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Pleasure and Guilt.
Hikaru continued to stare at his brother, not saying anything. His eyes were wide in shock, and he was looking like that for about a minute now. Like a horror movie that was stopped in the scene where the good guy meets the monster.
Kaoru stared back at him. Hikaru had to admit he was looking amazing, standing in his tux, eyes showing all the emotion he had hidden for years, confident all the way.
But he couldn't stay there…not answering…not knowing what to do. Not really having the slightest clue of the answer. He didn't know if he loved his brother that way…he thought he didn't but the thought of him didn't made him disgusted in any way…
He had to think, to answer him some other time.
So he closed his mouth, moved, and left the bathroom, his shoulder almost touched Kaoru's in the way out and for a very brief moment his hurt pumped ten thousand times quicker, he couldn't breathe, for a moment Hikaru lost himself just by how close they had gotten.
He had never felt that way. Not even with Haruhi, to make him feel like that, Haruhi and him had to make the most wild sex, but his brother did it without even having to move, his presence, his love was enough.
He wondered if that was love or if he was just too caught up in the moment.
Kaoru continued to stand there. He knew he was crazy for telling his brother his feelings. But he couldn't hold it back anymore. And he felt so free…like a weight had been taken off of him.
Of course reality had not hit him yet. His brother would be repulsed by him and would gladly let him leave. He knew that.
But for some odd reason, right now, he just felt happy for not having to lie anymore. He had nothing to hide anymore. And he felt so at ease.
He knew that when reality hit him he would not be happy or free or at ease anymore. He knew it would hurt and it would make him want to die but…for now, reality would wait.
He left the bathroom like nothing had ever happened. He sat on his chair and looked at Hikaru for a brief moment. His eyes were closed and he was blushing wildly. He had his hands intertwined and was banging his head lightly against it. He saw his mouth open for a minute and heard him sigh.
Hazel eyes watched both as she proved herself to be right all along.
Hikaru tried to control himself. He really did try. But his heart wouldn't slow down and he his face suddenly heat up. He brought his hands up, just and excuse to cover his blush. He sort of supported his head on the intertwined hands. He thought of him and his mouth dried. Butterflies were flying in his stomach.
He had read about symptoms like these before – on romance books, in the exact time where the good guy finds out he can be with the good girl. But neither Kaoru nor Hikaru were good. This was incest, this was forbidden and sick and wrong.
The restaurant was crowded but he could hear Kaoru's soft steps approaching, he could feel him walking right beside him, going back to his seat. And if it was possible his heart beat even faster.
He closed his eyes trying to control whatever it was that suddenly had controlled him.
But something somewhere in his mind told him not to. This was the answer… but what if this was just and illusion? What if he was just too caught up in the moment?
'Like when you were caught up hearing him moan? Or like when you saw him happily making your cereal in the kitchen? Or like when you use to play the "brotherly love" in the Host Club?'
He was arguing with himself. God he must have gone mad. These were things no one knew. No one. He never told anyone, not even his brother how much his heart raced when they were playing the brotherly love. Their mouths…mere inches from each other.
He shook his head, this had to stop. It is wrong to think about your own brother that way, but hasn't Kaoru thought of him like this too?
His eyes met his brother's – the look on his eyes; kind, loving, caring, took his breath away. He was trying to fight the incestuous thoughts out of his head but Kaoru was making it too damn difficult.
Violet watched as the two brothers stared at each other. Kaoru was showing everything he had hidden; his eyes hid nothing no more. His lips were curved into a shy smile.
Hikaru's stare was intense, confused. He was blushing and seemed to be very tense. Violet could not be wrong. He had told Hikaru the truth.
"Kaoru?" she whispered not really wanting to interrupt anything. Though it hurt her seeing him look at Hikaru like that just after the proposal she was ready for it. She had been ever since he had shown her the letter from Hikaru asking him to return.
He seemed to wake up from a trance and his expression remained the same. It was the most kind and soft look she had ever received from him but as fast as it came, it was gone. That in love look was made only for Hikaru. He looked at her waiting for what she had to say.
"You told him, didn't you?" She asked, he smiled and nodded. She smiled in joy. Like him, reality had not hit her yet, and for now she would not allow it to. "Good…I guess that is why I had never seen you happier." She said and took a sip of the drink that was on her table. Recovery from heartbreak: alcohol, ice cream and old romantic movies. Of course she would do the ice cream movie part by herself, and for now she would not think too much about it, otherwise she would see that she had just lost the greatest guy she ever met.
He looked at her, puzzled. "Happy? I told him…he must hate me now." He said and she continued to smile.
"Maybe…but you have nothing to hide anymore, doesn't that feel good?" He smirked and nodded. "And you know that deep down you still hope he will love you back." She wondered if she was talking about him or about herself.
He looked at her softly and then at the ring on her finger.
"If he does…I will break up with you." She said, her voice coming out in a much lower tone than she expected. He embraced her gently and kissed her lips slightly. Everyone in the table "awed" them, everyone but Hikaru. She closed her eyes, and tried to absorb everything in the moment. Because she knew it would be their last.
Hikaru was pissed! Right after telling him, he loved him like a lover would, he goes back to the table and pretends nothing happened, not only pretends, he kisses Violet to make it more believable!
He was not going to admit anytime soon but…he was jealous. And a bit hurt…did the things he say meant nothing? Was it only one big and sick joke he was playing?
He stared out the window without talking to anyone. Not even Haruhi. The ride back to the Hiitachin mansion was quite slow. At least for him. He could feel Kaoru's stares and he wished that every time he stared Hikaru wouldn't feel lightheaded, he wished his heart didn't beat so fast every time their eyes met.
He felt like a high school girl with a stupid crush. But it was so much more than a crush. He knew he was in love with Kaoru too…all the heart beating so fast, lack of air, butterflies, the way he felt hot by hearing Kaoru moan…it was enough proof that he loved Kaoru. Everything started to make sense. The way he got depressed when Kaoru left, unlike normal brothers get, the way he felt like something was missing when he was with Haruhi, everything clicked in his mind.
But still he was jealous and proud. He would not let Kaoru know he had such an effect on him. In fact, he would prove he could have as much effect on Kaoru.
They arrived home and Hikaru stayed last, closing the door. Everyone, including their fiancés had gone to get a cup of coffee in the kitchen and talk about what a wonderful time they had.
Hikaru did not notice but Kaoru had stayed too. He was waiting to be rejected, waiting for Hikaru, something he said he would not do anymore.
Hikaru turned and saw him. This time he looked less confident. His eyes showed fear. Hikaru decided he would say what he thought about the whole thing.
"Very funny the game you played with me today. Love me huh? And Violet too? You tell me you love me, than you come back like nothing happened and kiss her!" he said, his voice was cracking a bit and he knew it was because he was hurt. Kaoru smiled and shook his head slightly.
"I didn't play a game. It is the truth. I love you. And I kissed her goodbye…because she said that if you ever…" He stopped the phrase and looked down. Hope was on his voice. "If you ever return my feelings…she will break up with me." He finished the sentence and waited for Hikaru's reaction.
Hikaru got closer to his brother, the distance between them ending in each step. Kaoru was the one blushing now, breathing heavily. Hikaru smiled.
"There is only one way to know if I love you." He said and looked kindly at Kaoru. Kaoru stared with a confused expression.
"How?" Hikaru smiled. He looked so cute at that moment. His eyes showed the fear of rejection, his breathing was so heavy he could almost hear him, Hikaru promised to go slow, but seeing him like that, woke something inside of him, he didn't know he had.
Before Kaoru could ask again he was pinned to the wall behind him, one hand on his waist and one on the back of his neck, caressing it softly. They stared at each other for a second, both hearts beating fast, waiting, wanting. Hikaru slowly closed the gap between them and Kaoru could swear he was in Heaven.
He closed his eyes immediately, completely giving into the kiss, it was slow at first, shy, Kaoru put one arm around Hikaru's neck and another on his waist, he tried to break the kiss to get air but as he left his mouth hanging open, Hikaru took it as an opportunity to slip his tongue in and deepen the kiss.
Waking up both of their hormones, Hikaru pushed Kaoru harder against the wall, gluing their upper bodies together, tongue traveling inside of Kaoru's mouth, in and out , Kaoru gripped the back of Hikaru's coat trying to embrace him stronger, pull him closer, closing the distance between their bodies completely. A muffled moan could be heard as a small "Mmph." – left their mouths. By that moment Hikaru's hand were already traveling in Kaoru's upper body, the other hand stroking his hair, as Kaoru gripped his shirt tighter and totally gave himself into the kiss, totally gave himself to Hikaru do whatever he wanted to.
They only stopped at the sound of doors being opened and high-pitched voices laughing. They broke apart, Kaoru almost falling as Hikaru wasn't there anymore to make him stand on his now weak knees. They were both flushed and panting hard, mouth slightly open, eyes half closed. Kaoru supported himself on the wall behind him as he smiled at the way he was feeling, Hikaru's scent all over him, his lip was swollen from so much "action", his hair disheveled.
Hikaru gulped at the sight of his brother. His head was thrown back, his body depending on the wall behind him to remain standing, his swollen lips half parted, he looked so absolutely beautiful and…hot.
He heard steps coming near them and wondered what he would do and what he would say if they found them like that.
But in the midst of voices and laugh he heard a sentence loudly said, by a girl that until minutes ago he hated.
"Guys, I really don't know that part of the house you never really showed me! How about a little tour?" Violet said. She was a terrible actress; he could hear the forced happy tone on her voice as she tried to get them to go somewhere else, other than where they were.
"She isn't so bad after all." Hikaru said his voice an octave lower than usual. Kaoru smiled at him, his eyes still half closed. He went closer and hugged Hikaru; his arms loosely around Hikaru's neck. Hikaru held him by the waist and bury his head where his shoulder met his neck, biting it gently.
"How about we stay like this a little- Ah! – Hi-Hikaru! Not so hard!" Kaoru whimpered and Hikaru smirked against his skin, making him shiver. "We can't let them see us like this! C'mon, stop so we can at least make them leave so you can…continue." He said, whispering the last word.
Hikaru smiled and caressed his cheek in a loving way. He nodded and got a little far away from Kaoru.
But someone crossed his mind and Kaoru could see the obvious guilt in his eyes, finding out whom. He himself then remembered of a very precious person to him. Wide eyed they stood there, not knowing what to do.
A/N: So guys...I am not telling if I am going t change the rating or not iuntil I get near the last chapter muahuahuahuahuahua!!I am evil!
And now for our famous preview:
But they should have known one thing. When you think it's over, it really never is.
Violet sat quietly thinking about her break-up but her mind suddenly let out an alarm when she heard a familiar voice speak near her.
"I am telling you, this business is the best thing we have ever done." The man said but Violet didn't dare to turn around to see if it was really him.
"I am not so sure Kaworu…" Violet felt all air leave her body, it was him. Her first boyfriend, cursed name owner Kaworu Miller. Could this week get any worst? "I never deal with the rich." The other guy said. By this point Violet was starting to think of a way to leave the restaurant without being seen. But she didn't know something about the other guy.