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--Renesmee The Musical Werepire

Twilight's Sun: The Story of a half Vampire and a Werewolf

Chapter 5: Stress

Renesmee Cullen

September 5… 5 more days to go…

When I woke up, my window was open. Jacob was here. I thought. His scent was still a little fresh. The stress of how much time I had left killed me. It was like a math question that looks simple, but when you got started it takes hours, or even days to find the right answer.

I was pretty sure I wasn't the only one stressed out. Edward, trying to make things easier by getting in my head, and Jacob trying to get into it! It seemed that whatever I did, I ended up making someone unhappy…

I took the first thing I saw off the "Sunday" rack, not even bothering to check if I liked the fabric or not. Alice'll come if I come out looking corny. I thought. But she'll have no one to blame but herself. After all, she's the one who picked out all the outfits! At least Jacob didn't care about what I wore. A comment every once in a while but that was only if I asked his opinion.

I looked at myself in the mirror. I was pretty… then again, I always looked pretty! If I hadn't met Jacob, I'd probably be like Rosalie when she was human: Obsessed with beauty and looks and not a care for my surroundings. Of course, I found someone who loved me, and not my looks, like some other guys may do as soon as they saw me. It still always bugged me about how I only loved Jacob because of some legend. Him too, but I wondered if I would've loved him—if not for this imprinting business—like Bella did. And… if that answer was "no", then would I love him as a full vampire? Would he love me? These questions that filled my head added to the stress.

I needed to be alone. But where? I couldn't go where Jacob would find me and kiss me until I hit the stage where I'm ready to bite him.

I decided to lock the door in my windowless dressing room. I turned off the lights and lay in the dark. Sure, anyone can walk right in by breaking the lock but I couldn't think of another meaning for a locked door besides "DO NOT DISTURB!"

I looked at the end of the rack. Rosalie killed 7 people in a stolen wedding dress, including her ex-fiancé. Of course, this wasn't the same dress that's been there for about 16 years. Would I do that? I'm not like Rosalie but when I—if I changed then would I kill Jacob? Billy? Grandpa Charlie?

My cell phone rang. I looked at the caller ID "Jacob" it said. I threw it across the room toward the wedding dress. I put my head between my legs and cried.

I had a few knocks on the door, I didn't respond to them.

"Renesmee?" I heard Esme say. "Is that you? Come out!" Her voice always seemed to calm me. I stopped crying and just lay back down, I didn't respond. She was quiet after that and just left. I tried to calm myself the way Jake did when he got angry… this wasn't stress anymore, this was anger.

I clenched my hand into a fist. When I did, there was another knock. This time, I responded. "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I said.

"Are you going to calm down, or should I let Jasper do it for you?" I think it was Jasper. I rolled my eyes.

Little spy… I thought.

"Just to let you know… I wasn't spying!" He said. "So, do you want me to break down the door or—"

"LEAVE JASPER!" I yelled, but he didn't. From what I could probably see him doing was sitting by the door and just letting out a sigh. Jasper isn't my favorite uncle either. He and Emmett are tied. Then again, they're my only uncles. Bella's an only child. But as I said before, I preferred Emmett. Emmett was always the one to make me smile, Jasper… well, he was always the one to get on my nerves. At least it wasn't my parents coming to deal with me.

I tried to ignore him. I didn't even look at my phone for the time or even try to answer it when Jacob tried to call.

I fell asleep again, probably of boredom or because it was late. When I woke up, I was in my bed… probably Edward found the key for the door. I have to find a new hiding place for that. I groaned.

I read the clock for the time. 2:37 am it read. I lay my head back down, than noticed my window was open again. I smiled.

"I can't see you, but I know you're there!" I said. He laughed.

"How's Seth?" I asked.

"Fine." He said. "He hasn't imprinted yet but he's fine." I smiled; even though he couldn't see in the dark. He sat beside me in the rocking chair from my childhood days. To my surprise, his scent wasn't that strong. Maybe it didn't seem so bad now after the strength of it when he kissed me.

Other then his scent, I had to admit I enjoyed his kiss. It was like… I was missing out on so much and I was so satisfied when I got what I wanted. I wasn't quite prepared for it, it kinda happened quicker then I expected, and faster then I could push him away.

There wasn't really a point on arguing on him getting some sleep in his own house. Jacob's pretty stubborn, but that was part of his charm.

I sighed heavily. "Um… Jacob." I said. I wanted to ask him something. He jumped to the wrong conclusion.

"Am I too close? I'm sorry." He began to get up, I grabbed his arm to stop him.

"NO NO! Stay, I'm fine." He sat back down, I thought I saw him smile. I got back to the question.

"Do…" I paused, looking for the right words not to offend him in any way, I knew it was silly but I was pretty sure I already knew the answer anyway. "Do, werewolves imprint twice?" I asked. He bit his lip and then took a deep breath before answering.

"No." He said. I wasn't sure if I should've been happy or just stressed again. "We can, fall in love more then once, but not after imprinting." He added. So, that was it? He would still love me and I'd probably not love him back.

"Nessie, I'm supposed to love you forever." He said, probably re-phrasing my words to what I was meaning to say.

"But Is that even what you want?! You almost killed me when I was practically a few minutes old, I could be already dead if this didn't happen… or maybe Edward could've killed you. Would you love me, if this imprint wasn't in… our way?" I hated bringing up downers but I had to point them so Jacob could see things more clearly.

"Nessie, when I… kissed you last night—not that I didn't know before but—I knew that we were meant to be together. I didn't have this feeling when I kissed your mom, this was very different from what I expected." I flinched a little when he reminded me about his relationship with my mom.

I felt the same way too, I loved Jacob more than anything in the world. I would never give him up for anything. Not even full immortality.

Jacob lightly kissed my forehead. "Get some sleep." He said, then I turned to my side and closed my eyes.

Yeah, kinda boring but the action's coming soon enough! Keep your eyes open! And, I took a line from the movie "City of Angels" (awesome movie) DON'T OWN THAT!!!