Gabe walked slowly into his and Cas' dark apartment. Why in the world did I fucking agree to this? He clutched the pendent that hung around his neck hard in his hand. The apartment was dark, only slivers of moon light filtering in through the blinds. Gabe's phone buzzed in his pocket.

Pulling it out of his pocket he answered, "Hello?"

"Hey Gabe, why are you bailing on me Monday?" it was Ruby.

Groaning internally as he told her, "I'm going to Hawaii all next week. I swear ill make it up to you when I get back. Cas is making me go."

There was a long pause to where Gabe wondered if his shitty ass phone had dropped the call, "You owe me big."

"I swear I'll make it up to you." Gabe repeated walking slowly over to the couch and sinking down onto it.

"You better," Ruby replied but Gabe could hear the tease now in her voice, "I'll see you the day you get back?"

"Yeah of course." Gabe replied smiling slightly, "Hey I gotta pack. I'll talk to you later ok?"

"Yeah enjoy the sun Gabe." And they hung up. Gabe sighed deeply and looked over towards his door. Clambering up to his feet he walked into his room and flicked on the light. He looked longingly at his bed but knew he couldn't crawl between the sheets yet. Instead he walked into his messy closet and pulled down his suit case. He couldn't remember the last time he had packed this old thing. He wandered from his closet and drawers shoving cloths almost blindly into his suit case.

"Why are you packing a snow jacket?" Gabe jumped the white jacket still clutched in his left hand and his eyes landed on Sam. Sam's eye brows were knitted together and his hazel eyes were dancing between concern and humor as he laned against Gabe's door frame.

"I…" Gabe started to explain then looked down in his suit case that was stuffed with such weird odds and ends he was grateful Sam had said something. Sighing he began to pull almost everything he had packed out.

"Do you want help packing?" Sam asked walking gracefully over to Gabe. Almost too gracefully, he is over six feet tall how does he not fall over himself?

"Yeah thanks." Gabe replied rubbing his tired eyes. And they slowly packed Gabe's suitcase. Well mostly Sam packed because he kept taking the random things that Gabe kept grabbing out of the suit case or from Gabe's hands. He hadn't been this close to Sam since they had fallen asleep together on Sam's bed.

"Gabe why are you so distracted?" Sam asked leaning over the bed for probably the fortieth time to yank a mismatched pair of socks from Gabe's hands.

"Well originally it was the thought of going to Hawaii and everything that I will feel going there," Gabe replied reaching across the bed, taking back the socks, and packing the mismatched socks, "But now I just enjoy watching you bend over." Gabe heard himself giggle. Shut up you're way too tired to be trying this.

Sam raised his eye brows and looked down at the socks, "I assume the white and brown fluffy socks will be joining us on our adventure?"

"Yes." Gabe said quietly turning away from Sam to reach for another pair of jeans.

"Can you at least tell me who he was?" Sam asked quietly about five minutes later as they squished in the last pair of shorts he would need.

Gabe resisted clenching his jaw together. That tended to be his reply to anything that was ever asked about Balthazar. Dragging the suitcase off the bed, he looked up at Sam. Sam's eyes were so soft that Gabe could feel the tears he fought so hard on days like this rushing up, "His name was Balthazar. I lost him because he lost his battle to cancer." Gabe felt his voice die in his thought. He couldn't look away from Sam, he suddenly wanted to tell Sam everything he could about the amazing man that Balthazar had been but he couldn't bring himself to. He couldn't get his mouth and voice to cooperate.

Sam sat on Gabe's bed, reached up and whipped the tears off Gabe's cheeks that Gabe hadn't realized had started to fall, "If that's all you can tell me I understand. Talking about it takes a while." Gabe mealy nodded shaking from the effort to not burst into body shaking sobs. Sam crawled across the bed, rose to his knees, and pulled Gabe to his chest. Gabe pulled slowly away from Sam.

"I really don't wanna….cry. I can't." Gabe said walking around the bed and leaning against his drawers closing his eyes and taking deep breaths trying to regain control of himself. He then looked back at Sam apologetically.

Sam threw a hand though his hair, sat crisscross applesauce on Gabe's bed, and smiled knowingly at Gabe, "Yeah I know. I wasn't able to for a while. But whenever you're ready…if you wanna talk about it I'm willing to listen."

Gabe's eyes widened in surprise, and replied quietly, "Thank you for not pushing it. Every other guy I've dated has pushed me about it and it's nice to be with someone who doesn't push it." Gabe sucked in a breath at the end of that sentence, and clapped both of his hands hard over his mouth his eyes squeezing shut. Why can't you keep your mouth shut you ass! You're tired and you can't say you two are dating!

"I didn't know we were dating," Sam replied. Gabe opened his horrified eyes to Sam who, to his astonishment, had a full smile on his lips, "Cause I'm pretty sure you can't just avoid a guy for three weeks, make out with that guy and then avoid him again for another two weeks."

Gabe slowly lowered his hands from his mouth his face still hot with embarrassment, "Well in my defense, the first time I avoided you was because I'm working for you and your brother and I didn't want to get fired because I am so attracted to you."

"And the second time?" Sam asked. Gabe's eyes dropped to the floor then. That had been pretty shitty of him; he had done it for two reasons. He was being selfish not wanting to experience anything that would hurt him more than he was and the other one of not even having enough energy to do much besides go to work and have forced conversations with Ruby over coffee.

"Because I'm an ass. And I thought you would be like everyone else and try to make me talk about Bal." Gabe heard Sam move from the bed and saw his socked feet come into view.

Sam hooked his finger under Gabe's chin and made him look up at him, "Don't blame yourself for the darkness inside. Yes you're an ass because you decided we were dating without talking to me about it," Sam was still smiling, "But never ever blame yourself for depression Gabe."

Gabe blinked and felt a small smile creep over his face, he felt his heart racing in his chest, "so are we dating?"

Sam leaned forward and pecked his lips so quickly Gabe had no time to react, "Not dating but interested." Sam stepped back waiting for Gabe to react.

Gabe felt like his head was spinning, this hot man was interested in him, "So if I'm interested to…what does that mean?"

"That I don't have to drive home tonight since its 1:30 AM and I can share the bed with you." Sam replied taking a few more steps back and bouncing onto the bed.

Gabe bit his lip, "I don't mind but Cas might."

Sam shrugged, "He will live." Gabe walked slowly towards Sam eventually standing between his legs and to his delight he stood slightly taller. He draped his arms around Sam's neck, "I have a few rules if you stay in my bed."

"Oh?" Sam asked his eye brow raising.

"One I don't want to hear you complain about me sleeping in my boxers," Gabe said holding a finger up

"Like I'd complain." Sam countered a small almost devilish smirk now on his lips.

"Not done," Gabe reminded him, "Two the door has to be closed. I hate the bathroom light waking me up," a second finger joined his first one.

"How many rules are there?" Sam asked his voice sounded amused.

"Just three." Gabe replied a true smile filling his lips now as he raised his third finger, "I want a real kiss."

"I don't know if I should kiss you. You do tend to disappear after." Sam teased standing up and looking down at Gabe. Sam cupped Gabe's voice gently and kissed Gabe. It was soft and sweet, but got Gabe's heart beating fast none the less.

"Does that work?" Sam asked sounding breathless hands falling away from Gabe's face to wrap themselves around Gabe.

"I could say no but I don't think I would get another kiss." Gabe replied his eyes still closed.

"Well now you'll never know." Sam replied now stepping around Gabe to close the door. Gabe opened his eyes and stared open mouthed as Sam stripped to his boxers walked causally to the bed and slid into the covers.

"Are you coming to bed?" Sam asked laughing slightly at Gabe's facial expression. Snapping his mouth closed with an audible click from his teeth, Gabe stripped quickly himself. He flicked the light switch off and walked over to the bed. He paused letting his eyes adjust to the darkness. His eyes focused on Sam who was staring up at him.

"Do you wanna cuddle?" Sam asked through a yawn.

"Do you wanna cuddle?" Gabe asked his voice dropping to a whisper.

"I asked if you wanted to cuddle," Sam grumbled. He leaned up on his arm, grabbing Gabe and pulling him into the bed, "That usually means I wanna cuddle." Gabe couldn't help but smile and he sunk into the bed. He felt Sam press himself against his back. Sam wriggled one arm under Gabe's head and wrapped one arm around his waist. Gabe closed his eyes, enjoying the feeling of Sam's warm breath dancing in warm waves against the back of his neck. Within the next few minutes he fell into a relaxing dream; and didn't jerk awake until Sam's cellphone began buzzing.

"Hello?" Sam asked his voice groggy, "Yea I'm awake Dean. Don't worry. Yeah see you in a few minutes."

"Why is Dean calling you?" Gabe gowned feeling like he had only gotten ten minutes of sleep.

"Because I'm supposed to be home, not comfortably in bed with you." Sam replied sounding just as tired as Gabe felt, but Gabe felt Sam's smile against the back of his neck.

Gabe forced his eyes opened, his bed side clock reading 3:30 AM. "Well we can sleep on the plain."

Gabe felt Sam kiss the back of his neck, "Come on I need coffee." Sam untangled his limbs from Gabe and sat up, "Maybe Dean will already have coffee made." Sam sounded hopeful.

"If not I don't mind making you some." Gabe mumbled stretching out and getting up to his feet. He wanted to just sink back into his bed but instead he reached down and pulled a tee-shirt over his head.

"Hey that's my shirt." Sam said grabbing Gabe's wrist.

"Do you want coffee or not?" Gabe asked a smile on his face.

"Of course I want coffee." Sam replied pulling Gabe close to him, wrapping him in his arms. Gabe sighed contently and closed his eyes as Sam's strong heart beat filled his ears. Sam leaned down and kissed Gabe unexpectedly. After a few seconds of standing like a still statue, Gabe entangled his fingers into Sam's hair and he pulled himself closer. He heard Sam groan, and felt his arms wrap themselves around Gabe.

"Hey Gabe its time," Dean said walking into Gabe's room and flipping on the light switch and exclaimed, "What the fuck!" Both men sprang apart. Sam crumpled in a heap on the bed and Gabe stood awkwardly in the middle of his room.

Sam was the first to move as he sat up, and smiled over at his brother, "Good morning to you as well Dean."

"I thought you were home." Dean spluttered out. He sounded like he was in shock; hell he ever looked like he was in shock. His green eyes were wide as if he couldn't believe what he just saw.

"He helped me pack last night; he ended up staying the night." Gabe mumbled rubbing the back of his neck. He turned to look at the shocked Dean, who looked as red as a tomato.

"You're lucky Cas didn't come wake you two up," Dean hissed his eye brows knitting together as he looked between Gabe and Sam, his hands now planted on his hips, "Coffee is waiting in the kitchen. Get dressed." Dean turned on the heal of his boot and left the room slamming the door behind him.

"Well that went better than I thought," Sam said as Gabe released his breath not realizing he had been holding it.

"Here is your shirt." Gabe pulled it over his head and held it out to Sam, "I don't want to have to come up with a reason why you are in one of my shirt and I'm in yours on top of having to explain why you slept over without Cas wanting to kill me."

Sam took the shirt and kissed Gabe on the nose "It can't be that bad."

"Just wait till Cas get a hold of me. You may be going to Hawaii by yourself as my body is digested by pigs." Gabe said opening his almost empty drawers and pulled a shirt on along with sweats. Gabe saw Sam pulling his jeans up out of the corner of his eye.

"Well considering he didn't come charging in here when Dean yelled, it could be a good thing." Sam suggested walking towards the door and held his hand out to Gabe. Gabe tentatively took it and felt a memory stirring to life in his mind's eye.

'Come on Bunny. Cas has to find out one day.' Balthazar said pulling his fingers though Gabe's hair. Gabe lay in the warm sand, his head resting in Balthazar's lap.

Gabe sighed looking up at the clear blue sky though his glasses, 'You don't have to live with him' Gabe countered enjoying the sound of the waves as Balthazar stopped to think of the next way to argue against Gabe wanting to keep their relationship between them. They had been dating three weeks now. Gabe knew they couldn't keep it secret forever but it was better than having Cas constantly breathing down his neck.

'What if I stop calling you bunny?' Balthazar asked.

Gabe flat out laughed, 'You realize if you didn't call me bunny we wouldn't have gotten in that fight in the first place and we wouldn't be having this argument right now. I kinda like you calling me bunny. Its grown on me.' He felt a small smile pull at his lips.

'The fight I won.' Balthazar grumbled.

'That is beside the point,' Gabe argued back smiling, 'I got the first hit in that all that matters. I'm your bunny.'

'Ok…well what can I do? I'm tired of lying to Crowley. He is getting suspicious.' Balthazar continued reaching down to grab Gabe's hand in his own.

'Looks like we don't have a choice in the matter." Gabe grumbled sitting up suddenly as Cas and Crowley came down the beach hand and hand. Crowley spotted them first, and made a bee line towards them dragging Cas behind him. Gabe tried several times to pull his hand from Balthazar's who refused to release his fingers.

'I thought you were with Davis today?' Crowley asked stopping abruptly in front of them. Gabe felt Balthazar shift uncomfortably beside him. Crowley looked over at Cas, 'Did you know about this?'

'No he didn't,' Gabe answered, 'Bal and I … no one really knows, Bal has wanted to tell you two but I didn't because Cas would get all over protective and I love…' Gabe stopped mid-sentence and froze.

'Did you just say love? Were you going to say you love him?' Cas asked looking almost in shock at his brother.

'This is a horrible way to explain this.' Gabe mumbled pulling his knees up and hitting his head against his knees.

'I love him too.' Balthazar said quietly. He leaned sideways and lightly kissed Gabe's neck.

'How can you even say its love if you weren't going to tell anyone?' Crowley demanded.

'We were going to.' Balthazar argued back.

"Coffee?" Dean asked. Gabe jumped slightly as the wood from the dining table came into focus.

"Yeah." Gabe replied looking up from the table over to Dean. Gabe remembered the fight that had broken out between the four men on that beach lasted an hour, but eventually both Crowley and Cas accepted that they were together. They didn't agree that Gabe and Balthazar loved each other but couldn't stop them from dating.

"Morning." Cas said waking into the house, a small pink box in his arm.

"Donuts!" Gabe exclaimed excitedly smiling at his brother who smiled back for a second. Then the smile fell from his lips to be turned into a look of rage. Dean walked quickly from the kitchen, dropping Gabe's coffee cup on the table and stood between Cas and Gabe. He took the donuts and handed them to Sam.

"Now babe, we talked about the possibility of them getting together." Dean's voice was calm as he inched closer to Cas his hand outstretched.

Cas' eyes sang anger back at Gabe though the look he was giving him but his voice was calm, "This better be real if you're going to date him Gabe."

"Who said we were dating?" Sam asked turning slightly in his seat.

"Friends don't just hold hands." Cas replied speaking though his teeth that were clenched together. Gabe half expected Sam to pull his hand from his but he didn't.

"We aren't dating. We are talking and both interested in each other. But we have both agreed to take this slow." Sam replied a soft smile on his lips.

Cas' eyebrows shot up anger still on his face, "Gabe I will tell you this once you do anything near what you did after Balthazar with Bern's family I will kill you. I don't care who gets in my way I will kill you." Gabe nodded mutely, and then looked down at his coffee. His face felt warm, what had happened with Bern's family wasn't something he was very proud of.

"Bern was your ex. You dated him before Dean right?" Sam asked.

Cas side stepped Dean and sat heavily in a chair across from Gabe, "Yeah Bern and I were together for less than three months and this," he glared at Gabe as Dean came around the table as well and took the seat next to Cas, "Loveable bunny had slept with everyone including my boyfriend." Gabe winced slightly both at being called bunny and the reality of the story. Gabe once again expected Sam to pull his hand away but was happy surprised that he didn't. Instead he squeezed Gabe's fingers and offered a small smile to Gabe, which Gabe returned gratefully.

"Well it doesn't completely seem like Gabe's fault. Yeah him trying to sleep with anything that walked was his fault but it takes two people to fuck Cas. If you're bitter about Gabe sleeping with Bern's, you should be mad at Bern too."

"Oh he is," Gabe said taking the offered donut from Sam, "I haven't ever heard Cas yell so much in my life." Sam rolled his eyes. After a few minutes of uncomfortable silence Gabe chanced a look up at Cas. He still looked upset but not as angry as he had been. Dean was holding one of his hands and both were munching on a donut.

"We have to go in about ten minutes." Dean said looking down at his watch. At his words Gabe pulled away from the table, squeezed Sam fingers and walked to his room. He grabbed his suit case, clipped his necklace from Balthazar on and left the room. Dean and Cas still sat at the table talking in low voices to one another and Sam was nowhere in sight.

"Where is Sam?" Gabe asked.

"He took the impala to our apartment real quick. He forgot to grab his suit case." Dean replied looking around at Gabe.

Gabe gulped, "Cas…I was going to tell you."

"Yeah I'm sure." Cas said coldly. His body was ridged

"Cas this won't…I'm not who I was two years ago." Gabe said not sure if he was trying to convence himself or his brother.

"I hope you aren't that person anymore." Cas replied standing up and walking past Gabe into his room.

Dean smiled weakly at Gabe, "He'll come around." Gabe nodded but doubted it.

"Let's go." Sam said a few minutes later sticking his head in the front door. And with that all four men clambered into the impala. Gabe and Sam crammed into the back and Cas and Dean sat up front. Cas and Gabe's apartment was a ten minute drive from the airport but it felt like an hour. When Gabe and Sam got out of the car Cas didn't even say goodbye to Gabe.

"You ready for this week?" Sam asked as they both walked slowly though airport security.

"As much as I can be." Gabe replied and reached up to his chest to grab his necklace and almost had a small panic attack when he didn't feel it under his shirt. He then remembered that it was in the box that was going through the x-ray machine.

"It will be fun I promos." Sam said rubbing Gabe's shoulders.

AN: Hope you guys liked chapter 6. Review please?