Chapter 6 peeps!

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I feel cold, tattered and not myself. I'm in a ball on my bed, and all I can do is think about this baby inside me. It's been maybe three four months, I can't tell which. I know it's been atleast a month since I found out. I don't want this baby, it dosent even feel like mine. I feel no connection, and I just want this all to end.

"Ari, you ready?" Momma asked.

I nod.

It's my first ultra sound, and I'm honestly not ready to hear any heartbeat, see any body growing in my belly.

"Momma."I say.

"What?"She asks.

"I don't wanna do this."I say,crossing my arms over my chest and rubbing my upper arms.

Momma comes over to me and huggs me. I've been getting a lot of hugs lately.

"I know,honey, but you atleast wanna make sure it's healthy."Momma says.

"I don't feel like it's mine. I don't feel any connection."I say,looking up to her.

She sighs."Arlene, I know. Just do me a favor and don't make any hasty decision just yet. We'll figure it out."Momma said.

I always knows how to make me feel better. We walked out of my room and down to the living room where Mom sat.

"Jade,you ready?"Momma asked.

"Yeah."Mom said.

I walk in the middle of both my moms,getting out to the car.

Once we get to the clinic I freeze."Ari?"Mom asked.

I nod and get out,followed by them.

I can't even sign myself in.

"Momma,can you do it?"I ask.

She nods and I sit down by Mom.

Momma comes back and we all sit took maybe 20 mintunes before my name was all get up and walked back into the dark room.I'm laid down on the table after being changed into the gown.

"Alright,are you ready?"The nurse asked.

I nod and the thing,I don't know what they call it. They put it to my stomach and all of a sudden theres a fast faint noise.I look up to the screen and the nurse is smiling at me.

"That's your baby's heartbeat."She said.

My mouth is open, and for once I feel like... Like... Theres a connection! I feel a connection and... It's just wonderul,I can't explain it in words. Mom and Momma are looking at me,and their both smiling to. I look at them and Mom kisses my nurse takes the thing off of my belly and rolls my gown up.

"Are you ready to possibly see it?"The nurse asked.

I couldnt help but nod.

She put this gel on my belly and it's really warm. She put that nosel thing back on my belly and I look at the screen. There it is. It looks like a weird little sea moneky, but there it is. The baby that fucker got me pregnant with. I smile at Mom and Momma and I can feel a tear roll out of my is the one who kisses my head this time.

"Okay, you can get changed and come back in two more months and maybe we can tell you the sex."The nurse smiled. I nod and raise up.

"Wow,you feeling okay?"Mom asks me.

"Mom,Momma. I think I wanna keep it."I say.

"What?"The both ask.

"Once I heard that heartbeat, it was like a spark set off.I feel a connection to it,and I want to keep it."I say.

They smile at me.

"Well,we'll help you as much as we can."Momma said.

I get back into my clothes and we leave the clinic.

/ 3 months later\\\\\

I'm 7 months pregnant now,and man Im huge. The ultra sounds I went to, I didn't want to know the sex. I want to be suprised. Me and Star have already picked out Taylor for a boy and Shaylyn Rose for a girl. I'm actually excited now.

I go down to the living room with my moms and sit in the middle of them.

"Hey,"I say.

"Well,hey there buldgy."Mom laughed.

I hit her arm has really began to look up for me. The rapest was finally put behind bars, 25 to life I think he got, can't be for sure. Mom is the one who went to didn;t want me in there,which I didn;t object to.

I have no clue what where watching, and I'm actually dozing off but I feel a sharp pain in my stomach,I jerk up and grab my belly.

"Ari?"Mom asked.

"I think..."I said,just as I felt the couch get wet."Holy shit."I say.

Mom's eyes get big."But your only 7 months,"She said.

I nod.

Mom gets me to my feet and gets me out to the car.I get in the car, but it was a gets in and she just starts speeding down the road.I don't even pay attention to how we get there, I'm in to much pain to finally pull into the hospital and Mom gets me inside. The nurses get me a wheel chair and wheel me to a delevery I get setteled in the doctor comes in.

"Arlene, looks like youve gone into premature labor."He said.

I look at him."What?"I ask.

"Your only 7 months, you have two more to go, and your water having this baby now,but I don't know the outlook will be."He said.

I close my eyes and lay down on the strokes my hair and he leaves.

"I'm so sorry,baby."She said and kisses my forehead.

"Mom,can you call Star for me?"I ask.

She nods and get out her phone.

"Cat,will you get Star up to the hospital?... Ari's in labor."Mom nods and hangs up."Cat said their on their way."She said.

I close my eyes for a while,trying to get some sleep, but these contractions keep waking me up.

"Ari."Star says.

I look over and she's running over to me.

"Are you okay?"She asks.

I nod."Just scared."I said.

"I know,babe."She said and kisses me.

It seemed like pain and the doctors telling me I'm not exactly there yet.I sure felt like it.

"Okay,here we go."The doctor said,"Get the nurses in here now."He said.

I'm hold onto Star's and Momma's hand after she herself had arrived.

"Okay,now when I say 3,I want you to push."He said."1...2...3."

I closed my eyes and did what he said,I pushed.

"Okay,1...2...3."He said again,and here I go again.I don't even know how many times I pushed I just know it hurt really bad.

"One more should do it.1...2...3."He said.

I pushed one more time,and then I felt releved, but I didn't hear a cry like I should.I look up.

"It's a girl."The doctor said.

I watch as they carry her off.

"Her left lung isnt developed all the way."One nurse said.

I looke over to Star and watched as the take her away.

"Where are they taking her?"I ask.

"She needs to be left lung is under may be here for a while."The dotor said,patting my hand."We will take you to her as soon as we can."He said and left the room.

I felt a tear roll down my cheeks and I closed my just took my baby away and i didn't even get to see her.

Momma laid her head on mine and so did Star.I just cried.

/ 2 hours later\\\\\\

It's been two hours. The nurse finally comes in with a wheelchair. I've been cleaned up and everything along with all the tables and such,

"Are you ready to see her?"She asks.

It was almost like I fell out of the bed,but the nurses slowed me helped me into the wheelchair and wheeled me down the hall,Star and my moms by my took me into this was full of machines and tubs and glass nurse wheeled me over to the one where my little girl stopped me and helped me out of the chair so I could look at nurse opened up a small hole where you could put her hands through.I did and I felt her skin for the first time.I coutned all her fingers and toes and stroked her tiny head didn't look like a normal baby with all the tubs attached to her.

"What's her name?"The nurse had a pen and a peice of paper.

"Shaylyn Rose West Oliver."I said.

"Doses she have a father?"The nurse asked.

I closed my eyes.

"I'm the father."Star said.

The nurse nodded and wrote everything down.

I was just focused on my little Shaylyn laying in this glass bed all by hersef.

Okay,yeah this was kinda long, but I hope you like it!