26th of June Monday
Sofia's hand found Sara's and squeezed it tightly. To say she was tensed was a huge understatement. Last week it had been Sara, who sat or lay on this chair, now it was her time. Today was the day she'd have two of Sara's eggs placed in her uterus. The first and hopefully last two of the fourteen eggs, that were ready to be used. In case it worked out the first time, they had to think about what to do with the other twelve, but this had time.
"I'm scared like hell." The blonde gasped.
"Me too."
"The chances we'll be here in a couple of weeks again are high." Which made it worse. Go through all this again.
"Think positive, Honey." Sara kissed her lover. Of course the odds were against them, so were all odds in Vegas for the gambles. Nevertheless, there were enough people, who made a fortune in Sin City.
"We'll have a beautiful baby in ten month, in our house and we'll be proud parents, no traces of the pregnancy is left on my body and my parents look after our baby every time we want some privacy."
"Much better." The brunette laughed softly. She didn't doubt her parents-in-law would be more than happy to look after their grandchild, but she wasn't sure she wanted to go out and have fun while her baby was at home. Nor that Sofia's body wouldn't show any evidence of the pregnancy a month after the delivery. Nothing she should tell her lover.
"How are my lovely ladies today?" Doctor Blumfield came into the room in her usual good mood. "Everything all right? How did we sleep? Any problems? Besides being over the moon and very nervous."
"I've no idea how you slept, we barely slept. This makes us crazy." Sofia whined. "It's like torture, all these instruments you will use and knowing, it's more likely we have to come back for one or more tries."
"I promise it won't hurt and I do my best you don't have to come back. Think positive, Sofia. Like Sara, she was very brave last week."
"I want our baby in my arms and be done with the rest of it! No waiting, no pregnancy, no pain, no ruined body."
The doctor sat down, watched them both, still with a smile on her face. She was used to scenes like this. "Well, science isn't that far that we can develop babies outside the body of a woman and I hope, science will never be this far. There's reason why nature decided babies have to be in the body of a woman and human being should respect mother nature. We interfere a lot with her, like we did last week and will do again in a few minutes, but the most important parts should be left untouched."
"Pain, looking fat, unable to move, there are a few reasons why I would support new improvements."
"Abuse of knowledge, abuse of human life, not feeling the first movements of your baby, not feeling how the heart of your baby beats under your own heart, not being the reason why your baby came into this world, lack of the love of a mother. A baby feels the love inside the mother's body. No machine can give your baby what you'll give him or her. You're the first person your baby loves, the one it will love most the first months."
"Okay, you won." Sofia sighed.
"No, you'll win, you'll be a mother. You'll feel how your and Sara's baby move inside you, you will feel if it's happy or upset, you'll have the biggest influence of it for nine month. Nobody else can influence the development as much as you can. You'll create a little wonder, a new life."
"I won't change my mind, doc, don't worry. But thanks for supporting me and reminding me why I want to be pregnant."
"Chocolate without an end, the baby is the excuse for every new bar, nobody will call you fat, they'll all love your baby belly and your girlfriend will get up in the middle of the night to bring you a huge bowl of ice cream with cookies, cream and chocolate sauce."
"I love being pregnant." Sofia grinned. "Did you hear that, Sara? You'll get me ice cream deluxe to bed."
"Can't remember I agreed. Maybe an apple or any other fruits. You need healthy food, it's the best for the baby and you."
"Darling, you better agree on chocolate and ice cream or I make our baby smug!"
"It will be smug, nine months in your body, fed by your body, having more or less your blood, our baby will be the queen of arrogance."
"And this woman claims she loves me." The blonde complained.
"She does, it's obvious. Okay, relax Sofia, we'll start now. Time to get you pregnant."
"You know, if science wants to develop in the area of pregnancy, why don't scientist figure out a way how Sara can get me pregnant without having doctors and needles and all these kind of shit around me? Only my girlfriend and me, in a bed, candle lights, romance and a lot of love. That would be a great invention."
"Most scientists are men and won't make themselves needless, plus you need sperm for a baby and I doubt women will ever produce sperm."
"Some of the athletics look like they're more men than women, they might be able to do so. With all the medicine they took."
"No, they aren't and I'm not an athletics." Sara kissed Sofia softly. She shared the wish of her lover. This wasn't romantic, it hadn't much to do with love. But it was the only way to make their dream come true.
"Now you have to take care of me, get me another bowl of ice cream and do everything I want you to do." Sofia smiled, snuggled deeper into the cushions on the couch and watched Sara taking away the empty bowl of ice cream. Ice cream with cream, chocolate cookies and chocolate sauce. No fruits. Just the way Sofia liked it best.
"You're not sick, Honey."
"No, I might be pregnant and it's better when I stay relaxed, so your eggs can settle in and we'll be mommies in a few month. We don't want to risk anything by me walking around, getting all the lovely ice cream myself, so it's much better when you do the walking and I stay here and watch TV, wait for you to amuse me. A couple of kisses are also good for the eggs to settle."
"Uhm, are you sure you listened to the same doctor I did? Because I understood you're not allowed to lift heavy things for forty-eights hours, no strenuous physical activity, such as running or zumba aerobics for two days. Getting your own bowl of ice cream isn't part of heavy exercise. No bath, no swimming for the same time, no douching, tampons or using a bidet, no alcohol, smoking or recreational drug use. As a CSI I hope the last one is never on your mind and becoming a mother the other should be banned too. And last, but not least: no intercourse and no orgasms until you can see a fetal heartbeat via ultrasound or you have a negative pregnancy test."
"Which means, as soon as there's a heartbeat we can have sex again."
"Yes, but first we have to wait for two weeks. I hope you can be also happy with only being in my arms."
"I spent more than two weeks in your arms when you moved to this place and I was happy. Not as happy as I would have been with you sleeping with me, because then I had known, you feel the same for me than I feel for you, but to have you in my arms feels like paradise. Plus, there are no reasons why you shouldn't have an orgasm."
"Same rights for everybody." Sara smiled, sat next to her girlfriend and pulled her into her arms, kissing her softly. "I love you." Time was ticking. The next two days were very important, when her eggs or one of them, settled, their chances of having a baby increased a lot. The problem was the waiting. Two weeks until they got an answer. Two long weeks of hope and fear.
"Love you too and I will get us some more ice cream. It's not heavy lifting, I take the diet ice cream, that's light."
The brunette laughed. That was an interesting theory. "How will you teach our baby not to eat only candy when they're high on your food list?"
"It's your part, all these healthy food teaching. Do you want our child to be a vegetarian?"
"Our child can make her own decision. Until then we should feed meat. After all, human are predators and they eat meat. As you know, I don't mind other people eating meat, I never tried to turn you into a vegetarian, I buy your steaks and fix you salami sandwiches."
"True love." The blonde sighed and snuggled into the arms of the other woman. Wasn't she a lucky person to have such a great girlfriend?
"We'll have a baby, I think that's a sign for true love. So far we have been through a lot to get you pregnant. And it wasn't fun."
"Yeah, I've no idea who said, getting pregnant is fun, it's hard work, painful and expensive. No fun at all."
"Just because I insisted on you won't have sex with Don to get pregnant. Could have been so much easier and less expensive. With more fun for both of you."
"I rather pay all the money than sleep with somebody else than you. Don is my little brother, I love him, but only with all his and my clothes on. Or at least with our swim stuff on. Plus we wanted your DNA involved, I can't have an egg of you in me by sleeping with Don. Or when you sleep with him - which I don't want to imagine - and somehow, with the help of magic, the eggs ends up in me. No, this is the only way for our baby when we both only want to sleep with each other and that's what we want."
"Good answer." Sara grinned and kissed her lover again before she started chuckling, remembering something from the beginning, when she moved in here. "Remember how I thought he's gay because you don't sleep with him?"
"Yes, I remember. He's good looking, charming, sexy and must be gay when we don't have sex. Because it's impossible for me not to have sex with a good looking, charming and sexy hetero man. And all good looking men are gay. I didn't like your theory."
"I know. But for the Sofia I knew from Vegas, it seemed impossible to live with such a gorgeous man and not having sex with him."
"The Sofia you knew in Vegas changed, just like the Sara I knew in Vegas. Who slept with a not really sexy man. Smart yes, sexy not really."
"Attraction is in the eye of the beholder."
"If you ever see Grissom again, will you be attracted to him?" Could they visit their old team or had the blonde to fear, her lover would fall for her ex again?
"Sofia, I love you. I don't care who is around, the only one I love, who I'm attracted to, is you. Nobody else." To make it clear she meant every word she said, Sara kissed Sofia passionately. Attracted to somebody else? Why would she waste a thought for somebody else when she had the most amazing woman in the world as her lover? She'd be very stupid to risk this and she was a lot of things, stupid wasn't one of them.
Sofia's cell phone rang and showed the I.D. of Don's work cell phone. She wasn't working today due to her IV appointment earlier, so it had to be a private call - or a very urgent work call, she couldn't take. Not today, but he knew that. Probably he wanted to know how the appointment was, she sent him a text when she was back in the car that everything worked out fine and they should hope from now on.
"Hey soon-to-be-daddy, how are you?"
"Checking on the mother of my boy. Are you home and in bed?"
"I'm home, on the couch, having a second bowl of ice cream. There's no reason for me to stay in bed, I'm not sick. Walking isn't a problem, what I can't do is carry the heavy rubbish bin out of the house or a box of beer…not that I can drink beer anymore."
"I take care of the rubbish and the beer, don't worry. Otherwise you feel fine? No pain? Is Sara with you?"
"Where else should she be?"
"True. Listen, there are two reasons why I called: first was to hear how you are and the second is, you wanted to know when somebody picks up the kid, who ran away from the forest."
"Did you find him?"
"Yes, he's here. Do you or Sara want to talk to him before we call the children's home?"
"I want to talk to him, yes. Sara has no legal rights to talk to him, me as a CSI…well, is he connected to a crime?" Otherwise she couldn't talk to him neither. In fact, she had to wait until a representative of him was around.
"Officially not, no. But I can make him a person of interest if you want."
"You're the best."
"I know. When will you be here?"
"Fifteen minutes? I leave right away."
"Don't forget to tell your girlfriend, she gets mad when you leave her out. And don't hurry, think about the baby."
"I know, women are so complicated." Sofia laughed. "See you in a couple of minutes." She ended the phone got up, held her belly and shook her head at the same time. There was no reason to hold her belly, she wasn't pregnant - well not that pregnant. And the doctor told her various times, when she walked nothing could happen. The eggs couldn't fall out just because she stood upright and walked. No standing on her head all the time.
"Sara? Don called, they found your lost boy."
The brunette came back from the kitchen. "Really? Where is he?"
"At the police station. You know the rules, you can't talk to him."
"But…I want to talk to him."
"I know. Listen, Don can make him a person of interest in a crime, that allows me to talk to him. Would this help you?"
Sara sighed. She wanted to talk to Stephen, wanted to know why he ran, but she knew her lover was right, there were no legal ways for her to talk to the boy. "Okay." It was better when Sofia talked to him than nothing at all. "Can I come with you?"
"Of course." The blonde pulled the other woman in her arms and kissed her. "I love you and I want you by my side all the time."
"Except when you're in interrogation."
"If there was a legal way I'd want you with me. We were great together in Vegas, played them all, had a great rhythm. You the smart CSI, with all the answers to questions and me, the bad ass cop, knowing what the suspect thought and planed before he did. Come on, I told Don, we'll be there ASAP. You drive."
"Yeah, I drive better and faster."
"No comment, except I love you." The blonde answered amused. If her girlfriend wanted to believe, she was the better driver, she wouldn't destroy this dream.