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Chapter 6
When I finally came to, there was so much noise I couldn't wrap my head around it all. Between constant panic, to random beeping noises to someone crying..it was too much. I wanted peace and quiet! It was bad enough I basically got sick after kissing Edward...I could just begin to imagine how much he's beating himself up right now..His fear-in his mind coming true-of hurting me. We'd have a constant discussion for days over how we were fine and it wasn't his fault until he'd even start to relax. I groaned aloud, from the noises, internally willing them away. As soon as I made that noise, everything else stopped and I suddenly felt like I was being watched.
"O thank god, she's ok," someone exclaimed, though I couldn't be sure who.
"Isabella?" someone asked.
"She goes by Bella," someone corrected the person, thankfully.
"Of course...Bella, can you hear me?" the person spoke again. I tried to respond, though my throat felt so dry. I needed though, I felt my eyes begin to open, though it was so bright in the room I had to close them. It took a few minutes to adjust but once I did...I was caught off guard. I was in a hospital bed. Had Edward rushed me off to the hospital? He knew better than that..I hated hospitals. Surrounding me was a doctor I didn't know, Edward and my dad in the far corner. This time, when I tried to speak, the guy who looked like a doctor got me some water and helped me get ahold of the straw. It felt so good to have water going down my throat.
"Bella...do you know where you are?" the doctor asked. I cleared my throat before responding.
"The hospital," it was pretty obvious considering I was been hooked up to stupid machines. "Which brings me to my next point...I don't need to be here so how about we get those discharge papers and I'll be on my way." as I said this, I tried sitting up but instantly went down. My body had that same familiar pain and stiffness it had before. Of course it'd still be there.
"Sorry Bella...you're in recovery and are in no condition to be released yet," he told me. He looked at Edward and at my father before addressing me again. "I'll tell you what, I'll let you rest but then when you're up to it, we'll discuss your current condition." I didn't care what he had to say, I was fine. I just nodded, acknowledging him and he left. Suddenly it was really awkward in the room...I watched as my father shot daggers as he glared at Edward. I didn't get that...in this reality they would have been fine.
"You can leave now." Charlie barked at Edward. There was no way I was letting that happen.
"You're kidding right?" I said in disbief. They both look at me confused, though Charlie was more angry than confused.
"Bella I should respect your fathers wishes and leave the two of you alone," Edward replied...being too kind for his own good. I shook my head, refusing to let him leave. I needed to talk to him, without Charlie here.
"No," I simply said. "Dad, I don't mean to insult you but I need to speak with Edward alone please." Charlie said nothing. He just stormed out of the room trying to mask the hurt that was on his face. Edward stayed by the door..which confused me.
"Aren't you going to come sit with me?" I asked...trying not to let myself think he changed his mind and didn't want me. The heart moniter began to speed up as I internally began to panic and he was by my side, staring at the moniter panicking on his own. "It's nothing, I'm fine." I told him. As the machine slowed down, Edward began to calm. "So the hospital...I highly doubt it was necessary, don't you?" He looked at me, confused.
"Bella...the hospital is exactly where I needed to take you," he said, hurt in his voice. "I'm honestly just surprised you remember any or all of it."
"It's hard to forget any time we're in the meadow," I started. "But it's fine, soon I'll be released and I can tell you more about how we were when it first all happened. You won't have to go through Alice anymore." I laughed.
"The meadow?"he asked, confused. "Bella...what do you remember?"
"We were in the meadow...I finally told you about us...you got me to admit I loved you...we were kissing, and then that pain I'd been feeling intensified and everything went black...I never had that pain in my reality, it's weird." I told him.
"Your reality?"
"I have to go over this again?"I asked, slighlty annoyed. "Remember...I woke up back on my first day of Forks High School...reliviing everything that had already happened for me..."
"Bella...that didn't happen..." he told me...what? of course it did! "Bella...I didn't bring here from the meadow..."
"Then where did you bring me here from?" I asked, annoyed. I wouldn't forget something like that. The pained expression was back on his face.
"Bella...the cliffs, do you remember them?" he asked me.
"Yes...I jumped and didn't make it. Then woke up in a different reality" I told him.
"Bella...you did make it, but just barely," he started. "Alice had a vision of you jumping off the cliffs and not making it. I rushed to stop you and I was almost too late. I only got to you after you'd been under a little more than a minute...I barely made it in time. You've been in the hospital and in a coma for a little over a week...it was touch and go for a while but somehow..you pulled through..."
The alternate reality was just a dream? It couldn't be...could it? I thought I died...but I didn't?
"It did happen though...maybe I dreamt it all..." I thought out loud.
"What was it about?" I looked at him and smiled, though there was no smile on his face. He was still in pain.
"Us being destined to be together...fate doesn't seem to like the idea of us not existing without the other," my smile grew bigger at the thought.
"Bella.." he looked down, afraid to look me in the eye. "This is all my fault...that day in the woods...the things I said...I was so stupid to think I could live with such a lie...I wished, so much that you would see passed the lie...but I will make this up to you Bella...if it takes the rest of my existence, that's what I will do. I will never disappoint you again..."
"Edward...I love you and I know all of this now. I want to be with you," I paused. "and when I say that..I don't mean until I grow old and die. I mean eternity Edward. This is us I'm talking about and fate already showed me what would happen if I died...we'll just end up starting over from the beginning until it gets the ending it wants..." I laughed.
"Bella..you don't know what you're asking..."he shook his head, trying to deter the idea of me being changed.
"Edward...I know what I'm asking for. I know what I'd be giving up. And as long as I'm with you, the rest of that stuff doesn't matter. What matters is we spend the rest of eternity together, taking advantage of every moment and showing each other just how much we love the other...this isn't your decision...it's mine. But I can't do it alone..." I watched as he battled with himself over which choice was the right to make, until finally, he decided.
"Is this what you really want?" he asked, staring intently into my eyes.
"Yes."
"Then ok...but, after graduation..."he told me.
"You've got a deal...but if I decide I want any moderations made to our deal I hold the power to request them..."I added. Thankfully he agreed. I didn't know right then and there if there'd be anything to add but I didn't want problems later.
As the months went on after my release from the hospital-which didn't happen until psych evaluated me and determined I wasn't a threat to myself-I grew more and more anxious for graduation. Charlie hadn't warmed up to the idea of Edward being back in my life and I have trouble at times leaving the house unless Charlie takes me...the last time that happened, I lied and jumped off a cliff. That nearly destroyed Charlie and I felt bad, especially since I'd have to say goodbye after graduation.
Though while I grew anxious for the change...I realized a month later there was something I didn't want to miss out on. Since we were reunited, Edward didn't hold as many restrictions on our physical relationship, much to my pleasant surprise. Though it made me realize I wanted every experience with him. When I brought it up, of course he panicked. "Bella, it's too dangerous." he told me. Though, after much convincing and bringing up our agreement...the human experience I wanted so badly became my condition. Edward, of course, said he would change me but there was a condition...
Needless to say, we ended up engaged at the end of that conversation though he claims he would have proposed either way. Why wouldn't I want to be with Edward? We had three months without the other person and clearly, as I had learned, fate had other plans for us. Despite the choices we make, things always have a way of working themselves out in the end...
The End
A/N: so here is where I felt it appropriate to put an attention note. This is the end of the story and now I can ask...how did you all like it? Was the ending what you hoped it would be? I'm not sure if there will be an epilogue...I've never thought of having one. It may have seemed odd how I have all this posted and complete in one day...I've been writing this for a month or two...so I hope the time ended up paying off...I look forward to seeing what you all think! Thanks for reading!
