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Chapter 6
Mal's POV…
"Ben" I gasped his name on a breath as our lips parted meeting again seconds later. I couldn't contain my squeal as I felt his arms around me as he held me, and then he laid me on the bed. We shared a smile, and, in that moment, everything was perfect as we shared another kiss. Ben sunk to the bed with me his body barely touching mine, but touching his face, I drew him closer. I felt the nerves of what we were about to do quiver in my gut before our lips parted.
I could only stare up at him then my heart moving erratically in my chest.
"I love you, Ben. I want to spend my life loving you" I whispered not getting the chance to say more before his lips found mine in a beast like hunger that I found I wanted from him. I tugged him closer in response until his body lay over mine. His skin was warm, like dragon fire, as our skin touched, and as our skin met, I felt a tingle in my stomach. I wanted this, to be with him like this. To wrap every part of him around me and in doing so, I wanted to give myself to him. I loved him and as Ben touched me, I knew he felt the same; I wanted this to be what my future was. Ben and I, together, man and wife or anything at all. Just as long as he was by my side. I just wanted him and as his fingers held me close, I knew he wanted that too.
"Ben" I said his name on a whimper as his hands splayed out over me in the most beautiful way holding me to him like something precious.
I leaned into those hands and gasped as his lips left mine. Ben only seemed to hold me all the closer. His lips descended over the long slender column of my throat making me release a heady moan as he left kisses where he pleased. I felt high on the sensation of having him so close as my hands fell away from him, my heart pounding in time with his. My hands grasped the comforter beneath us, the softness felt strange in the midst of everything as I only arched closer to him the oh of my lips silently begging him to stay there with me for the rest of my life. I'd never felt anything as surreal as that moment with him. My eyes somehow drifted closed and my breath came in ragged heaps I couldn't control until suddenly time seemed to stop. I don't know if the room was spinning or if it was all in my head. It felt like everything might collapse around us at any moment and I found I didn't care if it did. Part of me wanted it to. The only thing that mattered in that moment was Ben, him and I, and with that thought I gave myself over to that feeling. I gave myself to Ben then and I think he knew it because his kisses were everywhere. They showered over me better then cool water. The sensation only made my breathing harder to bare and my eyes opened. I saw Ben then, he was hovering over me like a beautiful euphoric angel from my dreams, and I found myself immediately bringing him closer. Seeing him made me smile, my hands touching either side of his face to bring him down to kiss me.
This kiss was different from any other kiss we'd ever shared. Our lips seemed to mold together as if we were one body and I found myself sighing into it my head in a daze that I could only name after him. It was the type of feeling that made my toes curl and my head question reality. When it ended, I wondered if this was real, if he was real or if I would somehow wake up again on the isle to find it all a dream, but when he touched me, I knew that wouldn't happen. He was here with me and as my eyes outlined every inch of him, I never wanted anything else. Somehow in such a short course of time, he had become something uniquely important on my short list of things that mattered in my life. Watching him as he removed his jacket then his shirt as it hit the floor, his fingers found me.
"Ben" I whispered his name without realizing it when he started on my own dress lifting the fabric over me until it was with his clothes on the floor. I could barely focus as this moment seemed to become even more real. I think Ben knew that because his hands found my face making me focus solely on him. I focused on the look in his eyes, the sweet yet tender way he just looked at me, and he was it for me. All that mattered. His lips descended quickly onto mine. This kiss was also different, a lustful exclamation of deep love that escalated into something almost uplifting. A moan escaped my lips when our lips parted, and we were gasping for breath our eyes peering intently into each other. He released a growl that sounded from the back of his throat as my arms went around his neck.
Everything moved very slow then as Ben inched closer until his body was sticking to mine our bodies glues with sweat. We never stopped looking at each other as we shared the very air we breathed and then I felt him. Not just his cock as it poked at the spot between my legs, but his hands. They moved almost hesitantly up my sides first then they grazed my ribs until they stopped lightly cupping the rounded edges of my breasts. He held them for the first time almost experimentally his eyes still looking into mine as if to make sure that was alright. I didn't say anything or move to stop him, and after a moment, he made his grip firmer.
"It's okay, Ben, I want this. I want you…make love to me. It's all I want. I want you to make love to me" I whispered it like a solemn prayer. To me, my voice didn't sound like my own. It sounded frenzied and excited and when Ben kissed me, I know he heard me. Seconds later, another animalistic growl left him, and another second later, I heard a tearing sound as he removed the last boundary between us. My fingers joined his to remove the last of his clothing and as his hands held my hips, I kissed him as he fell naked between my thighs. I remember feeling so loved as he simply held me in his arms in that moment. I remember the way he touched me, searching for what I liked, and the soft caress of his skin on mine made me dizzy almost immediately. And then it all seemed to fall away as our lips parted. He looked at me with such love in his eyes that I felt tears I didn't quite understand prick my eyes. Ben saw them there refusing to spill, but he didn't say anything. He just looked at me and it was like everything stopped.
"Mal? I love you…I love you so much" exclaimed Ben his voice a rush of air as they left his lips. I felt his hands on the back of my legs then as he wrapped my body tighter around his. He hoisted them high around his waist his eyes never leaving mine. I knew from the look in them that he wanted to take his time, to savor this moment, and peering back, I wanted that. I wanted to remember this first moment between us. I wanted it to last that was why I didn't rush him, but simply laid there to enjoy every touch he gave.
"I'm ready, Ben, I want you" I whispered it to him my arms around his neck once more. Ben still went slow running his hands along my legs then my stomach and finally my ribs. It was like he was taking inventory of everything he owned, and I didn't mind that because I had decided long ago that I was his. When his body did get closer his hands on my sides as he pressed his body to mine, I wasn't expecting it. My breasts were pressed firmly to his chest and only then did our eyes flutter closed as our foreheads met in a moment of solemn contemplation.
"Do you have any idea how much I love you? How much I will love you for the rest of my life?" said Ben his breath fanning over my face both our eyes remaining closed as he said it until finally, he placed a single kiss on my forehead then my lips before our eyes opened meeting once more. A moment after the words left him floating into the air, Ben gave me those kisses letting his cock sink into me in the same moment. He didn't stop until he filled me a throbbing pulse seeming to sound between us as our eyes met. My hands touched him then gripping the strong skin of his back and nothing moved. We lay there, waiting for the perfect moment, and I found I couldn't look away from him. He was holding me to earth and I found I wouldn't have it any other way.
Everything seemed to go still as we breathed each other's air neither daring to move or even breath; it was like we were savoring this moment as if it were our last. The first time he started to move inside me, I cried out, not in pleasure, but in pain. It wasn't a strong pain, but just an ache as he went where no one else had been. When I cried out, Ben stopped, his hands claiming my face to make me look at him.
"Mal?" exclaimed Ben the concern in his voice touching my heart his tone soothing as he peered down at me. I didn't answer right away. I closed my eyes for only a moment then and when I opened them again, he was still there, and touching the hands that held me, I smiled. I knew what he was asking, should we stop all this, and let this end. That was the last thing I wanted and keeping him there, I rose until our foreheads touched once more.
"No Ben…I want this. I still do. Keep going…it'll feel better soon, I know it" I whispered it quickly ending the words with a kiss feeling as he held me to him more. He did as I asked with his arms always around me holding me like the most treasured item he had. His body slid into mine over and over, slowly then at a pace just a little bit faster. His eyes were always watching me as he did so until finally a moan left me, and he took that as a sign. Ben's strokes into me became faster, harder even, and holding him close, my lips fell open on a sigh. My hands gripped his forearms when the ache changed to a dulling pleasure that slowly increased to a flutter in my belly. My lips sought his once, twice until they settler onto his with a passion that held me to him as he continued to make love to me. As we kissed, our bliss building, I brought my hands to touch his face. His skin was hot, like warm wool, and drawing away I looked at him as I held his face in my hands. All I wanted to do was look at him, to remember him this way, and so that's what I did, tracing the firm line of his jaw with my fingertips. It didn't make his stop, only smile, his eyes still on mine. I felt flashes of things to come before suddenly they appeared before my eyes. Visions of him and I, together forever, his body over mine making love in the future. I could see us on our wedding night, on ordinary days someday when we would be man and wife. I found I wanted that the longer I peered up at him the pleasure tingling on the edge of my spine reminding me that he was the only one that I wanted to ever make me feel this way.
"I love you" I whispered loving when the words brought a smile to his face.
"And I love you…I always will" exclaimed Ben in return his body slamming harder into mine as his arms tightened around me, my own still strong around his neck. Ben held me gathered in his arms then as my fingers ran along the back of his neck. He kissed me slow and deep then his body sweaty as he pulled me closer until we clung together. I gripped tufts of his hair as he increased his pace hitting something inside me that made me spin. When he did, his lips slanted more over mine in a slow tenderness, and gasping I found myself grinding into him feeling as he lifted me higher.
"Only you" breathed Ben when our lips dropped apart my body arching into his as my nails broke his skin the fluttering inside us ready to burst. A series of mewls and groans fell from us then as we sought our pleasure. My head fell back onto the pillows as Ben's sought the comfort of my throat and holding him there, I gripped his hair still. Ben held the full weight of his body over mine and cherishing him as he cherished me, I mewled out beneath him my body beginning to shake beneath his.
He held me in his arms still his hands like a wisp of silk on my skin as he moved inside me. His lips marked my throat going lower inch by inch until I found myself clinging to him as a nipple slipped into his mouth. My fingers gripped his hair as my breathing came in heavy draws from my lungs and closing my eyes, I mewled. It was overwhelming, but not at the same time. This moment, the love we shared; the feel of him all around me. His arms holding me, his fingers imbedding themselves on my skin, even his mouth on the puckered buds of my breasts. It only made me want him more and love him more as I panted in pleasure beneath him. I loved him so much in that moment, I wanted this to be my future, him and I, in love.
That was my thought as I drew him back to me, a dangerous beastly look that was almost feral as he attacked my lips his hips snapping forward to meet mine. Everything was frantic and unhinged then as he repeated the action once, twice then three times. He continued this until I lost count of the movement. I barely realized it when I came my hands holding him close as the stars flashed before my eyes. It wasn't like anything I had ever experienced or anything I thought it would be. I didn't hear the scream that left me in that moment. My whole body seemed to clamp down on him and burying my head close to him, I tried to focus just on breathing. I didn't even hear it as Ben came too, a growl leaving him that shook us as he slammed into me one last time. We fell to the bed in a heap of sweat entangled body parts. Our breathing sounded through the room like an echo of wind just after a storm. It was just like that though, a storm, as everything settled into a humming silence that I barely noticed as Ben held me all the closer.
"Only you" I repeated his words from before on a breath then neither of us moving as the words settled into the air around us.
All we could do was breath as everything raced by us like the wind in the trees until suddenly it stopped. As quickly as it had begun, it just stopped, and I turned my head to look at him. When I found Ben with his eyes already fixed on me, I smiled, letting my hands touch his chest with a sigh. After a moment, we cuddled together in the afterglow of everything, and when Ben touched my face, we shared another kiss. His hands held me cradling me close as his lips moved sweetly against mine and everything was right. We just kissed and kissed a warmth falling over us. This kiss was not quick or slow, but just right. We didn't let anything hurry it along, but let it move at its own pace. It was as passionately feral and heart shaking as the roar he sounded. I think of it still and probably always will. When it was over, we could only stare.
"I meant what I said, Ben, I love you, and I want to spend my life showing you that" I whispered then for only him to hear. Ben didn't say anything at first as he watched me with a hooded gaze. Until finally his lips kissed my forehead before his eyes sought mine and not letting me look away, he placed my hand on his chest right where his heart would be.
"I love you too, Mal, and I promise you that I'll spend my life doing the exact same thing" whispered Ben holding me close as my head found his chest. We remained like that for a long time, but it wasn't long enough. Soon, I found myself looking at him, and giving his chest a shove, I smiled.
"You should go. It wouldn't look good to have you caught sneaking out of here" I said on a laugh part of me loving the sorrowful look in his eyes at my words.
"I don't care, and neither should you…let them see whatever they want. It's not like this is some summer fling, Mal. You're it for me" whispered Ben his words filling me with joy that had me leaning close once more to kiss him. It was a mere peck of lips before our eyes met as he moved my hair from my face. Part of me wanted to snuggle close to him then and let everyone think what they wanted, but I couldn't. I really didn't care what everyone thought even as I did.
"I do. Your parents will never invite me back if they catch me corrupting you this way" I said on a laugh making him leave the bed with another shove.
"Don't worry though…I'll still be here in the morning" I exclaimed stretching as I watched him dress before slipping out of bed myself throwing on a robe to walk him to the door.
"You better be because if you were to disappear, I'd never stop looking for you" whispered Ben as we stood in the doorway sharing a final kiss before he left. I didn't close the door until I lost sight of him down the hall. When I closed that door, I leaned against it catching my breath as a smile overwhelmed me. I just loved him so much in that moment and it felt like everything was just beginning for us. Returning to bed, I missed him as I smelled him in the sheets, and covering myself in those sheets, I clung to them.
I closed my eyes to the smooth darkness of the room and I didn't have a worry for anything. I let Ben's scent sooth me into sleep imagining the sheets as something more then they were. I pretended they were Ben, his hands, his fingers, and just as I was picturing his arms spooned around me, my eyes opened. Suddenly, I had this uncomfortable feeling that something wasn't right. First one then two then several pairs of hands grabbed me. I struggled, but it felt useless as those hands held me firm not caring how much they hurt me as they did so. I tried to scream, but their hands silenced me. Those hands carried me from my bed and stumbled with me to the window. I didn't know what was happening until it was.
"Hold her tighter, for god's sake, we knew she wouldn't go easily. We should have prepared more" a familiar voice I couldn't place said it in the darkness seconds before the sweet smell of magic filled my nostrils and then everything seemed to disappear. I struggled to fight, to scream, the sound seemed stuck in my throat, and then everything around me disappeared altogether.
I faded into the darkness as the figures took me from the castle, away from Evie and Carlos and Jay, but most importantly away from Ben. In that moment, it was like the life I'd known ceased to exist, and something else began.