Disclaimer not mine. I still do not own anything to do with Lie To Me. No copyright infringement is intended or should be inferred.

Hope you enjoy this chapter. Please review. This chapter has been on the computer for a while but since the review that said meh? I wasn't sure about this. My stories are AU and they all follow on from each other in some way. The UK hasn't had the whole of the current series shown yet so this is definately AU in that respect. Also in this world Ben is back as FBI Liaison. Emily lives permanantly with Cal, Alec is in prison, having become a drug dealer (see previous stories Trust, Aftershocks and Seeing Red). This is probably going to be my last Lie to Me fic but I do not like to leave things unfinished, so this will definately have an ending. Thanks for taking the time to read/review.

Home?

Gillian looked around the kitchen. She knew she had been there before. The amnesia had left her with an almost constant sense of de ja vu. It was unnerving to say the least. She could feel Cal watching her, which was beginning to unnerve her too. She walked towards the worktop and stared out over the garden bathed in darkness. She tried and failed to ignore the headache that was encroaching on her.

"You alright luv?" Cal looked at her as she stared out of the kitchen window.

"Who were those men?"

"Idiots"

"Cal"

"I thought they were still in prison. If you ask me they should still be in prison" Cal watched as she nodded. He was still angry over the events of the last few hours. He still felt sick that his team had been hurt and scared. Heidi had been absolutely terrified. Ria and Eli had been injured and were both incredibly angry. Emily was ok, she was physically ok but he knew how scared his little girl had been. And then there was Gillian. Every person I care about. Every single one of them wrapped up in this bull. The two women I can't live without bloody hurt and scared. And it is my fault.

"I thought you would know them" Gillian sighed. "Ben said they were dangerous"

"He was right there Luv" Cal felt incredibly guilty. He had thought he had left Lloyd and Jones back in London years earlier. He had run to the USA to start again, now almost two decades later the reason he had run was back in his life. The thought that Gillian had been hurt and Emily terrified because of his past made him feel sick. What really worried him was the fact that Bridgeman and Vaughn were probably not far behind either.

"Yes I think so" Gillian leant against the work top. "Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why did I go with the skinnier man? I made a choice didn't I?" Gillian began shaking as she spoke.

"You saved Emily"

"What?"

"You saved my daughter. And for that I can never ever thank you enough" Cal watched as Gillian frowned. The events of years ago were clearer in her mind but still not really memories. The events of the last day were as elusive to her as they had been when she was with Ben outside the Lightman Group. She shook her head.

"I saved Emily?" Gillian stared at him. "How?"

"Lloyd is a scumbag. He burst in to my office three steps behind you. That's how you hit your head. He pushed you as he came in."

"I see" Gillian turned to the window. "He might not have really intended to hurt me"

"Not then" Cal took a step towards her as he realised she was shaking. "Hey, hey." Cal pulled her into his arms as the tears began running down her face. "I'm sorry. I am so sorry"

"Not your fault" Gillian mumbled into his shirt as he hugged her. "Not your fault"

"I should have let you take Emily to school before you came into work. I should have told you I would give the paperwork to Heidi to sort out. It is my fault Gill, it is all my fault" Cal kissed her hair as he clung to her. "I am so sorry."

"Cal" Gillian pulled back and rested her forehead against his.

"I"

"Stop appologising. I remember the strangest things and then I try to remember more and I can't" She whispered "It's just out of reach."

He stayed quiet, sensing she wasn't quite finished. Instead he closed his eyes and tried to concentrate on his breathing. He felt her kiss his lips as he opened her eyes.

"Gill"

"Oh God, Cal" She stepped back, embarrased. She had read too much into what was going on between them. She had no idea if they were friends, colleagues, lovers or merely tolerated each other for work. He stopped as she saw the look in his eyes change from shock to desire. Seconds later they were kissing like teenagers. Cal was breathing heavily as he pulled out of the kiss.

"I thought" his voice broke "I thought I'd lost you. All I could think about was getting Emily to safety, didn't care if I died."

"Cal"

"You were dead" He hated how broken his voice sounded. He was always the cocky Londoner that acted as if he knew everything. This time he had been out of his depth and it scared him. He had really believed he had heard her scream before the man had shot her. He had been convinced that he had lost her for good.

"What?" Gillian stared at him.

"You were dead. I heard. I felt. You were dead" Cal closed his eyes as Gillian shook her head.

"No" Gillian smiled slightly "You were"

"Eh? I weren't the one that walked out of the office with my head held high, without looking back as a raging psycho pointed a gun at my daughter's head so you would go with him. He would have shot her if you didn't go" Cal explained as the colour drained from her face.

"He was going to really hurt her. I could read him." Gillian wasn't sure what he was remembering, but it was something. Cal held her face in his hands as he tilted her head up to meet his gaze "Payback. What the hell did he mean by payback?"

"I dunno" Cal watched as she touched his hand. "I really wish I did"

"Cal, I'm tired. Emily is already in bed"

"I made the spare room up" Cal tried to hide his surprise at the sudden change in conversation. Gillian shook her head slightly as she held Cal's hand. For a moment he thought she was going to ask him to take her home, despite everything the doctor had said.

"I'm staying with you Cal. Take me to bed" She watched as Cal pulled her back into his arms. Both were unaware of the car outside the house watching their every move. Neither had any idea that the real danger had only just started.

A/N Hello, hope you like. Constructive reviews are always welcome :D