Ok, so one more. And only 1 to go. I might as well finish it in the end :) Enjoy :)

Chapter 6

Rachel woke up slowly. She moved a bit and felt she was held by something. She opened her eyes and saw Chandler. His head rested on her shoulder and he looked all peaceful and happy. His arms were around her. She smiled and thought she could just lay like this forever. Oh, if only he would want her... She never thought she'd ever want him, but here she was, laying with him and dreaming about the day he'd look at her differently. Chandler smiled in his sleep. Rachel smiled at him and slowly leaned to him. She press her lips against his slowly, lightly. Chandler's arms pulled her closer and still sleeping he returned her kiss passionately.

"Oh... Chandler" she moaned.

Suddenly Chandler broke the kiss. "Rachel? What's going on? We were making out?"

"No!" she lied. "You wish!"

"Oh... that's weird. I just had the most realistic dream ever. I dreamt I was kissing you and apparently you liked it... Rach, I'm getting all crazy."

"Calm down, sweetie. It was just a dream. And what do you mean I liked it? Didn't you like it?"

"Yeah I did! Hell, I was kissing Rachel!" he smiled at her.

"Was it nice?" she asked slowly leaning towards him.

"It... it was... was good..." Chandler stared at her eyes. He couldn't break the look. There was simply something very special in her eyes. Something Chandler has never seen in Monica's eyes. A sparkle. A feeling. Chandler leaned a bit closer to her.

"Good? Like this?" she kissed him slowly.

"Oh..." Chandler moaned and pulled her closer. They sank into the kiss. Suddenly he forgot everything. It was just Rachel and him. He felt she's shivering. He felt her heart start beating faster. She wrapped her arms around him. They kissed for several minutes without breaking the kiss. Finally Chandler backed out. He looked at her curiously and smiled.

"This... was... good..."

"It was, wasn't it?" she returned his smile.

"But... But... what was it, Rach? I mean, I've never done that with you."

"I don't know. I think I just got curious... I mean..." she couldn't finish. She couldn't tell him, that she was falling in love with him and that she just couldn't stand that anymore.

"Curious, huh?" he looked at her and gave her his hurted smile. "What is it with you girls? Why can't any of you simply like me? Am I so hideous? Dull? Stupid?"

He stood up and started dressing up as quickly as he possibly could.

"Chandler! No, Chandler!" she tried to explain, but Chandler was not listening.

"No, Rachel, I understand. You were curious... I mean of course nobody like you would ever be interested in me... Is just that you have been telling me I should give myself some credit and so on, so I thought... Oh well, I know it's stupid. And it's not even that I want you to be into me or anything, but you know after being friend to everyone for so long, it would just be nice to be interested in for once... „. With that he rushed out of the room.

"Chandler, wait!" she caught him in a hallway. "You are stupid!" she shouted at him. "And you're blind!" Rachel couldn't take it anymore. She ran into her apartment, into her room and locked the door. Chandler went after her, but stopped, when he saw Monica in the living room. She was all dressed up and beautiful. And she was with the date. Chandler looked at her and couldn't believe it.

"I don't believe I met you" he said to her date "I'm Chandler. An idiot." added sarcastically and knocked on Rachel's door. "Rach! I'm sorry, Rach! Please, please let me in!" he pleaded.

"Get out!" she shouted. "I don't want to talk to you!"

"Rach! Please... I'm so, so sorry! You're right! I am stupid! How could I've been so stupid? And so blind?"



Rachel opened the door a little bit. "It's because you're an idiot,"

"I am an idiot." he smiled at her. "Rach, please, please don't be mad at me. Be my friend again..."

Rachel sighed. "I am your friend, Chandler." She went out of her room and hugged him. "Come in, let's talk." She took his hand and walked him in closing the door in front of stunned Monica.

"I'm sorry Rach, you've been so great with me and I had no right to shout at you that way. I'm really really sorry..."

"It's okay, sweetie, I can understand how insecure you might be lately." she gave him a small smile. "But anyway, you have no right to think I'm that shallow." she frowned at him.

"I know, I know..." he looked at her hopefully "do you forgive me?"

"Alright" she laughed "don't you give me that puppy look!"

"You're the best, Rach!" he hugged her.

"So, how are you? Y'know, about Monica dating and all…" she asked softly. She didn't want him to start moaning about her again, but she knew, that one kiss she gave him couldn't change the whole Monica madness.

"I… I don't know. I mean I'm an idiot. What was I thinking?" he smiled sadly. "She obviously thinks I'm her sex buddy or something. She's dating… Y'know, I'm good enough to have sex with, but not good enough to date… Could I be more pathetic?" he laughed sarcastically.

"Chandler!" she screamed.

"I'm kidding Rach!" He smiled. "Y'know I'm kind of getting angry. I mean, you keep saying I'm okay. Then how come does she treat me as if I wasn't worth anything but sex, when she's in a mood? But… I came after you not speak about that. I came to talk about what happened between you and me."

"Yeah?" she smiled. "And what happened between you and me?"

"Well… y'know. We kind of kissed there…"

"Yeah, we did." She laughed. "And?"

"And I wanted to ask why?" he looked at her curiously. "I don't believe it was curiosity or something. What was it, Rach?"

"What do you think it was? It was kiss. Chandler, I told you were blind. And now I'm saying you need to figure it out." She pulled him closer and hugged him.

Monica entered the room and froze. She saw Chandler hugging Rachel and somehow it didn't feel right. It was she, who was supposed to hug him, not Rachel. After all, it was Monica, who kept sneaking into Chandler's room at night.

"Is everything okay?" she asked frowning. "I thought you guys were fighting or something."

"We're okay." Rachel answered frowning. She looked at Chandler and saw the look he gave Monica. It was so loving… She couldn't stand it. "I gotta go work." She said sharply and walked out as fast as she could.

"Rach..." Chandler started to walk after her.

"What was all this about?" Monica took Chandler's hand and gave him a long gaze. "Did you guys have a fight or something?"

"Yeah, kind of. But it's fine now."

"Oh, okay. Look, Chandler, I have to ask. Is there something between you and Rach?"

"Um... no, I don't think so... I mean... No..."

Monica looked at him. It was all very strange. She needed to know that he still wants her, that nothing has changed. "Do you want to come over to my room?" she asked slowly.

Chandler looked at her and surprisingly realized that he really didn't want go that way right now.

"No, not now." He replied quietly. "Aren't you with a date or something?"

"No. He… left. I kind of asked him to leave."

"Why?" he was surprised.

"Because I didn't want him to stay. Isn't it obvious?" she smiled.

"Mon, I gotta ask. Why do you keep coming to me at night?"



"Because you're my friend. Because I like you. Because I thought you liked it too..."

"Then how come you're dating? I mean, why aren't you dating me? Why is it just sex?"

"What are you talking about? I thought you liked being just kind of 'sex buddies' or something. I mean it's you, Chandler. I never would have thought you were looking for relationship. At least I'm not."

"Really? Then why do you date? I mean it's obviously not for sex, you can get it whenever you want, so it must be for relationship. And apparently, I'm not good enough for relationship, am I?" he looked at her angrily.

"Chandler, come on! It's not that. I think you're good for relationship. It's just that it's you and me, y'know. I never thought of you that way."

"Mon, you've never thought of me at all. If you would have, you'd see how desperately I wanted you... How painfully I watched you getting back with Richard. How much it hurt to see you all devastated about him. How much I waited for you every single night and how much it hurt to see you sneaking out, to know you don't even want to wake up with me." his voice rose slightly as he began to shake. "You would have noticed how happy I was every single time you'd look at me, smile at me, kissed me... You would have noticed I'm desperately in love with you!"

"Oh my God, Chandler! You're in love with me?" Monica was shocked. She knew he had a crush on her, but love?

"Yeah, well... It doesn't really matter."

"What do you mean 'it doesn't matter'? Of course it does! It's huge! Oh, God... I'm so, so sorry... It must have been so difficult to you! Oh, why didn't you tell me?"

"What for? It wouldn't change anything, except that I don't think you'd keep coming over." he sighed. "Well, anyway, now you know. And I assume it's all over now, right?" he couldn't help it hoping.

"Well... I mean... there are feelings now, y'know... and well we can't just fool around anymore... not that you were... but..." she took a deep breath. "I like you Chandler, I really do, but I'm not ready to get into serious relationship. And I don't want to hurt you anymore. I'm so, so sorry..."

"It's okay. I understand." he replied sadly. "Don't worry about it. Alright" he shook his head. "I gotta go. Take care of yourself, okay?"

"Chandler... Can... can I kiss you... one last time?"

He smiled, pulled her closer and kissed her. Monica closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around his neck. It was strange to her, she kept thinking that it was Chandler who she was kissing, but it didn't matter anymore. She enjoyed the kiss so much. Her eyes widened. She really enjoyed that!

Chandler broke the kiss, smiled at her and left. He came home, laid on the couch and took a deep breath. This was weird. He felt... relieved. That last kiss really seemed to be last and... and he had to be honest to himself - he didn't really want another kiss. When Rachel kissed him, he felt special. He felt it was right. And now, when he kissed Monica it didn't seem right! It seemed he was betraying Rach. And he didn't want to betray her. She was sweet and caring and she'd always support him. He liked Rachel. He stood up quickly. Oh, God! He liked Rachel! How could this happen? When did this happen? What about Mon? Chandler knew that he'd always have a special place for Monica in his heart, but... Oh, God! He really, really had to speak to Rachel. He couldn't wait till she gets back home. He rushed out of the apartment hoping to find her at work. In the hallway he found Monica. She was on her way to him.

"Chandler" she spoke softly. "I was thinking about what you said and... and I think... we could try... y'know"

"Mon, I'm sorry, but... Oh God, how do I get myself into these situations? Mon, I don't think we should try." he said slowly. "I don't think I want it anymore. I think I want... Rachel. I'm so sorry, but a have to go. I'm sorry." he rushed out.

He suddenly felt free. He felt it was good to live again. He felt he'd do anything to keep Rach with him. On the way to her work he couldn't help smiling. "I am an idiot!" he thought happily. "And 

blind. Rach is so right. Oh, God, I just hope it's not too late."

"Ra... " he ran into her office and froze.

He saw her in the arms of Ross.