Chapter 6

Six hours later Sasuke began to wake up. He didn't even remember falling asleep but he knew he had gotten high and drunk. The major headache he had was a clear indication of that. His whole body felt like shit he needed a shot right now to balance it all out. He opened his eyes to find that he was lying down on his couch with Kakashi sitting next to him in his chair. Sasuke was confused he didn't remember Kakashi coming over at all. Sasuke slowly sat up putting a shaky hand on his head hoping that would for some reason help his headache.

"When did you get here?"

"This morning you've been asleep for six hours now."

"This morning? What are you doing here?"

"I told you the other day I was going to come over and see you today to check up on you. It was a good thing that I did or you would still be drunk and stoned out of your mind."

"What now you're judging me?"

"I'm not judging just saying you can't spend your days getting drunk and shooting up heroin. For example your report is still due tomorrow."

"I'll get it done I don't need a babysitter thanks."

"No what you need is a shower and food."

"I'm not hungry."

"Too bad you're gonna eat something. I don't know if you've noticed but you weigh almost nothing."

"I'm fine"

"Oh you are far from fine Sasuke."

Sasuke stood up and made his way into the kitchen to get a glass of water.

"What's with your attitude?" he asked Kakashi

"What's with my attitude?" Kakashi said as he stood up and went into the kitchen where Sasuke was.

"Yes your attitude if you haven't noticed you're in my house who the hell even gave you permission to be here."

"I had permission the second I walked in here and you were so drunk and high you could barely stand up! Not to mention this place was a mess you had empty liquor bottles and drugs all over the table. Syringes, used syringes on the table. You're sixteen years old and you're addicted to shooting up heroin to the point where you are beyond fucked up! And you are really going to stand there and ask me what is with my attitude?"

Kakashi was furious how could he not be he didn't even care that he was standing right in front of Sasuke screaming at him. He was so furious that he didn't even notice that Sasuke's shaking had gotten worse.

"Is this your plan to just be some drug addict for the rest of your life? Are you just going to shot up heroin until you overdose somewhere in a place where no one gives a dam about you? Is that you plan to deal with the last three years!"

Sasuke was having a difficult time breathing he was on the verge of having a panic attack. He couldn't handle someone yelling at him or yelling in general. Nothing good ever came from it and he couldn't stop the memories from coming to the front of his mind. Followed closely by his desire to shoot up right now to make then go away.

"I…I ne…need you to stop…stop ye… yelling pl…plea….please."

Kakashi didn't expect that to come out of Sasuke's mouth he was so far into rage that he didn't even notice Sasuke's reaction. He was shaking like a leaf in the wind, he was hyperventilating and stuttering. Kakashi could tell he was on the verge of a pain attack. Kakashi immediately stepped back giving Sasuke some room to calm down.

"Sasuke calm down and deep breaths okay. I'm sorry I wasn't thinking I was angry at this situation. I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell just take some deep breaths to slow your breathing down."

Sasuke slowly took a few deep breaths to try and calm his breathing down. With Kakashi now not right in front of him but backed off it was easier to catch his breath and calm down. After a few minutes his breathing was normal but he was still shaking.

"I can't handle yelling."

"Okay I'm sorry I didn't think."

"He used to yell when something didn't go his way or when he just woke up pissy that day. He would yell and pain always followed. The more he yelled the worse the torture would be and the longer it would last. The yelling I can't… the memories... his hands everywhere."

Sasuke started to hyperventilate Kakashi moved over so that he was closer to Sasuke he put his hands on Sasuke's arms and started to rub them.

"Calm down Sasuke deep breaths. It's only my hands on you. Just breathe."

After a few good deep breaths Sasuke's breathing turned back to normal. However, Kakashi still kept his hands on Sasuke's arms.

"Are you alright?"

Sasuke nodded his head "Ya I'm fine."

"Ok I'm sorry I didn't mean to yell I won't do it again no matter how mad I am. Its okay I'm sorry I'm just so frustrated and upset but not at you. It's not your fault that all this shit happened to you in any way. It's natural for you to be having problems afterwards I'm just… scared for you. Sasuke you're drinking hard liquor and shooting up heroin. I'm afraid that you're going downhill fast and I don't want you losing everything."

"I need to take a shower and write my report."

"Ok but you need to eat something to. How about we meet for dinner I can come back say around seven we can get something to eat. You can get out for a little while."

Sasuke seemed to think about it for a few minutes trying to decide what he wanted to do. He knew he needed more liquor and he knew he needed more drugs. He also knew that he would be hungry and maybe getting out for a little while with Kakashi wouldn't be such a bad idea.

"Ok I'll see you at seven."

"Ok make sure you write your report just get it over and done with."

"I'll do it after my shower."

"Ok I'll see you at seven I'll be home though if you need me."

"Mmhmm"

Kakashi made his way out of Sasuke's place he needed the fresh air to calm down anyways. He couldn't believe that he lost his temper at Sasuke. He forgot that Sasuke wasn't good with yelling now that he had been in the Sound. He figured Orochimaru would have yelled what he didn't know until today was that Orochimaru would torture Sasuke when he was yelling. No wonder Sasuke was so scared of someone yelling. Kakashi couldn't help but wonder if he couldn't handle yelling at him or just in general. He would have to ask him tonight when he saw him. He also needed to ask a few other questions about what happened so he has a better clue what to do and what not to do.

After Sasuke took a shower he worked on his report he tried to do it as quickly as possible for he wasn't feeling too great with. He didn't have any heroin left that he could find so he knew he would have to go and get some. The problem was he didn't want to go out during the day to make the deal but he didn't really have any other choice. So with his report for the Higher Up done he got his jacket on and headed out. He was hoping that Kovu would be out at this time of the day he really needed a fix otherwise he would be way too sick by seven for dinner with Kakashi. Sasuke got to the alley that he first met Kovu in and he was relieved to see him standing there. He quickly walked across the street and into the alley.

"Well well well look who it is. Back for more are you sexy?" Kovu said with a sly smile on his face.

"Only if you have any." Sasuke said he knew Kovu was trying to flirt with him. It didn't bother him after everything he went through in the Sound. A little flirting didn't bother him at all.

"Oh I got a lot."

"Maybe you should show me one day."

"I'm not sure you could handle it."

"I can handle anything. The question is could you handle what I got."

"Baby I could make you scream."

"Careful you keep talking to me like that and I'll make you prove it."

"Come over to my place tonight and I'll prove it all night long."

"I just might have to let you."

"How much you need? Same as last time?"

"Sounds good to me."

Sasuke said as he handed over the money that was owed and in return received his ounce of heroin.

"55 Lang Street I'll be there from nine o'clock on. Come by and I'll give you a night you'll never forget."

"Maybe I will."

Sasuke said as he walked off to head back to his place so he could shoot up. That's exactly what he did when he got back to his place. He still had three hours before Kakashi would be here so he didn't drink the new bottles of liquor he picked up as well. He cleaned up the house trying to keep busy so he wouldn't stop and think about what happened in the last three years. He couldn't stop thinking about Kovu he was only joking with him but the offer was tempting. It wouldn't be the first time he had meaningless sex he did it often to try and get rid of Orochimaru's hands off from him. Kovu was hot and depending on how this dinner with Kakashi was going to go he may just actually show up there tonight. After all meaningless sex, drugs and liquor it was the perfect cocktail to feel numb. It would also be nice to be around someone that wasn't judging him and giving him weird looks. Sure he was friends with Naruto and Sakura they were on a team after all, but they couldn't understand what happened to him. They couldn't understand how he felt and they definitely wouldn't understand him doing heroin.

Three hours later the house was spotless and he was all dressed and ready to go. He had shot up an hour ago so he wouldn't be shaking and to unfocused when he went out with Kakashi. Now he was pacing around the house with nothing to do trying to not think about the memories that were threatening to creep up on him. A few minutes later there was a knock on his door. Sasuke let out a sigh of relief at least with Kakashi here they could talk and he wouldn't have to think about the past. Sasuke opened the door to find Kakashi standing there.

"Hey"

"Hello Sasuke you ready to go?"

"Ya"

Sasuke walked out closing his door behind him and locking it. He had everything he needed in his pocket just in case he did decide to go out afterwards. They walked side by side each other for a few minutes in silence before Sasuke couldn't take it anymore and spoke.

"So where are we going?"

"I figured we could go to Sanji it's nice and quiet not a lot of people."

"Sounds good."

"Did you get you report done?"

"Ya it took forever if I had known they wanted a report for the last three years I would have kept track each day."

"Ya that's definitely not easy. I remember when I was younger I had a mission that was just over a yearlong by the time I had finished it. When I got back I found out that the report had to cover the whole year even of the things that didn't really matter. Of course I handed it in a few days late I just couldn't seem to bring myself to sit down and write it especially because I lived it."

"Ya nothing is more fun than re living the shit you don't want to remember."

"It gets easier as time goes on."

They arrived at the restaurant and got a seat in the back where they could be alone and not bothered by people that came in. Kakashi knew that Sasuke wasn't comfortable being back in the village yet. There was still too many looks from villagers and ones that feel he shouldn't be here after the Sound even though it was a mission. They ordered their drinks Sasuke ordered water he knew that after the last few days he would need to be careful of his water intake. It was all a balancing act when it came to the drinking and heroin one that he did very well. They sat in silence for a few minutes before Sasuke had to break it.

"So what was the mission?"

"The yearlong one?"

"Ya"

"I had to go undercover it was only supposed to be a few months but things started to appear that we didn't expect. They were smugglers and at first we thought they were only smuggling weapons and scrolls things like that. When it was time to end it the ring leader approached me and said he had a new shipment, that he wanted me to take care of. He then explained to me that the shipment was orphans young as five years old. They were smuggling weapons and scrolls as a front for the fact that they were smuggling children to the sex trade. So I reported it and I was instructed to stay in and six months later I was finally able to put an end to it and all the major players were taken care of."

"Wow that must have been hard."

"It was especially because I was only nineteen and seeing all these young innocent children being sold and traded and not be able to do anything. I wanted to kill every single person that came by to see a child or take them. I don't understand what goes through an adult's mind that says that's okay."

"There are a lot of people out there that don't care."

"I'm sure you've seen a lot worse than what I have."

"You know you expect the bad ones to hurt you, lie and be bad. What is worse is when it's the good ones that turn bad. When the ones that are supposed to help you and protect you turn around and become a bad one. You can't really trust anyone these days; everyone has a price it seems like."

"I can understand that especially where you've been the last three years its natural for you to feel that way and to think everyone can't be trusted. You can trust me though."

"I'm trying I didn't think it would be this hard."

"Trusting me?"

"No, well yes but I mean everything. The last three years all I could think about was leaving and coming back home. Now that I'm here it so hard to be here. Everything is different people are different and I don't really know where to be. Tsunade doesn't want me doing missions right now so I can't get away when I need to. Naruto and Sakura they have changed so much and at the same time they haven't. They're still innocent and naïve, they still believe in the good in the world. They wouldn't understand. I don't know why but I thought everything would stay the same that I could come back and just go back to how it used to be."

"I know it's hard for you, you've been gone for three years and so much can change in that amount of time. Naruto and Sakura though they still care about you they still look up to you and rely on you. They might be more mature and stronger than they were three years ago but I assure you their personalities are very much the same. You could also make new friends ones that you didn't really know before you left that might help you feel more at home."

"Ya because I'm a social butterfly." Sasuke joked and Kakashi smiled at that comment.

"True, but it couldn't hurt to try."

"Yes it could. Are you kidding me with my luck I'll become friends with some serial killer."

"I don't think Konoha has any serial killers."

"How would you know?"

"Fair enough."

It felt good to just be joking around with Sasuke after so long. It was nice to see him smirk and even give a small smile every now and then. Even though Kakashi knew he was high, but that was ok for right now.

"I know you don't want to talk about anything that happened in the Sound. However I need to know a few things so that what happened earlier today doesn't happen again. The last thing I want to do is cause you to have a pain attack."

"I don't like yelling."

"Ok in general or just towards you?"

"In general even if it's not at me, just someone angry and yelling."

"Ok anything else?"

"Crowds I don't like a lot of people around me."

"Why?"

"He used to have parties with hundreds of people. He would tie me up in the middle of the room I guess I was the entertainment. They … I can't I can't talk about this."

"Ok that's okay. We don't have to talk about it. Is there anything else that might cause you to have a panic attack?"

"No at least not that I know of."

"Alright thank you for telling me. Like I said I don't want to do something that will cause you to have an attack. I want to help you get better not worse."

"Can we just talk about something else please?"

"Definitely."

The rest of the dinner was done with small talk. Kakashi telling Sasuke what he had spent the last three years doing. They talked about how things have changed and how the village was doing. Kakashi made sure he didn't bring up anything that had to do with the Sound or Sasuke's past three years. He could understand that it would be difficult for him to speak about it. He also understood the need to not talk about it and to talk about normal everyday things. Kakashi was more than happy to give him that. Kakashi knew that he should be talking about rehabs and getting Sasuke off the heroin. However, he knew he couldn't force Sasuke into doing it. The best thing he could do right now was act like everything was okay until Sasuke realised that he couldn't do this anymore. As wrong as it might sound Kakashi had to just act like he was alright with Sasuke doing drugs. If he didn't then when Sasuke was in trouble or needed his help to get clean he wouldn't turn to him. So for now Kakashi would be his friend and be there for when he needed him. Even if it hurt seeing Sasuke like this. After two hours they had finished their dinner and were heading out.

"You can come over if you want spend the night?" Kakashi asked hoping he could keep Sasuke in his sights for a little longer.

"Thanks but I think I'm just gonna head home. All that lack of sleep is starting to catch up to me. I feel like I could sleep for a week straight right now."

"That's how it usually works. Once your body isn't on point all the time usually that's when everything hits you and you suddenly realise how exhausted you are. It's happened to me before from long missions where you have to watch your back all the time."

"Ya maybe I'll come by tomorrow though."

"Sure you're always welcomed any time Sasuke."

"Ok well I'll see you tomorrow then thank you for tonight it was nice to be out of the house for a little while."

"You know where to find me if you need me."

With that Sasuke gave a nod and walked off towards his desired location. He wasn't going back home he was heading over to Kovu's place. It was nine o'clock so he would be there after seeing Kakashi and talking about the past a little bit he really needed a distraction now. Kovu would be perfect for that he could do drugs and get his brains fucked out at the same time exactly what he needed to make the hands go away. He got to the house and he knocked on the door after a moment Kovu answered. He was hoping that Sasuke would show up tonight. He couldn't believe when he saw Sasuke in that alley that first night. The Uchiha Sasuke was addicted to heroin it was just too good to be true and now tonight he could make him his.

"Hey sexy come on in."

Sasuke gave a smile and walked into the house. There was no one else there but in the living room there was liquor and drugs all over the place Sasuke knew tonight would be a great night.

"You're all alone eh?"

"Ya I live alone I am twenty-one after all. Though if you're feeling adventurous I could have someone else to come over and party with us."

"I'd think you'd like that way too much. But be my guest if you can't make me scream all on your own."

"Hm oh I'll make you scream all night long."

"Can't wait." Sasuke said as he sat down on the couch.

"Well now let get this party started you look like you could use a hit."

"Very much so."

Kovu sat down beside Sasuke and got a hit ready for Sasuke. He then turned to him with the needle ready.

"Give me your arm."

"Why?"

"I love shooting up someone. I love the power it gives me and I love watching as the drugs go through their body."

Sasuke took his jacket off and pulled off the wrist band he had over his elbow to hide the track marks. He held his arm out to Kovu and watched as he put the needle into his veins. It was instant he could feel the heroin going through his body the feeling was amazing.

"Fuck you are so sexy looking like this." Kovu said

He wasn't going to wait any longer he moved over and pushed Sasuke down so he was on his back and leaned over him. Kovu claimed Sasuke's mouth. The kiss was rough and heated you could feel the lust he had for Sasuke. Tonight he was going to fuck him stupid he was going to make sure that Sasuke couldn't walk for a few days afterwards. Kovu grind his hips down on Sasuke's crotch making Sasuke moan. Kovu shoved his tongue in Sasuke's mouth he took dominance over Sasuke he was his bitch and no one else's. Kovu wasn't going to wait any longer. He took off Sasuke's shirt and he began to take off his pants as Sasuke did the same to him. Kovu was already hard and so was Sasuke.

"Turn around I want you on your knees with that sweet ass of yours in the air."

Sasuke did as he was told he turned around and bent down so his face was against the seat and his ass in the air. Kovu didn't waste any time to prepare him or to even use lube he loved it rough he just pushed into Sasuke's tight ass in one go. Sasuke screamed at the sudden pain that shot through him.

"Mmm I told you I would make you scream tonight. Fuck your ass is so tight."

Kovu was relentless he thrusted into Sasuke with everything he had. He loved the feel of Sasuke's tight ass and as he hit Sasuke's sweet spot Sasuke moaned. Kovu kept aiming for that same spot loving the sounds that Sasuke was making.

"Fuck you sound like a whore when you make those sounds I love it. Fuck you are mine and only mine."

Sasuke moaned to what Kovu had said

"Say it tell me you're mine."

"Fuck I'm yours."

"Tell me you're my whore."

"Mmm I'm your whore oh fuck harder."

"Mmm ya"

Kovu pushed into Sasuke as hard as he could he wanted to go as deep as possible into the tight heat. Kovu kept smacking his ass as hard as he could making it red. Sasuke was sure there would be bruises tomorrow. Kovu bent forward more so he could get a better angle to go even deeper. He put his right hand around the back of Sasuke's neck in a bruising grip.

"Play with yourself as I fuck you. Show me how much of a whore you are."

Sasuke kept moaning he went to start to jerk himself off as Kovu pounded into him. He could feel himself getting close and sure enough he cam follow by Kovu a few minutes later. Kovu pulled out of Sasuke and sat back down on the couch.

"Fuck you feel so good."

Sasuke moved to he was on his back looking at Kovu.

"Well now I need a shower."

"I'll join you."

Kovu said as he held out a shot of tequila to Sasuke as he had one in his other hand. They both downed the shot and got up to head to the bathroom to shower. That's how the night went from there on they had sex again in the shower got out and drank and Sasuke shot up heroin while Kovu snorted crystal. They didn't sleep they didn't eat and by the time Sasuke even realised what time it was he had been in that house with Kovu for the last two days straight on a binge and having rough sex. Sasuke got dressed and headed out Kovu gave him an ounce as a parting gift and said he would see Sasuke later. Sasuke just gave a smile as he headed out the door and towards home. His body was all sore from the rough sex and the injuries that he had gotten from the Sound. The sunlight hurt his eyes and he felt like shit not sleeping the last two days and barely sleeping the weeks before that was definitely taking a toll on him now. Sasuke wasn't even looking up as a result he walked right into someone.

"Sorry" Sasuke said as he looked up to see who he walked into and sure enough it was Kakashi.

"Oh hey."

"Hello you look like death." Kakashi said with concern in his voice.

"I feel like death."

"Where have you been the last two days?"

"Oh friend's place. Now I'm heading home. What about you?"

"I was actually on my way to check on you. Come on I'll walk you home and make sure you don't die on the way."

"Geez thanks."

Kakashi was joking about Sasuke dying on the way home but he truly was concerned that it might actually happen. Sasuke was unbelievably pale, he had dark circles under his eyes and he even had some bite marks on his neck that was surprisingly making Kakashi mad. He had no claim over Sasuke at all, but that didn't stop the feel of jealousy that came over him. He knew it was wrong to feel jealousy over a sixteen year old but Kakashi couldn't help it. Over the last three years he hadn't been able to get that night out of his mind. It was wrong on so many levels but when they had sex it felt so right like they were meant to be. Kakashi spent many months scolding himself for enjoying as much as he did Sasuke was just a thirteen year old boy and he shouldn't have enjoyed it. Kakashi hated himself for months upon months after that, but finally he just accepted that it was the person he enjoyed and not the age attached to said person. Now Sasuke was sixteen years old and even more attractive than he had been three years ago. And he couldn't help the jealousy that devoured him at the site of those bite marks, those angry red painful looking marks. Kakashi found himself fighting the urge to take Sasuke and reclaim him for himself and remind him of how good it can feel. They didn't speak a single word on the way to Sasuke's place Kakashi couldn't bring himself to talk about this in public. He needed to know what Sasuke had done the last two days, but he also knew this wasn't a conversation to have outside where anyone could hear. They finally got to Sasuke's place and once inside Sasuke automatically headed for the couch and collapsed down onto it. Kakashi took the chair beside the couch like he did last time so he could see Sasuke. Though, Kakashi didn't waste any time in asking Sasuke a question.

"So who is your new friend?"

"Just some guy I met a few days ago."

"You've only been back a few days."

"Ya I met him on my way home after dinner with everyone."

"So what's his name?"

"Kovu"

Sasuke was lying down he had his eyes closed but he couldn't seem to fall asleep and it had nothing to do with Kakashi's questions. His whole body was sore and stiff from the last two days especially his ass. Kovu had been extremely rough with him and it got rougher the more he did it. Not that Sasuke minded at the time it was exactly what he needed. He needed the meaningless sex to get rid of Orochimaru's hands for a little while which it did. Now though his whole body ached and it was hard to get comfortable not to mention he felt like shit for drinking and doing heroin the last two days straight. Usually when he did shoot up he would only do it every four hours, though the last two days he was doing it every couple hours. Kovu kept shooting him up and he knew that he would be paying for it when he got home. Sasuke moved so he was lying on his left side facing into the room and Kakashi. Kakashi noticed the whimper that escaped Sasuke's mouth as he moved onto his side.

"You ok?"

"Ya just sore injuries still haven't really healed yet some days are worse than others. Today would be a bad day."

"What hurts?"

"Everything"

"You should take a hot bath it will help."

"Alone? Where's the fun in that?"

Kakashi could feel his dick getting hard by that simple statement. God he wanted Sasuke he wanted to make him moan and feel amazing. He wanted to remind Sasuke what it felt like to be cared for and loved. How good sex can feel without pain.

"What did you do the last two days?"

"I told you I was at a friend's place."

"Ya but what did you two do for the two days?"

"Just hung out."

"Doing?"

"Things you'd lecture me about."

"Did you sleep with him?"

"Does that matter?"

"It's just a question."

"Yes okay I went on a binge I didn't plan on it but it happened. I spent the last two days drinking, shooting up and having sex. So just get the lecture out of your system."

"I knew you had been drinking and doing drugs from the way you look. As for the sex I already figured that out by the deep swollen bite marks on your neck. What I don't understand is why you would put yourself through all that rough sex and pain after everything that happened to you in the last three years."

"It makes the hands go away for a little while."

"But you're just replacing the hands Sasuke and not with good ones. I know it's hard and you must feel horrible for a lack of a better word but you can't keep doing this. I can't even imagine what Orochimaru did to you what he made you do I can understand you wanting the hands to go away. But you're not making them go away you're just replacing them with ones that are still hurting you. Sex isn't supposed to hurt Sasuke."

Sasuke slowly opened his eyes he was so tired that he couldn't open the all the way. He knew what Kakashi was saying made sense but he couldn't seem to stop. It worked for the time being and in the moment he couldn't focus on the big picture just whatever he could do to get through each day.

"I don't remember what it feels like when it doesn't hurt." Sasuke whispered almost to himself but Kakashi heard him.

Kakashi got up and headed into the bathroom and started the water. He made sure it was hot but not too hot to hurt. Sasuke didn't even notice him leaving he had closed his eyes again trying to will sleep to him but he didn't have any luck. He couldn't understand his body was beyond exhausted and yet he couldn't sleep. That fear was still there of what might happen to him if he did fall asleep. A few minutes later Kakashi came back out after filling up the tub with nice hot water. He saw Sasuke roll onto his back the look of pain didn't go unnoticed. Kakashi walked over so he could help Sasuke stand up.

"Come on you need a bath the hot water will help."

Sasuke opened his eyes to find Kakashi standing right next to him.

"I told you baths are no fun alone." Sasuke said jokingly if he was being honest with himself a bath sounded amazing at that point. Kakashi knew that Sasuke was joking but that didn't mean that he couldn't joke right back.

"Who said anything about you being in there alone?"

"Oh really now and who would be going in there with me?"

"Well if you don't mind my little friend then me."

"Oh your friend is far from little."

Kakashi smiled at that comment he knew it was true he was very much well endowed. He held out a hand to Sasuke to help him up. Which Sasuke took the offering hand. They walked into the bathroom where both stripped their clothing off. Kakashi couldn't believe the bruises that still covered Sasuke's pale skin nor could he believe how many bite marks he had on his neck and chest. He also noticed the new bruise on his butt from someone smacking it so hard. Whoever this Kovu was was definitely not gentle in any way, shape or form with Sasuke. That thought broke Kakashi's heart to think that Sasuke thought that little of himself to be hurt and used like that. They got into the tub with Kakashi behind Sasuke so he could wrap his arms around him. The water was so nice and hot Sasuke found himself leaning back against Kakashi's chest and closing his eyes. He hated to admit it but this felt amazing he felt cared for. Kakashi wrapped his arms around Sasuke and just held him Sasuke fit so perfectly against his chest it was like he was made for it. That's when Kakashi noticed the bruise on the back of his neck in the shape of a hand. He was held down sometime during the last two days. Kakashi could feel his anger rising at the site of these new bruises that this Kovu guy put on Sasuke. Kakashi could understand rough sex but this was extreme to leave that many marks on him.

"Sasuke what's with this bruise of a hand on the back of your neck?"

"Oh it's nothing. I didn't even know it was there."

"How did it get there though?"

"From Kovu."

"Why would he hold you down?"

"He didn't he put his hand there a few times during the last two days."

"And why would he do that?"

"What you've never had rough sex before?"

"I have not two days of rough sex nor have I ever left any marks on the other person."

"Hmm. You were right this does help."

Kakashi couldn't help but notice the sudden change in topics. He would have to be brain dead not to notice it. He would ask Sasuke later though why he put up with it, even if he had to do it when he was high and his mouth was loose.

"I told you it would make your body less sore."

"I don't understand why you care."

"Why wouldn't I care about you?"

"Because I'm not worth it."

"Yes you are if you weren't worth it I wouldn't waste my time with you. I don't know what happened to you in the Sound or what Orochimaru said to you. I can honestly say with everything in me that you are worth it."

"I don't feel that way."

"I know and it's going to take a while before you do. And I will be there every day to tell you that you are worth it."

Sasuke turned his head to the side and up so he was looking at Kakashi but still in his arms. Kakashi looked down at Sasuke he looked so fragile and yet broken at the same time. He couldn't stop himself he moved his head down and gently placed his lips on Sasuke's. Sasuke responded immediately. This kiss was different than Sasuke was used to it was soft and gentle yet so full of passion at the same time. Kakashi didn't force dominance onto him he just kissed him and let Sasuke take control. Sasuke moaned when he felt Kakashi's tongue at his lips asking for entrance which Sasuke more than happily gave him. Sasuke moved so he was now straddling Kakashi's lap he could feel Kakashi's hard on between his legs. Kakashi moved his hand so it was cupping the left side of Sasuke's face the other rested on Sasuke's right thigh. Sasuke started to rock his hips back and forth against Kakashi's crotch making both of them moan in ecstasy. Kakashi broke the kiss and started to kiss down Sasuke's neck making sure he kissed each bite mark.

"Oh Sasuke."

"Mmmm"

Neither could take it anymore Kakashi moved Sasuke's hips so that his entrance was positioned right where his rock hard cock was.

"Go slow"

Kakashi told Sasuke he didn't want Sasuke to hurt any more than he already was. If it wasn't for the lust taking over Kakashi's body he wouldn't be letting Sasuke do this after two days of rough sex. Kakashi knew that Sasuke had to be sore even if he didn't show it. Sasuke slowly pushed himself down onto Kakashi's cock. He took Kakashi's advice and took it slow he had to admit this felt amazing it was nice to be in control for once. To be able to go as slow as he wanted so he wouldn't be ripped apart. Once Kakashi was all the way inside of him he just sat there getting used to Kakashi's large size. Kakashi began kissing him again loving the feeling of being in Sasuke. Slowly Sasuke began to rock his hips back and forth as he kissed Kakashi. When he couldn't take it anymore he began to slowly move up and down Kakashi's cock making sure he hit his sweet spot each time. Sasuke had never felt anything like this before it was slow and gentle and it drove him crazy. He didn't think about anything just the amazing feeling going through his body. Sasuke began to pick up the pace slightly he put his head back as he moaned. Kakashi took the opportunity to attack Sasuke's neck kissing it all over.

"Oh fuck Kakashi."

Kakashi moaned he loved hearing Sasuke say his name breathlessly. Kakashi moved his hand down so he could stroke Sasuke to completion. Sasuke began moaning even more with Kakashi touching him. He couldn't even remember the last time someone touched him it all felt so dam good he knew he wasn't going to last long.

"Oh Sasuke you feel amazing."

"Mmm… oh please don't stop I'm so close god it feels so good."

"Come for me baby I want to feel you tighten around me."

Sasuke moaned and started to move faster making sure he took Kakashi deep inside of him.

"Mmm that's it god you're gonna make me cum if you keep doing that."

Sasuke couldn't stop moaning everything just felt amazing it was like his body was in over drive. After a few more strokes Sasuke cam calling Kakashi's name with it. Kakashi could feel Sasuke tighten around him pushing him over the edge.

"Oh Sasuke."

Sasuke kept riding Kakashi making sure he got everything he could out of him. Kakashi began to kiss Sasuke he wasn't ready to pull out of him yet. Sasuke pulled away from the kiss after a few minutes and placed his head against Kakashi's chest as Kakashi wrapped his arms around him rubbing his back.

"I'm gonna have to let you take baths with me more often." Sasuke joked

Kakashi let out a small chuckle to that, He knew later he would be grilling himself for letting his lust get the best of him.

"I honestly don't think I could say no to you."

"Hmmm I don't wanna move this feels too good."

"Tell you what how about we move to the bed that way we can lie down and you can sleep."

"Not allowed to be in a bed." Sasuke said half awake.

"Yes you are. You can sleep in a bed you're allowed remember this isn't the Sound. I'll be right there beside you holding you the whole time."

"Promise?"

"I give you my word Sasuke."

"Ok I'll try."

"That's all I ask for."

"We have to move now don't we?"

"Yes we do."

Sasuke groaned as he moved off of Kakashi he noticed for the first time that he was trembling. It had been a good four hours since his last hit and after doing it every two hours for the last two days the withdrawals were coming in full force. Kakashi noticed how sick Sasuke had gotten over the last few minutes concern filled his voice.

"Sasuke when was the last time you shot up?"

"Um four hours ago."

"Ho often were you doing it the last couple of days?"

"Like every two hours."

Kakashi let out a sigh he didn't want to ask this question but he also knew that Sasuke would be too sick to sleep if he didn't. Going cold turkey off opiates was too dangerous at this point Sasuke had to be whined off.

"Do you need to do any?"

"Ya otherwise I'll wake up and be really sick."

"Ok well let's get out you can do that while I wait for you in bed."

"Sounds good."

Sasuke got up and out first followed by Kakashi. They both dried off and put their boxers on Kakashi headed to the bedroom as Sasuke pulled out what he needed out of his pant pocket. After shooting up he got up and headed to the bedroom where sure enough Kakashi was under the covers waiting for him. Sasuke stood by the door just looking at the bed he knew that Kakashi would keep him safe but he just couldn't seem to make his mind believe that.

"It's okay I promise you can do this."

Kakashi told Sasuke he knew once he got Sasuke in bed that he would fall asleep. High or not Sasuke was beyond exhausted he would fall asleep almost instantly. Sasuke gave a nod and headed over to the bed. He crawled in and curled up to Kakashi immediately. Kakashi wrapped his arms around Sasuke and held him close.

"Feel better?"

"Ya at least I won't be sick."

"Good. Do you ever do it sometimes because you don't want to be sick?"

"Sure there are times when I don't really feel like doing it but I need to. Usually when I feel like that I just do as little as I can so I don't get sick but I don't get high either."

"So why not just stop?"

"Because I'm not ready for that yet."

"Ok"

Kakashi kissed the top of Sasuke's head and held him close to his chest. Sasuke closed his eyes trying to will sleep to come. Though, it didn't take long because sure enough a few minutes later he was fast asleep in Kakashi's safe warm embrace.