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J – No, I'm not saying you're supposed to like Quinn. That's up for you to decide
"Brittany?!"
Brittany stood with a small smile on her face and looked innocent, like she didn't had a care of what she just witnessed.
"Like, even though I really enjoy seeing you get your lady kisses on; maybe here isn't exactly the best place to do it, don't you think?" She raised her eyebrow and looked at me. "Can we talk Quinn?" She looked at Rachel, "Alone".
Rachel understood and packed her stuff to leave. "See you later Quinn?" She asked as she stepped down the stage. I gave a small nod and smiled to her. She turned and proceeded to leave. I bit my lip and feared what was coming.
I felt ashamed for what I had done. How could I let anybody see us? I'm so stupid. I let my head fall into my hand, "Britt…" I started.
"Don't Quinn. What you're doing is wrong, you know that right?" I nodded in my hands and couldn't get myself to look at her. "It isn't fair to Finn"
"I know that, but I can't stop this feeling inside me. I love Finn, but something inside me wants Rachel and this new thing between us" I let out a sob "I don't know what I'm doing Britt"
"Maybe you should figure that out?" she put her arm around my shoulder and squeezed me. "Are you gay?" she asked quietly.
I looked up, and said quickly "No I'm not. As I said, I love Finn and I'm supposed to be with him"
"So this thing you're doing with Rachel, what is that? It's definitely not fair to her either, that you're kind of playing her"
"I'm not playing her. I said before that I feel something when I'm with her"
Brittany stepped away from me "It's still wrong Quinn. But I can't tell you what you should or shouldn't do. Figure it out before you hurt someone, okay?" She turned to leave. "But if you need someone to talk to, I'm here to listen" I nodded and kept my gaze on her till she left.
I sat down at the edge of the stage and thought about what Brittany said. She's so right, it's wrong in every ways, and I shouldn't be doing this. I'm not even gay, so why am I into Rachel? I like her, I can say so much, but is it enough to end it with Finn. And I like the attention I get from Rachel. It's new and something I have missed from Finn. I love Finn, right? I mean, this is just some exciting fling.. right? I let out a huge sigh and stood up. I dusted myself off and left the auditorium with my thoughts going crazy.
I stepped into the hall and let my bag slip to the floor. It has been an eventful day and I'm tired. I heard Finn moving around in the kitchen and I could smell the food. I walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge to get at water.
"Hey babe, did you have a good day?" Finn asked and kissed me on the cheek. I shrugged and sat down at the table. Finn sat a plate in front of me and one in front of himself. He immediately started eating and talking.
I was very reluctant about discussing my day, and I couldn't take my mind of Kathy and her situation, plus Rachel and Brittany. All I want to right now, is to crawl into bed and fall asleep.
"Seriously" Finn said with food in his mouth "You should have seen Pucks face whe-" I slammed my hand down on the table in frustration. Finn jumped and looked surprised. I send an apologetic look to him and sighed.
"Sorry. It's just.. It has been a long day and I'm dead tired" I said and rubbed my temples. I could feel the headache coming.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Finn asked. "I'm right here to help you if you want it and.. "
"FINN! Shut up! I just said I was tired!" I snapped at him. He looked wounded and we continued eating in silence. Finn stood and took the plates to the sink. I sighed and followed him. "Finn?" He turned to look at me. "I'm sorry I snapped at you. It's not your fault"
Finn nodded, "its okay baby" He hugged me and I needed that hug. I sighed into his chest and stepped back.
"I'll go and grade some papers" I said. Before I left, Finn gave me a peck on the lips.
"I'll clean this and then go watch some football, if that's okay?" He asked and smiled.
"Sure" I said and walked to the study.
After the first ten papers, I stood up and stretched my sore body. I walked into the kitchen to get something to drink, when I heard Finn and apparently Puck, yelling at the TV.
"Hey" I kissed Finn on the cheek. "Hey Puck"
Puck turned, "No kiss?" he puckered his lips. I rolled my eyes and left the living room. They yelled at the TV again.
I sat at the desk again, scrolling through my phone, to find Rachel's number. I miss her and I felt the need to hear her voice. I pressed the green button and it called three times, before it was picked up.
"Hello Quinn. I was just about to text you. I was nervous about your talk with Brittany and when you didn't call or text me, I presumed it ended badly and.." I smiled into the phone listening to her going on and on.
"Ra.."
"You know what Quinn? It's only polite to call people afterwards…"
"Rach.."
"And I presume that you had a.." I laughed into the phone.
"Rachel! Calm down and breathe for God sake!" I heard her take a calming breath, "It didn't end badly"
"Then how did it go?" Rachel asked
"We just talked about right or wrong, but we can talk about it some other time. I really wanted to hear your voice. What are you doing?" I asked.
"Hmm, okay Quinn. I was just looking through some papers, Chris gave me. I'm supposed to grade them, but right now, I'm not feeling for it. How about you" Rachel said.
"Grading some papers, thinking about you" I said smiling. Rachel laughed quietly. "Do you want to meet? Just for some coffee?"
"Sounds like a great idea right now. Meet me in 15?" She said.
"Yes. See you there Rachel" I said and hung up. I walked into the living room. "Finn, I'm heading out for a few hours" Finn didn't react, but was too caught up in the game. "Finn?"
"Hmm? What?"
"Seriously. I'm going out for some coffee" I said annoyed.
Finn frowned, "I thought you were tired?"
"I just coffee with Brittany" I said as I put my jacket on. Finn hummed and was again caught on the game.
"Bye" I said as I walked out the door.
When I arrived at Lima Bean, Rachel was already sitting at a table with two coffees. I smiled widely at the sight and could feel the butterflies in my stomach, just by seeing her. I couldn't resist messing with her a little as she sat with her back to me.
"Hello beautiful" I whispered in her ear.
Rachel jumped in her chair and whipped around. "Seriously Quinn! Why do you keep doing this?!"
I shrugged and smirked. "It's fun" I hugged her and could feel her lean into me.
"It's not fun for me. Someday I might drop dead and it would be your fault. And you would be totally broken"
I laughed heartily at her statement. "I see. That wouldn't be good and yeah.. I probably would be broken" I sat down. "For me?" I asked and motioned to the coffee. Rachel nodded and sat down in front of me. "Thanks Rach"
We sat in silence, sipping of our coffees, when Rachel cleared her throat. "Soo.. What did Brittany have to say?"
I ran my hand through my hair and sighed. "She told me that, it's wrong to cheat on Finn. And I should figure it out before anyone get hurt" Rachel listened and drank of her coffee.
"Can I say something?" She asked. I nodded and feared the worst. "It is wrong. What we're doing and normally I would be running away from something like this" She sighed." But I can't. You intrigue me and I really like you.. your person and spending time with you" I noticed her slip up and couldn't help but feel incredible happy and still kind of sad. "I just can't keep myself away from you".
"I can't keep myself away from you either" I said and Rachel smiled sweetly at me.
"So, we'll see where we end. Okay?"
"Yeah, okay Rach" Rachel looked out of the window.
"Do you want to go for a walk in the park?" She asked.
"Isn't it too dark for that?" Rachel smirked
"Are you afraid of the dark Quinn?"
I snorted, "Pff. Afraid of the dark? Me? I had Sue Sylvester as cheerleading coach in High School. A little darkness is nothing compared to her" I stood and took my jacket on. "Let's go!" Rachel laughed and followed. It was a little cold this evening, so I took the opportunity to walk closer to Rachel.
"So, are you finding a place to live? I mean your own place" I asked.
Rachel shook her head, "No, not yet. It's hard to find something that's cheap and nearby. Anyway, right now I'm not paying for living at home, so I'm not in a hurry"
"I get it, but I wouldn't stand to live with my parents again. 20 years was enough for me" I chuckled.
"Yeah, but my fathers are great. Sometimes I just need my privacy and my fathers and privacy is not a good combination" I nodded and we walked some times in silence.
"Hey" I stopped. "What about that audition. You're going right?"
"Yes I am" Rachel said and stopped in front of me.
"And what have you decided to sing? I remember something about it has to be the right song and you cannot be prepared enough" I mimicked the last part and Rachel laughed. I really love to make her laugh. Rachel then smirked and turned around to walk.
"You can come see yourself" She said and I could hear her chuckle. I stood dumbfounded for a moment, before I jogged after her.
"Hey! Can't you just tell me?"
"Nope" Rachel smirked.
I jogged in front of her and began to walk backwards in front of her. "Well, then I must come and watch you perform" I stopped and hugged her. She chuckled and I could feel her neck vibrate with sound. I kissed her neck gently. "You smell nice"
"Mm, what do I smell of then?" Rachel asked. I made a loud sniffing sound.
"Hmm, Like" 'sniff' "Strawberries and.." 'sniff' "Vanilla. I like it" I placed another kiss. I could feel her smile on my lips.
"Well, aren't you a charmer"
I shrugged. "Just stating the truth" Rachel gave me a peck on the lips. I held her closer to me. She was warm and nice.
"Are you okay Quinn?" I looked down and into beautiful brown orbs.
"I'm absolutely perfect" I dipped down and captured her lips in a sweet and caring kiss. Our mouths fit perfectly. Rachel deepened the kiss and began sucking on my lower lip and I whimpered. Oh, I love her lips. They're so sweet and passionate. Her tongue flicked my lips, and I parted my lips eagerly. I let my hands roam over her body and under her jacket. I could feel her toned abs through her tight shirt. Rachel moaned into my mouth. I could feel Rachel's hand doing the same, but more boldly. I felt a cold hand on my skin, but it wasn't unpleasant. When air became a problem, we both parted. Rachel's face was illuminated by the streetlight. I leaned in and rested my forehead on hers. I lifted my hand to cup her chin. "God, you're beautiful" I whispered and let my thump caress her skin. Rachel looked away. "Don't be embarrassed. It's the truth Rach"
Rachel sighed and leaned more into me. "People used to always criticize me. So to be hearing you or for the matter of fact others, say I'm beautiful, is still kind of hard for me. I was always just the girl with the big nose and annoying attitude"
I hugged her harder. "You should never let anyone tell you, you aren't beautiful or amazing. Because you are Rachel, so very beautiful, amazing and talented" Rachel kissed me on my chin. We stood close to each other and enjoyed it. "It's late" I whispered into her ear. Rachel nodded and stepped back a little. I immediately missed the warmth and her. Rachel yawned. "It looks like it's over your bedtime too" I smiled.
"Yeah, it's been a long day"
"It has. Maybe we should find our beds then?" I asked and started to walk back to the cars. Rachel slipped her fingers through mine. Some of the warmth came back.
When we arrived at Rachel's car, we both stood a little awkwardly. Rachel fiddled with her keys and neither of us wanted to say goodbye. "I wish you could join me" Rachel said lowly and her face went red.
"Me too Rach" I said and smiled sweetly. We stood for a moment looking into each other's eyes. I cleared my throat, "I should get going, before Finn decides to call me" Rachel rolled her eyes and opened the car door. I took a step towards her and leaned into her to kiss her. Rachel responded quickly and I felt her hands in my hair. I caressed her back gently. We parted and I gave her a small peck on the lips. "Goodnight Beautiful".
"Goodnight Quinn" Rachel smiled and sat in the car. I waited until I couldn't see her car anymore, before I went back to mine. I sat in and rested my head on the steering wheel. Be still my heart. It's something else with Rachel. I know it. I started the car and drove home, thinking about how I could get a night with Rachel. Just sleeping in her arms would be lovely.
The TV was still on and Finn was sprawled all over the couch. I turned off the TV and went upstairs to take a shower. Standing under the hot water was great. I quickly ended the shower and jumped under the covers, to let the sleep take over me.
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