Lauren came back upstairs an hour later to start Kenzi on IV fluids. Kenzi had fallen asleep, exhausted from the days events. Bo was still sitting next to Kenzi's side.
"Hey Bo, how are you doing?" Lauren asked as she started to pull out supplies to start the IV line.
"Okay, I guess. I still can't believe she's doing this to herself," Bo said, standing and walking over to where Lauren was standing next to Kenzi's bed.
"I know this has to be a bit of a shock for you, Bo, seeing her like this. It makes me wonder what else went on when she was in that cave," Lauren said.
"Yes, it sure has been a shock. I've also been wondering what caused her to do this to herself. I'll do whatever it takes to help her," Bo said, nearly breaking down just thinking about her best friend.
" I know Bo, I know," Lauren said, finishing up with the IV and then walking over to Bo. She took Bo's hands.
"The good news is I think we can help her. She needs you now more than ever and as long as we can get her to start eating again and gaining some weight back, I think she will be fine. She hasn't done too much damage to her body...yet. We definitely caught it in time. And Bo, she's got you, her best friend, to help her through this," Lauren said, before taking Bo in her arms. Bo welcomed being held by her girlfriend and felt herself sink into Lauren's comforting arms.
Lauren held Bo in her arms for a long time, realizing just how hard this was on her girlfriend.
Lauren had just let go of Bo when Tamsin walked into Bo's bedroom, lightly knocking on the doorframe to let them both know she was there.
"Hey, Tamsin," Bo said, smiling at the Valkyrie.
"Hey, Bo. How's Kenzi?" Tamsin asked. She was finding it hard to hide the concern she had for the human, both because she had watched her sister go through the same thing and because she realized how much she cared about Kenzi.
"She's doing okay, for now. Lauren started her on some IV fluids and she's been asleep for a little while now," Bo said.
"That's good to hear. How are you holding up, Bo? Do you need anything? I was going to offer to take over sitting with Kenzi for the night if you wanted to go get some rest," Tamsin offered, very much hoping that Bo would take her up on her offer.
"I'm doing okay. Just very concerned about her. I think I might just take you up on your offer, if your sure you don't mind? I don't want to leave her, but I know she'll be in good hands if you sit with her," Bo said.
"Not at all, Bo. You look pretty worn out," Tamsin said.
"Thanks Tamsin."
Lauren and Bo went downstairs and Tamsin found herself alone with Kenzi. She sat down in the chair next to where Kenzi lay in Bo's bed. She looked down at Kenzi's sleeping face. Just looking at her face she realized how pale and thin Kenzi had become. She looked so fragile lying in the bed. Tamsin took Kenzi's hand in her own, hoping she wouldn't wake the human, as that wasn't her intention. She wished that she could take Kenzi's pain and hurt away. She wished she could climb into the bed with Kenzi and hold the frail girl in her arms, but she didn't dare do so, for fear of Kenzi's reaction. She sat holding Kenzi's hand for the next couple of hours. It was nearing midnight when she saw Kenzi stir a little. Kenzi's eyes suddenly opened and Tamsin watched her look over at her friend, a look of surprise on her face. She still looked half asleep and must have been really tired but managed a small smile before she closed her eyes and dozed off again. Tamsin kept quiet, not wanting to wake Kenzi fully as she knew she needed to rest.
Lauren came in at 3 am to put a new IV bag up. She asked Tamsin if she wanted her to take over for a few hours but Tamsin said she was fine so Lauren went back downstairs.
Finally at 6 am, Kenzi woke again, this time appearing to be more awake. She looked over at the person sitting next to her, realizing it was Tamsin.
"Hey, Kenz. How you feeling?"
"Hey, I feel okay. Is it morning already?"
"It sure is."
"What time is it?"
"Right around 6 am."
"Crap, I missed my morning work out. I guess my alarm didn't go off," Kenzi said, pushing the blanket off of her and attempting to get up.
"Wow, slow down, sweetie, you don't want to get dizzy again," Tamsin said, realizing Kenzi had no intention of giving up her workout routine, even if she had passed out the day before.
"It's okay, I feel just fine. I still have time to get in a workout. I'll just be a little later this morning," Kenzi said, making an attempt to stand up before realizing that something was in her right hand.
"I don't think your going to be working out today, Kenzi. Do you remember passing out yesterday? Your body is in no shape for you to start exercising again," Tamsin said, noticing that Kenzi had noticed the IV. She realized that Kenzi might start to panic in a second and was prepared to help calm down the human if she started to freak out.
"Is there an IV in my hand?" Kenzi asked.
"Yes. Lauren started it shortly after you fell asleep last night. She said you were pretty dehydrated."
"Um, okay. Well, do you think you could tell her to take it out now?" Kenzi said, panic starting to rise in her voice.
"Kenzi, I'm not sure that's such a good idea, but I understand that you might be feeling kind of panicky about having it in your arm," Tamsin said, hoping she could calm Kenzi down.
Kenzi noticed that Tamsin had heard the panic in her voice and realized that she had to stop herself from panicking. There's no way she was going to admit that she was terrified of all the weight she felt she would gain from the IV fluids.
"Okay, well, maybe its okay then. I think i'm going to lie back down again. Feeling a bit dizzy," Kenzi said, hoping that laying back down would push the fear from her mind.
Tamsin helped her get situated in the bed again and then carefully placed the blanket back over her. Tamsin reached for Kenzi's hand, the one without the IV. She was pleasantly surprised when Kenzi reached back to take Tamsin's hand.
"I know this part is hard, Kenzi. Everything in you wants to fight the IV in your hand. You can't stand the thought that liquid is being poured through your body. That it might possibly be causing you to gain weight. I wish I could tell you that part goes away quickly, but I can't. It will be there for awhile. But one day, you won't be so scared anymore. One day, you will be able to eat without feeling that terrifying feeling," Tamsin said.
Kenzi found herself looking up into Tamsin's eyes. She detected concern mixed with fear? Why was Tamsin feeling afraid? Was she afraid of what was happening to Kenzi? Or something else? She started to feel calmness washing through her body, something she hadn't felt for awhile. She stared into the Valkyrie's eyes, wishing she could read her thoughts. She jumped as she heard a voice near the door.
"Kenzi my dear, how are you feeling this morning?" Lauren asked as she walked through the doorway.
Tamsin had seen the calmer look in Kenzi's eyes as she had looked into hers. For a moment it was as if Kenzi knew exactly what she was thinking. She felt like maybe she was getting through to Kenzi when Lauren had walked in, interrupting the moment.
"Fine, just fine," Kenzi said, back to pretending that there was nothing wrong with her. She wanted to look back over at Tamsin and find out why she had looked afraid but she stopped herself. She couldn't get too involved and she certainly couldn't let her guard down. If she did she might stop what she was doing and then her efforts would be for nothing.
Tamsin watched as Kenzi closed up again. She felt like she had almost gotten through to her. She had almost told Kenzi about her sister's struggle. She had almost let herself be vulnerable and open to someone about the pain she'd felt years ago. Then it was gone in a flash.
"Kenzi, if your okay with it I think i'd like to get another bag of IV fluids in you. That should be enough to help your electrolytes start to balance out again. I'd also like you to eat something for me again. If you can start eating normally again I think we can get you back to your normal self. Luckily you didn't do too much damage to your body yet. If you continue to eat, your going to be just fine," Lauren said.
"Okay, that's fine. I just want to put this all past me," Kenzi said, hoping to get out from under the watchful eyes of Lauren and the others as quickly as she could.
"I do recommend that maybe you go see therapist. You need to talk to someone about what you went through a few months ago. I think it would help in your recovery," Lauren said.
Kenzi wanted to laugh in Lauren's face at the mention of a therapist but realized that she needed to pretend that she would move forward and a therapist sounded like a good move. She didn't actually have to see one, she just had to make Lauren and the others think she was going to, so she nodded her head in agreement. Kenzi would pretend to see a therapist if she had to and she would continue eating without fighting until she could make them believe she was doing just fine. She only hoped that her body wouldn't get used to eating so much. She knew that there were ways to trick people into thinking she as continuing to eat. She would pull those tricks out if she had to.
