DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN VAMPIRE DIARIES OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WOULD LIKE TO. THEY ALL BELONG TO L.J SMITH.

SUMMARY: BONNIE'S MIND AND HEART ARE AT WAR ABOUT WHO TO LOVE, AFTER SPENDING FOUR MONTHS WITH, WHOM SHE CALLS THE DEVIL, SHE BEGAN QUESTIONING WHICH TO TRUST HER HEART OR HER MIND.

We only had each other to depend on; feelings might have arisen because we were the only two people in there, well except Kai but he doesn't count.

What also keeps nudging me was, would we feel like we do now if we weren't trapped together, I don't think so. Damon would still be with Elena; there would be no reason for her to erase her memories and I would still be with Jeremy.

After carefully thinking about it, I started to convince myself that what we feel for each other might not be real, just the effect of us being alone together for too long so this time, my mind won, and I left.

CHAPTER SIX: Seduction of the heart

The walk to my car was just haunting. I kept going back and forth. I stopped twice and contemplated if I should turn around. I had this fear of giving in to my feelings and just telling Damon how I felt, but I still could not help the growing passion and lust that I felt for him too.

I made it to my car and stood at the door for a while before taking a deep breath and getting in. The drive home felt longer than usual, probably because I wanted to turn around at every corner.

When I did reach home, I sat in the car for almost an hour before I entered the house. I headed straight for the stairs removing layers of clothing as I went along until I was only in my bra and panties.

I stepped into the bathroom, hoping to get a long relaxing bath. I needed to be somewhere I could think, and the bath was the best place.

I removed my bra then tested the water with my hand seeing if it was warm enough as the tub continued to fill up. The doorbell rang, startling me and I paused bending over the tub.

I quickly grabbed a robe, wrapping it around my body then cautiously descended the stairs. Who could that be? I slowly walked up to the door and looked through the peephole. I felt my heart speed up until I heard it pounding in my ears.

It was Damon, turning my back to the door, I rose my hands to my chest and tried to slow my heart which I knew he could hear perfectly. I turned back to the door and pulled it open.

"Wha….. What are you doing here? I asked, a little surprised he followed me home.

"Well, you wouldn't stay at my house, so I've come to yours," he answered as I stood there, still staring at him.

"Plus, we need to talk." He said, with a pensive expression on his face.

"Um…. about what exactly and since when do you knock, don't you usually appear somewhere inside?"

"Well, honestly I did, but I saw you about to take a bath so I didn't think It would have been a good idea….."

"What!" I shouted very tempted to slam the door in his face, I turned and walked into the living room, after a few steps. I turned back, looked at him and indicated that he could come inside.

"What do you want Damon and you better talk fast, I'm tempted to kick you out," I said as he walked in and closed the door. He looked over at me then he turned the lock on the door. I felt a chill.

I pulled the robe tighter over my body which quickly reminded me that, I was only wearing my panties underneath. My cheeks flushed when I realized Damon knew that too. I folded my arms over my chest self-consciously and asked again.

"What is it that you want Damon?" I tried to sound unaffected by his presence, but I failed miserably.

"I'm confused about what happen in the boarding house, you said you were going to stay, but then you left, why?" He asked looking at me expectantly and waited for an answer.

"I….. don't know I'm confused too, about everything," I said, my voice came out so small and weak, it surprised me.

"Bonnie..." He whispered so softly I almost didn't hear him. He held his head down in his hands for a while. He looked conflicted I'd never seen him like that before. He then looked up at me with such an intensity that made me at a loss for words. He made a couple of quick strides to stand directly in from of me.

"I can't do this Bonnie." He said, shaking his head as he spoke, I was momentarily confused.

"I don't under-..."

"I can't stand this tiptoeing thing that we've been doing. I'm not very patient with this okay. I usually just take what I want and right now that's you. I realize tonight that I've been restraining myself from you all this time," Damon said piercing me with those blue orbs, speeding my heart up in my chest.

"I can't anymore, do you understand what I'm saying Bon?" He asked almost in a demanding tone that causes an ache to shot through me and settling in a place that shocked me. Desire flooded through my body that had me quivering with need. I didn't know Damon could induce such feelings within me and no matter how hard tried not to let it consume me I could not stop it.

"Damon… I….." his name escaped my lips in a whisper before I could stop it and he leaned forward automatically.

"Yes, tell me what you want, baby and I'll give it to you." He whispered, his breath mingling with mine, god I wanted him to kiss me, touch me. I wanted him to consume and devour me like I knew he could.

These feelings, coursing through me. They were raw, foreign and addictive. Damon's arms came around me to rest onto the back of the couch I was leaning on, trapping me. He hesitated above me gripping the couch tighter. He was holding himself back. I saw it on his face.

I knew he was waiting for something, a sign or movement that showed that I wanted him too, and then I'd never be able to stop him after that. He must have seen something because his head thrust forward so fast and captured my lips with his.

His hands, lifted off the couch to wrap around my waist, pulling me flushed to his body. Euphoria erupted inside me as I threw my arms around him completely lost in the sensation of his lips on mine. His tongue ran over my lips seeking entrance, and I was too happy to open my mouth to him. His tongue immediately dove inside and wrapped itself around mine. A moan escaped my lips as he sucked my tongue into his mouth.

My thighs-clutched together to control the ache between them, it was a pain I had felt before but never like this. I practically felt the moisture as it coated my panties.

The shrilling sound of the phone ringing in the distance lifted the cloak that was, thrown over us. I pulled away from his lips, regrettably. A frown appeared on his face as the phone stop ringing then started up again.

He moved away from me with a growl and pulled the phone from his pocket and answered. I released a breath I didn't even know I was holding and dropped my chin to my chest. I had just kissed Damon, and I liked it, I liked it a lot.

Damon continued talking on the phone, to whom I was not sure I assumed it was Stefan. I moved towards the steps hoping to get a cold shower now instead of the warm one I wanted earlier. I jumped as Damon appeared in front of me the phone to his chest.

"Where do you think you're going?" He asked, pinning me with that sexy stare of his.

"I'm ah... I'm going to take a bath you know, the one you interrupted earlier," I said still a little flustered from that kiss. His eyes slipped down to my robe for a while, and I unconsciously pulled it closer to my body. He gave me another lingering glance before stepping aside.

The cool water flowed over my body, snapping me out of the lustful haze that Damon had me in. He was laying down on my bed, sprawled out on two of my pillows as soon as I exited the shower.

"Are you gonna stand there and stare or join me?" He asked I looked at him skeptically, and he rolled his eyes and flipped over the bedspread for me to climb under the sheets.

"I'm not gonna steal your virtue, Bonnie….. at least not yet!" He said wiggling those eyebrows at me, shaking my head at him, I slid under the covers. He threw the sheets over me before pulling me into his arms which I didn't expect, but welcomed his embrace. We laid there for a while until he spoke.

"I won't go back to how things were between us Bonnie. I can't." He whispered.

"I wouldn't want us to," I whispered back suddenly, he pushed up onto his elbow hovering above me.

"There is no going back from this." He reminded me again. I replayed everything over in my head, everything in my life that had involved Damon and although there were some bad, okay a lot of bad. I couldn't find it in my heart to regret anything.

So I wouldn't fight this anymore, and I'd stopped using Elena as a safeguard to convince myself that I wasn't good enough, I took the risk.

"Okay," I said to Damon and myself, he appraised me for a while without saying anything his eyes darting all over my face. He then pulled me back into his arms and said.

"Good!"

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