A/N: Thanks again for the love. Hope yall still like this story.

The next day, after such a heavy night between Dean and Roman, Roman was getting ready to be discharged from the hospital. His mother offered to stay for the next month to help with his physical therapy and doctor's appointment. Roman was actually referred to Dean's clinic, but under Dr. Styles care since Dean and Roman were a conflict of interest. Dean, on the other hand, was still struggling with what Roman told him regarding his suicide attempt and his own. Roman actually called Seth after Chris brought him down from the ledge to help him while he does his thing at the moment. Seth came down and picked up Dean and thanked Roman for letting him know what was going on. He knew that Dean needed some help trying to get passed what happened. Seth even called Styles and told him that Dean was on a two week vacation at the courtesy of Chris himself. Styles agreed to step up and help out with no problem.

"Okay Roman," Chris said as he looked up and down on his chart. "I am gonna make sure that you stick with your routine for your therapy for your neck and back. I am referring you to Dr. Rusev, who has an unorthodox method that will help you heal better. His wife, Lana is a massage therapist that specializes in deep tissue healing, so hopefully within three months time, you will feel somewhat normal, but that depends on how you do, okay?" Roman nods as he looks down at his hands, making Chris look at him with sympathy. "Hey, it's okay, Dean will be okay."

Roman sighs as he rubs his eyes a bit before looking up at Chris. He owes Chris for helping him with Dean last night. He never meant for him to know what had happened to him. He didn't do it to hurt him per say, but to understand what the betrayal did to him. "I know, it's just…" he sighs, "It's just that I thought this anger was gone when I saw him, I didn't realize that it would hit me full force. I didn't even care that I hurt him at the moment. All I cared about what letting him know how I felt and what it did to me. I hope he is okay today." He sounded worried, and he shouldn't be, but he was. Watching Dean last night wanting to end his life for good scared the shit out of him. It was like he knew now how his parents felt when his dad found him in the bathroom that night. He lost Dean once, he didn't want to lose him again, but damn it, he was so fucking scared to admit that to him. He already admitted his still loved him, he didn't need to make it any more complicated than it already was.

Chris puts his hand on Roman's shoulder and offered a soft smile. "I know you didn't mean it Roman, but true love is tough, first love you never forget, and Dean was both of that to you. I know that he carried around that guilt for years. He put all his time and energy into his clinic as a dedication to you because you were the reason he became a doctor. He wanted so much for you to be proud of him even though he broke your heart and even though he knew that you hated him. No matter what, he never took care of himself, but others, because that is what you taught him."

Roman looked down with his eyes starting to water up before Chris continued. "He never stopped talking about you either. It was always, 'Well, I know Roman would have done it this way, or Roman wouldn't have done it that way', type of thing. I knew that deep down, he still loves you and wanted to do right by you in some way, even if you guys never got back together or saw each other again. By I got to tell you Roman," Chris said as he put the chart down and then folded his arms, "Dean seeing you that night and saving your life was a sign that maybe its time to let that all go. The hurt, the hate, the anger, everything. I know it is hard, but don't you think 15 years is a long time to hold a grudge? Think about it Roman, don't let it consume you anymore. It's time to let it go and start over again…unless you don't want that."

"I am just so fucking scared Chris. I tried dating to get rid of any memories and images of him to no avail. Everywhere I looked, I saw his face, like God was laughing at me again, like I hadn't suffered enough pain. I just don't know how to let it go even though you are right, I need to, I just don't know how…" he replied as he sniffled and wiped the tears that was starting to fall.

"Well, I can refer you to Dr. James Ellsworth. He is one of the top counselors in the state and he got transferred here about a month ago. I have heard nothing but good things about him and his work. Maybe you and Dean can do some sessions together and separate to help deal with all this. It's the only way you two can move on, however it may be, whether its together or going your separate ways but on good terms."

Roman thought about it for a moment. It actually wouldn't hurt to try and resolve this for good and to move on. He is so tired of being so bitter towards people. He is so tired of always being unhappy with his personal life. He is just so tired of it all. He looks at Chris, "Okay, if Dean agrees, then I will go for it," he whispers as he sees Chris's eyes shine a bit brighter.

"Awesome, I will see about setting you up for an appointment for at least a single session until we get Dean on board, which shouldn't be a problem."

"Thanks Chris, for doing this for me and even for Dean. To move on from the hurt and betrayal."

"Anytime Roman, you are a good guy, I know you have a good heart that just needs to be mended a bit. And Dean will be the reason that happens, if you let it."

Roman smiles a real smile for the first time in a long time. Chris smiles back and picks up his chart. "Okay, while I get that set up, I will get your papers in order and your mother should be here at anytime to pick you up, okay?"

"Okay" he softy mumbles as Chris turns and heads out the door, leaving Roman alone with his thoughts.

I just hope this works. I just want to let the hurt go and to move past this. I just hope Dean agrees with it. I still love him, but will I be able to take him back if the question surfaces? He thinks as he closes his eyes for a moment. Only time will tell if that happens or not. But I do need to let all this hate go before it consumes me even more. He lays there for a while longer until it was time for him to go.

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"Hey Dean," Seth said quietly as he enters the guest bedroom where Dean was staying. Roman had called him after what went down with Dean. Even though Seth and Roman hadn't really kept in touch, there was no animosity between the two, so it made it easier for Seth to help if he was needed. And in this case, he was, much to the surprise of Roman.

Dean looks up from his bed spot and looks at Seth, who was carrying a tray of food for him to eat. After Seth came and got Dean, they headed back to Seth and Randy's place and settled into the guest bedroom. Seth and Dean stayed up all night talking about what went down. Randy went to bed knowing that this was between them two. Dean cried as Seth held him, telling him it was okay.

"Hey…" he whispers hoarsely as Seth made his way over to the bed and put the tray down. "You didn't have to bring me food.."

"You need to eat Dean, need to keep your energy up some." He said as he sat down beside him. "And I know you are hungry, so please, please eat something on here?"

Dean sighs and smiles weakly as he picks up a piece of toast and starts to nibble on it some. His stomach had been doing flip flops so Seth made toast and eggs to help as well as some orange juice. "thanks for the food."

Seth puts his arms around Dean as he leans in and gently kisses his temple. "Hey, you need to figure out what you are gonna do. I can't have you trying to jump off buildings cause you don't want to be here anymore."

"I don't know Seth, I mean, Roman tried to kill himself that night. How the fuck am I suppose to take that? I hurt the one man who meant more to me than my own parents, and that says a lot."

Dean puts the toast down as he got up and started pacing a little bit in front of the bed as Seth sat there and watched him. He knows Dean is so scared and is hurting so much after Roman's confession. He just isn't sure how to help him, and its making him feel guilty.

"Dean…." Seth said.

"No Seth, Roman has fucking scars on his wrists from where he cut them. All because of me! You have any idea what that does to a human being when they find out that the one person they love more than their own life tries to take their own life?" He was breathing hard as he pulls his hair with his hands, making Seth get up and walk over to him and stop him.

"Stop Dean….please, I am not gonna say I know what that feels like, but watching you go through this is breaking my heart. But please remember that Roman still loves you, he even told me that."

"I don't deserve his love Seth…" he sobs as he leans into Seth's chest as he puts his arms around him to console him. "I don't deserve him at all, no matter what he said…."

"Yes you do Dean, listen to me, I got off the phone with Chris a while ago and he told me that Roman has agreed to go to counseling with Dr. James Ellsworth if you agree to go with him."

Dean then looks up at Seth with red rimmed eyes in shocked, "What?"

"Yeah, since you are on a two week vacation due to doctor's orders, this might be a good idea to do so that you two can work this out and move past it. He has agreed to do both separate sessions and duel sessions with you. And I honestly think it's a good idea. You two have some much hurt, anger and bitterness between you two that it needs to be squashed."

Dean moves out of Seth's embrace and walks over to the window that was facing the water and folded his arms. He didn't bother to wipe the tears that were falling because he just doesn't know how to feel at the moment. "What if he doesn't want to work it out? What if he doesn't want to try again with me? What if he still hates me, even though he said he still loves me?"

Seth sighs as he walks over to Dean and stands next to him, "Honestly, it's a chance you will have to take Dean. You can't be scared of the 'what ifs', but deep down Dean," he says with caution, "he does still love you. True love and first love are very hard to come by. You had both with Roman and you still have that with him whether you know it or not. You made a mistake Dean, don't you think you owe it to him and to yourself to overcome this mistake? Don't you think you owe it to yourself to let that guilt finally go that has been eating at you for the past 15 years?"

Dean looks down and closes his eyes, letting more tears fall down his face. He is so scared that Roman will completely remove him from his life for good. He is so scared that he won't get a second chance with Roman. He is just scared period, but its gonna have to be the risk he is gonna have to take in order to close and move on passed all this.

"Okay…." He said as he tries not to tremble. "Ill go if it help the both of us move on in some way, but I am still scared of how this will play out."

"I know you are scared Dean, but trust that things will work out the way they are suppose to. If you two are meant to be again, it will happen, you just have to trust what will happen. All you can do is just pray and hope that it goes your way as well as Roman's. And as I see it, you two are far from over, otherwise, you two wouldn't have even been seeing each other if it hadn't been for the accident. To me, that is a sign of a second chance, but it's up to you two whether you two do."

"Thanks Seth, for being a good friend and for everything you have done…"

Seth pats Dean on the back, "Don't thank me, its what friends are for." He smiles as he turns to go. "Please eat, I am gonna head to my room and make sure Randy is up and ready to go to work, so I will talk to you in a little while, okay?"

Dean nods as Seth leaves and shuts the door, leaving Dean alone with his thoughts.

I hope things go the way I would like for them to go. I don't know if I can handle another rejection from Roman, but I honestly wouldn't blame him if he didn't want to try again. All I can do is just try…I owe both of us that.

He pulls out his phone and finds Roman's number that he got from him last night before he left.

He hits his name and starts to write a text…

Let me know when our appointment for Dr. Ellsworth is. I would like to be there for our first session. – Dean

He hits send and waits…

A few moments later, he receives his answer…

I got one scheduled for tomorrow morning at 9am. I will see you there. – Roman

Okay, that will work, see you tomorrow then. – Dean

See you tomorrow Dean. :) -Roman

He softly smiles at that last text….maybe it won't be so bad. He can only hope…

A/N: Okay, so the question is…do you want to see Ambreigns work this out and be together, or would you rather go their separate ways once its resolved? Team Yay or Team Nay?