Chapter 6 – Chance

I look up at the mirror, checking whether my fangs have disappeared for the third time. I took a deep breath to calm myself and thinking of ways of how to answer to Brit for backing out from the kiss. I opened the door and found the blonde that I ran off from, waiting for me at the couch. "San.." she managed to break the awkward silence by calling out my name . I moved to sit beside her and still avoiding eye contact.

"San, I-I'm sorry, I shouldn't kiss you." she stammered and I stopped her before she can continue her sentence. "Brit, stop. You don't have to be sorry about it, you did nothing wrong. I understand that we may have just known each other for like, 3 days. But I got to admit that I have feelings for you." There, I said it. I'm sure this is the biggest confession of the year. Will she find me ridiculous? Falling for her in just 3 days?

"Then why did you break the kiss?" was all she replied. She stares right into my eyes and I can feel she is searching an honest answer from my soul. I can't tell her the truth, not yet. "Look, Brit. You are so torn and heartbroken. I want to be here for you, I want to be the one holding you and make your worries go away. But I don't want to take advantage of you just because you are sad and feeling lonely, it's not right for me to do that." I look at her for a response to my answer but nothing came out from her mouth so I continued. "I like you Brit, and that's why I can't be selfish. You are still confused; you kissed me just because of impulsion. I don't want our relationship to develop due to an impulsion; it's not fair for you. We should give each other some time to figure our feelings out." I finished my last sentence and she just sat there watching me throughout the whole speech.

None of us said anything for the next few minutes and I couldn't bear the silence and whispered her name, almost sound like begging. "Brit.."

She turned around and rests her head on my shoulder. I didn't move and let her adjust herself comfortably on me. "San, I don't think I kissed you out of impulsion." I got surprised by this statement but kept quiet as she continued. "Every single time you say or do something, I can feel my heart skips a double beat. However, you are right; we should give us more time. But not to figure out our feelings, is to know each other more." She looked up after completing her part of speech and our eyes met.

Our lips are just inches apart again and this time I took the initiative to plant mine onto her lips. But this kiss lasted shorter than the previous one as we both back out gently. We both smiled and she turned around and with her back to my front, I wrapped my arms around her.

We stayed for hours in our position; it feels great to have her in my arms. And then she broke the silence and sat up straight. "San, can I tell you something? Something that hurts me a lot and I have no one else to talk to.." I looked at her and cupped one side of her cheek with my hand, slowly caressing it. "Sure Brit, I'd be more than willing to share you problems."

And then Brit started telling me what the dumb mistake she meant before. She have been dating someone call Artie until a few weeks ago. They were happily in love ever since they met each other in high school. However, Artie received a contract deal for performing in New York City 6 months ago. They discussed whether should he leave Lima and head over to NYC to perform. Brittany encouraged him to do so as this is a great chance for him to shine, thus Artie agreed and promised that he will still love her despite the distance between them.

For the first few months, Artie have always called her around 11 and chat with her till both of them fall asleep. However, things changed slowly as time passes. Brittany waited for his phone call till late at night, and when he finally calls, all he told her was he is tired and wants to sleep. Sometimes he does not even call, leaving Brittany waiting all night.

"Then why didn't you go and find him? You have his address right?" I can't myself but asked. "I do.." was all she replied. "Then did you?" I continued. "No.. I can't.. I know things have changed, and I was so afraid that things may turned out the way I thought it'd be." She replied, her voice shaky. "Quinn, my best friend since high school, she know that I'm having problems with the relationship and last month, she went to find Artie without me. Then when Artie came to answer the door, he was in a mess and a girl called out to him from his room." Her voice cracked. "Oh God.. Brit, I'm sorry.." I swear I can hear the girl's heart just broke. "Then Quinn slapped him before he got the chance to shut the door. Heh, he deserves it." She managed to force out a smile behind that heartache.

I pulled her back into a hug and held her real tight. "I'm sorry San that you have to hear about my stupid past. I-I couldn't tell Quinn, she is my best friend and I don't want to make her worried. I just pretended that I'm over him so she doesn't have to see me crying over a jerk, which I'm still practically doing it now." She let out a sob and I hugged her even tighter. "He didn't even call to explain!" she exclaimed angrily. I hushed her and never let go of her.

I swear that I'm going to bite that Artea or whatsoever's head off when I see him. I continue holding Brittany in my arms as she cries her heart out tonight.