And I do not know why
Okay, Right now I would have to tell you.
Sasuke was taking this dating thing a little too seriously.
He wanted fights and make-ups and kissing in public.
I was pretty scared to see what came next.
"When Sakura and I get close enough, I want a break up in front of everyone, alright? After then, you'll be done working for me and receive a bit more of the cash that I usual pay you and I'll have Sakura, We'll both get what we want."
That was what he told me, he seemed all confident and smiles about it. As for me? Yeah, Well I just nodded, agreeing to whatever he wanted. The next day at school was a bit shocking, I'll admit. Sasuke wouldn't leave my side, as if I was a mere child and would panic in such a big place. He held my hand, kissed my cheek, gave me that stupid little smirk of his.
"You're trying too hard." I would tell him with a sigh, breaking our hands apart as I went to my locker to exchange my textbooks, not bothering to even look at him.
"Well what do you expect? Sakura is bound to get even more jealous sooner or later when she sees us like this, it's kinda the plan now, you see?" The jock said with a chuckle, leaning against the locker beside mine, at that moment, his eyes widened.
"There's Sakura now." He smirked and I got a bit scared of what his actions would be next.
"Sasuke, y-you better not-" Before I could even give out the rest of my threatening words to the Uchiha, I was against my own locker, hands pinning down my arms as Sasuke's lips kept at mine. What. The. Hell? It was worse when I felt something run along my lower lip. Sasuke then pulled back from me, looking around to see that no one had actually passed by.
"False alarm." He called cheerfully to me and turned on his heel to stroll down the hallway like a true asshole could. I wiped my lips at my arms, Sasuke was really getting too into all this, using tongue and all. I shivered, Damn him. I then sighed, turned back to my locker to put away my books, what I planned on doing before I would get attacked in another kiss of death.
"Excuse me!"
I gritted my teeth, slamming my locker, annoyed of the constant interruption.
"What?" I dared as I turned around to face, Ino Yamanaka. The girl would always come in second place to the beauty queen herself, one who had to take away everything from someone just to be happy and I had a bad feeling that Sasuke was involved in all of this.
"How the hell is someone like you dating Sasuke Uchiha?" She questioned, shaking her head a bit to lift the fringe that covered half of her cream colored face. I shrugged with a grin.
"Who knows, Maybe I got lucky, that good enough for you?" Clearly not seeing as she didn't storm off like she usually did when she didn't get her way. Sure as hell surprised me, that was for sure.
"Tayuya~ We're friends right?" She instantly questioned, throwing an arm around me as those lips caught in a snarl fading to an artificial smile and I was no fool at all.
"Uh no, I can't really say we are." Wrong answer.
"Look, your going to get Sasuke's attention on me! Got it, ya little nerd?" I winced, how could she keep such a sweet voice while speaking like that.
"I know things about you, ya know? I rule this school and I won't have you or build board brow take Sasuke away from me!" I blinked, pausing in step, Ino walked ahead and then paused soon after when she noticed I wasn't at her sight, she looked back.
"Build board brow?" I questioned, feeling stupid in the matter.
"Ugh, Sakura of course!" Well sorry, I didn't know we were in first grade little miss princess of the rich and snobby
. "Yea, good one." I mumbled and walked ahead, tucking my hands in my pockets as I just wanted to leave.
"I will find things about you."
I heard the threat from the blonde in the hallway and I froze, thinking confidently as I smirked.
"Go for it." I dared and continued on, I had nothing to hide except for the fact that I was a poor high school student dating the school jock for cash. Yea, I was a pretty normal kid. Well the fan girls need to leave Sasuke alone anyway, I mean if I had people like Ino liking me then I would look pretty emo too. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Ugh, you know what I mean. Just if Ino found about my whole...poor thing. I didn't care about the insults or the abuse the school would have me suffer, I just didn't want pity from anyone. I didn't need help, I didn't want a fundraiser and I sure as hell did not want to be put in a foster home. My fists tightened as I made my way to Chemistry Class.
I opened the door and went to my desk, throwing my bag down as I waited.
"Eh, geek." That voice, may just be the only voice that would make me want to whip out my flute and beat a small innocent child repeatedly in the face. Kiba Inuzuka, yeah that bastard was in my Chem class. Whoop. De. Do. I tapped my fingertips on the surface of my desk.
"Yo asshole." I don't know where I got the confidence but damn, that surely twisted the face of the jock before me and I felt myself feel a little empowered. Looks like I caught a bit of Sasuke's cockiness, Ha.
"Cute, real cute." Kiba sneered and sat beside me, a smirk on his lips, disgracing every single person who could ever smirk and be claimed good looking. Sasuke would kick him in the face if he saw the ugliness of such a face.
"So the dance in in a few days, I understand that your not going, just like last year." I rolled my eyes and bit my tongue. And I suppose your going with your mother unless even she is disgusted with giving birth to a beast. Oh yes, I went there.
"No." Kiba''s eyebrows raised in interest as if he for once cared.
"Oh? Then who the hell would take you?" I hesitated and sank in my seat a bit before blurted.
"Sasuke would!" All eyes snapped back to me and it felt like band class all over again. My face burned in red and my self esteem crumbling like a building straight to the ground.
"You kidding!" The dog boy barked, laughing hard as if it was meant to be a joke. All I could thing right now would be how Sasuke would react to the news, maybe he was thinking of asking Sakura? Just a guess of course.
"Yeah, he's gonna ask me at lunch." Wow, I just couldn't keep my mouth shut could I? Kiba grinned and I knew then that I had started something big.
"Alright then, I guess I'll just have to see this for myself." He said and gave me a hard pat on the back, I winced. I was in serious trouble and I don't think Sasuke would like this at all. So I bet your all wondering what exactly happened at lunch, eh? Well I tried to pull him to the side and warn him but Kiba claimed dibs, taking both of our wrists in his hands.
Sasuke looked to me and I to him.
"So Sasuke, I heard that you were planning on asking someone to the dance!" Kiba exclaimed so the entire lunch room hushed and Sakura stood in the front of everyone, tucking a hair behind her ear as she only gave a faint smile as we locked eyes. I wigged in the grip, I wanted to run away and never show my face, I don't care if I had to eat in the bathroom again. Sasuke cleared his throat and stood up straight.
"Yeah, I was planning on asking a very beautiful girl..." I waited for the crash, the exclamation of Sakura's name and the gloating of Kiba. I waited to be struck down and outcasted once more, I lowered my eyes.
"Tayuya..." That soft voice, was this where the break up began? Still I didn't look up. Fingertips danced under my chin and I sighed as he was face to face with Sasuke, my eyes trying to hid hurt as black orbs saw right through me.
"Can I be your escort for the dance?" Bam. As if struck down by thunder , I was frozen. Kiba was as in as much shock as me. Sakura's smile grew a bit and I smiled.
"WHAT!" Kiba boomed and I laughed. "I could feel eyes on me and my body was shaking.
"Yeah..." Was all I could manage and then Sasuke kissed me again and there was nothing but utter silence.
It felt amazing. That day after school, Sasuke offered to walk me home. I blinked and closed my locker.
"You feeling alright? For a second I thought you wanted to walk me home." The jock mockingly laughed and stood up from his leaning on the lockers.
"Haha, Excuse me for being a gentleman." I laughed at that which made him pout.
"Fine fine, Come on pretty boy." My hand was then en laced with another.
"Right behind you anime gal." I had gotten used to the glares and blank stares of girls in the hallways but one I found utterly annoyed by. Ino. I squeezed Sasuke's hand as we made contact and Sasuke squeezed back out of concern, confused and curious I guessed.
"What's wrong?" He would ask me.
"Nothing, just nothing." I would answer back and he would walk me home. Standing at the gate outside my house, just staring up at Sasuke made me smile. I liked being with him.
"Eh, Who the hell is this punk?" Sasuke pulled his hands from mine and I felt my heart stop, my eyes widen as an arm held around my shoulders, smoke blowing past in the wind.
"Yeah and why is he near her?"A voice spat and I gave a look of pity to my boyfriend.
"Sasuke...these are my cousins, Jirobo and-" I was stopped.
"You don't need to tell him anything, Tayuya."
My other cousin barked. "You're lucky we don't tell your parents your fucking around..."
Sasuke stepped up to my smoking cousin.
Simply taking the fag from his mouth and dropping it to the pavement, crushing it under his foot.
"Those aren't very good for you." Now glaring at each other the two stood nose to nose.
"You some kind of doctor?" Sasuke boredly raised an eyebrow.
"Hn, Do I look like one? If I was one, I would prescribe you something that would take care of your manner problem."
Kidomaru's glare harden. "Say WHAT!" This wasn't good.
"Well I'll see you tomorrow Sasuke, thanks for walking me home..." I spoke up softly and Sasuke's gaze snapped to me, a warm smile appeared and he nodded.
"Anytime, See you tomorrow..." I was happy enough that Sasuke walked off and wasn't pummbled by my delinquent cousins. I let out the breath that seemed to be held inside me, it felt hard to breath again. When I entered the house the door was slammed and I winced.
"Who the fuck is that!" I blinked and turned to Kidomaru. I bit my tongue to blurt it was my boyfriend.
"If he's your friend then he's not anymore. In fact next time I see him, He's dead." I weakly laughed, he was joking. You could easily tell that he was. A part of me didn't and I knew that.
"Understand?" I sighed and nodded, throwing my messenger bag down as I began to trudge to me room, passing the twins on the couch as a loud anime was playing, Kimi was no where in sight as he was probably in his own world reading. I sighed and stomped up the stairs and went to my door, as I reached for the knob, I hear a faint humming. I looked down the hall to find nothing but I felt a feeling pulling to my parents room.
Halfway down the hall, I found it to be a woman's voice.
I felt my heart pound and my head repeat over and over again that my mother was gone. She did not care about me. All this was an illusion. I went the door and the humming did not stop but once my fingertips touched the knob, silence greeted me. I could hear my breathing hesitate as I turned the door and found a face turn to me, a ghost face in unison with another. Kimi smiled to me.
"Hello Tay-chan." At that very moment, I was choked up with emotion and thought. I felt as if I would scream.
"Kimi...why are you in here?" The eldest of my cousins blinked and simply shrugged, standing up from the bed as he led his eyes back onto his book.
"I did not know I wasn't aloud in." No one was allowed in. This room messed with the mind or maybe it was all just my imagination.
"If you want, I can leave." Kimi's ghost like voice spoke and as if like a silent breeze, he swept past me and left.
"Just leave! Take that damn brat with you!" I turned my head to the carpet and kept my hand on the knob, tightening my grip as I slowly left the room and closed the door shut. I felt a rumble in my stomach and found out that I hadn't eaten a thing today. I went to the stairs and fled to the kitchen. I checked every cupboard and found it to be empty. I guess tea would be okay too. Yet the bags were missing. I blinked, it slowly gained access through my thick skull that I was out of food. At first it didn't disturb me, then I was thrown into panic. Instantly the phone rang and I jumped.
"Oi get that will you?" A twin called from the couch, ramming his shoulder into the other.
"Me? Why me! Get off your arse and get it!" I bit my lip and reached to pick it up myself. Jirobo groaned at the argument of the twins.
"Ugh. I need another cigarette if I'ma deal with this shit any longer." Kidomaru snicked and nodded to agree.
"Hello?" I asked and heard my uncle's voice.
"Tayuya, my favorite niece! How's it holding up with all the boys? Good, good! I'm glad everyone's settled! Where's that brother of mine at?"
I froze. "He's uh..." The twins stopped in their wrestling match, Ukon on top of Sakon, pinning him down on the couch as his twin struggled.
"Ow! Grr, I'm tellin' Uncle Kiyo!" He yelled as he squirmed.
"Do it ya brat, I dare you!" Shit.
"He's still away, he's with mom." I spoke through the line.
"Still? Ahaha, those lovebirds, looks like you'll be stuck with the boys for awhile longer or just until I make a little visit." A visit? No. No.
"Yeah, sounds great." Smooth. Okay, so I was digging at my own grave and I knew this very well. Yet lying seemed to help so far, so why stop now. I hung up soon through the phone call for two reason. One, So the bill wouldn't sky rocket just so Orchimaru could talk about random things of his job and how Anko was. Two, So I didn't have to lie a bit more. I groaned, crossing my arms on the kitchen counter as I set my head down. I jumped as the phone rang again. Mother fucker. I reached for the phone and set it to my ear.
"What?" Boom, my heartbeat was racing.
"Tayuya? Hey baby." Perfect.
"Sasuke? Why the hell are you calling my house...wait, how do you know this number? Just, never mind. What do you want?"
"I want to tell you how lovely you are."
"Okay, Did you jack Sakura's phone line to this connection?" Silence.
"No, I didn't. What kind of person would I be! I'm a lover not creeper." He said as if he was given the biggest insult of his life. Psh, Drama Queen. I continued to hit my head on the counter.
"Of course, How dare me." Remind me again why I'm dating such a snobby jerk? Cash, oh yeah.
"So When are you gonna pay me, Uchiha?" I blurted annoyed of words he's probably told millions of girls already.
"Yeah, About that." I could tell how smooth those words came from his lips that a smirk was beginning to grow on the other line. That worried me. Before I could figure out what to ask of that, a know was at the door. The twins then fought their way to the door and I looked over my shoulder out of mere curiosity.
"Tayuya-chan!~ My angel!" Shit. "Tayuya?" Sasuke's voice questioned cutely confused.
"Who was that?" Acting as if I was cheating on him. I groaned, I knew who was here. I dreaded hearing that voice. The reason for the pounding on door of the girl's bathroom as I just wanted to shun myself of the world, hugging my legs close as if to become as small as possible and disappear.
"I'll call you back Sasuke." I mumbled into the phone and hung up to run to the door. The expression on Ukon and Sakon's face were blank, staring outside of the door to the tall bowl cut teen, wearing glasses just like mine, jeans, Chuck Taylor's on his feet and the biggest eyebrows I've even know to see in my life. Rock Lee, my old boyfriend, stood at my doorstep.
A large bouquet of flowers in his hands, they were instantly shoved at my face.
"Tayuya! My love, I have come to ask you to the dance and once again we can love each other as we were meant too!~" The twins snicked and I stared, jaw dropped in shock. The hateful comments and tears of memories of that dead old relationship with Lee came back to me and anger stirred and soon boiled in my veins.
"Lee, I'm with Sasuke now. Haven't you heard the rumors and weren't you at lunch today? He asked me to the dance! I'm not that stupid loner that has to eat in the girl's bathroom anymore, I love Sasuke and I wouldn't let you ruin this! I...I've always hated you!" Lee's face dropped and my hands were already shaking, soon pity changed all that. For a second, I thought he would actually cry.
"Wahh!~ How could this be? Tayuya, my love, I'll win your heart yet!" I blinked and then an annoyed expression crossed my face.
"You were always so immature, I can't believe I ever dated you!" I yelled and slammed the door in his face. The twins looked to me with a unison smirk. I glared to them and stomped to my room.
"Don't say anything at all." I warned and stopped at the top of the stairs to see that I still had the flowers in my grip. Sighing, I had mixed ideas of what to do with them. I examined them and found a card, In fancy writing it was my name and noted that it was from Lee. I raised an eye as I found writing on the back, turning the card over it read: Dear Tayuya, I found all I needed. I blinked and I felt my stomach twist as in big bold curvy letters was the Yamanaka Florists Inc. Shit. Ino couldn't know anything right? After all, Lee didn't tell her. I noticed my hands shaking.
I dropped the flowers to the floor.
Walking like the undead, I passed my bedroom door and went back to my parents room. I didn't feel like writing anyone tonight and I wanted comfort from anything, even if it was painful. I opened the door without hesitation and hear the sounds faintly swarm the dark bedroom. Children's laughter, small chatter between a female and male voice, crashes, yells and crying. I went to the bed and and sat myself down. That night, It rained, more like down poured but still rain all the same. I didn't want to go to school, I already had eyes of the student body on me because of Sasuke. For once in my life, I didn't know what to do. Usually I'd give up or not even try but when I thought about my situation, all that clouded my mind was black. Alright, I had to think positive. I lifted my hand to touch my lips with my fingertips. Happy things never really came to me. Ugh. So what's on tomorrow's agenda? Marching Band practice, Library, Sasuke dragging me on a date most likely. Hm, Then Friday was the football game and Saturday would be the dance. Great. I could feel my stomach lightly lift as I breathed out and then in once again, staring up at the white ceiling. The faint melody of a child's lullaby played and a crash of thunder split a chord as if to act as an uneven rhythm. Have you ever watched an anime called Soul Eater? It stars a pretty girl named Maka and her partner Soul, they absolutely belong together. They need each other to slay demons. Alone, it seems as if they're useless. Maybe that is how Sasuke and I fit. Alone...We're useless?
My hand crushed the covers on the bed in a tight grip. Boom. I remember when Sasuke took me to the baseball field.
"My dad used to bring me out here to watch the thunderstorms, It was how we bonded I guess."
That's what he told me.
"... I just wanted to come here again with someone I care about."
Now that I thought about it, I did care for Sasuke too. I guess. The school dance was coming up and I would probably tell Sasuke that I wont go. I didn't have a dress and why would he really wanna go with me anyway. Ugh, It sucks to be in high school. Boom. A jolt shook my body as it held the fear of thunder. I should have been used to it. Living in such a big house alone for so many years, you would think if I could handle the loneliness then I could handle the little thing of thunder. I sighed and closed my eyes, wanting to rest. Well until the door was kicked open and my eyes shot up, my body awake.
"Tayuya, Phone for ya." Ukon called, his twin beside him, an arm wrapped around his shoulder as he leaned against him.
"Yeah, Some gal named Sakura, wants to know if your home." Boom. What could Sakura want for me? For what seemed like the millionth time today, I trudged down stairs and picked up the phone. "Hello?" I could see the smile on the goddess from the other line.
"Tayuya? Hello, It's Sakura." As if I didn't know already.
"Hey, What's up?" I answered. A giggle.
"Nothing, Just wondering if you have any plans to go dress shopping? Maybe we could go together?" Bad Idea. No. No way in hell. Fuck. Fuck.
"You can bring Sasuke too." The image of Sasuke scowling at me popped into my head if I didn't take this chance for him.
"Uh...Alright."
I blinked, knowing the grave I dug would only continue to carve further into the ground. It would all crash and burn when this was all over.
"I'll bring Naruto-kun too then, Cha! I'm so excited!" I never thought so much energy could be crammed into a small figure of the high school girl.
"Then tomorrow?" I blinked once more in utter confusion. What was tomorrow again? Hm. Thursday. Shit. Tonight was Marching Band practice. Haku was bound to kill me. Well I still had the rest of tonight to look over my music and shit.
"Yeah, yeah." I answered with a sigh.
"Alright, then I shall see you tomorrow after school Tayuya, wanna do lunch too? Hm? Tayuya?" I kept nodding off to tell you the truth and soon the phone found it's way to the receiver and all was at peace as I laid my head on the counter and soon I think I even fell asleep there. My dreams seemed peaceful and content with Sasuke and I smiled at that. No worries of Ino or even my messed up family came into play or even the symbol of Sasuke's affection, Sakura Haruno. I wish it would always be like that. Yeah. Soon through those dreams, Sasuke would vanish but still the smile never left my face.
For I knew he would come back for me.
Right?
A/N: Finally an update in what seemed like a long time. I believe this chapter was pretty good but it's what you review that proves it. =)