Serena woke up in a room that she had never seen before. There were still lines on the nightstand, empty prescription bottles all over the room, and joints on the floor. She had no idea where she was, who she was with, or what day it was. She felt so lost.
She put on her shoes and grabbed what she recognized as her purse in a chair. Her phone was dead. She ran out of the building and hailed a cab home.
She was exhausted and in desperate need of a shower. There was no one home. She went to her room and plugged her phone in. The date came on the screen. She realized she had no recollection of the last 3 days. She had officially hit rock bottom.
After she showered she went back to her room and found her mom sitting on her bed.
"Serena, I've been looking for you for days." There were dark circles under Lily's eyes.
She climbed on her bed and curled up against her mother. Her bottom lip quivered and tears started falling out of her eyes. "Mom, I need help."
...
Serena called Blair to her penthouse; she wanted to say goodbye. Blair walked into Serena's bedroom.
"I've been calling you for days, where have you been?"
Serena took Blair's hand and told her parts of her life that she had never said out loud before. They cried together.
"I need to go away for some time. I need to get better."
"Like, to rehab?" Blair managed to say through sniffles. "But you're my best friend."
Serena smiled. "You're my best friend too Blair. But I need to do this."
Blair nodded. It was sad that they had so little time together. "Will you call?"
Serena nodded. They hugged and had the last slumber party they would have in a while.
Serena was packed and ready to go. There was only one other person she wanted to say bye to and he was in Monaco for the Summer. She left a letter with her doorman, asking him to mail it for her.
Serena didn't know how to say goodbye to she wrote him a letter:
Dear Natie,
I have made a lot of mistakes in my life but the one I regret
the most is hurting you. I never wanted you to see the real
me but you deserve the truth. The girl you met is only a projection of who I hope to be someday. The real me is selfish, insecure, and has a drug addiction. I need to work on getting better. Thanks for making me a better person, if only for a little while. Love, Serena.