Nagihiko POV
I'm in my hotel room, I'm filling out these papers but it's hard to concentrate. The sunshine is slowly engulfing the dark shadows. I want to go back to how things were, when we had no worries, when we were together, when Rima could smile. But now that's dreaming the impossible, she has to move on now…
This thought gets me back on track and I finish signing the papers
-Nagihiko Fujisaki-
My mother smiles at me, but there's a hint of concern as she looks at me and takes the papers. I can tell she is uneven, but she trusts my choices and she believes in Rima right? She believes in me?
"Are you sure about this Nagihiko? Maybe there is a better approach; maybe we can do something else, maybe—" I cut my mother off.
"No, I'm the one who wanted her to stop running, I'm the one who kept her strong and I'm the one whose going to be there, even if I won't be able save her freedom. " I start to walk away from my mother, until I realize what I just said, to my mother who has supported me this far. It must have been rude and ungrateful I quickly and gracefully turn on my heel to face my mother.
"I'm sorry, I don't mean to be rude, but mother if you really do trust me and if your behind my back 100% and if you believe I am a man now, you will respect my choice and catch me, even if I fall and fail" I end in a sad voice thinking about failure, when the silence is broken when my mothers hand gets placed on my shoulder causing me to look up at her.
"Nagihiko Fujisaki, I have nothing but fate. Lets get going." with that we walk out of the hotel room. There is no longer doubt in my mind, I can do this, and we can do this Rima Chan.
Rima's POV
It's morning, around 6:00am, my nightmares have stopped, but its only natural now that I wake up early every morning after all that I've been through. I'm on my balcony thinking about tonight, my wedding night, but the thought of Nagi is haunting me. But I can't be this selfish, I'm a married woman and I can't just keep holding on to him, I have to stop being so—so selfish!
The light is engulfing the darkness, like it always did, but I always thought the night of my wedding my light would have been found.
I remember everything I was taught as a princess:
Lead graceful
Respect you people
Everyone has a choice
Freedom is a privilege not a right
Holding on makes you stronger…
But maybe in my case, letting go will make me stronger.
"I'll admit it, I do miss you a lot though Nagihiko, but I don't regret our time together. My mistakes are really blessings. Meeting you was destiny, being friends with you was a choice, but falling in love? Falling in love with you was out of my control" These words escaping my lips without me even realizing, causes me to giggle and smile, care freely.
I look up at the wide horizon above me as the wind graces my face and total light begins to surround me. I'm smiling and I giggle slightly,
"I'm talking to myself, but it feels like I'm talking to you Nagihiko, where are you? Maybe what I was taught as a princess is all wrong?
Think about it. I can't lead gracefully, that was your job, you were the graceful one. How will people respect me, I'm technically a runaway girl, how can my people forgive me? Everyone has a choice? Life cheated me, I never had the choice! Freedom is a privilege not a right, I guess that's true although I wish, really, really, really hard that it was a right, for everyone!"
I clasp my hands together tightly now, "Holding on makes you stronger, huh? For you I think letting go will make me stronger, even if it'll hurt, I'll do it for you, Na-gi-hi-ko." I smile a genuine, happy smile and turn around and walk away, so that the light doesn't see the tears in my eyes.
"Rima-Hime it's time for the legal, parts of the wedding, will you please go to your mother and father, they have just have a couple of papers to sho—" my guard informs me.
I walk right by him graceful yet cold and in a speak in my soft, gentle tone, "I understand, this is a princesses duty and I shall lead with grace, I shall lead with respect and honour and I will be stronger by doing so." With that I walk to the ballroom to see my parents.
Both of them are so happy, smiling, laughing, complimenting each other, is it really fair that everyone is happy from my pain? Its too late for regret though, I put on my best fake smile and in my soft voice I say good morning, mother, father, what are the arrangements for today." As I sit in front of them.
(this is like the room where Nadeshiko and Amu had their sleepover and sat talking so everyone is sitting on the floor. Except this room is more Japanese and there are glass mirrors covering the room, the scent cherry blossoms surround the air.)
"Ah, Rima, are you excited about your wedding night?" My father asks but it feels more like a statement saying, "You should be honoured."
I just do what makes them happy, and once again in my soft voice, "Of course father, any man you and Mama have chose would be a dream come true," they both smile to me and I nod with my eyes closed trying to look happy. No one has ever seen past my fake smiles, except Nagi. My fathers voice pulls me out of thought.
"Good to hear Rima, we called you down for one thing, after your done you may walk around Tokyo and do as you please, but you must be home before 4:30pm to get dressed. Understood?" My mother asks me.
"Yes, Mama, Papa I understand, what shall I do. What did you call me down for." This time I'm actually smiling, like a real smile and you can she the joy in my eyes. "They're actually giving me this freedom?"
"All you need to do is sign this, alright Rima?" My Papa slides the paper towards me, without caring about reading or even glancing at "my husbands" name I sign the paper and run to my room.
I'm going to get dressed, not as a princess, because for my last hours I want to be a normal girl. I put on cargo colour pants that reach my knees (like grass green, its dark) and a baggy black t-shirt that reveals my shoulder strap (not making her look trampy, but in fashion) the black shirt says, "On the outside looking In."
I comb my hair into a highish ponytail like I used to. I look in the full length mirror and smile. I look like Rima M. not Rima Hime. I quickly grab my cell phone, and my pink shaded sunglasses. They're a pink tint and transparent. My sunglasses rest on top of my head, once I look at myself once more time, I look at my cell phone. It's 8:05am, I've got around 8 hours and 30 minutes. After I run as far as my little legs and take me.
As soon as I'm out of range, where I can't see the palace, I let out a huge sigh of relief and begin to walk slowly and look around. Nothing has changed. But there is only one place I was to go and one person I want to see.
"Na-gi-hi-ko," and I smile running.
I reach the school and no one is there, (I forgot school was closed for summer) so I run to his huge house and I'm starting to pant. When I reach the house, I regain composure before I ask softly, "um..is Nagi home?" The old maid tells me that he isn't home, but he will be tonight.
"Shall I tell master Fujisaki to arrange to meet you tonight?" the lady asks me.
I shake my head no and with a sad look breaking through my fake smile I say, "No, that's alright, thank you very much."
And I run toward my old apartment, tears threatening to spill as I run, but I won't let them, because I'm stronger than this, "Nagihiko, where are you now?" When I reach my old apartment, I collapse with one knee on the floor trying to support me, I'm totally wiped. Is this how I'm going to spend my last hours of freedom, its been 4 hours, I've been searching so long, maybe Nagihiko is on a date, I guess I don't have control over this either.
I get up, because I'm stronger and I can endure this, as I open my apartment slowly. Flashbacks of the times Nagihiko would smile for me and me alone, but it ends as the door unlocks.
I open the door and I'm not sure how I should feel, sad because I left, happy because I'm here or angry, because—because, but once the door fully swings open and the tear in my eyes let me see clearly I saw something—no someone and that's when I actually let the tears go.
And ran towards it—no him!
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-forgive-forget-princess (Gemi-Chan!) peace people