Length: about 415 words (Alright, boo me for making such short chapters. I can take it... more or less... rather less than more...)
Disclaimer: JKR: Inventor/owner of HP and Jord: Ambitioned fanfiction writer - Come on, admit it! It's a good match, right?
Author's Notes: "Catch my Disease" is a song by Ben Lee. It's really cute, you should listen to it (on youtube or somewhere...) That said, have fun reading...
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6. Suffering From Love #2 – Disease
She had got him chocolate. Worse even, she had got him cheap chocolate, the one he always bought himself. He was used to this kind of chocolate, basically because he couldn't spend more money on better quality, but nevertheless he liked it, even more than other sorts. The fact that she knew this, however, filled him with worry and guilt of the most unpleasant sort. It was all the evidence that he needed to know that she was more in love with him than ever. Unavoidably, truly, heartbreakingly in love with him.
Sometimes it seemed very much like a disease, the more he thought about it. One day it simply had caught them both and they had suffered every since. The worse it got, the worse they felt and by the time he had thought that it might have passed, at least with her, it had come crawling back to him and viciously attacked him unguarded. And as far as diseases went, this was the worst he had ever experienced.
It was exhausting and tiring, that much was for sure.
It was unmistakable, so unbelievably obvious that he wondered why nobody ever noticed.
But the worst of all was that it clearly seemed incurable. There were days when he felt better, almost free of all symptoms. But whenever he chanced a glance at her and caught her staring back, the symptoms were there again and stronger than ever before. Her beautiful sight in his mind, his heart almost drowning in love for her and his body aching with the need to touch her. It was all he could do to not walk over and kiss her between meetings or in the corridors or even over dinner. It was all he could do to keep his disease secret from her and the world.
As for the chocolate which she had bought him, he couldn't get himself to open the bar. Because it would mean accepting her love and he wondered how he could ever do that when he had nothing, not even enough courage to return the gesture, but his own love to offer back. As it seemed, the disease had spread too far yet and made him sick for life. But he couldn't let her suffer from it, too, not forever anyway. And thus, he would have to stay away from her.
In the end, all he could actually return to her was a simple, yet as he very well knew insufficient "Thank you" – and mean it.
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Not reviewing is such a nasty disease! So better get rid off it right now, eh?
For everybody wondering about how in the world Remus knew that the chocolate had come from Tonks: I don't know. You probably expected me to come up with a good explanation here but, to my own great disappointment, I have none. He just knew. (Oh yes, very witty explanation... -.-) I mean, who else should get chocolate for Remus if not Tonks? (Hestia? Emmeline? Not very likely in my opinion...) He probably used Legilimency on her and forced the answer out of her. Ouch, bad idea. He just knew, let's leave it that way...
I do have flaws in my fanfics (as you can see); bye bye und tschüß