"Teal and Orange"
By Confusion No Hime
Author Notes:
Hello, minna-san. CNH here again, and now, I give you chapter six. Wow, I was really overwhelmed on how you guys warmly accepted the last chap. Reading every reviews and knowing that you guys liked the cheese made me feel ecstatic! Thank you very much and I hope you will also find this chapter to your liking.
As always, I want to thank the following people who liked the last chap and motivated me into finishing this chapter:
Bonnenuit, Thierrymist, crave-the-rave, Queen86, Yoshimara, Sora No Tori, PS2girl, LostInTheDawn, vanityissues, Ruyu-san, Killrockstars, Kirtash8, realityfling18, Trin 077, Moonmage172, arwen77, souldemon01, Trinity The Kitsune Kunoichi, Tori93, yuki-chan55 and akuhime-chan.
Thank you very much!^^
Anyway, please tell me what you think if you like this chapter. Corrections are also welcome and would be highly appreciated since English is not my first language. Hope you'll like it and enjoy!*^^*
Warnings:
Yaoi, male to male, bad language, bad grammar, major OOCness (?).
Disclaimer:
As much as I want to, I can't own Bleach.
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Chapter 6: Failure
His lips descended down on me once again. His tongue slipping inside my mouth as he coaxed my tongue into play and tasted all of me. His hand slid up to grab my own, lacing our fingers together.
The kiss we shared was just simple, a mere act of conveying what we really feel without using any words. I would've wanted to hear him say those three letter words that escaped from my lips a while ago, but I know that'd be impossible. Though he shows this tough and arrogant attitude, I know he wasn't into freely expressing intimate emotions verbally. But what he can't communicate in words make up for the way that he made me feel through his kiss.
As corny and as girly as it sound, I will never get tired of tasting him, of having his lips caress my own and having his hand touch mine in a comforting grasp.
He pulled back after we felt ourselves almost drown from lack of oxygen. I slowly opened my eyes only to see cobalt orbs gaze down at me with passion. A small smile lined up his lips as he brought his free hand on my chin, the soft contact making my heart flutter.
"I must have you, Ichigo." He whispered.
A smirk played on my lips at what he said. Though I'll never really admit it, what he said was true. He didn't have to say it actually, he already has all of me from the moment I laid eyes on him. "Bastard. We can't do it."
He grunted and pulled away. Sitting up, I think my eyes slightly deceived me when I saw his lips pout in disapproval. "I know, 'coz you can't stay long and we still have to think some things out." He huffed.
I pushed myself up and snickered. "I'm glad you're aware of that." I teased though deep inside I was dying to feel all of him against my body.
He moved back a little so we could face each other properly at a normal talking distance. Our knees were touching and tried to relax as we stared at each other. I was trying to keep a straight face but it was difficult, especially when I can clearly see restraint written all over his face. It made me want to jump at him and let him have me. I mentally shook those thoughts off of my mind and tried to take deep composed breaths. "So, who else in my family is your target?" I asked.
His brows furrowed in seriousness as he crossed his arms over his chest. "If I remember correctly, they were Urahara Kisuke and Kuchiki Byakuya."
My heart started drumming against my chest yet again. The targets his organization wanted to eliminate were all important members of my family except me. "So why does your crazy father included me in your hit list?"
He grunted in annoyance as he rolled his eyes. "My fucking bastard of a foster father said he don't want to take the risk of having you causing him problems in the near future once you take over as your organization's head." He explained.
"He likes thinking ahead." I commented.
"I say he's a dumbass."
"A sick dumbass."
"So how the fuck do I warn them about your family's genius plot of assassinating my family?"
"Don't know." He shrugged. "It's up to you."
I gave him a disappointed look. I was kind of expecting he'll say that but at least he should try showing some effort on thinking of ways on how the hell am I going to say to my family that someone is planning to send them to their fucking graves. "You're really helpful." I shot back.
He cast a self-confident grin that made me want to close my eyes so I wouldn't have to see it. How can he make a goddamn smirk so sexy? It was so unfair.
"Don't worry, you'll figure something out. Just go home, warn them, sneak out of the house and meet me here at twelve midnight tomorrow." He flamboyantly said.
"So that's the plan?" I asked coldly, glaring darkly at him.
"Yeah, unless you have other ideas."
I thought for a moment. Actually, that's the best plan we could really come up with. I just have to find a way on how I can let my father, Byakuya and Urahara-san know that their lives are in danger. Of course, I couldn't directly tell them for they will certainly ask questions as to why and how did I know something like that.
With a defeated sigh, I looked impassively at him. "Okay, fine." I turned around and walked up to Renji's motorcycle. Though I heard Grimmjow standing up from the ground and running up to me in a rushed manner, I ignored him. I couldn't stay longer, if I do I'll just end up giving in to him again if he initiates anything beyond kissing.
"Oi, where are you fucking going?" I heard him asked in a hurried voice.
I walked faster. "I'm going home."
"What? That's it? We meet, we kiss a little and talk then you go home?" He complained, his voice dripping with tremendous frustration.
"Yes. You know I can't stay longer, they might find me out." I simply explained to him. I quickly got on the bike as soon as I reached it and was about to grab my helmet when a large hand circled my wrist into a firm grip.
Auburn met cerulean as we gazed defiantly at each other.
"Let go of me." I snapped.
"Why are you doing this?" He demanded in a very dangerous tone that made my body shiver in slight trepidation.
"Do what?" I asked innocently as I gave him an even darker scowl.
Through the darkness of the night, his eyes still gleamed like a pair of sapphire, enchanting me and making me catch my breath.
I really have to get away from him.
"Staying away from me after I kiss you or something." He replied with a roll of his eyes.
I gaped at him.
Well, that was a little true.
I was speechless and couldn't think of anything smart to say. I just gawked at him like an idiot.
He just stared at me, waiting for an answer or explanation.
I swallowed hard and tried to find my voice again. Maybe telling the real reason would shut him up and would make him understand…? I inhaled slowly and closed my eyes. When I opened them, I looked calmly at him. "Look, Grimm… I just don't want to be swallowed alive by you again."
He gave me this ridiculous expression, as if he didn't understand what I said, then gave me this maniac grin that made a dreadful suspicion born from the inner recesses of my messed-up mind.
"So you don't want me to suck your cock? Aw, Ichigo! I haven't sucked it for three years and you're depriving me of it! That's just so fucking mean!" He responded, or rather whined like a kid.
I swore my jaw touched the ground at the realization that my suspicion was true. He didn't get what I said, not even a word of it.
Fuck.
The one I love is a fucking idiot!
Really, he is!
Grinnjow Jeagerjaques is an idiot!
"T-that's not what I mean you fucker!" I stuttered as I finally found my voice. "You completely misunderstood! That's not what I'm talking about! What I mean is that I just don't want to lose my self-control again because of you!" I screamed at him.
The grin on his face stayed, the smug look on his eyes had only gotten deeper and I felt my cheeks reddened even more in embarrassment. It was good that it was dark or else, he would certainly know that I was practically as red as a tomato.
He smirked. "I know. I'm just playing with ya." He said then grabbed the back of my head and pulled my head towards him, crashing our lips together in a deep kiss.
All thoughts of torturing him, hurting him and killing him vanished like a ghost in my mind as I fell for the dangerous spell of his lips all over again. His tongue immediately entered my mouth, deepening the kiss as his other hand snaked around the small of my back and drew my smaller frame against his large one. We pushed against each other, trying to feel up each other's bodies, my cock hardening in response as I felt his growing erection against my leg.
I am definitely losing my mind… my control… my body.
I was about to snake my arms around his neck, was about to surrender everything to him when he pushed me back, breaking the hot kiss. I gazed wonderingly at him with dazed eyes as a thin line of saliva dribbled down the corner of my lips.
He was breathing heavily, his blue eyes gleaming with desire, amusement and frustration as he gazed back at me. A wicked smirk curved up his lips and I can't help the urge to twitch an eye at the way he looked at me.
"I really love it when you act all flustered and shy."
I instantly pushed him away, causing him to take a few steps back and glared daggers at him. What a fucking insensitive thing to say, really. "Shut the fuck up. I'm going." I shot at him and grabbed my helmet.
He just looked at me with a goddamn smirk on his face as I put my helmet on and started the engine. I was about to drive away when he placed a hand on my shoulder.
"What?"
"I'll die if you stood me up tomorrow."
I focused my head on the road and drove away. Fast. My heart beating like a drum as the words he said echoed repeatedly inside my head. A warm, fuzzy, happy feeling welling up from the depths of my soul. It wasn't even close to the three word sentence, but it was enough to make me feel like a goddamn woman once again.
Aargh! Why does he have to do this? It would be easier if he would just tell me he loves me… or…some… thing…
I slowed down and stopped at the middle of the dirt road. I took my helmet off and gulped a mouthful of air as I felt the need to catch my breath. I placed my hands over my chest and felt my own heartbeat still beating rapidly.
At that time, I thought I was going to die of too much happiness.
GRIMMJOW JEAGERJAQUES
That wasn't entirely true. I just blurted it out of nowhere without thinking so…
Okay, I really meant what I said.
Though I can see that he has his mind set on coming with me, many things can still happen in one day. I guess I was just afraid that something bad might happen that may cause him to change his mind or make our plan fail. I continued watching him through the dark until the tail lights of his vehicle vanished from my sight.
With a tired sigh I walked back to the blanket, laid down and watched the moon yet again. I still didn't want to come home so I decided to stay a little longer and maybe take a short nap. I closed my eyes and relaxed, pushed all disturbing thoughts from the deepest corners of my mind and tried to sleep. The cool evening breeze somehow helped into making my thoughts drift off to slumber until I heard a sound that definitely doesn't fit into the whole silent environment.
My eyes snapped open as I felt the sound of footsteps come closer. It was coming from the direction where my head was located and confirmed it when a shadow slightly darkened my vision. I shot up, eyes wide, body shaking and heart suddenly racing as I spun my head back and looked at the very familiar face of Ichimaru Gin.
Holy motherfucker.
I quickly stood up and faced him. He wasn't alone, together with him were two large men clad in black suits holding a gun pointing at my direction. Fear immediately engulfed me like fire as I saw his lips curved up in a wide mocking smile.
Did they see it?
Did they see Ichigo?
Did they see what I did with the Seiretei heir?
Did they hear everything that we talked about?
I can only stare at him with wide eyes as he took a few steps forward, his two men following him.
"I didn't know you're already in close terms with your prey, Grimmy-chan." He said, his voice dripping with deep sarcasm that made me want to turn back and flee.
I swallowed hard and tried to say something. "What are you doing here, Gin?" I asked. I think my voice sounded a little shaky.
He chuckled. "Well, I was just curious as to why did Grimmy-chan sneaked out of the house at the middle of the night, that's all." He languidly replied.
Silence fell down upon us but I can definitely hear my heart beating loudly against my chest as millions of questions ran inside my head. Did he see and hear everything? How did he follow me here? Why did I become so careless? What the fuck am I going to do?
Fuck.
What am I going to do?
"But ya know, I can ask ya the same thing." He followed.
I fought the urge to step back. I tried to calm my labored breathing, tried to slow down my heart beat as my thoughts race to think of something sound and reasonable to say, but there was nothing. Nothing that I can ever say to make those guys put their guns down and make me clear of suspicion.
Gin chuckled once again. "Cat got ya tongue, Grimmy-chan?" He slowly sauntered towards me, his eyes gleaming with wicked amusement. "Are ya really serious in running off with Seiretei's heir, your target?"
A mocking grin broke from my lips. I didn't know why the hell did I do that, but it helped into regaining my composure. "You don't have any say or do on what I do with my target, Gin." I shot back. "Ichigo is mine and I can do whatever it is that I want with him."
He was quiet for a moment, just stared at me with those foxy eyes and flashed me that annoying foxy grin. I didn't know what was fucking running inside his head but I know it isn't good.
"You think I'm betraying Las Noches?" I smirked proudly.
"Well, with what I've witnessed today and how you told about our plans to your prey, its enough proof that you are betraying the organization." He replied coolly.
Shit. There is no way out of here. I'm dead.
"So what are you going to do about it?" I taunted, confidently. I was the one who's in a dangerous situation and I still act all tough and mighty. Man, I'm putting myself more in danger here.
I'm fucking dead.
ICHIGO KUROSAKI
I felt something different the moment I entered the gates of the mansion. The guys stationed at the entrance seemed to be in a panic, in tension as if something bad happened. The thought of what Grimmjow told me a while ago crossed my mind and I immediately stopped at the guard house to inquire. One of the four men inside quickly approached me, nervousness was radiating from the man
"What's wrong? Did something happen?"
"It's a good thing you went home safely." The man answered with a relieved sigh. "Urahara-sama just got back outside, some of his men got wounded. I think some one tried to assassinate him, Ichigo-sama."
I gasped and without wasting any second, I drove as fast as I could towards the mansion. I know who was responsible for that and it was now certain that they don't waste any second into carrying out their plans.
Shit.
I just parked Renji's bike at the front and ran inside the house. I quickly went to the living room where I know they would probably gather. I slammed the door open and had all the people inside the room turned their heads towards me when I strode inside. Almost everyone was there, except for Yuzu and Karin who definitely didn't need to know about this part of the family yet.
"Ichigo, where did you go?" Rukia asked or rather demanded. Her dark eyes were looking with suspicion at me and the nervousness I felt increased when I noticed that everyone was looking at me the same way, especially Renji.
Fuck.
"I-I can't s-sleep so I decided to g-go out." I stuttered uncomfortably as I looked at Urahara who was sitting with a worried look on his face. He had his hand placed on his left bicep where a thin strip of bandage was encircled. "A-are you hurt, Urahara-san?" I asked worriedly.
He gave me a small smile. "Just a scratch but I'm okay. A few of my men got seriously injured though." He replied in a low guilty voice.
"Ichigo."
I swallowed hard as I felt my throat went dry. I slowly turned my gaze at my grandfather and tried to act naturally. "Yes, Yamamoto-jiisan?"
He took a calm breath first then gave me this authoritative, domineering look that made me slightly shudder in fear. I slowly took a deep breath to compose myself.
"Where have you been at this time of the night?" He inquired.
"I just went somewhere to get some fresh air. I-I'm sorry." I apologized with a bow.
"You know that you shouldn't have done that. As the future heir, you're life is always in danger and you must never let yourself go out alone. What if something bad happens to you, Ichigo. What will your family, especially your sisters will feel?" The old man lectured.
I just gazed down on the floor, embarrassment and nervousness written all over my face but it doesn't matter. All I can think about is how can I slip out of this situation. Anyhow, there are two things I realized. First, I didn't have to tell them about Las Noches' plans to kill my father, Urahara-san and Byakuya. What happened tonight was a clear indication that they should be more cautious now. Second, now that they know the enemy is moving, they'll definitely be more particular with the family's security. Meaning, grandfather will add fifty more men to guard the estate.
Damn it.
Escaping tomorrow would be somehow difficult.
"It's okay, Yamamoto-sama. What's important is he's safe." I heard my father say in a calm but serious voice that I rarely hear from him. It only means one thing, he was pissed and serious. I slowly look up and met my father's composed face but deadly eyes. "Ichigo, you'll be punished for what you did, understood?"
I looked momentarily at my father then bowed my head in humiliation. "Yes." I answered quietly. Me agreeing with my father like a good kid, rarely happens and it only occurs at times like this.
"It seems that the enemy won't stay quiet anymore." Yoruichi commented as she leaned on a wall with her arms crossed over her chest.
"I think they're bothered with how Seiretei had quickly proliferated its' power around Europe." Byakuya said as he sat calmly on the couch with his legs crossed and his arms over his chest. "They don't want us to increase more power within their territory."
"If that's the case, then we should know who their targets are and make a plan to counter them." Grandfather said.
My eyes looked up at everyone, through my lashes I can clearly see the seriousness in their faces . The entire room was engulfed in an asphyxiating atmosphere that I felt like I'll be gasping for air real soon. I wanted to get out but I know I can't.
"Yoruichi, I want you to investigate about the enemy's plans and find out who they're targets are. I expect to get a report of this tomorrow evening and as for everyone, the number of your bodyguards will increase and you will not be allowed to leave the mansion without my permission. As for Ichigo, Renji, Hisugaya, Rukia, Karin and Yuzu, all of you will not go to school until this matter is finished. Is that clear?" The old man instructed firmly.
Everyone nodded in reply.
After that, the teenagers were sent back to their rooms while the adults stayed to talk privately. I climbed up the stairs with Renji, Rukia and Toshiro. Everything inside the mansion was quiet, except for the sounds of our footsteps. Through the silence of the night the pattering echoes were deafening to my ears.
"It was good that Urahara-san were safe." Rukia stated quietly, starting a conversation.
"What happened tonight was a sign that we should all be careful of our actions, especially you Ichigo." Toshiro said like an adult.
I clicked my tongue in irritation at the thought of a fifteen year old kid talking to me as if he was an adult. Yes, he was smarter than me or anyone else here, that's given, but I'm still older than him! "I know that already." I huffed and walked faster.
"You shut up, Ichigo. You know that Hitsugaya is right." Renji added roughly.
I just snorted in response, scowling.
Once we reached the landing, Toshiro and Rukia turned to the left side of the house where their bedrooms are located while I got stuck with Renji. Believe me when I tell you that this is the worse situation I would probably go through this evening. Having a conversation with my loud-mouthed best friend is the last thing I needed.
I quicken my pace to avoid said red-headed best friend but…
"Ichigo." He called out.
Oh great.
With a small sigh, I answered. "What?"
"I hope you didn't sneak out to meet up with that bastard." He said in a cold voice.
I just stayed quiet. Even if I deny that, I know he wouldn't believe me.
I heard Renji click his tongue in annoyance, grabbed my shoulders and forced me to look at him. Blazing red eyes meet my auburn ones as he looked at me with disdain.
"Did you or did you not, Ichigo?!" He demanded between his teeth, He was trying to keep his cool with how he clenched his canines as if he wanted to bite me and I was thankful for that, but at that moment, I didn't know what to do. How to react. If I told him the truth then he might…
"I didn't okay." I responded wearily, turned my back and walked again. My room were still a few steps away and I started cursing the house, why does it have to be as big as a castle and as long as the Great Wall?
I felt a strong hand gripped my arm this time. I stopped but didn't turn around, I didn't want to look at my best friend again. The look on his face made me feel guilty of what I'm about to do to him, to my sisters, to my entire family.
"Look, I know you met up with that fucking guy tonight. I'm your best friend and I just look out for you man, but if that bastard or his family does something bad to any of us, your secrets are fucking out, you hear me? I don't care if you tell about mine, but I'm not going to let you or anyone be hurt, in anyway, by those fucking assholes!" And with that, he brushed past me and walked ahead.
I continued to watch him as he disappeared into one of the rooms along the long hall and realized that I've been holding my breath. I rushed great amounts of air into my lungs as I stood up in the middle of that long corridor. I felt like I was on the verge of hell, the urge to run away from everything strengthened inside me and my chest feels so heavy from all of these sad emotions swirling around me.
I ran the remaining steps towards my room, went inside and locked myself in. I leaned wearily at the door, let my body slid down and stared blankly outside the window, into the darkness, into the empty clouds. The moon wasn't there anymore, it was already swallowed by those clouds that bolster the power of darkness.
Like my heart which was slowly consumed by confusion, by pain, by guilt, by misery, by fear and by love.
***
Midnight.
I had successfully slipped through the estate's tight security and rode a cab a few blocks away from the mansion to the borders of Karakura. From there I walked and ran for ten minutes till I finally reached the old house.
I was just in time for the meeting. Walking excitedly towards the house, my shoulder dropped in sheer disappointment as I saw no one there.
Where is he?
I started walking back and forth with a hand over my chest while the other was rubbing my chin.
Maybe he's going to be late.
I decided to wait for him, the words he uttered yesterday evening replayed itself in my mind once again.
I'll die if you stood me up tomorrow.
By uttering those words it meant that he was really coming. It means he would wait for me but where is he?
Where are you Grimmjow?
I decided to sit down on the ground and watched the evening sky, feeling a little happy that there were stars decorating it tonight.
Minutes turned into hours and he was still not present. I looked at my watch for the umpteenth time and felt desperation and worry plunge deeper into my gut as he was already three hours late.
I started walking uneasily again, stopping to rest when I get tired then would walk again when I felt my body being overwhelmed with these ugly emotions. For hours I did only that, wait for him like I'm some woman in labor, all the while worried and sad as a number of possibilities ran through my head.
Is he still coming?
Did he got caught?
Did he ditch me?
Did he forget that were supposed to meet?
It was hard to think, difficult to decide on a specific answer. I slowly took a deep breath and felt the first ray of sunshine hit my cheek. My heart twisted even more in pain as morning arrived.
Where is he?
I sat down with my head between my knees as I closed my eyes shut.
This isn't happening.
He's going to come.
He's going to take me with him.
I'll see him again and we… we will…
I opened my eyes and tried to think positively. He will come, He said he will come. He swore on it, promised it to me.
He will come.
And from evening to morning, until the afternoon I waited but there was still no sign of him.
I was already sitting carelessly on the ground, with my hands buried on my orange hair, biting my lip in hate, in pain, in fear and in worry till it bleed. The taste of metal made me feel even worse and the urge to die suddenly dawned on me.
It was afternoon and he was still not here.
Something happened to him. I know something happened to him but I don't know what. I slid my eyes shut as I fought the urge to cry. I was worried sick, scared shitless at the thought of him being killed or hurt or something. But still, I forced myself to calm down.
I'm a man. I'm not some girl who would cry just because of this.
I have to be strong.
I have to calm down and believe that he will come.
***
The tears I've held back flowed freely from my tired eyes as I watched the orange-red clouds caused by the setting sun. It's almost evening and he was still not there. There was nothing, no one, not even his shadow.
He isn't coming.
He stood me up.
I silently cried, this unbearable pain in my heart was so excruciating, I wanted to kill myself to ease the pain. It was broken into a million pieces 'coz I believed that he would be with me. He even forced me, told me, he'll do everything to be with me, but in the end, he was the one who broke the promise.
That's just unfair.
I hate him.
He just used me, played with me, he didn't really…
I hate him.
But…
Why should I? Look, you're like the best fucking thing that has ever happened to me so why should I follow some stupid bastard's order?
I blinked my eyes as I remembered those words. He said it in a rough manner but I definitely felt the emotions behind it.
No.
He didn't stood me up.
Something happened to him. There's a reason why he didn't make it.
Maybe he's…
I quickly got up, wiped my tears with my hands and ran.
I have to go to him.
I have to know why he didn't come.
There's a reason. I'm sure there is.
I have to go to him.
If he's in danger then I have to save him.
I have to go to him.
"Grimmjow!"
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Author Notes:
Oh my god! What was that? Grimm breaking his promise with Ichi but really, waaaaah! This probably is the ugliest chapter and I know you wanted to kill me for breaking Ichigo's heart but I didn't have any choice, my hands wrote it this way. So please, cut my hands if you think I shouldn't have done that but… this part of the story is really necessary so sorry! Sorry!!!
Anyhow, please, please, please tell me what you think. If you want, you can motivate my ass into writing the next chap.*-* Thanks!