Chapter 6: Lexa: I am Heda. I am Lexa

Trigedasleng is in italics

We gathered in the council room, myself and Klark, Indra, Abi and Markus. Titos, I had sent back to Polis to prepare things for our return along with the few Skaikru who would be returning with us. I listened quietly as the two leaders took turns outlining what terms Skaikru was requesting. I was surprised by how well thought out they were. They demanded nothing but spoke in soft humbled tones, having taken to heart the advice Klark had given them.

The first item was about the land that they had crashed on. They wanted to offer a purchase contract to be paid in goods and services. They also requested the additional purchase of land five miles around them, unless there was already an established township or village then that boundary would be pulled back by 3 feet. Markus surprised me when he produced a map that he, with the help of Indra, had drawn up. The lines were clear and concise. There were huge portions where they would get their 5 miles' boundary and others where they lost ground considerably, but did not compensate by requesting more where they could. The extra land purchase would also allow them access to a lake that, with my approval, they would divert some to create irrigation for their crops. My respect for them grew.

The rest, were things I had anticipated and knew that should they ask respectfully I would grant them. Things such as assistance to learn how to grow herbs and edible foods- since those who had the knowledge had been killed or were going to be killed. They wanted to be taught proper hunting rituals and all the skills they would need to survive well on the ground. Indra had already been working tentatively with Markus, now she just needed my approval to continue.

They wanted trade rights with other the clans and training so they could learn to fight as we fight. For each item they requested also came with a fair trade from them. I saw Klark's blue eyes shine with pride at the way her people were handling themselves. Contrite after the many altercations that the sky and ground had gotten into. As I seemed to watch outside the proceedings I realized that this moment was the first step to the change I wanted to have happen.

I looked around at those assembled, noting the different posture and responsibility that posture denoted. There was an energy of cooperation, of working together.

We were building a connection with people who had lived life on a metal beast that had made it's way to the ground and delivered with it, not just my beloved, but people who would test the strength of my Coalition. My soon to be mate would have the hardest duty. As my mate she was in direct line to ensure the well-being of her people over that of others. She could demand much from me, and the power she could wield was dangerous. In the face of things, she would have to denounce your people in order to ensure their safety, she would have to advocate for all openly and should she speak, it must be backed by sound knowledge or she would be seen as a seductress to Heda, causing me to lose the faith of my people. Something, I myself was about to challenge.

I let Abi and Markus know that trade with the other clans was solely up to the ambassadors and their clan leaders. I wouldn't force any to trade with Skaikru.

The Meeting adjourned as I had Indra send out riders with messages ordering the Clan leaders of the Coalition to meet in Polis in a weeks' time to hear what each Clan had to say and ask questions of the two leaders to iron out the trade agreements and the rest of the alliance terms. The only thing left to decided would be who would be representing them as ambassador once the Alliance was finalized.

I made my way over to the tent that Oktavia and Linkon shared at the farthest corner of Arkadia. Clarke had mention that Oktavia didn't like to stay in it if she didn't have to. Having grown up a kinda prisoner, she couldn't stand living behind metal walls. She like being able to feel the breeze and hear the life outside the oiled cloth walls of their tent. I could understand how the Trikru way of life had called to the Skai girl. It was easier for her too make herself into something else, without the stigmatism of what she was. Oktavia was a good gona, even if she did rile on Indra's nerves from time to time..

Memories of Onya flooded into me at the thought of Oktavia and her Fos. It would have been nice to have Onya here with me as I turned my peoples lives upside down. She would have been able to enjoy the chaos it was sure to bring. Laughing at me while also helping me to tame the breast. I sighed inwardly as I drew nearer thinking of what lay ahead on me. Focusing on the now.

The people of Pike's crew were in a state limbo until I could speak to Oktavia about her position on demanding blood payment from her brother. Klark was already unwilling to to partake in the killing of Belomi, but had promised not to challenge my decision. I was grateful for Klark's understanding.

So alone I would speak with Oktavia now that her injuries were healed more. There had not been a need for haste before today and so I had waited. Letting her have sometime with her mate before asking of her a hard painful decision. I had informed her yesterday of what was to happen and how her chosen people dealt with Family betrayers. She understood and told me she would have a decision for me today. There was still much to be done, and I wanted the punishments of those who needed to be dealt with finished. A new chapter was coming for my people. I was anxious to get it started.

I announced myself and was granted entrance quickly. Oktavia was prompt up on the bed with many folded furs behind her. An expression of irritation plain on her face. It would appear her mate was in the mind to keep her abed for now. I tried my best to hid the small smile that played upon my lips. I knew first hand the desire for one's lover to keep the other safe.

"With all due respect Heda," Oktavia said carefully. "I am not in the mood to be teased."

I looked at her with a playful expression of reproach. The younger warrior had the good sense to bow her head in apology.

"I understand," I said a wistful tone of compassion. "I have to deal with Klark's fussiness at times myself and still do when the mood seems to hit.. Should she hear of this conversation…," I said looking at her the full weight of my authority and right in my hardened stare. My meaning clear to both her and Linkon.

"Sha, Heda," they said in unison.

I nodded, pleased with their understanding.

I sat down on the chair next to the bed that Linkon had gotten for me. "Machof," I said looking at him briefly, before settling my gaze fully on Oktavia.

She looked at me, as I waited patiently for her to begin. I would not rush her even with my presence. I began to speak of other things, things of little consequence or importance. Things merely to fill the time. I spoke mainly with Linkon, asking his thoughts of the Arkadian's and of everything that had happened.

It had been a full candle mark before Oktavia finally spoke up and even then her voice was shaking but sure.

"I don't want to be the one to decide Bellamy's fate," Oktavia said slowly, eyes down case before looking me straight in the eye. "Heda, I don't want his blood on my hands."

"I understand," I said after a moments pause. "Belomi Blake and his cohorts will face their punishments two days after Jaha has meet his."

"Thank you, Heda."

I nodded as I took my leave, not wanting to stay longer then needed.

I let my feet guide me, not altogether sure of where I was headed, only that I would get there. Being Heda was both a blessing and a curse. Where others could be weak, Heda always had to be strong. Unable to pass responsibility to another. Heda was the last step, the one the people turned to, to be a leader, as symbol of strength, to be whatever Heda's people needed.

As Lexa, my heart was burdened and torn. Holes riddled it surface. Payments made by the coin of my soul. I was tired, but I loved my people deeply and with a sureness that scared me often. I knew that if I had not found a way to make Clarke and her people truly mine; at some point I would have been forced to betray them. I knew with out a doubt I could not break my heart again and continued to live. A new Heda would have taken my place, but not before ensuring Skaikru's long term safety.

I smile to myself at the destination my mindless wandering had brought me too. I stood before my tent, it would appear that I would always be drawn back to my beloved. I could hear Klark's low raspy voice, humming softly. I smile as my troubled soul was instantly put at ease. The blonde girl that fell from the sky would soon be mine and I would never have to choose between my heart and my head.

I opened the tent flap, as a deep hunger over took me. Walking slowing and purposefully I made my way over to her.

I reach my arms out embracing her, feeling her body tense for a moment before recognizing my touch and hearing her sigh as she leaned into me. My arms wrapping around her tightly.

"My love," I breathed into her ear, my voice husky with want.

"Lexa," she said breathy and low, humming contentedly as I nuzzled her ear.

I began to press my lips into the hallow of her neck as my hand wandered up to cup her breasts. "I need you, Klark," I said with a hard Ca at the end, feeling her shiver in response.

"I am yours Lexa," She said turning around to hold my face in between her hands her blue eyes looking deeply into mine before crashing our lips together. I moaned into her mouth as I placed my hands beneath her bottom to bring our hips as close as possible.

It was a flurry of desperate need and want I sought to feel her skin on mine, quickly removing the barriers that divided us. Once we were both naked, I lifted her, feeling her wetness as she wrapped her legs around my hips. I heard her whimper at the sensation, as I carried her to the bed.

Once at the bed I positioned her on its edge wanting to worship her. Kneeling and, pledging myself as Lexa to her.

I pulled her close, capturing her lips with mine. Slowly I made my way over her jaw past her ear, were I spoke of my love for her before gently nibbling her ear, hearing her moan as I moved my hands to her breasts cupping them feeling their weight as I began to tease her nipples. She whimpered as I left my mark on her neck.

Making my way down past her collarbone stopping to press kisses the top of each breast before continuing down to the apex of her thigh's.

"Please," she moaned as I leaned in, to slowly swipe my tongue along her folds, lapping at her juices; needing to take in as much of her as possible. Her hips bucked into me as I attacked the sensitive bud with my tongue, sliding two finger into her curling slowly, feeling the soft spongy area that would send her closer to the edge.

"Yes...," She breathed as I maintained my pace wanting to prolong her pleasure for as much as possible. "Moaning."

I felt her thread her fingers into my hair as her walls began to flutter around me her breathing turning into shallow pants. I felt her body pause before releasing as she moan my name breathy and reverent like a prayer.

"Ai hodnes," I said as I continued to thrust into her, helping to ride out her orgasm. Moving to kiss her lips, the taste of her on my tongue as she granted me entrance. She captured my tongue between her teeth to suck off all her juices.

"I love you," she purred as we settled fully onto the furs.

"I love you too," I said smiling as she snuggled closer into me.

"Have you decided what you will do with Bellamy?" Klark asked sometime later after another round of love making.

I took my time to respond, unsure if she wanted to know the details. "Sha," I answered testing the waters to see if she would ask for more.

"Okay," she said quietly. "I trust you to be just Lexa."

"I will," I said softly. "Let's get some sleep. Tomorrow will see the end of Jaha's fight. Then the next will be Belomi and his people's."

"Reshop, Lexa," Klark said kissing my side.

"Good night, hodnes," I murmured kissing her forehead, before falling into a fitful sleep.