Another Day
By twistedly_disturbed
Summary: What would you do if you lost everything in just one moment. Demons haunting you every moment. This is a story of what I did and how eventually I don't fear another day.
Will have a lot of cannon part but is AU.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, and am making no profit. The makers of glee just gave me these lovely characters and now I wanna mess with them
Santana's Pov
Waking up to my alarm clock was almost more shocking than yesterday when I had fallen off the bed. It had been so long since I had slept through the night that it took a moment to wake my confused mind. Reaching over to turn the annoying noise off, I rise from my bed stretching my rested muscles. After yesterday I had expected another rough night but instead I woke up feeling really good. I know it won't last and I really know I didn't deserve it but I was weak, I was going to make the most of it before the world came back in. Getting ready didn't take long and before I really knew it I was walking onto the football field ready to kick some ass.
"Hey" Puckerman greets as I reach the field causing most of the other players to look on confused. I was confused to, I knew we had called a cess fire but that didn't mean I was to be friends with the guy.
"Puckerman" I greet back, I wasn't looking for any drama today. I was hoping that the students would leave the slushies at the store today, all I needed to worry about was avoiding a certain Quinn Fabray. Just then the coach and Finn reached the field and I swear I was missing something Finn was giving Puckerman and about four other guys glares. The rest of the practice turned into a waste of time. I no longer had to worry about the guys trying to sucker tackle me instead Puckerman and Finn decided to engage in a piss match. Practice went so bad, the coach spent most of the time yelling before letting us go early. We now had a lunch practice and I had a feeling this wasn't going to end well for the glee club. Walking into the locker room, I quickly showered and got changed. I was kinda thankful that practice had sucked, I had managed to get out of the locker room before cheerio practice ended. Remembering that challenging look in Quinn's eyes from the first time we had locked eyes, I knew I had inadvertently given the girl that challenge yesterday.
"You acted very immaturely yesterday, it is always best to rise above such petty actions. I have watched several TeD talks online, I could show you" I'm suddenly bombarded with as the whirlwind known as Rachel Berry suddenly appears beside my locker. Ignoring her for the moment I continue to grab my school books. Finishing I look over at the tiny diva, she was kind of cute standing there glaring at me with her hands once again on her hips.
"You're welcome" I tease with a chuckle and grin, my response was only a huff. I couldn't help teasing the girl her reactions just amused me to no end.
"I was not thanking you" she sputters making me chuckle more.
"I'm Santana, nice to meet you" I suddenly throw out there. I think I managed to shock the girl as she loses the glare and just stares dumbly at me. Looks like I found a way to get out of more lectures, just then the warning bell goes.
"Well I'm off to class, talk to you later" I say not even bothering to try to hide my amusement as I walk away. I'm still chuckling at the frustrated huff I heard as I walked away as I sat in my first class. I absently notice Quinn was not in class yet, perfect hopefully she wouldn't get here till right before the next bell. My good mood fell slightly as just before the bell rang Finn and Quinn appeared in the doorway. My stomach flipped slightly at the sight of them and when they kissed goodbye I jerked my gaze away from them. I had no right to feel anything about Quinn's relationship but it seemed I had a large problem listening to that logic. But it didn't matter class had started and I needed to start paying attention. All that should matter was that I had avoided any questions from the girl and that I wasn't going to return the gaze I could feel from her direction.
The bell rings and I pull a Kurt, I rush out the room before anyone else.
"San, wait up" I hear from behind and it was Brittany. Damn it, I couldn't just ignore the innocent girl. Turning to face the grinning blonde and yup there she was a victoriously grinning Quinn.
"I'm joining Glee, I'm so excited" Brittany happily tells me causing Quinn's grin to turn into a scowl.
"That's great Britt, Maybe you can get Quinn to join with you" I excitedly state and I kinda felt bad using the blonde to get under Quinn's skin or I would have if Britt didn't look downright playful as she turned to the other blonde. The glare I got at my suggestion was almost frightening but I've always been a shit head and I had no attention in stopping now. Turning and heading to the next class I can't help the grin spreading across my face. I had distracted Quinn from yesterday and I almost felt normal for once. I could feel the guilt, the pain just below the surface but for as long as I could I was going to ignore it.
"Hey Kurt" I greet as I take my seat in my next class, all I get is a unhappy grunt in return. Studying the boy beside me, I swear it looked like he was pouting.
"What's wrong?" I question and I wasn't prepared for the rush of words quickly coming at me
"Last night after the performance, Puck and some guys attacked Finn with paintball guns. So now Finn is quitting, Mr. Shue is leaving the school and glee is doomed"
Well shit what the hell was I going do now I wanted to help Kurt but really this wasn't in my control.
"You don't know that for sure I was just talking to Brittany, and she was very excited about glee" I try to comfort but really if glee was so important to them than they would fight for it. I don't get a response and really I didn't expect one.
The rest of my morning classes and practice passes uneventfully, it seemed the boys on the team were no longer disagreeing since Finn quit glee. I was just heading to the lockers when I noticed Finn, Puckerman and bunch a guys by the portable toilets. I decided to stay out of view but watch, I didn't want to spy on them but I wasn't going to walk away only to learn later that Kurt or someone else got hurt.
"What's going on?" I hear Finn question.
"We got that wheelchair kid Artie inside. We're going to flip it." Puck answers and I'm moving quickly towards them. There was no way in hell I was going to let that happen
"Isn't that kind of dangerous?" Finn replies as I hide behind the portable toilet, maybe I wouldn't have to get involved.
"He's already in a wheelchair. Come on, dude, we saved you the first roll." Puck reasons and really does this guy ever learn. I knew he wasn't really this cruel but for some reason he keeps acting like an ass. I watch as Finn just shakes his head, opens the portable toilet and pulls Artie out.
"Thank you. Thank you so much. Thank you. Oh my God, the smell." Artie begins thanking Finn. "What the hell, dude? I can't believe you're helping out this loser" Puck angrily demands.
"Don't you get it, man? We're all losers,everyone in this school is. Hell, everyone in this town. Out of all the kids who graduate, maybe half will go to college, and two will leave the state to do it. I'm not afraid of being called a loser cause I can accept that that's what I am. But I am afraid of turning my back on something that actually made me happy for the first time in my sorry life" Finn says and despite my desire to hate the guy because he was dating the girl that wouldn't leave my mind. I had to admit he really did try to be a decent guy.
"So what? Are you quitting to join Homo Explosion?" Puck mocks, I really should have punched him again.
" No. I'm doing both. 'Cause you can't win without me and neither can they" Finn finishes moving to walk away.
"Wait, I'm joining to" Mike suddenly says and I notice him approach. I guess I wasn't the only one keeping an eye on things. Not bothering to stick around anymore I head back inside, I know that the two guys would stop the rest from trying anything else with Artie.
My last few classes dragged on but it amused me to notice that Rachel was is one and apparently she was ignoring me after this morning. I guess the one day I went to my afternoon classes, I was really out of it since I didn't notice before.
"I have glee tonight, are you going to wait around?" Kurt asks me as I was getting ready to leave at my locker.
"Yeah, just meet me in the library when you guys are done" I'm happy Kurt seems to have gotten over his earlier mood. I didn't know if he knew about Mike joining as well but if he didn't I looked forward to his reaction on another member.
I had been in the library for a bit before I couldn't resist the urge to go check out the glee club anymore. Heading to the entrance for one of the balconies in the auditorium, I quietly sneak in.
They were about halfway through singing Don't stop believing, they sounded really good and Mike and Brittany were dancing and even singing but I was slightly disturbed about the way Rachel and Finn were acting towards each other. I didn't really know anything about performing so I was just hoping it was part of the act, it didn't look good though. As the song comes to an end, I realize I wasn't the only one secretly watching. Mr Shue was down by the seats watching, Puckerman was watching from the doors and it seemed the crazy cheer coach and Quinn were watching from the rafters. My eyes are drawn to Quinn's face, it looked like I wasn't the only one to notice Rachel's and Finn's actions. Her face was a hard mask but those eyes, god those eyes looked so sad. She must have noticed my stare as her head turns and meets my gaze. It was instantaneous, her eyes became blocks of stone and I ached at the sight. I didn't know who had taught this girl the need to hide so well, but I hated them in that moment. Quinn quickly looks away and I just turn away and head back to the library.
"Hey, you ready to go" Kurt says about twenty minutes later as I was glaring at my English homework trying to make it disappear.
"Hell yeah" I answer quickly putting my books in my bag. Turning towards Kurt, I'm kinda surprised to see him standing beside a girl I didn't recognize.
"Santana, Mercedes, Mercedes, Santana" Kurt introduces and I take a moment to appraise the unknown girl.
"Girl, I saw the whole slushie thing yesterday. It was wicked" Mercedes comments with a wide grin. I have a moment of uncomfortableness, I didn't do those things to get known by people, I just couldn't stand to see people treated like that.
"Someone had to do something" I say trying to shrug it off. Mercedes looked like she was going to continue but thankfully Kurt interrupted.
"Mercedes is coming home with us, we're having a movie night" Kurt looked really happy so I just shrugged and followed them out of the school. The walk home was filled with mostly with Kurt and Mercedes talking about glee and what movies they wanted to watch.
"You want to join us? It will be fun" Mercedes offers as we walk into the house. It was tempting but I really just wanted to get out of the house, between the school, here and the doctors I really hadn't explored Lima.
"Naw I got plans but thanks" I respond with a smile. Mercedes seemed nice enough and Kurt was acting like he had found a sister from another mother so I didn't want her to think I was just brushing her off.
"Ohh what are you going to do?" Kurt asks
"I feel like exploring for a while" I answered with a shrug as I headed upstairs to grab a sweater, it was starting to get a bit chilly in the evenings.
"Here take my cell, Dad said he was going to bring one home for you tonight" Kurt offers handing me his phone. It was weird living with someone my age as I had been an only child but I have to admit it was kind of nice.
Walking out the door I just picked a random direction. I spent a few hours just walking around, my ipod on loud just enjoying the peace. I kept finding myself thinking about Quinn, in the last few months I had been become an expert at recognizing when something was wrong with people. I believe it's because I can see the same things in them that I myself try to hide about myself.
I have always been someone that tries to help other people but never before had the urge been so strong. I didn't know what it was about the blonde that has me so wrapped up in her, we haven't even had a real conversation. I wanted to avoid her, I wanted to stop thinking about her but I'm practical enough to know I wouldn't stick with that. By the time I walk into the house I have decided that I couldn't stay away but I wouldn't pursue anything but friendship.
"Hey, you hungry?" Burt asks as I walk into the livingroom. I'm about to answer when laughter sounds from the basement.
"I'm good, sounds like Kurt's having fun" I say with a chuckle sitting beside kurt, checking out the football game on tv.
"Yeah, it's really nice to see him bring home friends" Burt says taking with a smile.
We're quiet for awhile just watching the game.
"Living in this town hasn't been easy on kurt" Burt finally offers as a commercial starts on screen. Understatement of a century I think to myself, this town was slowly killing everything unique about most of the teengers here.
"He seems to be doing ok now" I settle on, not really sure where this conversation was going.
"Yeah glee clubs seems to really be good for him but mostly I think having you here has also really helped him. I don't know the details and I don't want them, Kurt will tell me when he's ready. But I just wanted to thank you for whatever it is that you did to make my kid sound as happy as he is" Burt says not looking away from the tv. I'm thankful for this, the conversation was kind of awkward in a deep and I don't want to talk about this way.
"I got his back" I reply.
The rest of the night passed quickly, it was a good game and it was cool to hang out with Burt for awhile.
AN: Thanks for reading and a big thanks to everyone that reviewed. I hope the grammar is better on this chapter, it's always been a weakness of mine. :) Anyways hope you guys enjoyed this chapter