HERE it is the real 4th chapter. I decided to keep up the A/ N so I don't have to repeat it in the future. I do really hate having to do that, but it has to be done. This chapter brings us full circle with the closing of " Eclipse ". I hope that this chapter turned out ok, like I said my minds a bit fried from to much thinking. But hey we are all allowed a few of those moments right? SO here it is..I hope you in joy it.
ps. There is a lot of dialog in this sorry if it may be a little hard to follow for some. )
Also WARNING: some parts of this chapter will have a M.T. ( for: mature teens) rating. I can't stop you from reading it no matter what your age is , but hey I at least warned you! After all the new book is supposed to be rated M ( for: mature).
CHAPTER 4:
GONE
We pulled into the brick driveway of Charles house in no time. I sat there taking in the little house with all of it's little flaws and beauties. I smiled a sad bittersweet smile has Edward opened the car door and took my hand helping me out. I looked up at him to find that every inch of him was covered in sweatshirt. I giggled at the sight of him. The hood was up and pulled so tight that only his eyes were visible. The sleeves were pulled down so his fingertips barley showed on the hand that was in mine. The other he shoved in the pouch. I couldn't see how he thought that this wouldn't make him not stand out in the hot summers sun ,(well ...if you could call 68' degrees hot ,but this was Forks after all) to anyone that may pass by.
I grabbed the key from it's hiding place under the eaves and let us in. Once in the house, I could see the dust floating in the air through the few rays of sunshine that filtered through the closed windows. The effect looked eerie in the still house. I sighed and walked over to the living rooms windows and closed the blinds and then proceeded with the rest of the downstairs windows that prying eyes could see through if they got close enough.
I turned around to Edward who was pulling the sweatshirt over his head and caught a glimpse of his tightened smooth abs peeking out from his lifted shirt.
My cheeks flushed and my heart rate quickened. I suddenly had to fight the urge that rouse up inside of me to jump on him right then and there. My eyes swept up his body landing on his glorious face that was now wearing an impish grin.
" What are yooou thinking about?" he chuckled with sarcasm filling his voice.
I bit my lip and dropped my gaze, STUIPID HEART RATE! I yelled internally at my mortal flaw.
" You wouldn't happen to be thinking about this would you?" His velvet voice teased has his
shirt suddenly slid into my view at my feet. My eyes flashed up taken in a gasp of air. My eyes went wide and my heart shuddered into my ribs as he came at me wrapping me against his cold bare torso. His lips crushed on mine before I could even breath. I felt my feet leave the floor as he laid me down on the couch letting me breath while moving down to kiss my neck.
" Edward what are you doing?" I said through baited breath as his hands moved under my shirt. My head was drowning in his touch. I let out a small whimper when his cold tongue licked up my neck flicking my ear. I waited for his response, but gave up knowing that he had just silently gave his answer.
"Bella" he breathed in jagged breath across my face. I gripped his muscular shoulder blades in my hot hands. Willing him to fully take me now. I swallowed hard kissing the curve of his collarbone. He shock under my touch letting a low chuckle escape his lips has he crushed them back against mine one last time before releasing me from his body jumping lithely up onto his feet leaving me panting for breath on the couch just has the door bell rang. DAME IT!! WHO'S INTURPTING US NOW!! I yelled silently to who ever was at the door.
" Tease" I pouted.
Edward laughed again cracking my favorite smile has the bell rang again.
" Hold on a sec" he yelled at the door picking his shirt up in his hand.
I sat up to fast and immediately felt sick. I heard Jessicas voice ring out from the hall.
" OOO...aaaa... E-Edward umm I'm sorry maybe I should have called first." she stammered.
Edwards laugh echoed off the walls and I rolled my eyes has they entered the living room. Edward was just pulling on his shirt. I clenched my teeth and gave him a narrowed look. Jessica's eyes were locked on his back with her mouth gaped open. I wanted to get up and smack her in the face but thought better of it and instead forced a hard smile.
" Jess what a pleasant surprise. What brings you here so early in the day?" I asked a small hiss in my words.
She didn't answer right away her eyes were taking in Edwards backside has he bent down picking up his sweatshirt. I was happy to see the annoyed look he shot me before straitening his stance moving to take the seat beside me. My anger burned across my face and I had to chock back the nasty words that were popping up into my head. Jess shock her head before remembering to answer me.
" I-I... You told Mike you were getting married before me!" she stuttered out in slight haste.
I couldn't help but let out a small laugh at how hurt she sounded. I know I shouldn't have such ill will towards her since she was one of my best friends... well friends, if I could even call what we turned into even that. She hadn't accepted my awaking from zombie stage so well. I couldn't blame her really. I was the one who pushed everyone away after all and yet here she stands like none of that happened just like at graduation.
" Oh Jess, it wasn't by choice believe me." I said truthfully raising a hand in promise. I saw out of the corner of my eye Edwards smirk remembering his triumph over Mike that day.
A relieved smile spreed across her face and a sparkle filled her eyes " So it's true then?"
I nodded and held out my hand showing her my ring. Edward stretched his arm out along the back of the couch beaming from ear to ear. Jess covered her mouth in amazement.
" Oh my god!! Bella your getting married!!" Jess screamed pulling me up off the couch in a bone crushing hug. I patted her back hoping it would make her release me, only causing her to grab my hands and force me to jump up and down with her excitement instead.
" Congratulations!! Soo when are we going dress shopping? OOOO... wait we should call Angela and go for lunch today first before we decide to make any plains without her!" Jess's voice sang with enthusiasm reminding me of Alice.
" Well... I already have a dress actually," I said making disappointment fall upon Jessicas face. I felt a small tug of guilt playing at my heart. " but we can still go for lunch I hope." I said filling my voice with as much cheeriness that I could muster
At my words her face brightened " Darn it!!" she said snapping her fingers.
" Did you not get your invitation in the mail yet?" Edwards said clearly amused by my hidden reluctance to go.
Jess tilted her head with curiosity " Invitations already?" she raised an eyebrow at him then turned her gaze back on me.
" You should be getting it today or tomorrow the latest. Alice sent them out... what yesterday morning?" I said glancing at Edward who nodded yes. For some reason it seemed like it was forever ago that we stood in this room telling Charlie about these very same plans.
" I'll have to check my mailbox when I get home then. So anyway, do you want to call Ang or should I?" she said pulling her phone from her purse.
" You can call her, but don't tell her anything. I don't want to ruin the surprise if she doesn't already know by now." I said all the more willing to not have to tell someone else. Jess shrugged and dialed the phone passing the floor. I shot Edward a dark look which he returned with a wide happy smile. I folded my arms showing my unwillingness.
I stood silently has Jess talked to Angela confirming the plans for lunch. "... okay see you at 12 then", she gave me the thumbs up, " yeah that new place sounds good... alright... yup... bye." she closed her phone finalizing the deal.
" Now that's taken care of, I better get going my mom was expecting me home by now." Jess rushed forward hugging me once more then waved at Edward has I lead her to the door biding her goodbye with the promise to see her later. I walked back into the living room sulking with a pout on my lips.
" You would think someone killed your cat or something by the look on your face." Edward said trying to cheer me up. I threw my head back huffing has I pulled my hair in my hands.
" Your not coming with me are you?"
" I wasn't invited plus that would be rude of me." Edward said with a hint of a smile playing on his lips.
" Why must me being miserable make people happy." I hissed.
" That's not true love, you know that I hate when your upset." he said lovingly standing up taking my face in his hands kissing me softly. I sighed relaxing. Then the thought of his actions hit my mind.
I stopped in mid-kiss and pushed him back. He looked at me puzzled.
I looked up at him scowling " You let HER see you with no shirt on!" I said placing my hands on my hips.
" I didn't think you'd mind making her jealous, after all her only basic thoughts were ' why is he with her, she's so lucky, what were they doing that I interrupted ' blah blah blah. You know how fickle her mind is." Edwards voice sounded bored by it all. " Besides, I love seeing your face when your jealous. It makes me feel good to know you get that way just like I do when it comes to Newton." he smirked with a small laugh.
" I never showed Mike my bare chest! It took all I had not to smack her in the face." I said turning on my heel and walking towards the stairs.
" Your mad at me?" Edward said with an edge in his tone.
" uhh I could never be mad at you. I'm mad at me for not being mad at you. Now come on we have stuff to do and only a small amount of time to do it in thanks to you. Why did you have to answer the door!" I spoke with a whine in my voice.
Edward laughed at my tone and came over wrapping me in a hug. " Bella, you need to make peace with your friends before you leave them forever." he said with thoughtfulness.
" I know" My voice showing my defeat. Edward kissed my forehead releasing me. I stepped away from him and starting scanning my room for things that I would want to take with me.
" We're going to need boxes. I'll pick them up while your at lunch." Edward said going through a pile of things under my desk.
" What about the sun?" I asked looking at him from under my bed.
" Not a problem. This is one of the most wettest places in the U.S. After all is it not?" He said gesturing to the lite rain forming lines on my window. " How could I forget" I chuckled.
The rest of the morning we spent stacking things into piles. The first was the things that I didn't need anymore and the other one was the things I wanted to take with me that we staked around my rocking chair that Edward refused to leave behind. I couldn't believe how much he was truly attached to it. I did love that chair too so I didn't argue. I was surprised by the amount of stuff I had collected since moving here. I didn't remember owning half the stuff. Which was mostly do to the fact that I didn't buy it.
At 11 we finally stopped so I could take a quick shower to wash off the dirt and sweat from the mornings work leaving Edward making a list of what still needed to be done. I emerged from the shower and got dressed quickly so I wouldn't be late. I gave Edward a quick peck on the lips before tripping over a pile in my haste knocking me and it over. I grumbled as Edward kindly helped me up and walked me out the front door locking it behind him. He walked me to my truck protesting that I let him drive me instead.
" Edward, my poor truck is lonely it wants to be driven too you know. It's been ages since I've driven." I pouted knowing that he was going to give me my way.
" Fine" he said with an air of attitude. " please be careful" He warned while opening my trucks door kissing me once more before shutting it.
I ran my fingers along the dash board wiping the built up dust that had formed there and stuck the keys into the ignition and my faithful truck roared into life. The feel of the engines rumble beneath me was warming. Even though I have had this truck for two years now it still held that faint smell of tobacco and peppermint whenever it sat untouched for to long. The aroma was comforting and it caused a smile to spreed across my face letting my thoughts stray to Billy.
I kept the radio off listening to loud roar that was my truck taking in the noise, like taking in the sound of a loved ones voice that you haven't spoken to in a while. I pulled into the restaurants parking lot and was happy to see that I wasn't the only one running late has Jess and Angela pulled in at the same time. We looked at each other and laughed as we got out of our vehicles. It felt good to laugh like this with people who weren't involved in the dangers that were always lurking in my everyday world. We sat there talking about normal young girl stuff through out lunch. I have to admit that I did overall have a good time and I was happy that I got to spend this time with them.
After we ate they walked with me over to the drug store so I could develop the pictures Edward and I took from last night and the new pictures we had just taken of the three of us at lunch goofing off at the table.
I walked in silence my mind missing Edward. I haven't been apart from him this long for a few days now. The feeling made my heart ache at the old healed hole.
" Whats wrong Bella?" Angela's voice said softly.
" I think I now, she's missing Edward" Jessica teased with over sweetness coating her words.
I blushed and looked at the ground.
" oh so cute, you are" Jess said giggling behind her hand. I saw Angela roll her eyes over Jess's shoulder. I stifled my laugh smiling.
I hugged them bye and told them I'll see them at the wedding and hopped into my truck. I pulled my hood down shacking out my hair when a knock on my window made me jump. My eyes widen in shock has they locked into the dark deep set eyes of Sam Uleys mask like face. For some reason my body filled with fear and I rolled down the window with trembling hands. I hated the fact that it was stiff from lack of use and I had to struggle with it to get it down enough to talk.
" Sorry that I startled you Bella" Sam said in a hallow tone.
" It's alright" My voice was calmer than I felt.
" I just wanted to apologize for Pauls misguided actions last night. I hope that your vampire will not feel the need to retaliate and keep the new found peace between our kinds." His husky voice was formal with authority.
" He will not this time, but I must warn that if it happens again Edward will not think twice before reacting." My anger boiled under my skin as I spoke. Maybe it wasn't fear that I thought I first felt. Could it be that I was already becoming to have the reactions vampires get when a werewolf is in our presence? I didn't know. I was surprised when my words came out sounding like Edwards.
Sam nodded " So we are clear than"
" Yes we are." I said crisply rolling back up my window. I turned the engine and it sputtered whining to life. That doesn't sound good, I thought to myself. I pulled out of the parking lot hoping my truck was going to make it. I was only a few streets away from home when my engine gave a load groan and quacked underneath me and then the roaring died. My wheel became stiff and I had to fight with it to get my truck to the side of the road before the still rolling tires stopped.
"Great! Just great!!" I screamed into the empty cab of my beat up truck, slamming my fists down on the steering wheel. There was smoke bellowing out from the hood. I sat there debating whether to walk the rest of the way home or just walk to the nearest house to use their phone. I heard a load engine coming down the road behind me, I looked into my review mirror and saw the best thing in the world. Edward and Emmett to the rescue in Emmett's jeep. I was out of the truck and jumping into Edwards arms before Emmett had even fully stopped.
I couldn't stop kissing him and telling him that I missed him.
" You two need a room" Emmett's booming voice said in laughter.
I gave him a giddy smile has Edward placed me back on the ground.
" Alice told us where to find you once you came back into view that is." Edward said with a bit of anger at the last part.
" It wasn't Jacob if thats what your thinking. It was Sam Uley. He wanted to tell us that he was sorry for what Paul did and wanted to make sure you weren't going to retaliate . Thats all." I said ending the subject.
" So how bad is it?" I pouted looking over at Emmett who was looking under the hood.
" It will be fine love, Emmetts going to tow it back to our house so Rose can look at it." Edward answer with reassurance.
" My Rose can fix just about anything, but I don't know about this one it's seems to be older than dirt" Emmett joked mocking my poor truck.
" Hey thats not nice have some respect for your elders" I laughed has a cold shiver came over me.
" I think it best to get you home now before you end up with a cold." He whispered into my ear tickling it with his cool breath.
" I think so too" I said through chattering teeth. Edward scooped me up in his arms swinging me onto his back.
" Pull up your hood" he ordered and I gladly obeyed.
I yelled 'take it easy with her Emmett!' before Edward took off at his usually super fast run. I shoved my face in between his shoulder blades to keep it from being pelted with fast moving rain drops. When we got closer to my house Edward slowed to a human speed run and I soon found out why when I saw Charlie pulling into the driveway.
" Hey kids, why are you two walking in the rain? Where's the truck?" Charlie said when he noticed our on foot approach.
" She killed it" Edward laughed.
" No I didn't!" I yelled in my defense. "It broke down. Emmetts bringing it to the Cullen s house so Rose can take a look at it." I said sliding down off of Edwards back. I grabbed his hand in mine and we followed Charlie into the house.
" So Dad I didn't know you were going to be home this early. I would have stayed home to make you lunch." I said making my way into the kitchen with Edward behind me leaving Charlie to the tv. I glanced at Edward over my shoulder when I heard him let out a soft chuckle.
" What is it?" I asked curious.
" Your father," Edward said with a smile on his lips.
" what about him?" I said pressing for him to elaborate.
" He is thinking about asking me to go fishing with him yaknow spend some guy time together." He said lightly. " also we wants to talk to me about my virtue. He wants to make sure you or I didn't lie about that . So that's going to be awkward." He said a bit smug.
" He wouldn't dare! That's none of his business!" I growled angry at the very idea.
" He's just being a concerned father Bella, really. I highly doubt he'll actually be able to ask me. He's to scared to know the answer." Edward said in his calm velvet voice.
I sighed and grabbed a coffee cup from the cabinet and filled it with water popping it in the microwave to make some tea. We sat there in silence for the few minutes before the ding went off. I turned and grabbed for the mug which to my shock was hotter than I thought it would be. From instinct I dropped the cup burning my hand with the scolding water.
" OOWWW" I screamed holding my hand jumping up and down.
" Bella let me see! let me see!" Edwards voice shuck with panic. Charlie entered the room wearing the same look of panic as Edward.
" Bella what happened!?" Charlie's voice was filled with concern. But I didn't answer him. Edward had pulled my scolded hand from my other and was holding it between his extra cold hands, thanks in part to the rain. The pain subsided at his touch. Edward answered Charlie for me and told him what happened.
Charlie scratched his head running his fingers through his thinning hair. " How bad is it? Do we need to go to the hospital?" Edward lifted his hand just enough and nodded no. Charlie came over moving in view to see my hand wrapped in between Edwards. " Shouldn't we put some ice on that..." Charlie said with a wary voice clearly confused by Edwards reasons to decide to hold my burned hand in his instead of wrapping it in a ice pack or running it under cold water at least.
" oh right, I wasn't thinking straight sorry " Edward said pulling his mind from whatever he was thinking. Charlie went into the freezer and pulled out some ice and handed it to Edward. The ice pack didn't feel half as good has Edwards super cold hands did. I winced at the pain the moment he freed my hand bitting my lip to hold back a whimper.
" Keep it on for another few minutes then take it off." Edward said sitting me on the couch with my ice pack. " Do you have any burn ointment in the house Charlie?" he asked looking at my father. I knew he already knew the answer before he even asked it, but it did get Charlie out of the room.
The moment Charlie was out of ear shot Edward was back at my side taking the ice pack away replacing it with his cold kisses. " Whats the verdict Doc." I said giving him a small smile. His lips felt amazing on my hand even though it was already numb with cold. I could still feel the difference.
" It's not bad. You'll live. It's just going to be a little blistered here and there for a few days or so nothing to worry about. It will need to stay wrapped in gauze to." he said brushing his finger along my cheek then kissing me softly on the lips just has Charlie reappeared with the ointment and some gauze.
" Thank you" Edward said taking the things from Charlie. Edward gently massaged the burn ointment into my hand and began wrapping it with the gauze.
" Have you ever thought about going to medical school? You look like a professional already." Charlie asked in awww.
" A few times" Edward said with a laugh cracking his crooked smile. I giggled at the hidden truth in that statement. Edward has gone and graduated from medical school a few times over the last 100 years or so already. So my little burn was a piece of cake. If he ate cake that is.
" Well I can see that you have everything taken care of here. I took a half a day off of work because I thought it would be nice to go fishing. But since that seems to be out of the question, I think I'm going to pick up some pizza and go check in on Billy seeing as Jake isn't healed yet. I tell you I don't know how those two are managing with both of them confined." Charlie's voice had a hint of disappointment in it. I knew it was because his silent plans to talk to Edward were squashed.
" Thats sounds nice Dad, Billy will like that. But don't worry about them having trouble taking care of themselves around the house. They have plenty of people coming in and out of there checking in on them all day long. Believe me. Carlisle said that Jacob should be able to move around with out his crutches by the being of next week or so." I lied slightly since Jacob was already competently healed and the crutches were just a prop.
Charlie nodded in agreement. " I will be home soon. I have to be at work extra early tomorrow. Since I left today mid-shift. Do you kids have plans for tonight?"
" If you can call packing plans, then yes." Edward answered.
" which reminds me, if you'd excuse me, I have to call home to get my car."
" I'll give you a ride to your house, Edward, if you don't mind. I'm just going to get changed then we can go." Charlie said turning back out the room to go change.
I couldn't help but laugh at the predicament Edward blindly walked into. The look of dread was etched across his face.
" And you call yourself a mind reader!" I busted out laughing even loader.
" I'm glad your in joying this love. You just wait." Edward said with an evil grin.
" Wait for what" I questioned tentatively still giggling.
" I'm not telling." He said with a mischievous chuckle. Tackling me on the coach tickling me. We were both laughing so hard we could barley catch our breaths when Charlie came down the stairs leaning on the archway in the entrance to the living room watching us quietly. Well his voice was silent but his thoughts clearly aren't. Edward stopped with in seconds of Charlies arrival. He quickly kissed my forehead and got off me with a silly smirk.
" I'm miss you" I whispered.
" I'll miss you. I wont be long. You promise to be safe and try not to hurt yourself while I'm gone." Edward teased. I crinkled my nose at him and stuck out my tongue. He raised his eyebrows with a 'watch it look on his face'. Then turned to face Charlie who was shacking his head with a laugh playing on the corners of his mouth.
" Bye Bells and really be careful" Charlie said with a plea in his voice.
" Gee you think I get hurt all the time" I giggled walking them to the door. Charlie pulled me into a half hug and kissed me on the head before I shut the door behind them.
I turned looking around the house for something to do. I decided at once that I wanted to clean the house. It wouldn't take long since I could only do half of it with one hand bandaged, but it would be enough to keep me busy till Edward got back. I started in the kitchen cleaning up my mess with the hot water. Then moved on to dusting and lite stuff like that. Just has I finally sat down to take a break I heard Edwards sliver Volvo purr into my drive way. With in seconds he was already in the door carrying a bundle of boxes.
" Honey I'm home" Edward yelled down the hall with a laugh playing under his silky voice. I laughed back at his joke " In here dear" I called back still laughing. I got up and met him halfway in the small hall hugging him around the waist. I took a deep intake of his scent letting my head fog over calming the anxiousness that had built up inside of me from being away from him so long and twice in one day was already more than I could bare.
" What took you so long?" I pouted getting lost in those topaz eyes.
" I had to check in on the other patient first and of course Charlie wanted to know the diagnoses too." Edward kissed me on the hollow of my neck , grabbing my good hand and lead me up the stairs.
" So what happened to it? Can it be fixed?" I said tripping up a step. Edward glanced over his shoulder and rolled his eyes in amusement. I felt my cheeks blush at my clumsiness.
" It's just a cracked radiator. Rosalie will have it up and running by tomorrow. OH and she couldn't help herself I'm sorry, she insisted on giving the engine a little boast." Edward said with hesitation in his voice.
" What do mean my boast?" I said feeling yet again the anger boil up inside of me.
" She made it so it can now go over 55 mph. Thats all. She didn't change anything on the outside, so you can relax." He said looking at me studding my reaction.
" Thats it? I guess that isn't that bad really. After all marriage is about compromise and you got what you wanted which was for it to go faster than 55 mph. And I got to kept my old rusty beat up Chevy in the process." I smiled warmly at him as I sat on the bed watching him set up the empty boxes to fill.
I stood up to start packing the things that we piled up earlier, but Edward gave me a stern look that clearly meant 'your not helping'. I huffed and sat back down on the bed with my arms crossed causing me to wince from squeezing by burned hand. Him and his vampire speed got the job done with in minutes. I scowled knowing that if I did help it would have taking us longer.
" Now what are we going to do since you finished everything already?" I sighed annoyed.
" I can think of a few things" He grinned setting the full power of his smoldering eyes on me.
" You really are pushing it today aren't you?" I said with my heart already ponding heavier by the second.
He nodded yes. Then pounced on me yet again, kissing me with the same burning longing from last night. My lungs had begun begging for air so badly that I had to pull away gasping for breath.
" I'm sorry" he breathed heavily for no reason. Edward rolled to his side looking angry at himself.
" It's okay." I said taking a deep breath placing a comforting hand on his face.
" No it's not Bella." he hissed through clenched teeth. I didn't know what he was mad about, so he forgot I had to breath no big deal.
" I- I uhhh" Edward closed his eyes pinching the bridge of his nose.
" What's wrong?" I whispered confusion setting in.
" YOU" he spat out with a little anger in his tone.
" ME? What did I do?" I spat back using his same tone.
" Nothing, nothing, I didn't mean it like that, honest." Edward said in a more loving, calmer voice. Opening his eyes giving me a warm gaze.
" What do you mean then" I said letting out a calming breath.
" It's just I get so caught up in you, that I'm afraid that I wont be able to wait that long to... to change you ." He hung his head ashamed of himself.
I wasn't sure that I heard him correctly. He of all people was always against me being changed into a vampire and now here he was fighting the urge to change me right now before schedule, not because he lusted for my blood, but because he lusted for me like a man wanting to be fully combine with their mate. I couldn't help the scarlet covering my pale cheeks at the meaning of his words.
" There's nothing to be ashamed of my love, my husband." I whispered sweetly taking his face in my hands brushing my lips lightly against his. He smiled softly taking my injured hand and kissing it before wrapping me in his arms hugging me to him.
" Your to good to me and thank you for calling me your husband. I love hearing you say that. Soon enough it will be true, my wife." I could feel him smile into my hair kissing my head.
I looked up at him smiling " As far has I'm concerned we already are married in my eyes. But I know that it's not final until I walk down that aisle. Hopefully without tripping." I giggled dreading the thought.
" You'll be stunningly beautiful not matter what." Edward smiled back looking down at me under his long thick lashes his bronze hair swept over his brow.
I sat up enough to kiss him on his smooth cool lips. Then sighed in content snuggling my face into his neck taking in deep breaths of his sweet scent. I couldn't help the urge that rouse up in me. I placed my lips to his neck kissing it opened mouthed licking a circle with my tongue then dragged my teeth along his skin bitting it gently before closing the kiss. I could feel him shuddered under me letting out a strangled breath has I repeated the kiss. He tilted his head up allowing me more access to his neck. I had slid my hand under his shirt stroking his stomach muscles letting my fingers play in the tuft of hair that drifted down in to his jeans. I behaved keeping my hand above the limit line though he did slightly lift his hips when I got to close, I smirked to myself seeing that he was yearning for more.
" Bella.. mmmm" he purred grabbing my traveling hand placing it on the spot of his yearning. I gasped at his gesture. I could feel the hard coldness of him straining under his jeans. He kept his hand on mine and pressed my hand down. " feel what you do to me" he let out a quite moan as he ground his hips once against my hand. I pulled my eyes from our hands and looked at his face with my mouth slightly open sitting up to see him more. My face was on fire. What was happening?
" Please, please stop teasing me so" his face looked like it was in pain. He removed our hands and brought them to his heaving chest swallowing hard. Now it was my turn to feel guilty.
" I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me." I whispered meekly.
" Shhhh... none of that now love. I need fresh air to clear my head, do you mind?" Edward said calmness taking hold of his breathing.
" No, you go" I felt guilty. Why did I act like that? I asked myself. It wasn't like me, it was like the feeling just swept over me.
Edward got up fixing his pants then turned with a shy smile on his face. " I'll be back in no time" he caressed my cheek in his hands before going to open my window.
" Edward what are you doing? You do know you can use the front door." I said letting a small laugh leave my mouth. It felt odd coming out after the intense moment.
"Oops force of habit " he chuckled walking over to the bedroom door turning to smile one last time before disappearing down the stairs.
I rouse slowly from my bed and decided to check my e-mails to shack off the feelings from my mind. I looked at the clock on the side of my bed and saw that it was just about six, Charlie will be home soon. I got up leaving my old computer to slowly boot up. I went downstairs and walked into the kitchen and nearly screamed when I found Alice sitting quietly at the dinning room table with her hands folded in front of her with a worried look on her face.
" Alice what's wrong" My voice barley came out. I've never seen Alice look so glum before.
" Jasper" she said softly looking down at her hands. " He was just here you know."
" What...what" Suddenly everything made sense. The sudden impulse that swept over me. Edwards pained look. " Edwards with him now isn't he?" it wasn't a question and she knew that.
She nodded and continued " he got away from Emmett. He made a split decision to come here I barely saw him in time." She looked back up at me with apologetic eyes.
" I don't understand what you mean?" I said confused.
" He was drawn here it seems. No matter how far away he is he can still feel you and Edwards emotions. Were not sure why this is or why it makes him like this. My visions aren't clear lately and I can't explain that either. If I didn't get that vision in time Bella, you would not be standing here innocent or human." She let a smirk fill her pale face at my blush.
" I don't know what to say Alice" My head was swimming with thoughts I couldn't make sense of.
" You don't have to say anything. I must say sorry for Jazz's actions lately. It looks like I'm going to have to chain him up in the basement or somewhere until after the wedding." Her face lite up with amusement making me relax a little.
" Alice, mind your thoughts, please" Edwards disgruntled voice startled me causing me to nearly jump out of my skin.
" I knew you were going to come in!" Alice's musical laugh filled the kitchen.
" Bella, I'm sorry again about before" Edward said smoothly and nodded at Alice. I knew he was answering to her thoughts. I had learned to read there little secret language over the years, but neither felt the need to point it out.
" I have to go Charlie will be home in about 15 minutes." Alice said jumping up in her graceful manner hugging me quickly then kissing me on the cheek. She gave Edward one last nod and ran out the back door.
" Is Jasper alright?" I asked concerned and yet still completely puzzled by what happened.
" He will be. I'm sure that Alice has told you what happened here." He said knowingly.
" Yes, even though it doesn't make much sense." I buried my face into Edwards chest letting his scent calm me." I hate that I'm the reason Jasper has to leave." I let a tear fall down my cheek.
Edward lifted my chin searching my eyes. " We are the reason," ,he brushed his lips along my tear soaked cheek. " it is our feelings" he whispered kissing my nose " and it is our longing that is making him this way" He kissed me lightly on the lips ending his point.
I sniffled letting a small smile cross my face. I stepped away from him and wiped my eyes.
" You sit I'll make dinner. I don't want you touching anything hot." He said flashing me his crooked smile. I crossed my arms with a pouted lips. " Don't pout love, how hard can it be to boil water and put pasta in it" he said sarcastically.
" OH you'd be surprised." I said laughing thinking about when Charlie tried to cook that very same dish with disastrous results. " You have fun with that. I'm going to check my e-mails, if my computer has woken up yet that is" I had just reached the top of the stairs when I heard Charlies voice call up to me.
" How's your hand honey?"
" Better. I hope your hungry Edwards cooking dinner" I called back down the stairs with a smile on my face.
" He wouldn't let you near the stove, would he?" Charlie laughed placing his gun holster on the hook.
" Lets not talk about that" I said rolling my eyes.
Charlie laughed again as I walked into my room.
I sat down at the now warmed up computer signing in. I sat back looking out the window into the now darken lawn waiting for the window page to slowly open. My thoughts were making my head ache. Thoughts, why didn't Edward hear Jaspers thoughts or did he and not tell me? I pondered while opening a new message from Renee. Oh great she sent me a picture , another thing to take forever, I said to myself drumming my fingers on my good hand on the keyboard.
I heard the phone ring downstairs. Distracting me from my thoughts to listen, but I didn't hear anything.
" Bella honey could you come down here please" Charlies voice sounded worried. I knew whatever was said on that phone call wasn't going to be good.
I walked down the stairs and found Edward and Charlie standing in the hall way.
" What is Dad?" I asked cautiously.
" You may want to sit down." Edward said pulling me by the waist to the chair in the living room. He knelt down in front of me taking my hands in his. His face was concerned. Charlie stood behind him placing a hand on his shoulder. Wearing a more worried face that matched his voice.
Edward took a deep breath looking me deep in the eyes than spoke " Bella, that was Billy. He thinks that Jacob may have run away."
I sat there stunned, my breath stopped in my chest. Everything around me went silent. Lips moved, but I couldn't hear them. I couldn't speak, my mind was blank. I sat there frozen in time. Everything moved in slow motion. Edwards face swam in and out of focus. Then everything went black.
" Bella... Bella... please, love wake up!" My angel was sad has he pleaded for me to come to him. I opened my eyes slowly letting my eyes focus on those beautiful worried pools of gold.
" Wha... What happened?" my voice barley came out, I wasn't even sure if it did or not.
" You fainted" Charlies voice was shaky with even more worry in it.
" I'm sorry" I didn't know why I felt the need to apologize.
" Don't be sorry. There's nothing to be sorry for." Edwards voice was soothing has he pulled my head to his chest stroking my hair. I felt a slight pain in my chest at the small hole that was Jacobs. I fought down the swelling tears closing my eyes tightly hoping to stop them. I bit my lip feverishly.
" It's okay, let it out love." Edwards voice whispered in my ear has he rocked me in his arms. And right on cue the tears spilled from my eyes. I sobbed into his chest and at every tear hated myself more for doing so. I was breaking my promise whether I wanted to or not. I couldn't control myself. I did find that it didn't take me has long for the tears to run their course this time. I was glad for that. Charlie had left me cradled in Edwards arms to go back to Billys house. Apparently Jacob was off brooding on the beach the whole time Charlie was there. He had came home after Charlie had left and saw the wedding invitation and took off. He already knew we were getting married and when, but getting that after being forced to watch the scenes last night I couldn't blame him for taking off in the end.
I was more worried than mad at Jacob for running away. I was mad at the fact that he could just up and leave his father like that and mad at the pack for just letting him go. I was worried that he was after all only 16 years old, no matter how old he may look. He was still out there all by himself running to god knows where. We sat in silence on the floor for I don't know how long before Edward picked me up carrying me to bed.
" Edward" I said softly into his chest.
" hmmm" He answered kissing my temple.
" If I ask you to do something for me will you?" I asked without looking at him.
" Anything" His voice was low and deep almost like I woke him from a deep sleep.
" Will you look for him for me. You don't have to find him. I just want to know what direction he went in that's all" I said trying not to sound like I was begging.
" I'll do my best. The pack will not be so willing to speak to me after this. But I will try." he pulled me closer to him kissing me on the lips. " Charlies home stay here."
He got up slowly and walked down the stairs leaving the bedroom door open so I could hear.
" How's Bella" Charlie whispered from the bottom of the stairs.
" She'll be alright. I finally got her to fall asleep about an hour ago now. How's Billy?" I heard Edwards silky calm voice whisper back.
" That man is stronger than I was the few times Bella has run away ,because of you I might add, I was a mess. But not Billy, he's to proud for that. He wouldn't let me send out a search party. He said Sam Uley and the boys all ready looked for him and there was no sign of him." Charlies voice sounded disappointed.
" Did they say what direction they think he may have gone in?" Edward asked.
I didn't hear an answer. Charlie must have nodded his response.
" That's a shame." Edward said sounding like he yawned in between words.
" Edward, son you look dead on your feet why don't you go back to bed and we'll talk in the morning."
Charlies voice was sympathetic.
" thank you, see you in the morning then." I could hear the triumph in his tone. He walked up the stairs and shut the door behind him.
" Bella are you still awake?" he whispered. I heard him slide off his shoes sitting on the edge of the bed.
" yeah" I whispered back turning over to face him lifting up the blankets.
" you'll freeze" he said raising an eyebrow that I could barley make out in the glow of my clock.
" I'll live, please I want to be near you." I begged sitting up pulling his shirt up over his head. I thought he was going to stop me, but he didn't. He climbed into the blankets wrapping me in his cold arms. I fell asleep the moment my head hit his bare chest.
My dreams were pointless blurs in my memory when I woke up. A smile spreed across my face when I felt the cold skin still pressed against me, but instead I was the one holding him. He didn't move. He looked like a sleeping angel breathing in time with my own breathing body listening to my heart beat. He wasn't really asleep, but lost in deep meditated thought, which was like sleep to vampires. I stroked his bronze hair that felt like silk under my hands. He inhaled a deep breath smiling against my chest.
" Good morning my sleeping beautie, sleep well" Edwards cool breath swept across my face has he brought his gaze to mine. I inhaled it letting it settle in my mind before answering,, returning the smile.
" Yes, why did I say anything?" I let out a small yawn.
" No more then usual, but I am curious has to who this little boy is you spoke of." He said tilting his head in thought.
'Little boy' I didn't remember having that dream last night. My face turned pink and I bit my lip dropping my gaze before his eyes pulled the answer from me.
" Bella, please tell me what your thinking." His voice was soft has he kissed along my collarbone. I shivered under his lips that were making goose bumps rise in their wake.
" Not fair" I whined in protest. I felt his lips smile against my skin has he moved them up my neck. A thought filled my mind. I'd use my own new found power I had over him to get out of answering.
" You know if I learned anything from the last few nights is that two can play at this game" I said with a wicked grin sliding my good hand down his bare side reaching around to his front lower abs rubbing circles with my finger tips along the top of his jeans. His lips met mine kissing me softly before pressing them harder to mine letting out a jagged breath through his nose. I laughed impishly to myself. He pulled away taking my face in his hands.
" I give up for now" is voice was let out in one long breath. My favorite smile on his face. His eyes boarded into mine. I let my mind fog over and my heart quicken just long enough before I crushed my lips to his tangling my fingers into his hair. I cupped his neck with my bandaged hand letting the coldness ease the aching feeling that had crept up over the night.
I heard a small scream in my mind yelling at me that 'I made Jacob leave home'. I closed my eyes tighter fighting with the words to stop, I pulled Edward closer to me kissing him more. I wanted him to wash away the guilt that hit me all at once. Edward must have sensed something wasn't right. He broke from the kiss and sat up quickly looking at me with worried concerned eyes.
I didn't understand his expression he reached out a hand and brushed his fingers along my cheek, thats when I realized I was crying again.
" I can't kiss away the pain love. As much as I wish I could, I can't." He whispered with pain in his voice.
That only made me feel worse. " I'm just worried about him thats all and I feel like I have to talk to Billy. I at least owe him that much. If I could explain things maybe it wont be so bad. I'm the rea..." Edward stopped me placing his cold long finger against my lips.
"Shhhhh... You don't have to explain anything to Billy. He knows it all already and he does not blame you for any of it. I told you Jacob would not listen to reason. Did I not." His eyes searched deep into my soul willing me to be at ease. I forced myself to take even breaths and swallowed back my tears.
" Why don't you take a shower and I'll go pick up the trail and be back before your done." He said pulling on his shoes and shirt. I nodded and got up getting some clothes out of my dresser. I felt his cold arms snake around my waist. I caressed his arm with one hand and lifted his hand to my cheek with the other. He kissed the pulse in my neck " I love you".
" I know" I said softly kissing his hand then released it hugging his arms to me. He kissed my temple and like a ghost he was gone.
I walked into the bathroom and looked at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes looked empty to me they were red and puffy from crying. I closed my eyes taking in a deep breath. I opened them again hoping that the image before me would be a happy one, but it wasn't. I was the cause one way or the other for two people I deeply cared about to have to leave their homes. I hated myself more than anything at the moment.
I pulled at my hair wishing to make the feelings of guilt and hate disappear has the hot water ponded on my head. The sobs tore through my chest I slid down the tile wall sitting in the tub clutching my legs to my chest rocking myself. Was I losing my mind? It felt that way. I stared blankly at my engagement ring letting my mind zone out. I cleared all my thoughts thinking of only Edward. When my eyes ran dry I slowly rouse from the tub shutting off the water letting all the built up emotions run down the drain. I was melancholy after my little melt down. I knew it wouldn't happen again. I wouldn't let it.
I forced myself to build up the mental wall to block it away. Apart of me was gone. It was the small part that belonged to Jacob and it wasn't coming back. I knew that Jasper wasn't really gone that he will be back soon enough. Jacob on the other hand I didn't know the answer too.
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