Between love and lust, Bella chooses lust. What about Edward?

It was my first lemon, I hope I didn't disappoint. I apologize again for mistakes. I'm working on it. This chapter in Epov.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or it's characters. It all belongs to S.M.

EPOV

"Fuck buddy? She wants you to be her fuck buddy? I gotta tell you man, I like that girl even more now. She brought mighty Edward Cullen, down on his fucking knees" Emmett said laughing.

Emmet, Jasper and me were sitting in my room, talking about what happened last night with me and Bella. I still couldn't put a finger on it, I just know that I lost my common sense when she came to my room dressed as my "wet dream".

"Why did you agree Edward? I though you liked her, I though you feel for her the same thing I fell for Alice?" Jasper, always the reasonable one

"I don't know Jazz, I just lost it, ok?. She came to my room , said she has a preposition for me AND was dressed as sex on legs. Next thing I know, we are fucking on my bed.

God i…. "

"You have to tell her Edward." Jasper said concerned

"Tell her what? That I want her? That she blew my fucking mind last night? That she is all I thing about, even though I've known her for a week? I don't think so."

"You don't have to put it that way. Just tell her that you don't want a relationship without commitments. Tell her you want a real thing."

"She doesn't want that Jasper. And since I am falling for her, I will be to her what ever she wants me to be." I'm such a pussy.

"You are such a pussy Edward. What happened to the Edward the player?" Emmett said. Thanks Emmett.

"Bella Swan came to town. That's what happened."

I woke up that morning, to the most beautiful feeling in the world. I opened my eyes and saw that Bella was still in my arms asleep. She looked so beautiful on a morning sun. Her brown locks spread on my pillow, her face was in my chest and her cheeks were red and mouth slightly open.

I noticed that she was still naked. So was i. Her closeness had effect on me and my erection came to life. Our limbs were intertwined and just one move with my hip and I will be inside of her. God, she is so sexy.

She started to steer and I knew she was awake.

"Good morning, love." I said while kissing her on forehead. "Sleep well?"

She looked at me and brought her arms around my neck and pecked me on the lips.

"Good morning. Best sleep I had in years" she yawned

"Well I did tire you last night, didn't i?" I asked smirking and brought her closer to me.

"Hmm, what is that that we got here Mr. Cullen?" she said while pulling her hips closer to me and I knew she felt how hard I was for her. " I see someone else is awake"

She smiled and lifter her leg over my hip, giving me permit ion to enter her.

Bella was on pill, so I didn't have to use condom, which was divine. I could feel every inch of her.

Two rounds and one round in the shower later, we were ready to come down for some breakfast. We talked some more about our arrangement and agreed about some things.

After breakfast was done, she kissed me goodbye, saying that she'll call me and left.

Day dragged on and she still hasn't called. I didn't call her either, didn't want to sound desperate. I knew she wasn't mine and I couldn't check on her. I went to my room, turned on some music and tried to relax.

I really didn't think about all of this that was happening between us. I just knew that I wanted her. Sexually. But emotionally? No. Not yet. I've known her for a week. I can't have feelings for her. So, I'll just go with it. If I don't like it, I'll end it. That's it. Emmett called me a fucking pussy. Well I'll prove him wrong.

I was really getting angry with myself. How did I let myself become so weak? Just because of one night with her? No. Cullen you will make her play by your rules. I'll seduce her, keep doing that, fuck her when she calls and that's it. No emotions. Definitely no showing them. Steady, cool and cold. She'll see what she got herself into. I smirked at the thought.

"So, brother dear, what's going on with you and Bella?" Alice asked while I was parking the car on the school parking lot, the next day.

"We're friends" I said coolly avoiding her gaze

" You are such a liar Edward, has anyone ever told you that?" she said and hoped out of the car, still watching me

"Alice, stop looking at me like that, and I'm not a liar. Nothing happened between us, nothing's going on. Besides, you heard her, she is not interested in anyone" Why must she know everything?

"Edward we live in the same house and your room is two doors away . I'm sure those moans and yelling " Edward" weren't coming from you. She was with you. I heard her." When she saw I was ignoring her she continued " Come oooon Edward, please, why are you being like that? I'm your sister. Please tell me, what's going on. You love her right?

"Love her, Alice? Love her? I've known the girl for a week, how could I possibly love her? You are insane" I yelled at her

"You do Edward, I see it in your eyes. You can't hide things from me, I know you too well. She is your soul mate."
"Alice. Stop. Right now. I'm not talking about it anymore, ok? I. Don't. Love. Her. The .End." I said through my teeth. I turned away from her and entered the school.

Soul mate. Right. I rolled my eyes and went to my class.

Lunch came and we were all sitting at our table. Bella came shortly after and I noticed that she didn't have food tray with her. Isn't she hungry? She talked quietly to Rose and Alice and I noticed that her eyes are red and puffy from crying. I got angry instantly, wanting to kill the motherfucker who made her cry. I wanted to talk to her, to hold her so she could calm down. She looked so fragile. Small and petite. Complete transformation from Saturday night.

"What happened Bella, are you ok?" Jasper asked

"Yeah, I am" she sniffed, " thanks" she said looking at her feet. I noticed she still didn't make an eye contact with me. Why is she avoiding me? It's not like I made her cry.

And then she spoke

" Edward, I will not go to biology, can you tell Mr. Banner that I didn't feel well, so I had to go home?" She looked at me I saw that she was sad and in moments like that I couldn't deny her anything.

"Of course Bella, I will tell him, don't worry. Is everything alright?" I made myself ask

She was holding my gaze for a moment and then she sat to the chair next me. I froze instantly, I didn't' expect this. She leaned and whispered in my ear

"Can you come tonight at my house? Charlie is working night shift and…I need you" she was biting her lip so hard, I thought she will drew blood. And not to tell that her biting her lip was turning me on.

I just nodded, not trusting myself to speak. She took my hand, squeezed it for a second and stood up.

"I have to go, I'll see you tomorrow guys" and with that she left

Alice looked at me knowingly and mouthed "we'll talk". I rolled my eyes and brushed her off.

Later that night I texted Bella to ask at what time she expects me at her house. I really didn't want to meet her father and explain to him what am I doing at his house late at night. After all, that man carried a gun.

Alice busted into my room "We have to talk" she said

"No we don't Alice, go away"

"Not this time Edward Anthony Cullen", god not the full name, I knew that this won't end good.

"What do you want Alice? I told you today at school. What part of "we have nothing to talk about" don't you understand?" I asked angry

"I don't understand why are you lying to yourself? To her? To all of us? Why won't you admit your feelings? What is so scary about that?" She was yelling at me and throwing her hand in the air. She might be small but she can be scary as hell when she wants. Never underestimate Alice Cullen.

"Because there are no feelings Alice. None. Bella and I are fuck buddies. We fuck when we feel like it. No love, no emotions, just sex. And right now I'm going to her house because she asked me to today at lunch." I half yelled "Now move so I could go".

Alice was looking at me with her mouth agape and her eyes wide.

"But….how….i…don't…she said…but…I thought…you…." She was stuttering and couldn't make a full sentence.

I look at her " Alice, that's how it is. Nothing else. She suggested it, I agreed, coz I never turn sex like that down. I'm using her body, she's using mine. Simple math." I shrugged

"But Edward, she is your soul mate. You need to stop this, you'll hurt each other" she cried

"Alice" I hugged her, "don't cry ok? If anything changes, if I start feeling something for her, you'll be the first to know, I promise" I kissed her in hair

She nodded and sniffed " I love you Edward"

"I love you too Alice"

I was thinking about Alice's words while I was driving at Bella's place. "You need to stop this, you'll hurt each other". Does that mean that she knows something about Bella that I don't? I shrugged that though away as I parked on Bella's driveway. I took deep breath and knocked on her door.

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