Hi everyone! Here is the epilogue for my story – A State of Mind. Hope you enjoy it. I don't own NCISLA, but love the show.
A State of Mind EPILOGUE
Are you staring at me Deeks?" Kensi asked. "Because if you are please don't, it's a little creepy".
"Creepy? Really? I just….I want to say… I don't think I should say…". Deeks was hesitating.
"What? Spit it out Deeks!" Kensi said. "It's not like you to not say something that's on your mind".
"Okay, I have serious feelings for you and I know it's not great to have feelings, especially since we work together and we are partners, but I do and I know you probably think I'm nuts and…" said Deeks. But Kensi had interrupted his speech with a kiss.
"Does this mean what I hope it means?" Deeks mumbled coming apart from Kensi's soft lips.
"If I'm being honest with myself….I have feelings for you too Deeks and I don't think you're nuts…well not all the time."
Deeks chuckled. "So what are you saying Kensi?" Deeks asked
"Maybe we can give us a chance and as long as we remain totally professional at work…then maybe we can see how things go…one day at a time …slowly". Kensi replied. "Okay?"
"Okay by me sugar bear!" Deeks happily laughed, wrapping his arms around Kensi and letting her have it, hungrily smothering her in kisses.
"DON'T CALL ME SUGARBEAR!" Kensi shouted, trying to catch some air in the midst of Deeks' kisses. Deeks and Kensi soon left the sofa and headed to Kensi's bedroom, where the two of them finally unleashed a few years of pent up feelings for each other in a hot and heavy kind of way. Deeks was not at all a mere passenger in this encounter, but was certainly a man who, when it came to this sort of engagement with a woman, knew how to take charge and pleasure her in a way that totally surprised Kensi, but it was a surprise she took a lot of delight in and she now looked at her partner in a whole new way.
The next morning was Monday, which meant work. Kensi, Sam and Callen were sitting at their desks.
"So how you doing Kens?" Sam asked. "You know about Jack and the things that happened".
"I'm okay Sam. I'm just angry at myself I guess for not being able to sense Jack had more serious mental problems than I realised. The things he did overseas…. I still can't believe it" Kensi said.
"Don't beat yourself up about it Kensi, Jack obviously changed the minute he met Sutherland and the others. You did everything you could for him. He couldn't see you were trying to help him because Sutherland and his mates were brainwashing to think something else. It's not your fault", replied Callen. Just then Deeks came walking in.
"Morning Mr wipe-out!" Kensi smirked. "Nice wipe-out this morning partner!" Deeks looked mortified. "You saw me?"
"Uh huh, I thought I would see what all the fuss of you surfing was about. Now I know all the fuss is nothing!" Kensi laughed. Sam and Callen laughed. "So Deeks, what's this I hear about you playing the violin?" Callen asked as innocently as he could.
Another look of mortification crossed Deeks' face. "I… hoped you didn't hear that" Deeks mumbled quietly.
"Well we did so spill!" said Sam.
"Look, my mom was a music teacher, more specifically a violin music teacher and she taught me to play the violin since I was 4 years old. I haven't played it since I left school okay?" Deeks replied.
"From my understanding Mr Deeks, you were very good at it" Hetty said, appearing from seemingly nowhere. "I have an antique violin here, if you would care to indulge the rest of us?" asked Hetty.
"But….I told you I haven't played for a while!" Deeks said.
"I believe you last played it two times a few years ago, at your mother's bedside when she was dying and again at her funeral Mr Deeks, so it wasn't so long ago at all" Hetty countered, "Please".
Deeks looked at everyone who was looking at him with pleading eyes. "Go on play" their eyes were saying. Deeks threw his hands in the air with resignation.
"Fine, but this is the first and ONLY time!" Deeks sighed.
Hetty produced a 200 year old violin from somewhere in the office. Deeks looked at it knowing it was special. "Hetty where did you get?.. …Never mind!"
Deeks placed the violin on his shoulder and began to play. Everyone was staring but Deeks soon became lost in the music he was playing. The song was his mother's favourite piece and he remembered the pride in his mother's eyes as he played. He now saw that same pride in the eyes of everyone in the room. Deeks finished up the music and stopped. All his co-workers were looking at him with a mixture of both surprise and admiration and definite shock that this scruffy haired, surfing, police detective who passed the law bar exam could also play beautiful music on a violin.
"Not only can he play beautiful music on a violin, but also in a bed" Kensi thought to herself. "What? Why are you thinking about that now Kensi? You are at work, so get your mind back to reality!" Kensi admonished herself.
"Well, Mr Deeks, that was very good. I have not heard anything better in a long time" Hetty said proudly.
"Yeah Deeks, that was amazing! Why did you stop playing the violin?" said Callen.
"My mom. I really only played it for her. Music was a way for both of us to escape the demons of how my dad was treating us. That time together when she was teaching me was our time, a special time. After I shot dad, and he was put away and then mom got sick and died, I never felt great about the violin again. It was too painful to even look at it and the thought of playing …..was just way too much for me to face" Deeks replied.
A loud and piercing whistle came over the railing. "We have a case! Oh Deeks, wow that was pretty awesome dude!" Eric called.
"That was beautiful Deeks. Your place tonight?" Kensi whispered in his ear, on the way up the stairs to the tech room.
"Shall I bring a violin?" Deeks cheekily asked with a grin.
"No need, I figure you don't always need a musical instrument to make beautiful music!" Kensi retorted.