THANK YOU! IM BACK AND I COULDN'T BE SMILING BIGGER THEN EVER. I RECENTLY HAD MY BABY JACOB. NAMED AFTER MY BOYFRIENDS GRANDFATHER. IT'S BEEN A WEEK AND IT COULDN'T HAVE BEEN MORE EXCITING. MY CHILD IS A GOD SEND. HE DOESN'T FUSS ONE BIT. HE LOVES TO SLEEP AND EAT JUST LIKE MOMMY. HA-HA BUT ANYWAY IM BACK AND SINCE IM NOW A MOMMY MY UPDATES WILL PROBABLY GET SLOWER UNLESS I GET A BETA JUST TO CORRECT. I'M STILL THINKING ON GETTING ONE BUT IF YOU WANT TO BETA JUST HIT ME UP. SO HERE IT IS AND THANK YOU ON EVERYTHING. AND HERE IS YOUR LONG CHAPTER. REVIEW.
After yesterday all I thought about was Paul. Paul drinking, Paul eating. Paul walking for god's sake. I dreamt of us.
"Paul! "He lifted me up in the air.
"Gabby why are you soo light. "He chuckled
"Paul is serious, stop ignoring the subject. "
"Gabby what do you want me to tell you? " His beautiful face was dead. He looked like he was ready to give up.
"I want you to reassure me that you'' be safe. "
"I can't reassure you of anything right now. "
After that dream I couldn't fall asleep. I cried myself to sleep. His face was terrified in the dream that it worried me. I lay in my bed not even knowing ii was awake but crying until the sun came up and pasted out again.
I woke up and noticed I was in my bed and that my clothes from yesterday had changed into my pajamas. I don't think Paul would have changed me? I hope not, I wasn't even awake to see his reaction. I sat up and ran downstairs to see mom cleaning dishes.
"Mom? "
"Gabby mija! "Mom dropped the sponge in her hand and ran over to me hugging me into her chest tightly.
"So I take it you found out?" my mothers arms were safe and warm.
"Yeah, I got a call from pretty much everyone. Are you okay? "I pulled away from mom's arms and sat down on the chair. She pulled the chair next to me and sat down rubbing my back.
"Everyone? God, the whole reservation knows about it. Mom I didn't know it would hurt this much. I don't think it all has to do with Ricky but with the guys. I mean I would tell them if I heard their girlfriend was cheating on them, why couldn't they do the same? "My eyes felt hot and tired form the crying.
"Oh sweetie, Ricky wasn't good enough for you; your father will deal with him later I promise you under my grandmother's name he will be dealt with."
"Mom, do I have to go to school today, it's too embarrassing, "
"No, take today off but tomorrow you have to go. " I nodded my head and remembered my clothes.
"Mom, umm Paul brought me home … "
"Ah yes, Paul told me everything. He took you upstairs where I changed you. I know you don't like sleeping in your clothes. Hoe about I make some of your favorite chocolate chip cookies and go get you some ice cream. We can have a girl's day huh?" I smiled at my mom who just knew how to make me smile.
"That would be amazing thanks mom, for everything. " I kissed her cheek and ran upstairs to lie while mom baked the cookies.
Sitting on my bed was the best place for thinking. No one could distract me from my own thoughts at all. I was in my own bubble. What still got me thinking was Paul. When I thought about Ricky it didn't hurt as much as it did. Like if that wound was closing slowly. Paul was perfect yesterday, it was such a close bond that we created and we haven't really talked to each other like that before. The way he held me didn't seem odd at all. Could my feelings for Paul return, they never left but they sure were tamed? Plus, I heard he was always with different girls. It was probably a helping hand, not some romance novel I wish I was in. I lay back in my bed and looked at my missed, messages on my phone. 10 missed calls, 40 txt messages and 8 voicemails. I deleted them all without even seeing them.
"I see you didn't go to school? "My head shot up and Paul sat at my desk reading my fashion magazine.
"And I see you're in my room. How the hell did you get in here? "I whispered.
"Through your window, you should really lock that up when you're spaced out. You don't seem to notice a lot of things. "He smirked at me turning the magazine page sideways and tilting his head.
"My mom is going to come up here and see you; I'm not allowed to have boys up here Paul. Especially shirtless boys. "I looked at his chest and I could feel the desire in me fill up. Nice, tan and sculpted like the god he was.
"Im not really a boy, but a man. "He smirked.
"Oh you're really manly alright. " I rolled my eyes and walked over to my closet.
"Sarcasm, I didn't know that was one of your traits."
"Jumping into random girls rooms doesn't look like one of your traits either. "
"Random girls, you think I jump into random girls rooms? "
"Well you got up here like that. " I snapped my fingers proving a point.
"I'm athletic Gabby. I don't see why you aren't flattered that I came to visit you. I really don't do this for other girls. "Paul was mad.
"So there are other girls. " I was jealous. How could Paul get close to me when we both knew there are other girls? I was so stupid to even get nervous around him. This was the guy known to make girls cry easily.
"Is that what you think of me! " Paul stood up and grabbed my shoulder.
"Let go of me. "
"God, you can be stupid Gabby. You don't see it don't you. Not only are you stupid but you're blind. "
"I am not stupid, you're stupid you jerk! How dare you come into my house and disrespect me. "
"Disrespect, you got to be kidding me Gabby. I was there for you yesterday remember. I held you when you found out your boyfriend were cheating on you. When your friends betrayed you. I was there when you had no one else to go to. "Paul was shaking. He was frustrated with it all. Heck so was I. who was he to tell me I was stupid. And why y did I care. As soon as he said it hurt. If someone else said it I would be okay but when Paul said it it's like he threw a stone at my glass heart. It shattered me.
"Who said you had to do that Paul. From what I remember you drove up to me. "
"Gabs, it irritates me your soo not getting it. What I'm trying to say is… "
"Gabby! "Mom yelled I heard him walking up the steps so I grabbed Paul and threw him in my closet all the way in the back.
"Hey what! " Paul said as he bumped into something.
"Shh, mom's coming up you idiot! "
"Gabby, I'm going to the store. You want to come with me? "Mom walked into my room and laid on it watching me. She didn't hear anything.
"No, I'll stay here."
"Honey, it's okay. I know it's hard but things will get better. "
"I know mom, I just think I need some time for myself now. Just before I go out there and start dating I guess."
"That's good, just relax then. One day that boy will come along. "She kissed my cheek and went out to the store.
"Can I come out now? " Paul asked. I began laughing and let out a yes.
"What were you going to say? "
"Umm, nothing. Just forget it. "He shook his head.
"You seriously have an arm. " Paul touched his shoulder and then looked at his fingers. Blood.
"Shit, I'm sorry Paul I didn't mean to do that. " I grabbed his big shoulder and looked at the bloody hole in his shoulder.
"it's okay , I was being a jerk . Just a dumb clothes hanger. "
"no Paul. A clothes hanger hurts especially when it. "
"entered my skin. " he said
I looked at him and shook my head.
"I'm sorry Paul , It's just that I … "
"don't apoligize. You shouldn't be the one apologizing. I should. I'm sorry for sneaking into your room and calling you stupid. It's just that I really wanted to see you. See how you were doing. "
"that's sweet of you Paul. And I'm sorry for pushing you into my closet and having one of my hangers plundge into your skin. Are you sure that doesn't hurt? "
"Nah, it will be gone pretty soon. "He smiled down at me.
"You sure. I don't want your parents coming down here and yelling at me for hurting their son. "I chuckled. Paul laughed but he forced it. It wasn't his normal chuckle.
"I'm the least of my parent's worries. " Paul looked upset. Broken.
"Paul is you okay. " He sat on my bed making it creak.
"Your bed thinks I'm fat. "
I giggled at his joke and sat next to him.
"Gabby, it's nothing. Just random petty fighting. I'm sure it will cool down in a couple of days. "Paul's parents were fighting. His parents weren't like regular parents. They both had amazing well paying jobs but it took up all their time. Paul was always with Jared so you can now see why mom and dad don't even ask Paul why he's here anymore. He just molded in with us. I remember hearing mom and dad say how Paul was raised by his older sister more then his mom.
"Have you talked to Jared about it? "
"Jared and I aren't talking? "
"What why? " Paul and Jared never argued. And if they did it was something stupid and they would laugh it off minutes later.
"Something stupid. Don't you worry about it Gabby. I'm sure it will blow over soon. "
"Is it over a girl? " Please say no, please say no.
"Yeah, a beautiful girl actually. "He smirked at me nudging my shoulder. My heart sank. I felt like I was going to die. Leave it to a beautiful girl to take Paul away.
"Oh, who called dibs?" I tried to act cool. And I actually was really good at it.
"Well it's not that we are fighting over her. But she's important to both of us. He's not happy that I actually see this girl differently then he is." Paul's eyes dug into my body. I could feel him watching me.
"Oh, why don't you ask her out then? "Why was I giving this guy advice to ask a different girl out? What was wrong with my twisted mind?
"Because I know I need to be slow. I need to give her time. Plus I want to do this right. "
Paul was too sweet. Why can't I get a guy like him? Tall, buff, handsome, bad boy with a heart. God shoot me now!
"That's sweet of you. "
"Do you want to handout tomorrow, at my house though? I don't want to see Jared. "He asked looking at me.
"Sure. " Here I was sitting in my empty house, in my room with Paul. My virgin self was about to go crazy just thinking about the sex god sitting next to me.
"Great, so I'll pick you up after school and drive us to my place? " Paul seemed happy.
"Yeah, that would be perfect. " I sat in my room talking to Paul for the next hour before he decides he should leave before my mom got home.
"So I'll see you tomorrow for sure? "He asked
"Yeah, I like you Paul. " I knew it meant more to me. But I just got off a relationship so maybe Paul looking me ravishing meant I was moving on. I could be just a one time thing.
"I'm glad you do." I hugged Paul and we held on for a few seconds. His woodsy scent just made me melt.
J.P.O.V (Jared's)
"That asshole! " I smelled Paul walking up to Sam's house. And my little sister's scent was all over him.
"Jared! " Sam left Emily I n the kitchen to come stop me.
"I told you to stay away form her! "
"I can't! "He yelled
"Why can't you! " I stood chest to chest with the guy. And he had the nerve to push me.
"Guys stop! " Sam pulled us apart but I knew we were just going to blow up.
"Because I love her! " I felt my pulse and just rip away. I charged after Paul who began phasing to.
"You don't love shit! " I ran for the woods knowing this was the best place to brawl.
"I know I love her and if you can't accept it then too fuckin bad. I'll do anything to be with her. "Paul jumped on me turning his head to stay clear away from my bites. But I had to calm down. Paul's thoughts just showed images of Gabby. His thoughts. It was weird. It was like watching home videos of Gabby from Paul's eyes and then having him express his thoughts about them. He truly cared for her.
"I always did Jared, I just never siad anything. It was too weird. " his mind raced off to when he first saw her and how he instantly felt that connection. It was weird. I thought he saw her as a little sister but I was wrong. He truly cared for her. I wanted to be mad but with his love for her it was crazy. I felt his love for her. It wasn't a love I ever felt or I have ever imagined. But it was real.
"I imprinted Jared. " Paul got off me and ran behind a bush. I did the same. Could Paul really be destined for my sister.
"why? " I asked sitting down on a log. Paul walked back to me fixing his cutoffs.
"you sound like you were pinning for me Jared ." he chuckled I had to laugh.. I sounded incredibly in love with Paul. Like he was going to leave me for her . It was funny.
"why couldn't I see this coming man. I would never have thought you'd imprint on my little sister. Very cliché don't you think? " I asked looking at him.
"truthfully Jared I don't care if it is. I loved her before but the imprint is telling me I was always right. She was meant for me. I have a reason to approach her now. "He smle was sincere.
"So what now. What happens? "I asked looking at Paul
"Well I don't know. If she wants to work out a relationship with me then it's a go. But if she wants to be friends then that's what we do. I'm there for her Jared. I won't hurt her. "
I shook out my wet hair and looked over at him.
"Don't hurt her, you do and I promise your dick won't work again. " He chuckled and we embraced in what I like to call a man hug.
P.P.O.V
After my talk with Jared he was okay with it. A little weirder out but when I told him I was going slowly with it he felt relieved. I walked up the steps to my house and could already hear the screaming.
"You never do shit Harold! "
"What do you want me to do huh? Im always working to maintain your god damn over spending! " Dad yelled
"Well sorry I want to look good for you! "Mom threw down what sounded like a dinner plate. They probably were setting up for dinner. Sometimes I wish Dana was here. She was way more of a mother figure to me. To bad she was away in Texas.
"Good for me? Good for that guy you are probably sleeping with when I'm not here! "I shut the door behind me.
"Ohh, here we go again! "
I walked passed the dining room where dad noticed me.
"Paul, come have dinner. " I looked at dad who just glared at mom. I decided I didn't want to start trouble so I sat down.
I sat my ass down in the seat and mom walked out with food.
"I didn't have time to cook so I picked something up. "She said sitting down next to me.
"Same excuse form the last couple of months don't you think Paul. "Dad said slopping down a chunk of cold slaw on his pate. I stayed quiet. I didn't like seeing my parents like this. If I could trade all their money just to see them happy again I would. I would get rid of my brand new truck that mom bought me just to see them smile at each other. I was through with it. I ate their quietly as they continued to bicker. But Gabby's smile kept me sane. It kept me happy.
OKAY THERE IT IS. YOU GET TO SEE A RELATIONSHIP GROW, A FRIENDSHIP MEND AND A LOVE BREAK. KIND OF CRAZY HUH? REVIEW . IT KEEPS ME WRITING ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU WRITE ABOUT YOUR FAVORITE PARTS OR THINGS.