Rachel's Week From Hell - Friday
Rachel's alarm went off at 6am sharp playing Totally Fucked from Spring Awakening. "Really? This is what I'm starting my day off with? So not looking forward to today in that case" she thought to herself. She preformed her workout, shower, and bandage routine that she had become accustomed to before pulling on a skirt and blouse. She decided to put a razor and some supplies in her bag just incase. She grabbed her bag and a quick breakfast and made her way to school, talking deep breaths along the way in hopes to calm her nerves, and the feeling that something wasn't right with the day.
When Rachel got to her locker, Finn was no where to be seen. She found this strange since he had been there every day since Tuesday. She found herself oddly relieved he wasn't there. As much as she loves him, his clingy ways had started to annoy her.
She gathered her books for her first class and headed off. She was early and not many other students were around. The hallways were eerily quiet except for the occasional locker slam. Something that didn't help calm her.
As Rachel rounded the corner, she hear what sounded like a moan coming from the nearest room. Worried that someone might be hurt, she peaked in the door and gasped at what she saw.
Finn was sitting on a desk with one of the Cheerios straddling his lap as they made out. Finn was in no way trying to push the girl off of him. In fact, he was wrapping his arms around her and pulling her closer to him. Rachel could hear their conversation in-between kissed.
"See Finn, isn't making out with me so much better then with that hobbit?"
"Yea, much."
"When are you going to ditch It already? It'll be easer to not have to hide this any longer. Sleeping with you last weekend was amazing."
"Yea, it was. She won't even let me touch her boobs under her shirt. You are so much better then she will ever be."
Rachel couldn't take any more of the conversation. She walked to her first class feeling completely numb. She took her seat beside Quinn and didn't even wonder why or how she had beat her there.
Rachel stared blankly at the wall in front of her, slightly trembling. She was conflicted and wasn't sure what to feel. She was hurt, angry, and confused about Finn. She wanted to scream, cry, or throw something. Most of all she wanted to cut. More then anything she wanted to cut.
Quinn noticed Rachel's staring and trembling and was starting to get worried.
"Rachel?"
"…"
She tried again a little louder "Rachel!"
"What Quinn?" Rachel's voice came out quieter and not as strong as she and hoped.
"Are you ok? What's going on?"
"What do you care? Want something else to use against me and tear me down with?"
"No, Rachel, I-"
She was cut off by Rachel getting her bag and walking out of the room.
Rachel couldn't take it any longer, and Quinn asking questions was not helping. She headed to the nearest bathroom. She slammed the door shut and checked under every stall for feet. She breathed a sigh of relief when she saw none, and locked herself in the last stall and sat on the toilet lid.
She wasted no time in pulling the razor out, immediately rolling up the sleeve of her right arm. She pressed down and slid the blade across her arm, breathing a sigh of relief as the blood came out. This time she only added two cuts. She was still aware that she was in school and would not be able to cover them if she did more.
She put the blade back into her bag and pulled out her supply kit. She quickly cleaned and bandaged her arm before cleaning up. She felt so much better and was ready to deal with Finn later in Glee club. She already knew exactly what song she would be singing to him.
Rachel unlocked the stall door and headed back to class, thankful that the bell hadn't rang yet, so she would not be late.
She took her same seat next to Quinn, who immediately looked at her. Rachel gave her a small smile and subconsciously pulled her sleeve down a little farther. Quinn's worst fears were confirmed when she saw this. She knew what Rachel was doing. She knew she needed to help the tiny diva.
"Rachel"
"Yes Quinn"
"Uhmm.. Never mind" Quinn wasn't sure what to say, and bringing it up in a crowed classroom was probably not the best idea. She didn't know how Rachel would react. "Actually Rachel, can we talk later? Please?"
"Sure Quinn. We'll talk after Glee"
When the bell rang signaling the end of class, Rachel bolted out the door to her locker.
Unfortunately, Finn was there waiting for her.
"Hi Rach. I missed you this morning."
"Yea, I got her early and decided to just go to class"
"Oh ok." He leaned down to kiss her, but Rachel turned her head and pulled away from him.
"Not now Finn" She said before slamming her locker closed and storming away, leaving Finn in shock. He couldn't figure out what was going on with her. He couldn't think of anything he had done wrong since yesterday.
To Finn's surprise, he couldn't find Rachel for the rest of the day. She was rather stealthy and very good at being invisible when she needed to be. He decided to head to Glee early in hopes to see her before everyone else got there.
To Finn's dismay, she wasn't in there yet. He took his usual seat in the front row and decided to wait for her. The rest of the Glee club slowly trickled in, but no Rachel.
Five minutes after Glee club was supposed to start, Rachel walked in the room. Finn smiled and looked at her. She sent him a glare wand went to sit in an open seat next to Quinn, surprising both Quinn and Finn. He turned around and looked at her. She didn't even bother to acknowledge him.
Mr. Schue walked in and looked around.
"Ok guys, time for songs. Who would like to go first?"
Rachel's hand shot up and the rest of the room groaned
"Ok Rachel, lets see what you've got. You're singing to Finn, correct?"
"Yes Mr. Schue, that's correct."
"Anything you would like to say before you sing?"
"No, I think it's pretty self explanatory."
"Ok then, whenever you're ready."
Rachel nodded to the band and the music began to play.
Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone
She looked at Finn and saw confusion on his face
How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want
Since you been gone
Rachel watched as realization started to dawn on Finn
You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again
She could tell that Finn was now pissed at this point
Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Finn stood up as soon as the song ended
"What the hell Rachel? You're breaking up with me?"
"You're damn right I am Finn!" The rest of the group gasped at Rachel's use of the word, but she ignored them.
"How could you do this to me Rachel? After everything we've gone through!"
"You want to play that card Finn? Fine. This is your fault. You cheated on me! I saw you this morning with one of the Cheerios. I heard your conversation about sleeping with her last weekend. I saw that you made no move to push her away and that you were pulling her closer!"
"Rachel.. Let me explain"
"NO Finn, you don't get to explain. We're through. I don't want to speak to you non-the-less even be friends with you again."
"Oh and Hobbit?"
"What Santana?"
"I took his v-card when you were with St. Jackass, he's been lying to you about that one too." she said as if this were boring her
"What! You know what Finn, screw you! And as for the rest of you" she sneered at the rest of the club "I'm sick of all of you. I'm tired of your insults and trying to tear me down. I'm done with you and I'm done with this club. I quit Glee. Good luck winning Sectionals without me!"
"Now Rachel, lets not" Will cut in
"No, you don't get a say in this Schue. You sit there everyday and belittle me just like they do. You never stop them from saying things about me or to me. And heaven forbid I try and add in a point to make a suggestion, you try and tell me that I'm not being a team player and I need to just hush. And yet you protect every one of them and let them make their comments and then yell at me if I say anything. So no, you don't get a say in this. I'm done."
Rachel grabbed her bag before storming out of the room.
"She is such a diva. Always trying to get attention and things she way" Kurt said
"Seriously. She really needs to get over herself" from Mercedes.
"What if she doesn't come back? What are we going to do about sectionals?" Tina asked.
Mercedes jumped in to answer "Oh please, by Tuesday she'll be begging to come back."
By this point, Quinn had had enough "No, she won't be back. Can't you guys pull your heads out of you asses long enough to realize that she's done with all of you. That she's sick of all the shit you've put her through? That she wants nothing to do with you anymore? Hum? Know what, Rachel's right, good luck winning when your two people down. I quit." Quinn then followed Rachel's lead and stormed out of the room.
The rest of the club sat in silence at what had just happened.
"Uhmm.. Ok, I think we've all had enough for the day. Go home guys. See you next week. Will managed to say.
(Rachel meanwhile)
After storming out of Glee club, Rachel immediately headed straight for her car. She couldn't be at school for another minute. She had tears pouring down her face and just needed out. She knew she didn't want to go home to an empty house, so she decided on the park, figuring that it would be deserted about this time anyway.
She floored her gas petal and made it there in record time. She shoved her keys in a pocket before digging out her ipod and walking towards the lake. She didn't notice the woman with an infant sitting a few hundred feet away from her.
(Quinn during the same time period)
After walking out of Glee, Quinn made her way into the nearest bathroom, just incase Rachel and went there first. Nothing. She tried the Rachel's locker next. Nothing. She decided to check the parking lot. Not one sign of her or her Jeep. Quinn knew that she must have taken off already. Quinn ran to her car and headed off to Rachel's house.
Rachel's car wasn't in the driveway and no one was home.
"Shit. Where is she?"
She got an idea to try the park and took off.
Quinn pulled into the parking lots minutes later and recognized Rachel's Jeep sitting there. Quinn got out and walked towards the lake where she noticed a small figure sitting by the water.
When Quinn got to Rachel, she could see that her knees were pulled into her chest with the face buried into her arms. The same position she found her in the day before in the dumpster. She could see her body shaking as she sobbed.
Quinn sat down next to her and gently touched her arm. "Rach?"
Rachel jumped at the contact and looked at Quinn, wiping the tears out of her eyes.
"What do you want Quinn. Here to finish what everyone else started? Go ahead. I don't care."
"No Rachel, I'm not. Actually, I wanted to apologize to you. For everything. I'm so sorry Rachel. I wish I would have seen it sooner."
"Just save it Quinn, I really don't want to hear it." Rachel got up and stormed back to her Jeep and took off. Quinn sat there frozen and not really sure what to do. She decided to just leave Rachel be and let her calm down, praying that she didn't do anything stupid as she walked back to her car and left.
Neither girl realized that Shelby and Beth were sitting not far from them and Shelby watched their every move.
Shelby was confused when she saw Rachel flop down on the grass and pull herself into a ball. She wanted to go over and talk to her but couldn't find the courage to. She then saw Quinn walk down next to Rachel. Shelby was relieved that someone was there for Rachel. However, when she noticed Rachel starting to yell, she knew something wasn't right. After Rachel stormed off, she knew for sure.
Rachel drove around Lima and a few other towns for two hours before deciding to go home.
Rachel headed straight for her bathroom, turning on the shower as hot as she could tolerate, before stripping off her clothes and stepping in. The water soothed her tired body as more sobs escaped, causing Rachel to sink to the floor of the tub.
When the water started to run cold, she shut it off and stepped out. She opened the vanity drawer and looked at the package of razor blades, but decided to forgo it. She was too tired and really didn't want to deal with cleaning up after. She pulled on the pajamas still sitting on the bed from that morning and curled into a ball on the bed. Immediately, she succumbed to sleep as it washed over her.