The Twilight Twenty-Five
Prompt: Bitter
Penname: LittleLea05
Pairing: Leah
Rating: T
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns all things Twilight. I am just using the characters for our enjoyment.
Leah POV
Why? Why me? Why her? Just why?
Those were the questions I always asked myself after things changed.
We were happy once. Now he is happy with someone else. Someone who is not me.
Sam used to love me like no one else could. Then one day everything changed and he started pushing me away. He would make up stupid excuses to not want to hang out with me. At first I thought I had done something wrong, but I quickly took notice that it wasn't just me he was avoiding, but the whole reservation as well; with the exception of the elders.
The one time I actually got him to socialize was the day my life came to an abrupt halt, or it felt that way anyway. The day my cousin, Emily, came for a visit.
She was coming home to the reservation for her Spring break and we were having a big bonfire on the beach. She was going to school at the University of Washington so she could stay close to home but still live on her own. My dad had just gone to pick her up in Seattle and I was getting ready for tonight. Sam called me and said he would meet me there. Which I always took as 'I will be there on my own time, if I even come at all.' His moodiness was starting to grate on my nerves.
He was my boyfriend for God sakes. The least he could do is spend some quality time with me every once in a while. So after finishing getting ready, I helped my mom out in the kitchen by preparing food to take down to the beach. My dad and Emily arrived at around six and we all walked down to First Beach together, Seth shuffling along behind us.
Emily was my cousin but also happened to be my best friend. We told each other everything. Tonight I was telling her how weird Sam had been acting and she shrugged it off as him just needing some personal time or 'man PMS.' I swear it exists.
About an hour after the fire had been lit, I finally saw Sam come out of the woods sans shirt and wearing a pair of ratty old cutoff sweats. I quickly pushed myself away from Emily's side and ran towards him, gathering him into a huge warm hug. He felt as if he had a fever. He was burning up.
"Hey baby, you alright? You feel kind of warm."
"I'm fine Lee-Lee. I just need to eat something, that's all. So let's go get some food, I'm starving," Sam quipped.
We walked back to where everyone was gathered around the bonfire and he loaded his plate full of food, enough for four people at least. While he was devouring his plate, I sat quietly beside him because I had already eaten.
When Sam was finished, he went back for seconds. Man, his appetite sure has changed in the last few weeks and strangely enough he has gotten a lot taller and bulkier.
While on his way back from the food table, he bumped into Emily, looked into her and that was it. That was the second my heart was ripped out, stomped on and put back into my chest all battered and broken. I couldn't breathe.
Sam was staring at her the way he should be staring at me. He grabbed her hand and led her away into the woods. What the hell? What just happened? I didn't stick around to see what happened after that. I ran home and locked myself in my room for hours, crying and wondering what Sam and Emily were doing right now.
My dad tried to talk to me but I wouldn't let him explain and make excuses for Sam's behavior. He could come and talk to me himself if he had something to tell me. He basically dropped me like a bad habit and gravitated towards Emily. The thought alone made me sick. A bitter, acrid taste filled my mouth and I rushed to the bathroom.
A few days later, Sam came to talk to me. I wasn't expecting him to break up with me. He told me he couldn't say why and that he still loved me. I didn't understand. This all made no sense to me.
A few days after Sam came to break my heart, my dad sat me down and explained to me what was happening with Sam. I didn't fully understand what he was telling me. I mean, werewolves and vampires are mythical creatures; I thought all the legends were just mere stories to keep the kids entertained. He told me that Sam had imprinted with Emily.
It wasn't long after that that I phased for the first time. I didn't want this. Any of it. I now had to deal with being linked telepathically to all the pack, and Sam. I guess if I have to listen to his thoughts of Emily this and Emily that, I would lay the guilt trip on him.
"What's she got that I don't have? We were good together. I hate this. What did I do to deserve this? Sam obviously doesn't see what he is missing." I thought to myself but of course all the pack who were phased heard everything.
"Leah, for Christ's sake, shut the hell up already. We get it. You're heartbroken. It's not his fault, nor is it yours. So just stop it already. We don't want to hear it anymore. Imprinting can't be helped. It's not something you can just turn off. One day you will see that." Jared thought.
"Oh, I'm sorry my bitterness is grating on everyone's nerves. I will take my bitchiness elsewhere." Before anyone could respond, I phased back to human form and slipped back into my clothing. Once I was fully dressed, I walked through the woods to clear my head. I could think what I wanted when I was in human form without worry of intrusion from the other pack members. I would stew in the bitterness that now corroded my brain.
A/N: Thanks to Brittany for beta'ing this o/s for me…You are awesome hun :) Please leave a review and tell me what you think…