazy idea just i said, what a ridiculous idea, looks like i've had a bit tipsy... why did i say it? I'm supposed to really hate that...".
Unexpected, Lily smirked with dangerous intention "that's good idea you had suggested".
"eh?", this time Jae Ha raised his eyebrow and eyes widen, maybe his slipped word had made dangerous idea on the Daughter's General Water Tribe's mind.
"don't worry, it would be last resort if my first plan didn't going well".
"and what did you want to do?".
"like it or not, i would told Yona tonight and no matter it can stop Hak or not, i'll confirm about what that stupid-tofu-face King doing to Yona at Xing".
"please don't...".
"why? he asked you, but he didn't asked me, so it's alright if i am the one who speak to Yona, right?".
"thinking about her feeling".
"thinking about what's best for her that could make her be happy with Hak... I just would persuade her a little after tell her about it. So, she would confessing her feeling to Hak or not, it's her choice even if i have a feeling that she must be pissed or maybe she would cry, or both of that reaction...".
"fine then, let me come with you this time, but... after you say about possibility, what if your first plan didn't going well?".
"even if it means i must pushed her a bit hard that maybe would made her cry but it's for her, too", Lily rise and pointed him "my last resort come from your idea, so you had a responsibility here, too".
Jae Ha crossed his arm in front of his chest and bowed with heavy sigh "oh, crap... looks like i must prepared for my head will be chopped off by Hak...".
Lily raised her eyebrow, pondered she must asked him or not and she asked "i should ask you first before i including you with my plan... is it alright for you? If Yona with Hak be together? I mean, you love her too, right?".
Jae Ha smiled bittersweetly "and i love Hak too, don't forget it... both of them so endearing, so amazing and lovable... what i want just their happiness, not only because they're deserve for happiness, but because i love both of them, too".
Like she told Jae Ha before, tonight Lily told Yona but known Yona, she is so oblivious and no wonder she didn't aware of Hak's feeling. Rather than talked forward, maybe she should elicit a reaction of her first.
So Lily started with their girl-talk-session like before "Yona, tomorrow i would go to Hiryuu castle with General Tae Woo, right?"
"right, and then?".
"if sooner or later you will tell him about your feeling, why not tonight so you can give me the reassurance?".
Yona sighed at that "now you're talking... but even if i want to do that, if i even don't know about what he is thinking about me...".
This is it, why she mentioned her oblivious, it made her didn't care and open the secret "you must know, he love you too, i'm sure about it".
"don't start that, Lily... how can you sure about it?".
"hey, my suspicious and perceptive started since you told me that he acknowledge you as the coolest woman had he ever seen".
"since that long?!".
"wait, calm down and don't interrupt me. When i heard that word and keep my eye to both of you for several days, it feel like you and he isn't just the princess with her bodyguard. Even if you and he was childhood friend, is it normal to make a strawberry-talk between you two?".
"what is 'strawberry-talk' means?".
"it is bittersweet conversation between a lover, now could you tell me what similar thing which had he told you for make sure his word that acknowledge you as the coolest girl had he ever seen isn't just a compliment? Or he had tried to make a move to you?".
"make a move? Like what?".
"with doing sort of an lover's action like hug you".
Hak had hugged her so many times but hug didn't counted much because not only Hak who hugged her, the others did that too.
"fine, what about the kiss?".
After Yona blushed hard, Lily heard Yona's answer that surprised her, of course, remembered Yona told her that Hak had kissed her twice, at her eyelids though.
"and how could you still didn't aware that he love you too?!", Lily scratched her temple before pointed her finger to Yona "oh my god... listen, a kiss just doing with someone precious to you, someone that you loved. You kissed him before parted with him because you felt really hard to leave him, you kissed him because you love him but the question right now, why Hak kissed you? Kiss isn't a thing that supposed to be a joke so if it's just a joke, it's too much".
"but Jae Ha...".
"oh, please, you can't compare that perverted friends of yours with other man in this world", Lily waved her hand, sighed tiredly before Lily grabbed her shoulder, talked eye to eye "listen well... what i would tell you maybe surpise you but before i tell you, i must let you know that i want you remember, i tell you because i think you must know this... i know it's not my place to interfere but i have no choice, if there's someone who can stop him, it's only you, Yona... only you who can stop Hak".
Yona became tense, knew this is serious moreover after Hak's name mentioned "what did he want to do, Lily?".
She knew this feeling well, she wouldn't forget how she felt anger fulfilled her because of his recklessness, because she felt helpless and couldn't do anything everytime he injured, this time after Lily told her about Jae Ha and Hak conversation's, she felt anger fulfilled her because she missed look at his intention. And here, she found Hak at the garden when she looked at the bucket on the well.
When Hak lost at his mind at the garden, looked up to the sky which the moon hidden behind the dark clouds, looks like thunderstorm would happened tonight. When he decided to ended his training session, he suprised by someone yelled behind him.
"HAK, YOU STUPID IDIOT?!", Yona threw the bucket that had fulfilled with water to him and successfully made him soaked from his head to the toe.
He had wanted yelled back at her, scolded her for threw that bucket filled water and made him soaked if not because of her fiercing eyes enough to shut his mouth.
Yona grabbed his robe and pulled his face into her level, ignored the drops of cold water from his soaked face that dropped into her face "don't you remember? After you hurt that badly because protecting me at the cliff, i had told you, right? 'Please don't just leave on your own! You're the only one that must be by my side!' So what do you mean with intend to bringing back what had taken from me by Soo Won even if you must leave my side!?".
"she says that so easily as always... remember your place, Hak, if you let yourself get surprised by what the princess doing to you so there would be no end to that... i should make the deal with the Droopy Eyes later...", Hak sighed heavily as he accepted the fact he must faced her while twisted his brain for sought the way to runaway from this situation, but fruitless, he knew Yona must be knew because she will predicted about his choice to ended all of this so he have no choice except faced her rage now "so... did the Droopy Eyes tell you something?".
"what the deal of this with Jae Ha? Lily was the one who told me that you intend to leave my care to the Dragon and what you want to do? Did you really want to die and leave my side as the cost of bringing back all of that was taken by Soo Won from me!?".
"it's not only about you and him!? It's about me and him, too!? You think how about my feeling when you ordered me to not kill him!?".
Yona stopped at that, she should know about this, he couldn't forgive him till now and that's why he wanted kill him.
"it's because... if you kill him at that time, i thought i would lost you and i don't want that!?", Yona closed her eyes for a moment before lifted her face again so her eyes catched his eyes and she continued within told him about the difference of how she felt when she spent her time with Soo Won and him; where she looked forward the time she spent talked with Soo Won because she felt it was happy and fun and how she wanted to get close to him so much even if she felt her chest tighten cause of she gots difficult to breathe that made her afraid of him sometimes, she wonders if it's because from the start actually she just loved him but she just couldn't see that way "when i felt that i want to touch you, even if i had thinking over and over about let you go after give back your freedom when all of this over, i don't know that i would need you by my side so badly like this... even so, you're still want to leave my side?".
He could barely focus to heard her confession and he didn't believe at what she had told him, so the princess thought like that about him? All along this time, the princess felt afraid to even spoke to him and wanted to let him go? He knew that she didn't fond of him but it was clear for him, he thought the princess just thought him as a burden that would she throw away when all of this ended. It didn't matter though, remembered he is the one who had asked her to use him as her tools so she could keep alive.
"that's a lie... as if you really need me... all this entire time, the one that you love just him... since back then, it's always like that, right?", Hak closed both of his eyes with his forearm before he finally looked at her in the eye, his eyes looked so sharp and cold, only possessed by mixed feeling of depth sadness and anger, Yona didn't know it was his jealousy because he rarely showed his jealousy "that's why you keep that hairpin all along this entire time, that's why you still can believe him, that's why you ordered me to not kill him and cried after he told you that he love you too... because you don't want all those times together with him just a lie, that's mean you're still love him, am i wrong?".
Thunderbolt stole its way from the sky between the cloud that covered moon tonight down to the earth, as if the sky would cry tonight, the thunderstorm fallen from the sky not so long after that Thunderbolt cleared their sight when looked at each other. Where Yona could see how Hak's jealousy which Yona thought as his disappointment towards her because he thought she still loved Soo Won and not him, the most thing she scared of that made her lost courage to confessed her feeling since yesterday. Where Hak could see how her tears fallen to her cheeks because his word had stabbed her heart, stabbed himself, stabbed both of their hearts. He only bowed his head and clenched his fist when Yona turned her back and left him, before he stepped his foot into the rain, stood still in the middle of thunderstorm.
"that's right, princess... run far away before i lost my control to hold myself back for not hug you tightly... go away... i can't go wherever till you order me to go, so go away before i trying to reach you...", Hak looked up to the sky where rain fallen from the sky so hard and cold, made the drops of rain or the drops of tears would hard to differentiated, he had known for so long time that she didn't belong to him, and she would never belong to him because like Yona loved Soo Won, Soo Won loved her too, he wanted her to kept alive so it wouldn't matter whenever she abandoned him when she thought she needn't him as her tools anymore or before it happened, something happen to him when he tried to killed him for brought back what she deserved and she needed as the right heir, in the end what he wanted just what's the best of her to gave back her happiness even if it means, he must let her go and he couldn't by her side.
When he stepped his foot with intention of wandering aimlessly in the middle of rain, Jae Ha landed behind him and stopped him while gave his umbrella above their head "it's better if you came inside... you would get a cold if this goes on".
"shut up and go check for her".
"it's needn't, there's Lily Dear who stay by her side tonight", Jae Ha grabbed his shoulder and asked him to came inside the building once more time but Hak decided to go out of the Lily's mansion.
It's enough already, tonight he just wanted to cool his messed mind down with the rain.
Memory of that night ran through her mind again, one more time, like when she saw her father die at his hand, the man once she loved, when she saw her father stabbed after the thunderbolt rang into her ears, so this night when she tried to confessed her feeling, she felt like stabbed by him before the thunderbolt appeared again from the sky, just like that night.
She felt like she stopped breathing, it's hard for her to breathe. What she knew right now just that she couldn't by his side because she felt as if she would collapsed in front of him so before that happened, she ran without aware of her surroundings or her tears that flowed freely from her eyes, till Lily grabbed her hand and guide her towards her private place, her room.
Lily knew she shouldn't see what happened but it's too late, what she could do right now just brought Yona with her to her room. So whenever she had closed her room's door, Lily took a seat in front of Yona who had broke to tears since a moment ago.
Between her tears and sorrow, Yona could manage to talked what she felt to Lily while hugged Lily tightly and sobbed "i know i shouldn't talking about Soo Won in front of him... but what should i do, Lily? what should i do now... to make Hak believe to my feeling towards him? It hard enough... to confessed my feeling... and it more hard enough... if i know he couldn't... believe me after he... dissapointed or anger to me... which i understand... why he... how could he... after what Soo Won did...".
Of course Yona would thought Hak's jealousy as sort of disappointment, mixed feeling of sadness and anger because Yona didn't know that Hak loved her since a long time ago, longer than her feeling growed for him.
Lily hugged her and patted her back, she wanted to slap Hak for made her cried and so stubborn, why did he couldn't believe what Yona felt towards him right now but reminded how long Hak loved Yona, it can't be helped at all even if she still thought it's too much.
Now, what should she do? Tomorrow she must went to Hiryuu Castle and Yona even didn't confessed her feeling yet. Maybe she just could asked her partners-in-crime-soon to gave her a favor while she finished her business at Hiryuu Castle; became guide for two princess of Xing Kingdom with General Tae Woo and privately confront the King about what he did to her at Xing. After Yona fallen to sleep, exhausted of crying so hard, when her eyes trailed out of the window, she could see how the drops of rain fallen down to the earth as if the sky cried tonight. Without they all know, this is the last rain before the winter came.
Looked up to the sky, finally she broke the silence "Jae Ha, where's Hak?".
Jae Ha who sat at the roof and peeked up to the sky below his umbrella just shrugged "who know? He run away to outside after make her cry... that's why i tell you, please don't...".
"i don't regret it, sooner or later they would know, so why must hesitate now if soon, maybe we would make her cry, too?".
"are you really her friend?".
"and are you really his brother?", Lily sighed, bowed her head and closed her eyes for a while, before she continued "i'll just ask you a favor... please keep an eye for both of them while i went to Hiryuu castle and let me know if they be together or not... after i confront the King, it would be the consideration of our planning, we must do that or not".
"...Dear, should i recruit other person to cooperate with us if we should do the last resort?".
"if you think it's necessary then... but who?".
"let's talk about it and deal with it later, after you confront the King".