Kyoya had heard Hikaru's gasp. Knowingly he trailed his tongue on Kaoru's shivering thigh, holding back his amusement at the young Hitachiin's pulse started to go crazy. It seems everything is going to fall into place. He thought while pulling back to judge Kaoru's emotions. The poor boy was looking away, his conflicted feelings and longings making him feel almost dizzy. The lust in the room was overpowering.

"Kyoya please just get off me."

"So you're going to wonder around the halls looking for your brother with a boner and ten billion hickeys? Good luck."
-

Hikaru was slumped in the hallway, his hand still over his mouth as he murmured the words on his tongue. They tasted delicious. He relished the meaning behind them... Love. Lust. "I am in love my brother." It was confirmed, it wasn't going back into the dark recesses of his brain now. He loved his brother like he should a girl, like Haruhi. But Haruhi wasn't the one he craved. He nursed his shock with all the reasons he loved his brother more than allowed by anything. It was incest. It was incredibly wrong. He could be thrown into jail for such horrible, taboo feelings. Well screw it. The brotherly love act was begging to come true.

Sick to his stomach, The older Hitachiin stood, determined,(and very nervous) to barge in the room and march Kaoru away from that evil Kyoya. He peeked in the doorway again, flinching as he watched Kaoru sigh as that filth practically have him a blow job. Disgusting! AHHH Hikaru thought as he pushed the door open and opened his mouth to yell at the smirking Kyoya and pale Kaoru.

"I'd appreciate if you'd take your filthy hands off my brother, Kyoya."

Kaoru blushed even darker and wanted to die. "H-Hikaru?!"

Kyoya raised an eyebrow, his glasses glinting eerily in the light. "You would? I don't know if this little creature he would like that. Well in that case, he's all yours, Hitachiin." He stood gracefully and raised the very pale and confused Kaoru and pushed him to his twin. The Shadow King smiled, and left the room, his plan falling perfectly in place.

Soon the income of the Host club will be through the roof! So much work to nudge those two together... But if they talk it out, and notice the undying love then the act will be perfect! Brotherly love = $$$ and having those two normal again will mean Haruhi won't be into Tamaki as much and I can have him all to myself!
(-Oh Kyoya-)

Hikaru grabbed Kaoru's arm and drug him out the door, his head spinning at Kyoya's actions. The younger twin started to explain, argue, beg, he didn't even know, but Hikaru continued to pull him down the hall, refusing to speak to his little put his clothes back on properly. The limo was called, feet were dragged, and silence ensued until the two boys reached home.

Yuzuha was at the door when her sons came home, but her happy smile faded as she surveyed the two. Kaoru's eyes were so wide, his breath shallow. Hikaru was upset as well, his face hovering between tears and glowering. Something drastic happened, and Mrs. Hitachiin was going to get to the bottom of the drama even if it took her interrogation.

Hikaru had stomped the his room, leaving an almost bawling twin in the guest room. Their mother lurked in the hallway, struggling to not barge in when she heard Kaoru's sobbing. "Why is my baby crying?!" She whispered, and hurried to the doorway of Hikaru's room. He wasn't crying, but pacing and kicking objects, his face switching from confused, guilty, to angry as he wore down the carpet. Mrs. Hitachiin was determined to know, so she went to Kaoru first. He was more open and sincere, therefore more likely to tell her.

She knocked. "Kaoru, may I come in?" He was on the bed, letting tears pour into the pillow, but answered any way. "Yes."

Yuzuha sat next to him on the yellow bed, and wrapped her arms around Kaoru. " It's okay baby. You can cry. You can tell me what's wrong, I will help you however! " She stroked his hair gently, holding him while cried.

Eventually Kaoru stopped his tears, dread making his bones ache. I cant tell her what happened! Kyoya... lust... Hikaru... love... I love Hikaru, I can't tell that! It's so wrong she would lock me up and swallow the key! She might even tell Hika if I tell her . So he pulled away and shook his head.

"I... There was this...girl. I thought we were friends but she just wanted to use me for her dirty obsessions" He started to cry again, leaning against his mother and feeling guilty as hell for making up a blatant lie.

"My poor baby! I'll go get you some warm milk."

"No, I just need sleep. So does Hikaru, he is mad at the girl. We got into another fight."

"Honey... You and your brother have been having some complicated times. But growing apart just happens sometimes. You can't cling to him forever."

"He's still my brother. I love him and miss him, I've tried to apologize so many times it's pathetic."

"Hikaru is changing. Personality and mind, these days. But I guess you always were the mature one... I am going to talk to your father. Will you be okay?"

"Yeah. Thanks mom."

She left with a frown. Kaoru wrings his hands when he lies. When he said the bit about the girl, his hands were practically twisting each other off... Was her little boy gay or something worse? The tension was higher then ever.

Hikaru was sitting in the shower. The white shelves on the side wall were the only thing he saw as depression crept up on him, a dark thought away from spinning out of control. He shouldn't want Kao like that! His brother was, well, his brother! And I made him hurt. All because I had to loose control...Should I hurt?

There was a knife under his pillow

The thought of cutting just because all that... drama made Hikaru feel even more pathetic. Damn Kyoya for touching Kaoru! If he would just stop being so damn perfect. Kyoya was handsome and dark and everything the elder Hitachiin wasn't. ARGH Hikaru stood and stumbled to the bed, and collapsed heavily. He had nothing to do. So why not make a list of troubles?
...
* I have fought over Haruhi with Kaoru for almost two weeks.
* We kissed in the host club. I enjoyed it WAY too much
* I got jealous of that Nina girl...
* I got jealous and crazy of Kao and Kyoya- senpai.
*I want him
*That is incest...
*I think incest=bad
* Or in this case twincest=VERY BAD
* or twincest = hot... Dammmmmmmmit brain shuddap
...

Hikaru finished his list and threw the paper at the door. " Damn my life! Why should I suddenly be emotional?! Emotions are nothing but a pain in the ass. "

Karou was half asleep when he jerked to life at a noise. But seeing nothing but the alarm clock on the dresser blaring 11:57 he moaned. "Ugh why does sleep be such a bitch to me-eeeee..." He whispered, turning on the light as memory flooded in with the glaring flash of the light above him. The mirror showed his ruffled appearance, a few bruises on his neck and arm, a scratch starting at his chest straight down to his bare thigh. He flinched. The monster with dark bags under his eyes flinched too, making Kaoru turn away. I wish I never met Haruhi. Maybe if I never joined the club, I would be happier... Or not. So Kaoru turned to put some clothes on.

Padding down the hall, Kaoru silently cursed the distance he placed between him and his twin. He missed sleeping and simply being with Hikaru. He never had nightmares while in the older twin's arms. Why was he so... stupid? I say sorry, but run away. I say 'I love you ' but turn and hide. I let Kyoya touch me, making Hika mad, then I just cry. This is a mess unless I tell Hikaru or make things better. Should I tell him? Would he hate me? Most likely.

The younger Hitachiin twin reached his brother's door and raised his hand to knock, but froze. Hikaru was awake, he could just tell. But he couldn't make his arm move. Fear? But he gulped down the butterflies dive-bombing in senses and knocked quietly. No one replied, so he pushed open the door. Hika was sitting on the floor beside the bed. He had hid the bloody knife behind his back, but those wide, guilty eyes made Kaoru suspicious right away.

"What were you doing?"

"N-nothing."

Kaoru snorted. "You just stuttered. You were doing something wrong."

The other boy sighed and pushed his thoughts to Kaoru.

I was thinking.

About what?!

You, life, food, blood...

Blood?! Were you-
Kaoru spotted the little blood stains on the carpet and the way Hikaru trembled
"Were you cutting yourself Hikaru?!"

Hikaru sighed. "That's the first time you've said my name in a concerned way. I missed your lovely mothering."

"Answer my question before I hurt you!"

"Just look at my wrists if your so desperate."

"I will!" He bent over and grabbed Hikaru's arms and lifted them to the light from the doorway. The blood was all over both of them now, making Kaoru hiss and clench his teeth.

"Why would you do this?!"

"No reason. I just got bored and went-" He made a cutting motion over his bleeding wrist- "Thwap."

"Hikaru Hitachiin! Don't talk like that!"

"You sound so much like mom it isn't funny."

"So?! You cut open your own arm! You're insane!"

Kaoru stared blankly at the blood, then got up and practically ran to the bathroom. The white bandages and hydrogen peroxide on the counter showed Hikaru was prepared, so Kaoru rushed back.

His brother held out his arms, shivering as the foam seeped on his wounds down to the carpet. But mostly he relished Kaoru's touch. His twin hadn't touched him so gently in ages! It brought Hikaru out of his sleepy stupor, woke up his tired blood. But it brought the pain, and soon the slices were burning instead of that dull, dead sensation.

But pain and pleasure mingled in the space in his brain closely, so Hika enjoyed every moment of Kaoru cleaning the cuts, and gently bandaging them. When Kaoru finished, his hands lingered on the other twins palm, and soon started tracing circles on the white skin. The two kneeled there for what seemed ages, just touching each others hands, Hikaru suppressing the feelings of want, Kaoru just basking in love for the touch, the breath of his twin. It was beautiful.

"H-Hikaru."

He looked up in question. "Yes Kaoru?"

"Can I sleep here tonight?"

Hikaru tensed, then stood while pulling up his twin. "Of course. I missed you, the bed is too big for just me."

"Thank you. But before we go to bed, I need to tell you something important. I really don't want to say it but-"

"Kaoru, I already knew you were gay as hell. You've been pretending to be flirt with me since middle school."
Hikaru laughed at his wit.

"Well that's not exactly what I meant but okay. But seriously. I didn't want Kyoya to do that to me. He just popped out of no where and said I needed help! I tried to rip his face off but that bastard just kissed me and it escalated from there-" Kaoru jumbled out with one breath.

Hikaru was surprised his brother didn't collapse as they say on the satin bed sheets. "It's okay, I just don't want him near you. He's a pervert I swear. What did he say you needed help with?"

"Um that brings me to my reason for this conversation..." Karou laid down and covered himself up while watching his half naked brother do the same. Unconsciously the two curled up and soon Karou's head was under Hikaru's chin and almost every inch of skin was touching. It was maddening, but Kaoru continued his speech, determined to plow on.

"Hikaru... Please don't hate me... But I think I'm in love with you." Kaoru whispered against his brothers naked chest. The chest stopped breathing for several seconds, then violently pushed him away. Hikaru cupped his brothers face and looked so incredibly serious it made the room feel hot and stuffy.

"Kaoru Hitachiin those are the most beautiful words I have heard in a while." Hikaru promptly kissed him.

Kaoru whimpered and pulled away, his cheeks red. "I-You-How-When-" he made these little choking noises and covered his eyes with the palms of his hands. Process overload danger dangerous overloading danger mayday mayday GOING DOWN. His train of thought was blown off the rails as his brother laughed quietly and pulled in for another deep, achingly hot kiss. Finally tongues collided and melted together, each darting at the other if it was the end of the world and nothing else was going to be felt. Kaoru threw himself on top of Hikaru and tangled them up in the sheets.

Meanwhile, outside the door, Mrs. Hitachiin was crouching near a crack in the door watching excitedly. She had heard the entire exchange and was finally happy her suspected theories were correct. Kaoru was in love with Hikaru. Fuck yeah.

[okay I must tell you something. All while typing this, my keyboard wanted to correct 'Hikaru' into 'HILARY CLINTON' and I actually threw my iPad across the room and screamed at is MOTHERFUCKER HILARY CLINTON WOULDN'T BE GAY FOR HER TWIN BROTHER SHE ISNT THAT COOL my mom thinks I have issues. She may be right. It is 2 AM after all. I love you okay bye]