A/N I know I'm slow on my updates, but I do have other projects going on, check my page for my other fanfics their better than this one I swear, lol, any ways I decided to make this chapter longer than the others I hope you enjoy.
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Waking up was indeed the worst part in sleeping, my mind was wondering what happened, was I at home? How did I get here, it took my a minute to realize that yes I was home and that Edward had dropped me off and stood the night… Edward stood the night! I jumped out of bed rushed over to my closet and located a basic pair of jeans and a blue t shirt, the whole monochromatic color scheme here was rubbing off on me, I grabbed my bag of toiletries and ran silently down the hall and to the restroom I started the water, hot of course, and decided to brush my teeth before I took a shower, I brushed. The shower was a very good idea, especially after a long night of restful sleeping I graciously thanked the pills for that, the hot shower cleared up my clouded mind, unfortunately after my mind was cleared thoughts of Edward ran through my head, was he still here? What do I do when I go down stairs?
I was out of the shower in record time, combed through my now conditioned hair, and threw on my blue on blue clothing. I was heading downstairs now I wasn't paying attention to where I was going because on the third step I tripped over something and I was headed for the floor when something hard crashed into me hard but soft and gentle,
"Bella are you okay?" it was Edward, his musical voice was seductive and sensuous voice, I couldn't speak his presence was overwhelming me, he kept his arm wrapped around my torso as he led me downstairs, was I the only one who noticed the electricity between his magnetic touch and my soft skin? He sat me on the chair where I sat at last night…I think,
'HELLO, BELLA!" his voice was louder now and that shook me out of my thoughts,
"Edward?" relief crossed his face, and he smiled.,
"Yes, dearest Bella?" he asked his voice was strangely happy with a hint of anxiety in it,
"Edward, you stayed" I couldn't help but be happy I snuggled into his snow cold chest, he held his breathe and shock filled his face, he hesitantly wrapped his arms around me to hold me still,
"I'll always stay, as long as you need me, as long as I'm able to keep you safe" his voice was monotone
" I'll always want you, Edward." I whispered hopping he wouldn't hear me, he did, he lifted me up from the chair and my grasp on him weakened as he pulled me away to look at my face,
"Bella you don't know me, how could you want me?" I knew he was serious because his voice was strained and filled with anxiety, his hands cupped both sides of my face as he forced me to look at him, his face was paler than usual and his eyes were now a dark amber color,
"I trust you," I said
" Why?" he whispered back at me,
"because…because being around you feels right, when your gone I can't help but wonder where you are and worry about you, Edward being with is safe for me," his face was worried now, his clasp on my face slipped as he stroked my hair back, he wrapped one arm around my waist, the electric pull was too much as I wanted to be closer to him, he pulled me closer to him and whispered into my left ear,
"don't." he let go of my waist and I slipped back as he backed away from me, his eyes were still locked on me and I swear his eyes grew more black, he was by the door now,
"I'll be right back Bella, give me one hour," I was chocking back tears now, the feeling of rejection was too much,
"where you going?" I asked in a hushed tone, his finger's touch the bridge of his nose as he squeezed his eyes shut as if thinking hard, he spoke after a long moment,
"I need to pick up a few things," he turned back to look at me his eyes were onyx now and that scared me I swear just last night his eyes were topaz,
"I promise to return," he stepped out of the door than and made his way to his car, I stood standing in the door way watching him as he raced out of the neighborhood, I closed the door after mindless gawking and flew back upstairs, he promised to return, didn't he? Or was he jus saying that, he said one hour, right? What if he lied? What if he never comes back? The thought alone forced me to lay on my bed and shudder for a while.
After what seemed like an eternity but was just ten minutes I stood up and cleaned my room, I made the bed and headed back down stairs I decided I was hungry and made myself a bowl of cereal, I sat down on the living room couch and turned on the T.V as always the T.V was on E.S.P.N, ugh men and there sports I quickly changed it to the local news channel. There wasn't any thing interesting happing only that the predator wildlife population was on a rise, and if hunters didn't do something we they could travel into the town, of course forks was such a boring place that this was a good thing for hunters, because it finally gives them something to do.
After the cereal was done I washed the dishes and cleaned the kitchen, I vacuumed the house and dusted, of course I was doing anything to keep my mind busy I was about to start the bathroom when I heard a knock on the door I didn't have to guess to know who it was, I quickly rushed down stairs and opened the door and there he was all of his 6'2, pale skin, liquid topaz eyes, tousled wet bronze hair and a smile on his face, Edward did come back. I hadn't noticed it right away but he was soaking wet. I let him in the house, I didn't say anything until he stopped and turned to look at me his face was unreadable, he seemed better, but still strained, he spoke than,
"Bella, we need to talk." I nodded and led the way to the couches he followed behind me silently, I took a seat on the bigger sofa and he sat right next to me our thighs were touching, his whole torso was turned to me, his face was stiff as he met my stare, his eyes were topaz now, seriously what was with the eye color change trick? Was he a magician?
"normally I would be afraid if a guy said 'we need to talk' but since were not dating, what' up?" I met for that to be funny but it didn't penetrate his force.
"Bella," he started and stopped, I waited for him to continued he pinched his nose and closed his eyes again, he was struggling with some sort of internal force and he was clearly losing, he continued,
"Bella… my family and I aren't exactly normal, we are different from humans…" he stopped and this time he looked up at me his eyes were filled with a level of intensity that I couldn't understand, he reached his arm over and his long, white hand stroked my hair back he cupped his snow cold hand under my chin to balance my look on him, I was staring right at him when he said,
"promise me you wont run away, if you don't want me to stay tell me and I'll leave, and I wont bother you any more," impossible didn't he understand how much I already loved him, din the already know I wasn't afraid of him? He leaned in and set his jaw right on my right shoulder he turned to whisper into my ear,
" Bella I'm a…" he hesitated again, and than he said,
"Vampire," he stood still and didn't move, I guess for fear that he might 'scare' me, a vampire? I thought they didn't exists, but was he really a vampire? He was fast, and strong, he seemed 'scary' to other people but me, his skin was snow cold and pale white, was Edward Cullen a vampire? He stood in the same position as I reached out my right arm and placed it on his head, I reached up and whispered.
"You once told me you were the bad guy," he froze, I continued,
"I refuse to believe that," I let my hand drop and I turned my face to his cheek his face was still a strange mask, I leaned foreword and placed a soft kiss on his snow cold cheek, this seemed to work because he lifted out of his position and looked up at me, his face was somber and he was quiet, he spoke softly,
"you're not afraid of me?" he looked up to meet my gaze on his glorious face,
"no." I replied, I stood up and walked foreword to meet him,
"Why?" he asked,
"like I said before, being with you feels right." his face changed now he was livid, he took a few steps back and than spoke harshly,
"I'm the worlds most dangerous predator. Everything about me invites you in, my voice my face even my smell. As if I would need any of that," he ran upstairs faster than the speed of light,
"as if you could out run me!" He called, and ran back down to face me,
" as if you could fight me off," he ran to the kitchen and lifted the refrigerator of the floor with one hand. He stood like that for a minute and I could see that he was calming down, thankfully he placed the refrigerator back on the floor and to its original position, he stood up straight and turned to look at me,
" Bella. Please tell me now… could you ever love a monster like me? Could you ever want me the way I have wanted you?" his voice was strained, I couldn't believe what I was hearing did Edward really love me? Did he truly want me? I couldn't speak for a minute, he took the silence the wrong way because his face fell and he turned to walk away, I couldn't let him leave. I ran up to him and wrapped my arms around his granite like torso,
" I do love you Edward, and I will always want you!" he stopped mid step and faced me, his face was happy and his crooked smile was intact released my awkward position on him and properly faced him we were less than an inch away, when he spoke,
"How silver-sweet sound lovers' tongues by night,Like softest music to attending ears!" I recognized the line from Romeo and Juliet instantly, he chuckled softly as he said it, he reached out his hands as an open invitation to his chest I accepted it and threw myself into his grasp, he closed his arms around me and spoke,
"you don't know how long I've waited for you, Bella. For ninety years I have walked among my kind and yours alike thinking I was complete in my self, and never knowing what I was missing because you weren't born yet," I spoke than,
" that hardly seems fair, I mean you waited for so long and I never had to wait for you," he chuckled softly, than he spoke,
"your right I mean you only have to turn your back on nature and put your life in danger whenever your around me, that's hardly worth anything," he was being sarcastic I could tell by the way he laughed and spoke, he stopped and faced down to look at me,
"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb."
"what a stupid lamb,"
"what a sick masochistic lion,"
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A/N wow you don't know how fun it was to write this chapter please please please review! Always -Nicole-