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authors note: all memory's in italic.....

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"Always love you. Always and forever."

"I'll always love you to, but," this was going to hurt. But I had to say it. " You need to move on and find love again." There, I had said it.

"I don't think I'll be able to, Clary."

"Well, when love comes your way again don't hold back. Rush to it." I knew it was time to go and Max Was now waiting for me. I went up to him. "I love you all." Then we started to make are way back but something stopped us.

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CPOV

I looked up to see another angel. It took me a little while to identify him, it was different from the last time I saw him. Last time he had been changed up , only showing us memory's of are parents past, it had been dark, but there he stood before us. "Ithuriel?"

"Yes... Clarissa, I thank you for your assistants. Jonathan Morgenstern needed to be stopped. And from freeing me from the Wayland manor . For what you have done, I will give you and Maxwell the option of staying here, to live again."

I was bubbling with happiness nothing could have rained on my parade. To be with my family to be held by Jace's hands again. I felt like just spinning around in joy, "Really?" Was all I could squeak out.

JPOV

I though at the end of this night it would feel like I was dead inside . When Ithuriel said they could both stay I was overwhelmed with hopefulness that Clary would actually be back in my arms...

"Yes, really." Ithuriel said.

Clary and Max exchanged looks, Max nodded slowly, as if he wasn't sure weather or not to come back. If he didn't, I would march my ass up there and drag him back. But then he became more sure and smiled gracefully. "Yes ,we would like to come back."

"It will be then, you will live again. You will be back in your bodies, all you have to do is think of your fondest memory." Clary and Max nodded and the three angels touched wings, and their eyes closed.

I looked over at the Lightwoods and the Graymarks. Neither were family, but they were as close to me as any family could ever get. They all looked up at the three angel wondering weather or not such a dream could come true. Maryse had a hand to her mouth and was crying, but they weren't sad tears.

Then, suddenly the three Angels were gone and we were there, in the alley, waiting for a miracle to happen. "where did they go?" someone asked but I was to busy watching Clary's lifeless body, waiting for it to move.

CPOV

Ithuriel said to think of the fondest memory. That was hard because it truly had to be the one you most cherished, or else you just float in darkness. I thought of when Me and Jace held each other at the Accord Hall steps, but that didn't get me any where. I thought back on memory's that I would never want to lose but again, it just kept me in the sames place, floating in the darkness. But the darkness was more like a swift river carrying me along its steady current, up...down....up...down..... as the little waves moved.

I tried to think of the right clip of my life that would give me life. I went over times. times I had help my mom paint, how happy we all were after we had thought the Valentine thing was all over. But none of those were the key.

MPOV

All we had to do was think of a really good memory. Easy right? Not quite. I went over and over memory's that we special to me, but no such luck.

A memory flared in my mind. It was of the time Jace had given me the action figure...

"Whats wrong?" Jace had said. Looking at me as I mope around the kitchen, while he had the biggest meal in the world.

"I'm bored," I had complained.

"Here, play with this," he tossed me one of his blades, but then saw me recoiled and motioned me to come over to him.

I walked over and stood there as he dug into he's pocket. What was he gonna do? Give me cash to leave him alone? But that wasn't like Jace, thats more the kind of thing Alec or Isabelle would do. But what came out of his pocket was not cash but a little beaten up action figure. "Here."

My face brightened as I took that toy out of his hand. "Really?" I narrowed my eyes at him to make sure he wasn't gonna laugh and take it away from me like Isabelle does.

"Yeah, why not? I'm a little old to be playing with dolls, besides its a turn off to the girls..." He flipped his hair back "Later, little man." Then walked away, to where ever Jace's go.

I looked at the action figure in my hands, it wasn't a whole lot, but it was enough. I smile, go to my room where no one could tell me to do this or that and I could just be alone.

Suddenly I felt different.

IPOV

We stood there waiting for something to happen and nothing did. Great. I stood there in a short dress that only went to my mid thigh, freezing my back side off.

A noise behind, startled us and we all turned as one – except Jace who was still watching Clary's body- I took out my whip and got ready to kick ass. The others had there weapons out to in the same stance I was in, knees slightly bent, feet angled, weapons out in front.

The ground beneath us started to shake and a light so bright that I had to cover my eyes, there for releasing my grip on the whip. I cursed whatever was causing the bright light that even made me crumble to my keens tuck my head into my stomach so I don't go blind. It got brighter and brighter, that I thought maybe the sun some how drifted closer to earth, but it was still night, and carried a chilled breeze with it.

The blazing stopped, when I looked up I saw that most every one was doing the same thing. There was one thing out of place though.

There stood a little boy in a white robe. Looking confused as a warlock with fangs, rubbing his eyes. "Hi?" the little boy said. Suddenly we were all running up to him.

"Max!" there was shouts, and tears. Mom was hugging him so hard that you would have thought that it would kill him. I shook off that thought, and pushed every one a side and hugged him.

"I'm so sorry. I should been a better sister, protected you from Jonathan" I whispered into his hair, crying.

"Its not your fault Izzy." I heard him whisper.

MPOV

They were all hugging me... which was odd they didn't do that before. As I got stuck in every ones embrace I found it hard to breath. I pushed every one away and took a deep breathe. They all laughed and gave me my space, excepted mom and Isabelle.

They all stood there not knowing what to do, but all watched as I walked over to Clary and took the hand Jace wasn't holding. "Whats taking her so long?" he asked in a broken hearted voice.

"It takes time to find the perfect memory," I explained. " But once it comes, so will she."

"What was your memory?" Mom asked.

"I forgot," of course that was a lie. You don't forget things like that. The angels wouldn't let you.

CPOV

As I float along the river of nothingness, I couldn't help but think I was never getting out. Memory after memory got declined as the one. I thought over and over, times of my life that was a happy moment. Until I came to one that sent me back to it.

"Clary?" Jace asked

"Yes?" I turned to look at him to find that he was nervous. "Whats up with you?" I laughed, because he actually twitched.

"Nothing, come here," he pulled my hand and I followed him up to the greenhouse like part of the house. It was almost midnight so I knew what was coming. Jace pulled me into his chest and kissed my head. "Alone at last." Which was true because every time we thought we were alone Izzy came barging in on us or Alec, or anyone that had happened to be in the house at the time.

But because almost all the Lightwood's had allergy's to the plants, this was the one place that we could be alone. I smiled up at Jace, and he leaned down to give me a kiss, but I turned my head at the last moment, so he ended up kissing my cheek.

"Well thats not very fair" he said. But I was to focused on the flowers that were coming to life right before my eyes. They never stopped surprising me.

"There so beautiful," I gave a sigh.

"Yeah, you are."

"Well aren't you the smooth-" I looked over at him to see a ring in his hand. "Whats ...that?" I pointed to the ring.

"Clary I love you so much, you know that." he started talking all fast. "This is a promise ring, I know if I asked you to marry me now, your mom would come and kick my ass... so this is a promise that some day I will marry you. I already know I can't live with out you, I've tried. I can't get you out of my head, nor will I ever be able to. No matter what it seems that I can't stop walking to you. Like I said before. 'I love you, and I will love you until I die, and if there an life after that, I'll love you then.' So will you take this promise ring?" he finished it with a little laugh, a little nervous laugh.

I stood there for a moment in total shock. Then when I could move again I took him in my arms as a yes. "I love you, Jace." I mumbled into his chest.

"I love you, too. Always and forever."

"Forever?" I asked, "Forevers a really long time."

"Yeah, it is."

"I don't know.. I might just get sick of you by then," I said with my voice heavily fulled with sarcasm. As I was about to say more he caught he caught my face in his hand a gave me a long gentle kiss.

I no longer felt the steady rhythm of the skimpy waves.

JPOV

I felt... numb... I didn't know it would destroy me this much. Well, I knew, I had just hoped that I would never have to experience it. I clutched Clary's hand so hard she might have flinched away if she were alive. Shes not dead, She gonna come back, I told my self over and over. I looked up at Max.

He looked no different from the last time I had seen him and he looked... normal... not that he didn't before, but things like what he went through would have traumatized any other kid. Max abruptly looked up at me. "She's coming closer, she found her memory." He said it calmly but his eyes were filled with excitement. "You guys might want to step back, and cover your eyes, it's gonna get bight." Everyone else did as he said, but I stood there, holding her hand.

MPOV

It was a wonder to watch Clary come back. Every one else- besides Jace,- had to turn away, but I looked at it with a naked eye, it didn't give me a bother. But I don't think her light was as bright as mine was. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that my bodied was burn, I flinched at the thought. But as the rainbow of light lessened it became smaller and smaller until it was just like a aura around the girl. It made her truly look like the angel she was. There were no more bight glimmers, Clary just sat there, dumbfounded look on her face.

CPOV

That was it? No pain? What happen to 'no pain, no gain?' Even with out the pain I had gained a lot out of everything that just when on. I found out what it was like to think I wasn't going to see my family again, or 'loved ones,' I guess you could say. They all aren't exactly my family, the Lightwood's, But they were at the same time.

I opened my eyes slowly to see a face that I could never ever forget, not in a million years, not for a million dollars, the face that send electric shocks from head to toe... Jace Lightwood. "Happy to see me?" I asked him.

"Maybe a little..." He gave me a short smile then through his arms around me. As well did every one else.

"So...what do we do now? Isabelle asked. It was a good question. After every thing that just when on do you just pack up and go home?

The answer: Yes.

"Well if you don't mind," I said my voice more nervous than I thought it was gonna be. "I'd like to get out of here..." I scrunched my face as if I smelled something bad -which I did, the placed sunk with a demon smell, all thanks to Jonathan.- "Brings up bad memory's."

The pile of people that were suffocating me with the the bear hugs let go and my mom put her arms around me one last time before letting go.

Max stood there while Izzy held him, crying. When she let go he patted her shoulder awkwardly, any guy was uncomfortable around girls crying, even the little ones.

Then a thought came to me. Max is just to grown up. For what hes been through he not a little kid any more, but a little adult . I looked at the little boy with so much knowledge in his eyes. I went to him and took his hand, and squeezed. I was going to do something to make him like a little boy again, I vowed that to myself.

But right at this moment I just wanted to go home. We all shuffled into the car- well scene it was a truck most of us sat in the trunk.- then Izzy gave a sly glance at max. "Now that robe your wearing... Is that like a permanent thing?" When Max shook his head Isabelle sighed in relief, we all laughed, and relaxed, just a bit.

I'M NOT DONE WITH THIS STORY YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Thank you For reading! PLEASE review! Tell me what you think!!!!

okay this is kinda funny but it came to my mind when I wrote this paragraph 'I opened my eyes slowly to see a face that I could never ever forget, not in a million years, not for a million dollars, the face that send electric shocks from head to toe... Jace Lightwood. "Happy to see me?" I asked him.' I almost put Raphael instead of Jace! I thought that would have been a little mix up but I discied against it.