Hey everyone! So here's another chapter fresh out of the oven of my noggin( ha ha ha...i need friends) Anyway i hope you are all liking it. Im trying my best to really get into the mindset of someone who is struggling with depression and such. So hope im doing it justice. umm so yeah follow, review, fave if you want. If you got any suggestions for me or anything you want put in go ahead and review or pm me and you just might see it in later chapters.

Disclaimah(boston accent for yah): I do naht own FT

Normal POV

It has been a week since Natsu's failed attempt at ending his life. Lucy hasn't left his side at all, watching over him like a hawk. At night she sleeps beside him in a chair, but almost always ends up in his bed by morning, a fact that makes Natsu extremely happy. Most days he woke up early, just so he could watch her sleep. He thought she looked so peaceful when she slept, compared to her rambunctious self when she was awake.

Polyruica came into the room, with a somewhat friendly look on her face. She handed Natsu some more medicine, trying to be quiet as to not wake Lucy.

"You will be able to go home today if you wish. But you must take it easy for awhile. I do not want you to open up those wounds," Polyruica whispered to Natsu.

He smiled big before nodding his head, agreeing to be less dangerous than normal. Polyruica nodded and left the room, shutting the door quietly behind her. Natsu laid his head back on the pillow, a large smile on his face. Today he could finally go home and see all his guild mates. He missed Happy especially, who had been staying at Carla's for the week surprisingly. Carla has stated it was only to keep him company since she knew how upset he was about Natsu, but Natsu hoped it meant she was starting to warm up to his feline friend.

Lucy began to stir next to Natsu, and he gently stroked her back. She let out a contented sigh before turning around to face him.

"Hey, how's the thoughts today?" she said through a yawn.

"They are getting better, especially since I was told I get to ho home today!" Natsu replied happily.

Lucy smiled big and gave him a quick hug, "That's great. It'll be good for you to be around the guild again. But don't think this means I'm gonna stop watching you. I'm gonna be by your side day and night, I don't care what you say," she stuck her tongue out at him playfully.

"You know I'm not a baby Luce. I can take care of myself."

"I know, but I almost lost you Natsu and I would rather act like a helicopter parent than lose you again because I wasn't there to save you," she half smiled but he could see the hurt behind her eyes. He knew it was going to take a long time before that hurt left her eyes when she mentioned it. A part of him knew there was even a chance it might not go away ever. He half smiled back, feeling guilt start to eat at him but he quickly pushed it away. He knew that Lucy didn't blame him and she forgave him for what he did. All he had to do now was fix the hurt over time.

Lucy stretched before getting up and walking over to the corner of the room. Natsu knew the drill by now. Look the other way and don't look until she said it was okay. He could hear her changing out of her pjs and into her day clothes. Some part of him always wanted to disobey and watch her but he knew he would get a prompt Lucy kick to the teeth if he ever got caught.

"Okay, all set. Are you going to get ready now? You've been in those clothes since you came in. Gray dropped off a set of your clothes the other day," Lucy said as she walked over to him with the before mentioned clothes.

"Yeah, might as well. These are covered in…well, you know," he finished awkwardly before taking the clothes and walking over to the corner, "No looking Luce, even though I know its mighty enticing."

She scoffed before turning the other way and sitting on the bed.

Natsu took of his boxers and pants, managing to slip on the new ones without too much pain. Every move he made caused him some pain but it was bearable. He slipped off his vest, noticing how much more it hurt to take it off. He tried to put the new one on but sucked in a fast breathe as he felt a stab of pain go through him.

"Are you okay Natsu?" Lucy called from the other side of the room, still turned away.

"Do you mind helping me put my vest on? It hurts a lot to move that way," he said lamely.

He heard her jump off the bed and watched as she walked over slowly. She took the vest from his hands and held it up for him to slip his arms into. He turned around to put his arms in the sleeves, trying to be quick. He heard Lucy let out a small gasp before he felt her fingers on his back.

"What are you doing Luce?" Natsu said in a pitch slightly higher than normal.

She didn't answer and began to run her fingers over his back. He started to realize she was tracing his scars, going in slow movements. He stood still, unsure of what to do. He became even more confused when he felt something soft and moist placed upon one of his bigger scars. It took him a moment to realize she was kissing his scars, much like a mother would kiss a child's booboo. Natsu started to relax, letting her kiss his back and becoming less and less awkward about her actions. After a minute or so, he felt her slip his vest on and step back.

He turned to look at her and she immediately slipped on his vest. She adjusted it until she felt it was properly placed and then looked him up and down once.

"There, perfect," she muttered before she leaned forward on her tippy toes and gave him a kiss on the forehead. She pulled away after lingering for awhile and blushed bright red. Natsu's cheeks also heated up, becoming a flushed pink but he didn't care. The woman he loved had just kissed him on the forehead. He smiled big at her before suddenly, the door burst open.

"Natsu! We have come to escort you home! Nothing shall happen to as long as you are in my sight," Erza said loudly as she walked over to him and threw him over her shoulder.

"I can walk on my own you know!" Natsu said from her shoulder whining.

"Much too dangerous for you in your current weakened state. Don't you worry. I shall protect you with my life. Not a single soul shall touch you!" Erza pumped her fist before turning to leave. Lucy let out a laugh before following behind her and out the door, along with Gray and Juvia who had tagged along with Erza.

The doors to the guild burst open with a great force, revealing Erza who still had Natsu over her shoulder, "We have returned with the package! He has returned home safely in one piece!"

Erza let go of Natsu who immediately slunk to the floor, having become motion sick from the journey due to Erza's transportation like carrying. Everyone in the guild let out a cheer as banners fell down from the ceiling and confetti was thrown about.

"WELCOME HOME NATSU!" Everyone screamed as they rushed forward to give him a giant group hug.

Natsu laughed as he was overwhelmed with people hugging him. Everyone in the guild was there along with a few other people such as Lyon, Cheria, Ultear, Meledy and Jellal. The rest of the night was a blur for Natsu as everyone celebrated him coming home and being alive. He received more hugs than he could count and was told how much he meant by each and every single person there. The entire ordeal really made Natsu feel better as he realized even more just how wrong he had been.

Throughout the entire party, Lucy never left his side. No matter who talked to him or where he was whisked off to, she was right there beside him, smiling away and chatting it up with anybody who came to see him. More than a few times Lucy held his hand, rubbing her thumb over the top of it as he listened to someone who was crying over what had almost happened. Natsu was extremely grateful for Lucy doing so. It was comforting and helped him to handle listening to everyone say how upset they were when they thought he was gone for good.

It was early in the morning when the party finally started to die down and after bidding everyone good bye, Natsu and Lucy left.

"You know you really don't have to stay with me all the time Lucy. I don't want you to have to sleep on the couch at my house," Natsu said as they walked slowly down the street.

"I can't leave you alone Natsu. Its not just for your safety but for my sanity. I can't handle being away from you and not knowing if you are okay, at least not yet," Lucy said quietly, looking down.

Natsu stopped, grabbing Lucy's hand, "You really are amazing Luce. I hope you know that. I know I'll get better because I've got you by my side to help me," he smiled wide at her and she returned the smile.

Natsu looked down before continuing, "You are my reason now Luce, my reason to live."

Natsu felt Lucy's hand go stiff in his before he was enveloped in a tight hug. She rest her head against his shoulder as he returned the hug and if it weren't for his amazing hearing, he wouldn't have heard as she whispered under her breathe, "And you are mine."

They remained hugging for awhile before they reluctantly pulled apart. Lucy looked at Natsu smiling before sighing, "Why don't you stay at my house for awhile? You can have my bed and I'll sleep on my couch. It's a lot comfier than your couch and plus my house isn't a mess like yours," she smirked as she finished.

"Let me get this straight, the infamous Lucy kicker is actually inviting me to stay at her house? The world must be ending," he chuckled as he finished and Lucy lightly nudged him.

"Oh shut up, come on let's go before I change my mind," she grabbed his hand as she dragged him off to his house. Natsu smiled as they went, realizing just how many times Lucy had held his hand today. He started to feel something rise up inside him as he realized it was becoming more and more likely that his mate actually might have feelings for him too.

Lucy made the bed for Natsu, having changed the sheets to less girly ones. Natsu walked around Lucy's apartment, looking at all the things she had. He paused at her book shelf, reading the titles of the many books she had.

"Natsu, I am going to take a bath. I'll leave the door open. Please don't do anything while I'm gone. Ill be right out if you need me," she smiled at him before disappearing into the bathroom.

Natsu continued to look at the shelf until he came upon an unmarked book that was made of leather. Curious, he pulled it out and began to flip through the pages. He realized it must have been Lucy's journal of sorts and went to sit on the couch with it. He started at the beginning and smiled as he read through her explanations of their adventures together. She had even put little drawings throughout the journal that went along with her recollections of events. He smiled as he realized how fondly she wrote of him in the journal and the further he got along in it, the more she started to speak almost lovingly of him. Suddenly, he let out a small breathe as he got to a section dedicated entirely to talking about each of her guild mates and he excitedly started to read through her opinions of everyone.

He laughed quietly as he realized she described Erza as a scary but yet oddly nice person who had a possible addiction to strawberry cake. She described Gray as being a stripper in a past life and denying his feelings for Juvia. Natsu smiled as he went through the rest of the section, enjoying being able to see into how Lucy thought. He became confused when the section ended and she hadn't mentioned anything about him until he flipped to the next page and let out a small gasp. She had set aside an entire section just for him and described him in detail, from what he wore to certain things he had said she found inspiring and so on. She went on for six pages before the final page of the journal, which made Natsu's heart beat crazily.

She had written "I love you" in fancy letters across the page and had drawn him and her underneath it, holding hands. Natsu's heart beat extremely fast as he quickly shut the book and put it back where he found it. He sat back down on the couch, trying to breathe regular.

"She loves me...She actually loves me. I never thought it would be true. I never thought she would want me. It doesn't matter if some part of my thinks I don't deserve her, because she loves me. And she deserves to have what makes her happy, even if that person doesn't deserve her," he said to himself as he slapped the couch next to him, standing up.

"I'm going to tell her. I have to tell her I love her," Natsu smiled widely as he started to envision just how he would do it. It was going to take some preparation to do but it was worth it for her. Anything was worth it for her.

There you are, another nice little cliffy. How will Natsu tell Lucy? And what will happen when they go on a seemingly easy job? Stick around for the upcoming chapters! Hope you like it! :)