A/N: Hello everyone! Smurf is back! I finally finished chapter 6. This was a hard chapter to write. I do hope I did a good job on it. I do have a boyfriend now, but, that doesn't help with this story. We have been together for about a month and a half. Not ready for anything like that, yet. Heh. Anyways, I was re-reading all the reviews I got for this story, and that encouraged me to keep going. So, thank you! Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not Tokyo Mew Mew. Tokyo Mew Mew is owned by Ikumi Mia and Yoshida Reiko.
WARNING: This chapter contains sexual contact between two characters. If you are not a fan of lemons, please do not read this chapter. I have warned you.
Smile for Me- Chapter Six
The walk home seemed much longer than normal. I knew I needed to think about my feelings. I now knew how Ryou felt about me, but how could I be sure that was how he really felt? He did break my heart after all. But then again, I did understand why he acted the way he did. I knew he didn't want to get his hopes up and risk getting hurt. He wasn't the one who got hurt though. I was the one who was nursing a broken heart.
I didn't feel like going home, so I wandered around Tokyo for a few hours. I honestly didn't know how to feel. I didn't know how I was going to cope with this. Stupid Ryou! I let out an irritated growl, which got me some weird looks from random passers-by. I walked to a nearby park and sat on a bench. I found myself wondering if what he said was true. I didn't know if I could believe him. But the kiss we shared kept popping into my mind. That must have been his real feelings coming through.
I stood up and started to walk back to the café. I had some things I needed to discuss with Ryou. The kiss was first on my mind. I didn't know what to think about the kiss. But, the fact that nothing was said about it, made me wonder how he actually felt about it, and me for that matter.
I arrived at the café and walked inside. It was very quiet and I found myself wondering where Ryou and Keiichirou were. I took a few steps into the café and looked around. I headed toward the back of the café, vaguely thinking that I would check the kitchen.
When I reached the kitchen, I didn't see anyone. I headed downstairs to the basement and saw that no one was in there either. This was strange. There was usually always someone here at the café. I wandered upstairs to see if I could find Ryou or Keiichirou. It was really quiet upstairs, too.
I was starting to feel uneasy now. I walked down the hall to Keiichirou's room and knocked on his door. When there was no answer I had no choice but to go to Ryou's room. After all, he was the one I came to see. I walked the short distance to his room and knocked on the door. I waited for a few minutes, and when I didn't get a response, I opened the door and glanced inside. He wasn't anywhere to be seen. I walked inside and looked around his room. It looked the same as always, though he had a few more pictures hung up on the walls.
As I walked further into the room, I heard the water running in the bathroom. I vaugely thought that Ryou was in the bathroom, taking a shower. I walked over to his bed and sat down. I stared at the pictures on the wall, and saw that they were of us and the café. I was surprised to see that a few were of me. It looked like he kept pictures of me, just like I kept pictures of him. But, there was one I could not stop looking at. We were having a birthday party for Keiichirou, and I was talking with Ryou. There was a huge smile on my face and his. It looked like we were a couple in that picture.
I was so fixated on that picture that I didn't hear the water turn off, and then the door opening.
"What the hell?" a startled voice said from the bathroom.
I jumped and turned around to see Ryou, still damp from his shower, and a towel wrapped around his waist. His face had started to turn red and I could feel my own face turn red. I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing would come out. I couldn't say anything. There had been a lot of times I had seen him without his shirt on, but this time, it seemed different.
It seemed like there was sexual tension in the air. Maybe it was the kiss we shared earlier or maybe it was from when Ryou told me that he loved me. I could feel the sexual tension in the air, and I wanted to leave the room. I needed to get away before something happened. Something I knew I would regret. I took a couple steps toward the door when I found my way blocked by Ryou.
I couldn't look into his eyes. I was afraid what I would see. I wouldn't blame him if I saw hate and disgust in them. But I knew that I wouldn't see those emotions. I knew I may see lust, and I was afraid to see it.
"Ichigo, look at me," he said.
I was so surprised by his tone that I looked at him. His voice seemed to have dropped an octave. It was deeper than usual and it startled me. I found myself staring into his sapphire blue eyes. My heart started to beat faster when I saw the look in his eyes. It was lust, just like I knew I would see.
"Ryou," I whispered.
There were so many things that I wanted to say and went unsaid. At that moment, Ryou claimed my lips with his. He was kissing me hungrily and I didn't know what to do except kiss him back. His lips moved from mine and kissed along my jawline. My skin seemed to burn where he kissed me. I could feel the heat rise in my body and I knew what I wanted. I wanted Ryou. I wanted all of him. I wanted all I could get from him.
As his lips moved to my neck, I knew what was coming and I didn't want him to stop. I moved my head slightly to give him better access to my neck, and I could feel him nip and lick my neck. I loved the sensation and a low moan escaped my mouth before I could stop it.
Ryou took that as a sign to continue, and his kisses went from my neck back to my lips. I loved the feel of his lips on mine. I craved his kisses. I didn't want them to stop. We had somehow moved to the wall, and he had me pressed against it. His body, still slightly damp, was pressed against mine, and I could feel the moisture from his body slowly soak into my clothing.
All of a sudden, my clothing was feeling a little too restricting. I wanted to take them off. I wanted to feel his naked body against mine. I was about to break the kiss, when Ryou seemed to sense what I was thinking and broke the kiss to look at me.
"Ichigo," he whispered.
That was all that took to drive me over the edge. I leaned in and kissed him, this time I was taking the initiative, and I knew what I wanted. I pushed him away from my body slightly, and he took the hint. He guided me over to his bed, without breaking the kiss, and he gently pulled me down on top of him. That's when I could feel his hard member pressing against me. My pulse quickened when I thought about how big it was. Was it able to fit inside me? But, Ryou's lips had found their way to my neck, and that thought was momentarily thrown from my mind. All I could think about was how good his lips felt on my body. He had started to undo the top of my café uniform and I hardly noticed. All I could think about was that his hands were on me. They were everywhere. They were on my neck, they were on my breasts, and they were on every inch of my body.
It felt good, and a moan escaped my lips again. I could feel his lips curl into a smile against my neck. He nipped at my collarbone, and then he kissed his way over to the other side of my neck. He spent some time biting and licking my neck, before he moved back to the collarbone and started to kiss down my body. By now he had my café uniform opened and he was gently working it off. It was discarded on the floor rather quickly.
He took a moment to look at me. I knew my face was red, and it was turning redder with the way he looked at me. He leaned down and kissed me again. He broke the kiss and started to kiss my chest. He kissed the valley between my breasts before he started to kiss my nipples through the rough fabric of my bra. I couldn't help it. A rather loud moan emerged from my mouth, and once again, I felt his lips curl into a smirk.
He kissed me on the lips again, and his hands were working on my bra clasp. He unclasped my bra and the straps started to slip down my shoulders. I brought my hands up to my breasts, and tried to keep my bra from revealing my breasts. I was a little embarrassed to let him see them. I always wondered if maybe he liked big boobs, and mine weren't that big.
He gently moved my arms and my bra slipped off my frame. Ryou took a few moments to gaze at my breasts before he claimed my lips again. I felt his hands fondle my breasts and I couldn't suppress a moan, though it was muffled by his lips. He took no time in breaking the kiss and he leaned down to kiss each one of my breasts.
Ryou started to suck gently on my right nipple, while he used his hand to fondle my left breast. I could feel him suck, and bite down gently before he would use his tongue to flick my nipple back and forth. The feeling of his mouth on my nipple made me moan some more and I was arching my back, trying to feel more of him. He moved over to my other breast and gave it the same treatment. I felt like I was about to break at any moment; the pleasure was so overwhelming. Ryou stopped just for a moment, so I could lie down on the bed. He got on top of me and started to kiss and fondle my breasts again.
I had started to beg for more and asking him not to stop. I didn't want him to stop. I wanted to feel more of him, see more of him, and taste more of him. There was a part of me, knowing that in all the years I knew Ryou, this was eventually going to happen. I knew that somewhere down the road, this was going to happen, and here I was in Ryou's bed about to make love with him.
As he continued to play with my boobs, his free hand slid down my body to the hem of my skirt. He slowly pulled it up around my waist, and his hand dipped into my panties. His fingers found the bundle of nerves and started to rub it. It was a little painful at first, since I was so sensitive. But, after a while, it started to feel good. My back arched upward and his slid his fingers down until they entered me.
He used one finger at first. Then, he slid in another finger. It was a little painful, since I was still a virgin. Ryou slid his fingers in and out of me, while still fondling my breasts. I was feeling something I had never felt before. It started in the pit of my stomach and it seemed to build in intensity. Ryou came up from my boobs and kissed me. His fingers were still moving inside me and my moans were being muffled by the kisses Ryou bestowed upon my lips. The pleasure had reached its peak when Ryou stopped. I looked up at him, disappointed, and I was surprised to see a grin on his face.
"Enjoying it, Ichigo?" he asked.
I couldn't say anything to him. I felt my face turn beet red and I felt embarrassed. He chuckled and placed a feather light kiss between my eyes.
"Don't worry, Ichigo," I heard him whisper. "I will be gentle with you."
What? What did he mean by that? Gentle? My mind must have been running slow, because I had no idea what he meant. I should have known, since I was laying here in his bed, almost completely naked, and Ryou hovering over me in nothing but a towel and an erection.
"What's going to happen now," I said, before I could stop myself.
I knew I probably sounded childish to him. But, with the position I was in, I had no idea what was going to happen. My brain was still running slow. Then, it hit me. Ryou wanted to have sex with me. Did I want him to? Did I want him to take the only thing that was precious to me? He had stolen my innocence when I was thirteen, when he made me and the other girls into Mew Mews. But, my virginity was the only precious thing I had left. He was looking at me confused, like he had no idea on what I meant.
"I was going to make love to you," he said, slowly. "Do you not want to?"
No, I did want him to. I wanted to be closer to him than I have ever been in my life. I felt that maybe having sex with Ryou was the way to go. There were some cases where sex strengthened the relationship, and then there were times where sex destroyed it. But, what the hell was I thinking? Ryou and I didn't have a relationship. Perhaps he was going to use me as a booty call, and I found myself thinking that I would be okay with that. Just being with him was enough for me. I closed my eyes for a few minutes and took a deep breath. Then, I opened them and stared into his sapphire blue eyes and small smile played on my lips.
"I want you, Ryou," I said, my voice just above a whisper.
He was searching my face, to make sure I was really okay with it. Yes, I was afraid, since I had heard stories about how it hurt. I thought back to when he had his fingers in me. He had used two fingers on me, and it was a little painful at first, but the pleasure was amazing after I got used to it.
"Don't worry, Ichigo," I heard him whisper. "I won't do anything to hurt you. I promise I will be gentle."
I nodded my head to show him that was listening. The last pieces of the offending clothing were tossed carelessly on the floor. I was now completely naked in front of Ryou, and he was the same way. I glanced down at his erection and I felt my face turn red and I gulped. It was so big. I was afraid it would hurt a lot. As I thought about that, I started to shiver. He smoothed back my hair and placed a gentle kiss on my lips, but I could feel him positioning himself above me. He rubbed the tip of his member against my slit and started to slide in slowly. I winced in pain. I could feel him stretching me and it was a little painful at first. But, he was so gentle. He stopped at my maidenhood and looked at me. I could that he was trying to contain himself.
"Ryou," I whispered, "it's okay."
He leaned down and kissed me on the lips, and then he thrust into me. My cry of pain was muffled by his lips. I was shaking uncontrollably, and Ryou had his arms wrapped around me. He pulled away from me and searched my face.
"Ichigo, I am sorry it hurts. I promise it won't hurt for long."
I nodded and he took it for the sign to start moving. It was very painful at first, but soon, I started to feel pleasure well up inside me. It didn't hurt so much anymore. The feeling was so intense. It filled my stomach and rose up into my heart. I let out a moan, and Ryou started to move faster. I soon started to rise up to meet his thrusts, and I started to buck my own hips, trying to achieve the release I so desperately wanted. I was feeling what I felt when his fingers were in me, and I wanted to know what was over the wave of pleasure I was feeling.
Ryou was moaning my name. And I was moaning his as well. I was getting closer and closer to my peak, and then finally, I burst. I cried out his name, and I heard him grunt out my name, and he released himself in me. He collapsed on me, and I could feel how sweaty he was. That was when I realized I was sweaty as well.
He raised his head and looked at me, a small smile on his lips. Seeing the smile on his lips made me smile as well. He leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. He raised his head to look at me again, and this time, there was a serious look on his face.
"Ichigo," he said, "I really do love you. I want you to be mine. Will you please be my girlfriend?"
I was stunned at first. Ryou was being completely serious, which was rare. I loved Ryou, too. And my first instinct was telling me to deny him, just the way he had denied me earlier. But, that wasn't the words that came out of my mouth.
"Yes, I will be your girlfriend."
A/N: Whoa. That was a long chapter, huh? I have been working on this for a few months now, and every time I started on the sex scene, I got stuck. I was even reading other lemons, but, I still had trouble with this, probably because it was first person view. I have no problem writing lemons in third person, but this was a bit challenging for me. I do apologize if it wasn't what you were expecting. I think there a few continuity problems as well, but I did try my best. Anyways, please read and review. Remember constructive criticism is welcome, but please no flames. See you in chapter seven! :D