A/N: I am sooo out of my comfort zone with these little songfics, but it's good to push yourself. I just am sad thinking of Eli being sad lol but I really do like writing these and delving into the psychology of his character. I think he and Kurt would have made excellent friends!
Song: Blandest
Title: What Not to Become
I need you around
To remind me what not to become
When she was around him, she made him forget. She made him forget to drink. She made him forget to cut. When she was around him, he didn't need to hurt himself to feel alive.
When she was around him, she made him realize he was alive without the drugs, alive without the pain.
Now that she was gone…
Eli lifted the razor from the sock drawer. The edge was stained a rusty crimson.
She wasn't around anymore.
Now that she wasn't around, Eli forgot again.
No one was there to remind him.
No one was there to remind him that he was alive.