Trigger warning: SI

I'm in here, can anybody see me? Can anybody help?
I'm in here, a prisoner of history...
can anybody help?
Can't you hear my call?
Are you coming to get me now?
I've been waiting for, you to come rescue me,
I need you to hold, all of the sadness I can not,
living inside of me

Andy sat straight up in bed simply just thinking about Gail, she felt her eyes well up with water but she knew she couldn't cry, she needed to comfort Gail. What had happened down there? She couldn't even think about how horrible it was, how horrifying it must have been for Gail, how did she survive? Andy thought about how she would never be able to cope with something like that, she knew Gail needed her no matter how hard Gail would push her away or deny it, she definitely needed someone. Andy got broken away from her thoughts when she heard the clash of glass. She bolted up to the bathroom where Gail was, worried to death.

"Gail! What happened? Are you okay?" Andy was panicking, more than she was just 2 minutes ago, she was worried Gail was going to do something; she didn't know what to expect. A shiver ran down her spine at the thought. She jiggled the door handle but it was locked, then she backed up positioning her shoulder with the door and rammed into it almost fully knocking it off the hinges.

The sight Andy saw scared her, adrenaline pumping she grabbed Gail off the floor, shaking her, no response. She scooped Gail up and grabbed her keys and ran out to her car faster than she had ever run her entire life. She placed Gail in the passenger seat and buckled her up quickly and darted to the other side of the car and started the ignition and went full speed. Gail was bleeding, a lot, Andy couldn't stop going over what she saw in her mind, her bathroom mirror shattered, the piece of shattered glass next to Gail covered in her blood, her wrist oozing out bright red blood, Gail flat on the floor, eyes shut in the fetal position, not talking, not conscious, not anything, not anything but a pulse.

She came across a red light but darted through it turning on her emergency lights, disobeying all laws, nothing mattered right now except getting Gail to the hospital and saving her life. For a moment she thought, how could she do this to me? But then the reality clicked in, Gail was probably struggling so much that at the time it may have seemed like the best thing to her, Andy could put herself there, back when her dad was drinking and she was still living with him, but what Gail had gone through couldn't compare in Andy's mind.

It took her about 4 minutes to get to the hospital, she parked in front of the emergency department, flew out of her car, screaming for help while getting Gail out of the car, lifting all her weight, through the double doors and straight up to the desk where a nurse jumped out of her seat and pressed a blue button on the wall, that's when they called the code blue over the speakers in the ER, all doctors came rushing and she was quickly put on a gurnie and wheeled back into one of the trauma rooms, for the second time in 24 hours. Andy followed, claiming she was her sister, she didn't care about rules, she needed to be with Gail.

She watched the doctors hanging her IV, asking the nurses and residents to grab as much O- blood as they could, as they didn't know her blood type and they needed to act fast. I guess that's not something you think to ask someone you know, generally, like 'hey, what's your blood type?'. They quickly asked Andy just a minute ago and she just shook her head, not saying anything, probably in shock. This was all so crazy, it all happened so fast, she was trying to put the pieces together but the more she thought, the more it all scattered apart. How did she let this happen? She slipped outside the room, sliding down the wall so she was on the floor, she put her face in her hands and cried. She stayed like that until a doctor came out to see her there.

"Hi, you're her sister? We were just coming to get you. Your sister suffered a lot of blood loss, we're still giving her blood transfusions and she's probably going to need them for another few hours. She was lucky, in a way, she didn't hit a vein or anything so she won't need surgery and we were able to quickly repair the damage she did do, but giving the width of the cut we did have to staple it shut for now as stitches wouldn't have held. Psych will be consulting when she's medically stable, so be prepared. If you have any other family, you should probably notify them." The doctor was so serious, it scared her, she was scared of what he was going to say, what if Gail had not made it, what would she and everyone else do? How would they ever move on?

"Thank you, thank you so much." Andy said as she stood up, giving him a quick smile. She had to call Sam, tell him what happened, she was in over her head here, she wasn't responsible enough to look after Gail. They weren't even home a day and she was back in the hospital, it was so bad she didn't want to live, she wanted to talk to Gail but she also didn't want to make it worse. But things certainly weren't getting any better.

She grabbed her cellphone out of her pocket, quickly dialing Sam, she didn't even look at the time. It took a while for him to even pick up, probably still asleep.

"What's wrong?" Sam said, still sounding really groggy on the other end.

"It's… It's Gail, Sam. We're at the hospital, sorry I'm just calling you now, sorry I woke you up. Ah- I need you, I need help. She's in trouble." Andy blurted out, stumbling over every word, over every thought. She was still crying and shaking uncontrollably.

"Okay, I'll be there soon as I can. But what happened?"

"I'll explain when you get here, we're still in the ER for now, hurry up before she gets moved to a room," Andy said, closing the phone. She didn't want to explain this over the phone, afraid maybe Sam wouldn't understand quite what happened, she was almost a bit scared he would blame her too. She really hoped that this wasn't her fault, but more than that, she hoped Gail was okay and was going to be fine. She needed to be fine.

Andy walked into the room where Gail was, hooked up to a heart and respiratory monitor, and her oxygen levels, she had 2 IV's, one in each hand and a separate one giving her blood. She also had an oxygen mask on to help get her O2 stat's up. Andy slid a chair over by her bed, Gail still wasn't awake, she wasn't moving at all, she was even paler than she usually is, almost gray. She looked completely lifeless… and broken. Andy just sat there with her head in her hands leaning on the bed next to Gail, next thing she knew she heard Sam rushing down the hall asking where Gail was.

Andy poked her head out the door and ushered Sam towards her. Sam walked in and took it all in, he trembled a little bit at the sight. Andy felt her stomach sink, feeling so guilty. Sam just looked at Gail for a bit and then he turned towards Andy, as if asking for an explanation.

"Gail, she had a nightmare, I woke her up and she just went to the bathroom. I didn't want to overcrowd her, so I gave her a minute, the next thing I know, I hear the mirror break and I had to ram down to the door and I just brought her straight here. I'm so sorry, Sam, I should have been able to keep her safe, to look after her, since I offered. I'm really sorry." Andy said, tears streaming down her face.

Sam just put his hand up to his mouth rubbing his face. "Okay." That's all he said. He pulled up another chair and sat next to Andy. "Okay," he says again.

"The doctors said she will need more blood transfusions over the next few hours or so, and when she's stable a psychiatrist is going to want to speak with her. I guess it's better if she was here, they can look after he better…"

"No." Sam says, in a stern tone. He turns toward Andy, "do you know what's going to happen if she ends up in a psych ward? She's never going to go back to work again. That is not going to help Gail, she needs us. If I have to, I'll come over and stay with you guys too, we can all take turns until Gail's feeling well enough. We're her people, we are her team, we are her family, we are going to keep her alive and we are going to make sure she gets better, that she learns to live again."

All Andy could think was 'wow'. It seemed like Sam had done this before, she never thought about any of that. I guess she did need to be safe, but when it came time she was feeling better, she needed a life to come back to, not nothing. "You're right. We're her people," Andy paused, "we need to call everyone else, especially Chris and Nick and Dov and Traci…"

"I got it, you stay here in case she wakes up, I'll try and be quick, but they probably are all in bed, it's like 4 in the morning, but this can't wait," he said, picking himself up off his chair and stepping outside the room. Once he got out, he could finally breathe, he couldn't believe the past 24 hours, poor Gail.

Andy sighed, rubbing Gail's arm, trying to get her to come to, but nothing. She could hear Sam talking to everyone on the phone, hopefully they would understand and get here when they can, but Traci probably couldn't leave though. Andy really needed Traci now too, but Gail needed her more. All Andy could do now was wait for Gail to wake up, and pray that they could do everything she needed of them.

She could still hear Sam on the phone, he was talking so loud. She leaned back in the chair and shut her eyes, listening to the beep beep of the monitors telling her Gail was alive, she was okay. It was only seconds later she opened her eyes to see Gail's flutter open slowly. It was scary how blank her eyes were, still so lifeless.

"Gail?" Andy says, hoping Gail was finally awake.

I need reviews, seriously! I feel like people do not like this, well you kinda shouldn't considering the content, this is actually coming from my heart sadly, I've went through something quite similar, not quite so bad, and I wish I had people like Andy, Sam, etc, but anyway, back to the point, reviews! :D

And does anyone want anything to happen? Cause I will make it happen. ;)