Kate laid on her bed thinking about everything. It had only been a few days since she found herself in that TV show. Lizzie hated her, Derek hated Sam and Kate felt like she was becoming Casey. She knew that had to be impossible, but there was no way Kate would have been so outspoken towards Derek. Okay, this is happening for a reason. Casey, what do you want? Kate thought as she laid on the bed. In a moments time, she sat up and looked over at the dresser. On instinct she walked upto it and pulled open one of the six drawers of the dresser, but instead of stopping she pulled it all the way out. She bent down and put her hand through the hole, she felt something. It was a notebook. And things just keep getting weirder and weirder. She sat down and dusted the blue notebook off before she opened it to a random page.

February 14th 2004: Dear diary, Today is Valentines day and Sam did something so incredibly wonderful today. He gave me himself... It was so beautiful.-

Kate stopped and turned the page a few times; March 1st 2004: Dear Diary, Sam broke up with me today. I feel so used... I regret ever losing it to him. Why did I do it? Why? Derek on the other hand has been acting very weird about this. He's been... Should I dare say it? Nice. I never knew he could be like this. It's kind of refreshing.

She skipped to the month of June; Dear Diary, I know this has to be wrong, but I think I'm in love with my step-brother. I don't know what to do. Sam has been trying to get back with me, but if I did get back with him, I'd be lying to my heart. God, why does he have to be my step-brother?

She knew it! Kate knew Casey had feelings for Derek, reading her journal just confirmed it. But she still didn't know why Casey would commit suicide. She continued to read; Dear Diary, I feel so bad. Derek and Sam haven't been talking to eachother at all. I think it's because of me. They're being girls!

Suddenly there was a knock at the door. Kate quickly closed the book and stuffed it under the bed. "Come in," she said just sitting there on the bed.

Edwin walked in and sat next to her. He just stared at her.

Kate waited for the longest time for him to say something, but he said nothing. "Did you want something, Edwin?" She asked curiously.

He grinned at her and said, "Derek's in his room."

"And I want to know that why?" She asked.

"Because you like him," Edwin smiled. "I can see it in your eyes. It's the same look Casey had," He pointed out to her.

Yeah, yeah, so what's new? She thought as she sighed and looked down at her hands. "Do you know..." She trailed off. She wanted to ask if he knew if anything was going on between Derek and Casey.

Edwin got the question and replied, "Yeah... They did love eachother and I don't mean step-sibling love either."

"I see," She murmured. "Well, do you know what happened between Derek and Sam?"

Edwin was about to tell her, but they were rudely interrupted by Derek who was standing there in her doorway. "Could you give Kate and I a moment alone, Ed?" He stated more than asked.

The younger Venturi brother nodded and rushed out of the room.

As Derek closed the door Kate said, "We were just having a friendly conversation."

"Sure you were." He smirked. "Now, I hear you wanna hear the story of what happened between Sam and I." He sat on her bed as she stood up and sat on her desk.

"Actually, yes I would." She crossed her arms.

"Well, as you know Casey was Sam's girlfriend, but when they broke up she was so hurt. I've never seen her that hurt before. Yeah, they were on and off again, but that time it was for good. I- being a good so called step-brother- wanted to make her feel better. So I started spending alot of time with her, taking her out to pizza, to the movies, to the mini golf course, before I knew it I was falling for her. Sam found out and well... I think you know how the rest goes," Derek said.

Kate nodded. "Yeah, but that still doesn't explain why she commited suicide."

"I don't know why she did it," He said as tears welled up in his eyes. "I thought she was happy with me."

Oh my god, he's crying. He's Derek, though. He can't cry. I guess I was wrong about him. Kate thought guiltily. She went over and sat next to him and gently stroked his back, but he stood up refusing to accept her comfort. She stood up and wrapped her arms around him, he struggled a bit, but soon gave in and hugged her in return. They remained there for quite some time.

Kate pulled away and gazed into his eyes. So hurt and cold. "I didn't know... I'm sorry for the way I've been treating you," She said sincerely.

Derek seemed to have realized something, because he backed away real quick. "Yeah? I'm used to it," He said coldly.

Whoa... Talk about being bipolar. Why is he acting like this? She pondered. "What is it, Derek? Did I do something?" She asked.

He replied, "You know what? Everything was fine until you came along, why are you here? What do you want from this family?"

She took a deep breath and said, "I don't know why I'm here and I don't want anything from your family." She added, "I just want to help."

"You're doing a great job," He said sarcastically. "Getting Lizzie and Nora all worked up-"

Kate interrupted, "Hey it's not my fault I look like your step-sister!" She went on, "I believe that I'm here for a reason and I think that reason is to get to the bottom of Casey Mcdonalds suicide."

He didn't say anything and walked out seemingly upset.

What the hell just happened? He was crying one minute and pissed off at me the next! God, men are so complicating. Kate plopped herself on the bed and cuddled a pillow.

That night Kate had a dream; She was standing on top of a building overlooking the student body who was staring at her. They were all screaming at her, "Don't do it, Casey! Come down!" She didn't listen. Her mind was set on one thing and one thing alone, to end this pain. She was suddenly having second thoughts about everything and decided to step off the ledge, but before she could someone had pushed her from behind and made her fall to the cold hard cement. Kate sat up perspiring and breathing hard. She gazed out her window and saw raindrops pounding against the window. Getting out of bed she walked downstairs to get a drink of water and found Derek down there on his chair watching TV. She retrieved her glass of water and walked into the livingroom.

"Can't sleep?" She asked placing the glass on the coffee table, then she took a seat.

He didn't answer.

"You are so weird, do you know that? I'm trying to be nice here, Derek, but you keep giving the cold shoulder and I most certainly don't deserve being treated this way," She said angrily.

He still didn't say anything.

"And what the hell was that up in the room earlier? One minute you were sad and torn up inside, the next minute you were angry at the world," Her tone of voice became louder.

Derek finally said, "Kate, shut up, you'll wake everyone."

She flung her arms around and stood up. "I don't care, I am tired of being treated like some alien and I'm tired of being confused and-"

Suddenly Derek stood up and roughly sat her on the couch, he then crushed his lips to hers, causing her sensitive lips to bleed a little. He entered her mouth with his tongue making the kiss more intense. Through all this Kate was too stunned to react. He roughly pulled away and said, "I don't love you, I love Emily." He slammed his lips on to hers once more before rushing upstairs.

Kate was left there sitting on the couch. She was even more confused than before and she hated Derek for that. He had kissed her! Twice! What the fuck was that all about! He must have lost it... What am I talking about? I'm in a TV show for godsakes! Okay Kate, focuse, all you have to do is solve Casey's death and then you'll get to go back home. I think...

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A/N: Tell me what you think...