Amy was munching down on a bag of chips pretty quickly and everyone around the table was giving her strange looks. She slowed her chewing and set the bag down, her cheeks rosying up. She was craving potato chips, though.
"Hungry Amy?" Shane asked.
She just shrugged her shoulder, "a little."
"You've been hungry a lot lately," he said, raising an eyebrow. "And you know what's weirder? It seems like your fat is going to your stomach and your boobs, but nowhere else. Also, you tend to go to the bathroom so often now." he said, giving a snobby look. "Mh-mm? What's up with that?"
"Shane, where are you getting at?" Karma asked, but in her voice, she was really saying 'shut up'.
Shane shrugged, "Nothing but haven't you wondering?" he said.
"Shane, leave Amy alone," Liam said.
"What's wrong with asking questions?" he asked. "So Amy, girl talk. How do you increase your cup size?" Amy knew that Shane noticed that something was different about her. Shane always has the ability to sense that something is wrong.
"Shut up Shane," Karma said. "Why are you so bitchy today?"
Shane held her hands up, "okay, I was just asking. I'm curious."
After lunch, they all got up from the table. Amy stretched her jacket down and she hated the fact that she was showing more and more in her hoodie.
What will people say? She thought. I betray my best friend and sleep with her boyfriend? Am I such a slut of a lesbian? Am I actually into guys too?
Then she tells herself that it doesn't matter. People like gossip here since they don't have a life of their own.
Something in her stomach did something and she froze, her hand flying to her stomach. It felt like a light flutter, but something moved. It was kind of weird, but a massive smile appeared on her face. Maybe it wasn't even the baby. She's 17 weeks in, it seems too early for that.
Suddenly a hand touched her arm and her smile dropped, her head snapping towards that direction, seeing Karma's face. True to her word, the past few weeks Karma and Amy have been hanging out together like the good old times and Amy was really happy about that, but that just made too hard for both her and Liam for when they tell her.
Which Amy planned to be soon then later, right?
"You alright Amy?" she asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine," Amy replied. "Just felt a little sick."
"Oh well, do you need a nurse?" she asked.
Amy shook her head, "No worries, I'm fine."
After school, she waited near Liam's car. By the time he walked out the building.
"Are you alright Amy?" when he got to the car, she is now leaning on a little since being on her feet making her feel tired.
They both get into the car and Amy smiled happily, "I felt it, Liam. I mean it was barely anything but a twitch, but I felt it!"
"Can I feel it?" Liam asked.
"Well, it isn't moving right now," she said. "A little more time, and it will be a full kick," Amy said, smiling down at her stomach. She never felt pregnant before, never believe until now she felt it, It felt real to know she's carrying another life in her.
"I figured out we should tell her this weekend." Liam suddenly said.
Amy looked up at him, "I was thinking the same thing. People are starting to notice. Besides, I haven't told my mom. I don't know how to break it to her."
He nodded, "Are you ready for the gossiping and the rumor to come to ahead?" he asked.
"I'll," she paused. "I guess I just have to ignore it. And probably it would be easier when the gossip spreads, Lauren knows. Maybe she'll break it to my mom. But what about you? Karma isn't going to be happy about it."
He sighs heavily, look away for a second, "My child comes first." he said and it made Amy smile somehow. "I mean, that's the right saying is it?" he asked.
She patted his chest, "It makes you a man also, and if she loves you, she overlooks it."
"Really? I think I can never overlook if my girlfriend is knocked up by someone else," he said.
"Well, there's a billion girls wanting to be with you," she said. She then realized that her hands are still lying on top of his chest. Her cheeks heated up and she moves her hands away. "Well, I better get home. When the doctor's appointment again?"
"Next week," Liam replied and Amy nodded.
Liam has been sending Amy home when he got the chance to because Karma barely notices them gone since she's busy with her drama club. It was mostly silent the whole way to her house. She stared out the passenger window, rubbing her stomach. It felt weird because it is getting harder now around her stomach.
She started to think what happen after it's born. What will happen? They both haven't met any adoptive parents yet and talking about jobs, they haven't had time to look for one.
Ugh! She hates how she always overthinks about this. It is stressing her out. If other teenage pregnant can do this, she can do this right? She tries to convince herself.
Liam pulled up to her house and she unbuckled her seatbelt, turning to Liam, "Thanks." she said.
Amy couldn't stop looking up at his eyes and losing herself in the baby have his eyes or it will have hers? She suddenly feels the need to kiss him and before she knew it, she leaned over and kissed him and he kiss her back, only for a second before he pulls away. Now her cheeks burnt up, she moved back the when it got awkward and he stared at her wide eyed.
"I'm sorry," she said before getting her bag and quickly getting out.
"Amy, wai-," Liam called but Amy just keeps walking because she was too embarrassed. She did not want to hear what he got to say. Her heart was pounding, not believing that she kissed him first because she actually feels like she want to. Probably her pregnancy hormones.
She thought of Liam, not sure how she's going to be able to look at him. She kissed him. What a big stupid mistake that was. Maybe Karma won't break up with him after she finds out but she'll hate Amy forever.
She needed to stop worrying about Karma, she has bigger things to take care of first. She knew that she have to meet Liam, remember that she kissed him and feel humiliated. Amy loves Karma and so is Liam. Amy blow a strand of her blonde hair that get onto her face as she got to the locker.
She heard giggling and turned her head to the right to see down the hallway, seeing something that hurt her a little. Liam had his arms around Karma's waist and her arms were around him. He tried to kiss her but she teasingly moved her face away.
Doesn't look like there's going to be any breaking up anytime soon, she thought disappointedly and was quickly jealous. She frowned and put one side of her hair behind her ear, hoping they won't notice her because she had to walk past them to get to her class.
She began walking with her head down, looking at her bio book instead. But Karma had eyes like a hawk and saw her walk past.
"Amy!" she cried out and got out of Liam's arms, pulling Amy into a hug. Amy did her best not to let Karma touch her stomach and had her bio book in-between them. "So where were you yesterday?" she asked. "I texted you but you didn't text me back".
"Um, wasn't feeling well," she said. "I have to get to class so I can review my notes before the Spanish test."
Karma clicked her tongue, " Always studying. When are you going to start to have fun again and not worry about school?"
"I'll see you at lunch, Karma." she walked around Karma and made it over to class.
Amy was making her way towards the lunch room and she yawned to herself, wishing she could have stayed in bed. She stretches her arms above her head as she was walking.
She turned the corner and bumped into someone, "Oh, I'm so- oh." she said when she realized it was Liam she bumped into and she suddenly felt depressed, remembering him being all cutesy with Karma earlier.
"I was coming to find you," he said and she looked at him confused.
"Karma probably wondering where you are," she replied.
"Karma is hanging out with her drama friends, she wouldn't notice you weren't there either," he said. "Can we talk?"
"I don't think there's anything to talk about." she said.
"Oh really?" he asked. Grabbing her arm to pull her over to a small space so no one would overhear them. "How about the other day?"
Amy's face burned up and she crossed her arms over her chest, looking at the floor,
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that. I don't know why I did."
He was quiet for a moment, "but I kissed you back."
"Yeah, only for a second before you pull away. It was stupid I know," she said.
"I only pulled back, because I'm still with Karma and-"
Tears slid down her face, "Gosh this is so stupid. Why'd this happen to me?"
She let Liam pull her into a hug and she cried against his chest.
"Maybe we shouldn't do this Liam. We should not even consider keeping. We should just give the baby for adoption and we can move on from this." she said. "I'm scared."
"Hey come on, don't talk like that. It's our baby, we should consider keeping it," he said.
"But I don't want to take care of the baby alone," she said.
He pulled back, "I thought we talked about this."
"It is never going to work out!" she yelled and looked away.
He looked confused, "what do you mean, Amy?"
She shook her head and wipe her face, "N-nothing," she said, turning around to walk away, but he grabbed her arm, turning her back around.
"Tell me what you want and I'll try the best that I can." he said.
Amy try to let go of her hand, "We're just friends, what makes you think we can do this? You have a girlfriend and I just have me," she said and he didn't say anything, she quickly added. "and that's okay and that's why I think adoption is the best thing right now. It's stupid that we think that we can raise a baby as friends."
"I...I really don't know what to sat to that," he said as she wanted to cry. "I don't know Amy. Karma and I-"
"I know!" she said. "But seeing you guys together... It's hard. And it'll just be a lot harder after it comes. I'll have no friends and I'll probably be hated by everyone," she felt her emotions boiling up, the pressure weighing on her that make her feel weak. She knows she is just upset and her brain is making her say crazy things. She's pregnant and she don't know what she wants.
"I won't let anyone bully you, though-"
"That doesn't mean anything, Liam!" she snapped. "You'll look like the victim and I'm some criminal. And I know this because Karma will say I was jealous and mad because she rejected me and made you have sex with me. I know her, Liam."
"Well, do whatever you want then if you think that's the best thing."
She groaned and pushed him, not being able to help herself, "Just that? Do whatever I want? Why can't you make this decision with me?" she said angrily. "Actually, why don't you do like most guys do and leave me the hell alone!"
He gave her a hard look, "Do you want that?" he asked, angry now himself.
"Of course not! But if you just going to be there just to help support it, why the hell not! Money is not as important as having you there and I'm sure Karma won't let you be there."
"Karma doesn't own me," he said. "And don't talk to me as if I'm going to be some deadbeat dad. You don't know that I could probably be the best dad there is."
She snorted, "You haven't started looking for a job. Everything is expensive now!"
"Fine, give it up for adoption, I don't care!" he snapped before leaving her there.
Amy stood there feeling so very emotional. She wasn't sure if she was angry or upset. New tears slid down her face, more scared now than ever. She put her hand on her stomach, feeling so empty inside. She doesn't know what to do now.