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Jazz POV:
I walked into my room and shakily dug through my top drawer. "Jazz?" Seth's small voice interrupted. "Where are they Seth?" I said harshly. "In your desk, second drawer from the bottom." I went and grabbed my cigarettes quickly, slipping them into my back pocket and heading for the door. "Where you goin?" "Rose's room." "Can I come?" I thought for a moment, he knew anyway. "Yeah Seth, come on." He fallowed me to her room. I didn't know or even announce myself before storming through her room and going to her dresser. I started searching through her underwear frantically before I found what I was looking for. "Hey J, you gonna go get Bella?" I turned to see Rosalie sitting on her purple bed in her underwear and a tank top. Alice was sitting with her in the same. Her arm and leg had healed as well as the bruises in the three months before coming here. I stared at her naked legs. They were short, but appeared to go on and on. Her skin was smooth and screaming to be touched. My mouth was dry when I spoke. "Do you guys smoke?" I asked Alice, holding up my cigarettes and the bag of week. "Yeah." She nodded. "Seth, go get Bella, Emmett, and Edward. Don't you dare grabbed attention from Nessie, Seth, or the 'rents. Got it?" I told him. "Yes sir." He smiled at me allowing him to do something that was risky to all of us. "Bathroom." I said as I headed to Rose's attached bathroom.
Alice and Rose fallowed me and I lit up a cigarette as soon as the door was clothed. I sat back on her fluffy toilet seat and took a long drawl and passed it to Rose. "You gonna let Seth smoke?" Rose questioned as she drew the smoke in. "Naw, but he can get secondhand, if he wants. He's still just a kid, ya know." I said before letting the smoke out as Alice took a small drag. "How old is Seth anyway? He seems so old, but is so small." Alice questioned, holding the smoke in her lungs. "10." I told her just as the others can into the bathroom. "Jasper I did it!" Seth said with a huge smile which caused me to smile a little. "Good job, Seth." I ruffled his hair and he laughed. "Did you remember to lock all the doors?" I asked. He looked up at me with bright eyes and nodded. "Way to go, buddy." I smiled. Seth was the only one who's ever made me truly smile. I turned to see Alice watching us with a smile of her own.
"Jazz, can I smoke that?" Seth asked as we lit up a joint. "No Seth." I said as I took a hit. "Why?" he pouted. "Too young." "You started smoking when you were 8!" he protested. "Yeah, well I had to." I told him. "Ok Jasper." He sighed. Seth knew not to question about my past, even though he's seen the scars and had waken be from nightmares many times. I needed Seth just as much, if not more, as he needed me. He knew I was truly weak, not strong like the other's thought. Emmett hit the blunt and smiled widely, "I haven't had weed since we moved here. You guys should've told us you smoked!" "Same goes to you, Jazz and I smoke all the time." Rose stated evilly. Our night went on pretty well because we only had one blunt between five people and couldn't get very high. "Next time you're buying." Rose told me as we went to leave. "I always buy Rose. You don't need to tell me after every smoke." I yawned as I headed out after Seth. We went to bed.
"Jasper." Seth whispered as he shook me. "What?" I asked as I rolled over. "Jasper, who's Lucy?" he asked. I was up in an instant. I had knocked over the night stand and mad a loud thump as slammed Seth against the wall by his neck. I couldn't think as rage and pain poured though my veins. "What the fuck did you say?" I demanded. His face was turning red as he tried to pull my hands away. "Jasper!" Carlisle's voice brought me back to the real world as he pulled me away from Seth. He fell to the ground gasping and holding his neck. It was then that I realized I could have killed my little brother. "Sorry" I muttered as I left the room for the basement.
I went straight to the piano Carlisle sometimes played. I hit the keys as I sung:
Hey Lucy, I remember your name
I left a dozen roses on your grave today
I'm in the grass on my knees, wipe the leaves away
I just came to talk for a while, got some things I need to say
Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of Heaven looking back at me
Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices I made
And I can't live with myself today
Hey Lucy, I remembered your birthday
They said it'd bring some closure to say your name
I know I'd do it all different if I had the chance
But all I got are these roses to give
And they can't help me make amends
Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of Heaven looking back at me
Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices I made
And I can't live with myself today
Here we are, now you're in my arms
I never wanted anything so bad
Here we are for a brand new start
Living the life that we could've had
Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
Just another moment in your eyes
I'll see you in another life in Heaven
Where we never say goodbye
Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of Heaven looking back at me
Now that it's over, I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices I made
And I can't live with myself today
Here we are, now you're in my arms
Here we are for a brand new start
I got to live with the choices I've made
And I can't live with myself today
Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
I've got to live with the choices I've made
And I can't live with myself today
Hey Lucy, I remember your name
"Jasper?" Alice's small voice brought me out of my self-loathing. I wiped my hand down my face to get rid of the tears. "Yeah?" I asked. "Who's Lucy?" I took deep breath before answering "Lucy was my sister." I spoke for the first time since my parents' trials. "Was?" she pushed. "Lucy died." I stated for the first time ever. "Oh, sorry." She muttered. "I gotta go see Seth." I said as I left her.
"Jasper!" Seth exclaimed with a smile as I entered our room. I didn't say anything as I gently touched his neck where it was still red. "I am so sorry, Seth." I whispered. He hugged me tightly. When he pulled back he smiled widely "It's alright Jasper." I ruffled his hair and smiled, closing my eyes to stop the tears, why was Seth so forgiving? "Let's go back to sleep, buddy." "Oh yeah, Jasper I woke you up because I wet the bed again. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. I just had a nightmare." Seth rambled as he looked at the ground. "Alright. I'm gonna go wash your sheets. You go take a shower and then you can sleep with me tonight." I told him as I collected his sheets and went to start the wash.
When I came back Seth was asleep in my bed. I quietly made his bed with the clean sheets before going to sleep with him. He turned to me in his sleep and wrapped his arms around me. He was shaking because of his nightmare. He had them way more often than anyone else seemed to, but he never screamed or let on that he'd had a bad night's sleep so I'm the only one who knew about them. Whenever he wet the bed I would stay up to make sure his sheets were washed and dried and back on his bed before anyone realized they weren't there. "Shh Seth, it's okay, he can't hurt you anymore, shh." I whispered as I kissed his head and went back to sleep.
We already know Carlisle and Esme's, Emmett, Edward and Alice's. Tell me whose story you want to hear about next: Rosalie, Seth, Jasper, Jake, or Nessie!