A.N.: I wrote this for the Kurtbastian Big Bang on livejournal, so you can either read it there (my name is raven_kerry) or here.
Huge thanks to my sister, who jumped in to beta-read for me, when none of the betas who signed up for the Kurtbastian Big Bang, who I wrote, answered the messages I sent to them. Also, kudos, hugs and thanks to Alexbly on tumblr for the wonderful art. ^^
I don't own Glee. Never have, never will.
Warnings: Abusive relationship, attempted non-con, Blaine as the bad-guy
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Chapter Six
Kurt didn't tell anyone else what had happened with Blaine, but he officially changed his status on Facebook. Most of his friends asked him what had happened, but he only gave them vague answers. The most common one was that Blaine wasn't who he'd thought he was.
The only three people who really knew anything were Rachel, Santana and Brittany. They helped run interference for him, like taking all the seats around him so Blaine couldn't sit next to him, engaging him in conversation whenever he was approaching, thus giving Kurt time to escape; things like that. Kurt was really grateful to them. He didn't know if he could handle Blaine talking to him. He found it wasn't quite as bad as with Karofsky – not with his friends helping him.
He'd been wearing wrist warmers to hide the bruises Blaine had caused on his wrists. Luckily, the ones on his back he could just chalk up to a locker slam, if he wanted. It didn't happen quite as often as it used to, what with Karofsky having left the school, but it still happened often enough.
Rachel withdrew her candidacy for Senior Class President, healing the remaining gap between her and Kurt. Kurt, meanwhile, focused on his studies, his position in the Cheerios and New Directions.
Time passed quickly. Before Kurt knew it, the bruises had healed. He had lost the campaign, but his father won. He knew he should tell his father about what happened with Blaine then but, with Sectionals right around the corner, he didn't dare. After all, the New Directions needed him.
Sebastian texted Kurt to tell him that the Warblers had won and he would be going to Scandals that weekend to celebrate it. He also asked Kurt if he'd join him, which Kurt quickly agreed to.
Soon after, he found himself going out more and more often with Sebastian. It felt easy, comfortable with him. They never failed to quibble with each other but, if Kurt was honest with himself, that was one of the things he liked the most about their relationship. He didn't have to play a role. He could be his true self – sass and all.
Whenever any of Kurt's friends were around them, they'd give them strange looks. It was almost as if they expected something to happen between the two of them. Just because they were constantly flirting with each other didn't mean anything. It was just for fun. Sebastian didn't do feelings or relationships and Kurt wouldn't let himself fall into one with him, either.
Blaine had seemingly given up on him and was leaving him alone, so Kurt was less and less careful about avoiding him. One day, he asked Sebastian to come after school. Kurt knew that the last few lessons of the day were canceled, so he'd be there fairly soon after school was out. They'd agreed to meet in the auditorium.
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When Kurt entered the auditorium, Blaine was already there. Kurt said, "I reserved the auditorium today."
Blaine answered cooly, "I know. You've been avoiding me."
"Can you blame me?"
"You aren't allowed to avoid me. I'm your boyfriend."
"Blaine, I broke up with you!"
"You were misguided. I bet that bitch Santana put you up to it, didn't she?"
"You practically forced yourself on me!"
"You belong to me! I didn't force you to do anything you didn't want!"
"You're delusional!"
"Give me your cell phone."
"No." Kurt automatically put his hand over it as he inched his other shaky hand towards the door handle.
"I wouldn't do that if I were you, Kurt. You should obey, like a good sub." Blaine advanced and pushed Kurt's hand to the side as he plucked Kurt's phone out of his pants. He tossed it to the side. "You won't be needing that now."
"Leave me alone!"
"Not after how much I've worked to be alone with you. I'll show you how much I love you still. You know you still love me, no matter how much you try to pretend you don't. It's time to stop lying to yourself."
"I know ninjutsu."
"I was the leader of the Dalton Fight Club. That doesn't scare me. Besides, it's not like you can do much in your tight pants."
"I told you it's over! Why can't you accept that?"
Blaine narrowed his eyes. "You haven't broken up with me. Cause,
"That'll be the day, when you say goodbye
That'll be the day, when you make me cry
You say you gonna leave, you know it's a lie
'Cause that'll be the day when I die."
Kurt answered,
"Fly by frankie thinks he's superman
Like a child at the wheel of a rocket
He comes round here with a license to love
But I don't know where he got it
I trusted you offered everything
But I'm not sure you deserve it
"You tell me that I'm lucky
But I feel like giving up
'Cause a heart like mine's wasted on you
If you don't know what you've got."
Blaine continued,
"Well, you give me all your lovin' and your turtle dovin'
All your hugs and kisses and your money too
Well, you know you love me baby
Until you tell me, maybe
That some day, well I'll be through
"Well that'll be the day when you say goodbye
Yes, that'll be the day when you make me cry
You say you're gonna leave, you know it's a lie
'Cause that'll be the day when I die"
Kurt sang at the same time as Blaine sang his chorus,
"You throw it away
Throw it away
All the heart and the soul I've been giving
You throw it away
Throw it away
Like it's no big deal you'll be missin'
You throw it away
Throw it away
Run it underground.
"Fly by frankie's got it in his head
That he's something I know that he's not
He's like a blind bull in a china shop
When it comes to affairs of the heart
"You wouldn't know what love is
If it hit you like a rock
And a boy like me is lost on you
If you don't know what you've got."
They simultaneously sang their two choruses again and continued singing at the same time, circling each other. Blaine sang,
"Well, when Cupid shot his dart
He shot it at your heart
So if we ever part and I leave you
You sit and hold and you tell me boldly
That some day, well I'll be blue"
Kurt sang,
"Every breath in the park
Every dance in the dark
Every promise you make
You go and throw it away
Every smile in the rain
You know it's always the same
You go and do it again
You go and throw it away."
Blaine paused and Kurt continued,
"You wouldn't know what love is
If it hit you like a rock
And a boy like me is lost on you
If you don't know what you've got."
They sang their individual choruses together again, ending with Blaine singing, "That'll be the day when I die," and Kurt singing, "Throw it away, Run it underground."
Blaine smirked at Kurt. "You aren't convincing anyone, Kurt." He grabbed him and kissed him.
Kurt's eyes flew open wide. In that moment Sebastian came in from behind Blaine and Kurt pushed Blaine away from himself. He yelled, "Leave me alone, Blaine! I don't want anything to do with you anymore!"
"You say you're gonna leave, you know it's a lie."
"Shut up!" Kurt slapped Blaine on the face.
Sebastian grabbed Blaine's arms. "The lady has spoken. Now get out. He actually doesn't want to see your face anymore. He knows everything, you see. How you cheated on him, how you aren't a virgin. Everything. It's not like he's missing all that much, anyways. You give a rotten blow job and I've heard you're terrible at anything other than bottoming. He can do better."
Blaine demanded, "Are you two friends now?"
Sebastian smirked. "Or something like that."
"Kurt would never…"
"How well do you really know your ex?" Sebastian changed his grip to hold Blaine's arms in front of him. He went over to kiss Kurt right in front of Blaine. Kurt unwillingly let out a moan during the kiss, as Sebastian completely dominated it. He brought a hand up to the nape of Sebastian's neck, trying to press him in closer.
Blaine struggled more and Sebastian had to break the kiss to focus on holding him. He yelled, "I'll kill you, Sebastian! I'll kill you for touching what's mine!"
"Oh, really? Would you care to say that again?"
"I'll kill you! I swear! Just let me go!"
"You're going to kill me, are you? And just what happens when you go to jail for it? Then you won't be able to watch over Kurt. He'll be able to do anything he wants with anyone."
"Then I'll kill him, too! No one can touch him other than me!"
"You're clinically insane; you know that?"
"He's mine!"
"He belongs to nobody."
Kurt cut in, "He is here and he has a name."
Sebastian ignored him. "Get out of here, Blaine, before we call the police."
"You don't have any proof!"
"It's two against one. And my father is the state attorney." Sebastian opened the door with his foot and flung Blaine outside, where he fell to the ground. As quickly as he could, Sebastian closed the door and locked it from the inside.
Sebastian pulled out his phone and fiddled with it. Kurt heard Blaine yelling obscenities and pounding on the door from the other side.
A few moments Sebastian put it back in his pocket. "When I heard you guys outside, I knew something was going on. So I started recording on my phone before I entered. I just sent the recording to my father. He'll make sure that the two of us at the very least get a restraining order on Blaine."
"Thank you."
"No need. I'm just doing what's right."
"You know, he's going to think we're in love now."
"People think that anyways, what with the way your friends look at us."
Kurt sang, "Why do they think up stories that link my name with yours?"
Sebastian answered, "Why do the neighbors chatter all day, behind their doors?"
"I know a way to prove what they say is quite untrue.
Here is the gist, a practical list of 'don'ts' for you.
Don't throw bouquets at me
Don't please my folks too much
Don't laugh at my jokes too much"
Sebastian inserted, "Who laughs at your jokes?"
"People will say we're in love!
Don't sigh and gaze at me
Your sighs are so like mine
Your eyes mustn't glow like mine
People will say we're in love.
Don't start collecting things."
"Like what?"
"Give me my rose and my glove.
Sweetheart they're suspecting things
People will say we're in love."
Sebastian continued, "Some people claim that you are to blame as much as I
Why do y' take the trouble to bake my favorite pie?
Grantin' your wish, I carved our initials on that tree.
Just keep a slice of all the advice you give so free.
Don't praise my charm too much
Don't look so vain with me
Don't stand in the rain with me
People will say we're in love!
Don't take my arm too much
Don't keep your hand in mine
Your hand feels so grand in mine
People will say we're in love!
Don't dance all night with me
Till the stars fade from above
They'll see it's alright with me
People will say we're in love."
Kurt asked, "Are you just singing that, or do you really mean it?"
Sebastian cocked an eyebrow. "What do you think?"
Kurt replied, "I don't know." He unconsciously grabbed Sebastian's hands in his own and gazed into his green eyes.
"Did you know that I haven't gotten any since that awful blowjob from Blaine?"
Kurt shook his head 'no.' "Why?"
"Because, I've been spending so much time with you, silly. When would I have had a chance to?"
Kurt blinked.
"And you know what the worst thing is?"
Kurt shook his head.
Sebastian let out a chocked laugh. "I don't even really miss it all that much. I'd miss the time with you so much more."
"Are you saying what I think you're saying?"
"I'm an awful person. You know that, I know it. I'm sarcastic, blunt and honest. You could do much better."
Kurt shook his head. "When I was a kid,
I played on the street,
I always loved illusion.
I thought make-believe
Was truer than life
But now it's all confusion
Please can you tell me what's happening?
I just don't know anymore.
If this is real,
How should I feel?
What should I look for?"
Sebastian answered, "If you were smart,
You would keep on walking
Out of my life
As fast as you can.
I'm not the one
You should pin your hopes on,
You're falling for
The wrong kind of man.
"This is crazy.
You know we should call it a day.
Sound advice, great advice,
Let's throw it away.
I can't control
All the things I'm feeling,
I haven't got a prayer
If I'm a fool, well, I'm too much in love to care
"I knew where I was,
I'd given up hope,
Made friends with disillusion.
No one in my life,
But I look at you
And now it's all confusion."
Kurt sang, "Please can you tell me what's happening?
I just don't know anymore.
If this is real,
How should I feel?
What should I look for?
"I thought I had
Everything I needed.
My life was set,
My dreams were in place.
My heart could see
Way into the future.
All of that goes
When I see your face.
I should hate you,
There I was, the world in my hand
Can one kiss kiss away
Everything I planned?
I can't control
All the things I'm feeling,
I'm floating in mid-air.
I know it's wrong, but I'm too much in love to care."
Sebastian joined Kurt, "I thought I had
Everything I needed
My life was set,
My dreams were in place
My heart could see
Way into the future.
All of that goes
When I see your face.
"This is crazy.
You know we should call it a day."
Sebastian sang alone, "Sound advice,"
Kurt sang alone, "Great advice,"
They sang together again, "Let's throw it away.
I can't control
All the things I'm feeling.
We're floating in mid-air.
If we are fools, well, we're too much in love to care.
If we are fools, well, we're too much in love to care."
The two of them leaned in for a heated kiss.
After a few moments, Sebastian drew away. "Kurt, when we got to talking at Scandals, I warned you that I could fall in love with you. I tried not to. God, I tried not to. But I couldn't not be with you and, every time you called, I came willingly. Now, seeing Blaine kiss you made me so jealous, but you pushed him away and that made me feel satisfied. At that moment, I realized that I care for you. More than I want to."
Kurt snorted, "You have really bad timing, Bas. I really like you, but you've seen what my life is like right with Blaine and everything. I wouldn't want to pull you into that."
"I'm already in it, like it or not. It's too late for me to pull out."
"I can't promise to sleep with you any time soon."
"I can handle it. And, if it gets to be too much for me, I'll tell you. I won't go behind your back, like Blaine did. I can't promise that I won't ever mess around with another guy while I'm with you, even if I haven't been sleeping around lately, but I do promise to tell you first. Okay?"
Kurt hesitated. "You won't hurt me?"
"I can't promise that either. All I can promise is not to physically hurt you without permission."
Kurt choked. "Permission?"
Sebastian shrugged. "Some people like pain when they're intimate."
Kurt wrinkled his nose. "No, thank you. Just… ewww!" He pressed his fists to his temples. "Eww! Eww! Eww!"
Sebastian laughed. "You'd be surprised how many kinks there are out there. Like sucking on feet, touching or seeing someone who's lost a limb…"
"Stop it! I don't want to hear! Do you want me to throw up?"
"Just because they aren't your kinks doesn't mean that there aren't enough people who have them. Some people like it when their partner takes control."
"I hated it when Blaine took control, but I like it when you do. What does that make me?"
"Human. It takes a lot of trust for that: something you didn't have an abundance of with Blaine."
"I trust you."
"I don't have a clue why, though."
"I'll be leaving for New York for the next school year. What will you do then?"
"Presuming my parents want me to stay at Dalton, I guess we'll have to come to a decision then. Either we stay strictly exclusive, which would be hard on both of us, or we have an open relationship. That means that, as long as we inform the other person and always use protection, we can sleep around. Either way, I'll try and visit you as often as I can. We'll cross that bridge when we get to it, though."
"Can an open relationship really work?"
"If you're honest and upfront – it can. Either person can get out of it, if it becomes to be too much, knowing your partner is screwing other people. It's better than cheating, though and, let's face it: most gay relationships end up either in open relationships or cheating. I'd much prefer the first one. I promise I'll listen to you, if you tell me not that day or night. You can veto me on it."
"Well, I guess. As long as you swear to always use protection and to never bring someone to a bed that we share and never do it in front of me."
"I promise. And, in return, don't ever do it in front of me, either. I don't think I'd be able to let anyone else kiss you, if I was there. I'm too possessive."
There was a pregnant silence in which they noticed that the pounding on the door had ceased. Instead, they heard chocked sobs from outside.
Sebastian sunk to a knee and asked, "Kurt, would you be my boyfriend, to love and to cherish and to uphold the rules we agreed on?"
Kurt giggled. "I will, dork. Will you?"
"Knowing what I'll get out of it? You bet!" Sebastian smirked and drew Kurt in for another toe-curling kiss. "So, how do you want your first time to be like?"
Kurt laughed, "You don't beat around the bush, do you?"
"Nope. I've got to start planning, so it'll be ready for when we get that far."
"I want it to be in a field of lavender."
Sebastian smirked, "Seems like I have two tickets to buy to Aix En Provence in France then."
Kurt's eyes grew wide. "I don't have a passport, though! And I refuse to have sex with you in public, where anyone can see us!"
"I'll just have to improvise then. And you're right: it's too cold there right now."
Kurt laughed and swatted Sebastian. "You're such a dork."
"But you love me anyway," Sebastian sing-songed.
"Sometimes I really wonder," Kurt teased.