Tamaki POV
I didn't know what's happening exactly between the twins but I could feel the stress around them. The situation is really hard for both of them and because I promised them that I'll help I really can't leave their side now. The three of us sat on the chairs beside the room where Kaoru is taking his first chemo therapy, Hikaru was looking down to the floor and sigh from time to time , they didn't allow him to enter with Kaoru so he stayed here. Haruhi was setting between me and him and she was looking at her watch waiting for the therapy to end so we can go back home. " I'll get us some coffee " Haruhi said and went to the coffee machine "so Tamaki...I didn't know you were dating her .. I mean , since when?" Hikaru asked and I got surprised from that kind of question at this time , I thought that he should be thinking of Kaoru , anyways I planned to answer him " well , it has been five months since then . after we graduated from ouran we went to different universities so I didn't have much time to meet with her and one day she called me and said she wanna talk , so we went out and here we go" I said to him " I see..well, congrats to you guys" Hikaru said then he sigh again "what's the matter Hikaru ?" I asked " what? No.. nothing, I am just worried about Kaoru all alone inside , god knows what they are doing to him right now" he said but I felt something wrong as if he was lying , like of course he must be worried about Kaoru but using that as an excuse didn't convince me . anyhow , I didn't plan to ask any other question.
After half an hour a nurse went out the room and asked Hikaru to enter with her and so he did.
Hikaru POV
I entered a white room full of doctors and nurses and there were a group of people setting on couches with medicine tubes connected to their hands , in the corner there was a nurse taking the needles from my twin's hand . he looked miserable , he was pale and looked dizzy, I rushed to him "KAO!" I knelt down beside him and touched his face while looking to him "what the hell did you do to him?" I asked the nurse "it's okay mister Hitachiin , it's the syndrome after the therapy also he will puke and feel dizzy for at least two days , there is a chance for his hair to fall after the fifth therapy set but since he will only take four then probably his hair won't fall . keep an eye on him." She finished and went to the next person to tell his family the same. I looked at Kaoru who was hiding his mouth with his hand and coughing "it's gonna be okay" I hugged him but he didn't wrap his arms around me , I guess he was too tired to move . "carry me Hikaru..i can't walk" he whispered , I put my arm under his legs and an arm under his back and left him up, he hid his face on my chest . I looked at him , he was holding my shirt and shivering . damn this shitty therapy had to put him in so much pain . I went out the room where Tamaki and Haruhi harried to us "please don't let them look at me like that" Kaoru whispered to me " oh my god is he going to be okay?" Haruhi asked " yes yes he will , please..let's go" I said to them as we walked out and sat in the car , while in the road Kaoru stopped us twice and went out to vomit .
after that hard ride we got to the mansion again , Kaoru walked tiredly to his room and slammed the door behind him "Kao? Open the door for me!" I knocked on it "I wanna stay alone" he said in a sad tone. I understood that , he hates to let others see him weak and helpless but come on it's me , I have seen him in worst situations so what's the different now !yet I decided to give him his privacy "okay then..I am in my room if you need anything just call me" I said . there were a telephone in every room in this house.
I went to my room and sat on the bed. " so now I have nothing to do with my life..now everything got fixed.. " I relaxed and allowed myself to sleep for the first time without any worries .
Kaoru POV
I went to the bathroom and puked everything out as I shivered, some tears fell down my eyes . I took a deep breath and went to the sink. I looked at my messed up face in the mirror. My messed up brown hair was all on my face , my buffed eyes cause I cried a lot in the last days after all that happened and black bags under them , my skin that is now bale and..i hated what I saw , I hated my face and my body and that I am weak and sick .. I opened the water and put my head under it , let my hair get wet too. " I am nothing like what I used to be…" I am ugly. Even Hikaru finds me ugly now .. I hope I could be enough for him but with this face and skinny body of mine I will never get close to satisfy him. I opened the shower and took off all of my clothes and just sat under the shower. I didn't have a good one in ages , I looked at all the shampoo types and soups that lied beside the tub and picked some as the water filled the tub. the sweet smells calmed me down and I didn't want to think about anything right now. "My dear parents in heaven please help me.. " I didn't want Hikaru to look at anyone the same way he looked at me. I want him all to myself , I am madly in love with him and that's for sure but after yesterday when he checked the waitress and got his eye on Haruhi then I don't know what in the world I'm gonna do. I don't want to put all the blame on him because I look miserable and ugly let alone that now after starting this chemo therapy, I am being so weak, won't even enjoy having sex or get hot at least, I am a useless corpse that's not good at anything. I was too tired that stood up slowly then turned off the water, I put a towel on my head and went out .
the bathroom was inside my room so I walked totally naked and lied down on the bed . I pulled the blanket and covered my body , I stayed like that for almost an hour till somebody knocked on my door "who's there?" I weakly said
" it's me !" oh it's Hikaru ..
I tried hardly to stand and walk to the door , I put the key in the door and opened it , looked at Hikaru from the door's crack " yes hika?" I asked
" wha!..let me in Kaoru " he said
"I don't think it's a good idea" I said
" why? Just let me in sweety" he said , i like it when he uses cute words so I hesitated a little then decided to open it ,he got in. I closed the door behind him. He looked at my naked body "oh did you have a shower? you smell so sweet" he said as he brought me to a hug , one of his hands wrapped around my back and the other under my west , but I didn't have the argue to hug him back, I know he doesn't love me the way I do love him "ah!.why don't you hug me back?" he asked as he separated from me and looked to my eyes , searching for an answer "why don't you go hug that waitress or ..Haruhi? " I calmly said "what are you talking about?" he wondered looking confused . I sigh painfully and went back to the bed , covered myself and only looked at him "hika…it's okay if you sleep with any girl you want .. I know I am not good enough for you and that my ugly body and face will never be enough for you or for anybody else , I really understand your needs an-" I stopped because he cut me off saying" SHUT UP! What in the world are you saying? I just checked that waitress I'd never replace her with you baka ! plus what about all the bullshit that you said ! I love your body and face the most!" he said as he lied in the bed beside me and kissed my cheek "please don't say that again.. I think .." he sits up and pulls me with him" all you need is a new haircut " he touches the top of my nose with his finger and fondle my cheek.
I think either I am confused or Hikaru is lying to me.